Dear Princess Luna,
Good Evening Princess. I’ve been meaning to tell you something. Since you are the princess of the night, I know you can relate to me more. Princess Celestia knows I’ve sent two letters, my regular report to her and this letter for you. But I know that both of you could help me in this situation I’m having.
Well Princess, I had a dream. I’ve been dreaming of one pony and she has been in each and one of them ever since the middle of spring.
This pony I’ve been dreaming of, she’s not familiar at all and I’ve never seen her before in my life. But every night, she’s there and I can feel our relationship has been progressing ever since the first. I can’t explain how, but I can tell by how she treats me. It’s funny that every dream I have, it’s just us talking. We talk about absolutely anything, her interests, her family, what makes her happy and what she doesn’t want to happen in her life.
Her voice wasn’t like Fluttershy’s, nor like Rarity’s and definitely not like Pinkie’s. It assured me that, that pony isn’t any of my friends. Like I said, I’ve never seen her before, but I want to know her more. I think of her every moment I wake up, even when I read, and even before I fall asleep.
Sometimes, I get excited to go to bed so I would see her again. But I get too excited; I then have a hard time sleeping. I feel like I’m going crazy over this filly in my dreams. I don’t know her name but I want to.
When I see her in my dreams, I see her waiting on the park bench, like she was waiting for me. When I show up, she gives me a smile, like she was relieved to see me. There was one night, when I came over the park bench, she was crying. She was so happy to see me then she suddenly hugged me. I knew she needed comfort, so I hugged her back and I felt her hug. She was soft, her head rested gently on my shoulder, and I felt her gripping on my sleeve. I could tell she feels lonely, that she needed somepony to pour her heart out to.
She mentioned that she was “bipolar”. She couldn’t exactly tell how she feels. That she always felt sad, but happy at the same time, maybe resentful too. Her emotions always clashed, but she wanted to be happy always when I’m around because she didn’t want me to see her at her breaking point. I tell her that I want to listen to her, I don’t need to say anything, I just wanted to listen. But she would always refuse to do so. But when I get to talk to her on the right time, she would explain why she feels depressed. I tell her that I too get depressed; she just smiled at me and stayed quiet.
Months have passed, and she is still in my dreams. But now, I have fallen in love with her. But when she talks about other colts liking her, she would reject them and she would tell me that she doesn’t want them to confess to her. Because it would be all awkward and she wouldn’t think of anything to say, which made me very discouraged. But one night, I dreamed that I told her how I felt for her. She didn’t accept my affection towards her, but she doesn’t want anything to change between us. She wanted us to still be friends and talk more. I woke up from that dream and felt a sudden depression. That the mare in my dreams rejected me and I couldn’t do anything about it. But as days have passed after that dream, I have relieved myself from the sadness and accepted the fact that I am only until her friendship.
I took time to think about everything that happened in that dream and I learned something about loving somepony. That one, if you truly love somepony or something, you have to set them free. Because you can’t keep him/her/ it all to yourself, it wouldn’t be a good attitude to have. What was important was that they are happy and she was happy with that situation, then I’m happy for her.
Second is, it is best to be friends than to be nothing at all. Which is true, because I don’t want our friendship to end just because of a selfish decision, I don’t want to lose her at any cost and I would do anything to make our friendship last. Because I feel like her only friend, the only one who could listen to her and the only one who could be there for her when she needed somepony the most. I honestly don’t know if I am but I want to. I want to be there for her.
Honestly Princess, I want her to be real. I don’t want to see her only in my dreams, I want to see her in person and feel a real embrace. I want to go to the park after studying just to see her sitting on the bench just waiting for me to talk to. It makes me depressed knowing she is only in my dreams. But if you have the chance, you can go into my dreams and meet her. I’m pretty sure she would love to talk to you. I tell her about everything also, including you and Princess Celestia. She really wants to meet the both of you, which makes me happy. That we can relate and share interests, like reading. She reads a lot of books and she tells me her world sometimes revolves in the books she is reading. She gets depressed when she finds out that a story has a bad ending, and then she cries. But I tell her that sometimes bad endings have to happen, like how it relates to life. That what comes up must come down and that sometimes it makes the story worth reading.
Maybe that’s why I like her, because she gives value to books. It’s her hobby and she would never miss out on a good book to read. But she is a different kind of reader. She prefers books with stories than the books I usually read. It’s all academic and work-related and hers were mostly fiction.
There was one dream where she gave me a fiction book to read and I did. About a colt who found love with a hard headed mare who preferred to be alone than with him. I then realized that you can learn a lot from fiction stories, because it has a lot of moral values implied in it. In the book I read, I learned that determination and hard work could guide you to reaching your goal. That the colt would do absolutely anything to win her heart in a humble way, he wasn’t ready to give up no matter how hard it was to swoon her heart.
I also learned that patience is a virtue. I honestly admit that I never had patience in myself. I want to rush things so I could make on time and I wouldn’t have to be tardy. In the story, the colt gave a lot of patience to the mare he loved. She asked to give him time to discover who she really was and he did. He waited patiently for her because he loves her dearly. It came to me that I may meet her, if I waited. But I honestly don’t want to wait for nothing.
I don’t know why but I keep telling myself that she isn’t real but there are times when I imagine her, being right beside me because I believed that she was real and that she will find me soon.
I finally decided what to name her, by the way. Well, I met her in the middle of spring. So I will name her April. I’m pretty sure that name suits her well.
I want to thank you Princess for letting me tell you how I feel for April. I’m honestly wished I would see her tonight, since I’m getting ready to go to sleep. I hope to see you too. So we could all go along.
Your faithful subject,
Dusk Shine
Author's Note
I hope you guys liked it. It took me some time to even show it to my best friend who's also a writer here in fimfic. :D
Anyway, if you guys are wondering, I will make more of these. I actually have a story in progress and I'm hoping to finish it soon.
Again, Thanks guys :D
