Too young to die

Wait, wait, wait... you want me to go on a quest with the mane 6... not only that but you can see a few days into the future using my memories? Dayum, now I know w-... nevermind. I quickly excavated any thought of Celestia, no need for her to know. "What were you about to think? Ah, nevermind, my mom always said it was rude to delve into other memories without permission anyhow... well, I'll let you get back to your silly sleep." Well that was a weird conversation, and she had a mom? Wow, anyways, she kept on insisting that I go on the dragon quest that the mane 6 are gonna go on in a few days time. She only knew how, because, well, she can search my mind for my memories. Luckily she can only see a few days prior to the current time.

I couldn't really sleep, I was fully awake now, partially because I needed less sleep and the long mental chat with Chryssy. I got up off the bed, I was gonna go check the time, but it really wasn't necessary as the moon began to inch slowly over the horizon. I headed downstairs and turned into the tan unicorn form I use so much. It was good that I did because someone had walked in the second I changed. Luckily they didn't notice the green flare that came from transforming. Mrs. Cake took their order, she came over to me and said, "One zap apple jam cupcake." I trotted into the kitchen, and began to make the cupcakes.

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Several hours later, my work shift was over, now I can think deeper on what or why Chryssy wanted me to go on the quest that only the mane 6 were supposed to go on. Hmm. Well I can't think of anything. I was too lost in my thinking to realize I had just bumped into someone. "Oh my god, I'm so sorry! I wasn't watching where I was walking! Sorry." I began to quickly pick up books and scrolls, that was weird, I finally looked up to see it wasn't Twilight, but it was Bon Bon. I chuckled, "Bon Bon?"

She cocked her head, "How do you know me?"

"We've met before, just under different circumstances."

"We have? I guess that would explain your familiar voice. But... wait... your... Justin?"

I nodded, "Yup, I turned into a pony, just don't go 'round telling ponies I turned into one. For two reasons, one they probably wouldn't believe you, two some of them don't want me in Ponyville."

She gasped, "Really? Oh my, you know, you do look handsome."

I was completely disarmed, I blushed that was something I wasn't expecting, "Erm... uh, um.."

"So how did you change into a pony?"

"A black figurine."

She giggled, "Oh you're so cute when your flustered." She then happily trotted off, leaving behind a very confused, embarrassed and apparently very handsome stallion. Dayum, please tell me that did not just happen! "Afraid it did, you know she is quite pretty." Chryssy giggled. My blush deepened until my face was completely scarlet, Stop it! Get outta my head Chryssy! I quickly ran into an alleyway, to hide my blush. "Aw look! Little bitty baby boy finally got his first marefriend! And he's blushing! Aw, they would make such a neat couple. Ooh! I can just see the magical tension in the room as you two kiss. Ooh!"

Chryssy! Please, please stop! "Oh why not? This is so much fun! -chuckle- I can just imagine how it would go down... a sunset, on the beach, seagulls fly overhead, as the sun reaches midway to the horizon, you lock lips with her, and pull away much to her dismay. You lean on one hoof, and show her your engagement ring. And ask, "Will you marry me?" She'll say y-" STOP! ENOUGH IS ENOUGH! I'M TIRED OF YOU INTERFERING IN MY LIFE! WHY CAN'T YOU JUST LEAVE ME ALONE!?! I hadn't noticed it but I had apparently spoken out loud. I felt heat rising my face, and quickly teleported back to my room.

I heard a small sob, "S-so you don't love me? -sob- I'm your queen! Your supposed to love me!" I groaned and slammed my head as hard as I could against the nightstand effectively knocking myself cold...

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I woke up with a pulsing forehead and the taunting voice of Chrysalis in my head, "Oh my, now that I have to see again! Wait, I can! Memories! Ka-blam! Man, that was funny, why did you do that in the first place? Was it me? Was little old Chryssy being quite prissy?" More laughter. I forcefully cut connection with her, effectively cutting off any communication. Soon I was going on a quest to hunt down a dragon with the mane 6, and I want to be on my best. I trotted out of my room and into the bathroom. I looked at my forehead to see a crack in the chitin, I rubbed the sore and tender area, hoping it would cure it. Sadly it did as expected, nothing.

I got some bandages from the cabinet, and began to dress my head, it was then I noticed the hole was leaking green fluids. I felt my energy begin to drain. What had I punctured? Hmm, maybe I should ask Chryssy, Hey Chryssy! Chryssy! There you are! What's this green fluid coming from my head? I could feel her inspecting it, when she saw it she recoiled so deep into my mind I thought she left, "Oh my god, quickly bandage that crack as fast as you can! If anymore of that leaks free, I'm afraid to think what would happen."

I complied, completely unsure whether or not this was a prank, but I didn't want to take chances as I felt my left leg nearly buckle and give out. Bags began to form under my eyes, I finally tied off the bandage, and inspected my work, feeling a great fatigue, Chry-chrysalis, what's hap-ha-happ-happening? Why do I fe-feel t-this way? Answer me! "Oh no, no, no, no! You punctured your love sac! Oh shut the fuck up! Not that sac, the sac in your head that holds all the love you accumulated, that green stuff you saw was liquid love."

My mind could barely comprehend what she said, as I could barely think straight at all. I teetertotted, as I tried to regain my balance, but failed miserably, and my legs gave out from underneath me as I face planted into the cold marble floor, knocking me unconscious again...

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I awoke to the feeling of pain in my forehead, a groan or two later, I finally opened my eyes, and nearly doubled back in shock, off the bed, into the trashcan, onto the floor, which would've then rolled away. Luna was staring at me only one inch separating our muzzles. "Wha-.." She stuck a hoof in my mouth, 'Shhh'. It was than I noticed I was on my bed and it was nighttime. "You don't want to wake Celestia do you?" She whispered.

I groggily looked over my bed to see Celestia sleeping along with Pinkie. "Why so close to my face?"

"To stabilize you using magic, Pinkie found you in the bathroom unconscious, this bandage on your head and the green fluid. I presume that's your blood, who or what did this to you? Oh yeah, if your wondering how she called us, she got Spike to send a letter, Twilight and him are right there." She pointed to a corner, Twilight and Spike were there resting in sleeping bags. "Wow, do I always make such a ruckus?"

She nodded, "Not very many ponies get injured this badly in Equestria, and definitely not an alien. So were taking extra care, and not to mention that danger and pain seems to cling to you." I felt Luna's love for me in the air, like... hmm... thats weird... like... a child or someone close to her heart.

"Luna, do you... nevermind. This is a weird question but... may I feed off of some of your love? The green stuff you saw was me bursting my love sac, the one that holds the love I get over time." She nodded and smiled.

"You may take as much as you want." I looked up into the air and saw the emotions, choosing the strongest one... love. I began to chomp into it, when I felt better I stopped feeding. Luna had a tad bit of paleness to her which made me feel bad for taking so much. "Oh do not fret, I have much energy. I can handle much more than that." It's almost as if she understood, I felt my eyes drooping, and slowly closing, I felt a little nuzzle on my cheek and a small kiss before I fell asleep, "Good night, my sweet little darling."

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I awoke to see Princess Luna laying next to me, asleep. She looked so cute when she slept. I didn't try and get up, partially because I didn't want to wake her out of courtesy and the other reason is because I couldn't really stand anyways. I already knew if I tried to stand the end result would be a face pancake. Twilight gave a cute little yawn and stood up, she gave a small smile at Spike, I looked over at Celestia to see she was awake as well, just observing. Must've been because she was always awake to raise the sun.

Pinkie was gone, most likely working. I didn't yawn, but instead just rubbed an eye, and said, "Good morning." Well that was weird, my voice sounded raspier and quieter than usual, must be the fact that I broke the love sac. Princess and protege together jumped at the sound of my voice. "Justin," This was Twilight speaking, "we ran tests on that green fluid coming from your head,  I didn't think it was possible but, it is liquid-" I cut her off, "Love, I already know." She seemed aghast, "How did you know? You couldn't of ran tests on it, that would've taken to lon-... wait, your still in contact with the changeling queen am I correct?" I nodded, I finished the rest, "I learned the fluid was love from her, and if you ask what did this to me I will do it again." I pointed at the nightstand which now had a very visible crack running through it, hell I was wondering how it still stood.

They both finally noticed it and began to hold back the urge to laugh. Celestia then grew serious, "Why would you do that to yourself?"

"Lets just say, my second mind is annoying." "Hey! I heard that!" Was wondering when you'd be back. "Hey, I'm on the verge of snapping, tearing your mind in two, splitting those shards across the universe and then feeding your body to a flock of crows. Not a fate you want, trust me." I physically and mentally cringed at the image. "Justin is something wrong?" Twilight asked, I shook my head. I heard a small yawn, looking over at Luna I nearly had fifty heart attacks, got diabetes type 10 and just plain old die. The cuteness meter just got a major overload, it took literally all of my willpower not to squeal at the cuteness I just witnessed.

She sneezed, and I nearly, so very close, broke down and screamed at the cuteness, "Good morning, so what is it you were talking about? Justin, why are you giving me that look?" I had just noticed I was grinning and quickly wiped it away, no need to seem like a pedophile. "Oh, we were just talking about stuff, like how this happened," I motioned to my forehead with a hoof, "what the green liquid was, and other things."

"And, how did that happen?"

I pointed at the nightstand.

"Ah, I expected as much." At that exact moment in time, I felt an itch on my back I couldn't quite reach, using my hoof I tried to reach the offending area but I couldn't quite do it. Grr, this is annoying. I finally reached it and scratched at it, which only seemed to amuse the crowed even more. I changed into my pony form, only to have pain flare across my forehead, my body flashed green again as I turned back into a changeling. I clutched my forehead, groaning, I opened my eyes to see they were looking at me with worry, I tried again, with the same results. Just much more pain, "Agh! What's going on? Why can't I change form?"

Twilight looked forlorn, "I'm afraid that, well, you can't use magic for 2 days, if my calculations are correct. It happened when you slammed your head on the wood so hard. It's rare but sometimes hard impacts can render unicorns useless of magic for awhile." Well that's just what I needed to hear. So I can't transform, or use regular magic? GREAT. Universe why do you hate me so much? What did I do to make you hate me? Hell, why am I even talking to you? "Is there anyway to cure it? Besides natural means of course." She thought for a moment before shaking her head, to which I gave a sad sigh.

"Why so down?" Luna asked.

"Why do you think? I can't really go out there, because I can't change into the pony form I had come up with. Unless you really want me to go parading out there looking like this." I motioned towards my body. The room became quiet, a silence that no one wanted to break. After a few minutes of silence, Celestia spoke up, "You could just stay in here, until you have the ability to change form again." Well, that sounded like the ave- you know what? Forget it. Thinking like that won't help anyone.

I sighed, not a sad sigh, but one of resolve, "You know what, fuck it. Who cares what they think? They probably won't even recognize that I'm a changeling. Hell, I was surprised you, Twilight, knew what a changeling was." I got out of the bed, which I instantly regretted as nausea began to overcome me. But I fought it down, they gasped (apparently this wasn't the daily normal) and trotted out of the room. They followed close behind, I trotted into the dining area, where three guests gasped in surprise.

And... a Pinkie Pie gasp, I tuned her out as she began to start spouting what would've probably been gibberish. I stood before the door, inhaled deeply, and slowly exhaled. It was now or never...

~~~~ (Flashback)

It was my turn to go on stage, we were doing a play about something I couldn't remember. After taking a few deep breaths I walked out, sweat began to pour down my head as the audience stared. Atleast 50 different pairs of eyes stared at me, I gulped. And then I couldn't move, just stare, my body quivered once, twice. Then I fell over crying, that was the worst and first time I ever went on stage.

~~~~ (Present)

It would be like that now, putting on a show for all to see. I took another deep inhale and exhale. Finally reaching up to open the door, I twisted the knob, it seemed as if the whole universe was holding it's breath for this moment. I pushed it outward, the smell of rosemary and lavender entered my sense of smell, birds chirping, carts being pulled and ponies talking filled my ears, my spit filled my mouth, I could feel the wind brushing against my belly and legs, my eyes caught sight of a town, full of many different shades, saturation's, colors, and hues of ponies. Some were Unicorn, Pegasi or just plain old Earth.

I stepped outside, feeling the crisp air move between my hooves and their holes. First it was one, than two, than 5, than 10 than the entire town-full of ponies stopped their daily tasks to stare at the bug like creature before them, to stare at it's compound eyes, to stare at it's wings, it's mane, it's horn, it's holes, it's carapace, it's reaction.