Those things on my mind

Inspired by this image below, this tidbit was written in the silence of the night and the shattering of my soul. I will not continue it and I deeply regret writing as much as I did. Sad stuff is sad. Read at your own risk.

All was silent save for the soft pit-pat of rain smacking against each pony gathered there that day. All with heads lowered and hearts broken. A shaken Rainbow Dash was the first to take the podium. She glanced at the casket, remembering all the time they had shared together. So much time wasted, so many days they could have had together, they had such a bright future. But now that was no more. That special pony was gone now and would never come back. She had begged Twilight and the Princess but they had told her there was nothing any of them could do. Reluctantly the pegasus mare had allowed them to begin this funeral. She took a slow shuddering breath, her eyes spreading across the crowd. They stopped on two little fillies whose eyes begged a question she had been asking herself. Why. Why didn't she catch her? Why had she let her fall? Rainbow lowered her head and took another breath.

"We are gathered here today...to remember a filly who meant so much to us. A filly who only wanted to fly, to earn her cutiemark and to go on to do amazing things. I remember...when I first agreed to teach her to fly. She was so excited, so full of energy and raring to go. She started day one by jumping off the closest thing." Rainbow choked out a laugh, unable to look out at the crowd. It was her fault they were all here and all of them knew it. It had been Twilights idea for her to speak here and she had been promised nopony would attack her, but she could already feel the tension growing in the air.

The only thing keeping her from running away to the safety of her cloud home was the simple fact that she owed her this much. Scootaloo deserved a proper funeral. She lifted her head once more, staring down each and everypony.

"I didn't know that she could never fly..."
"THATS A LIE! SCOOTS WOULDA BEEN AN AMAZIN FLIER!" Applebloom screamed through her tears. Mutters of agreement rang throughout the ponies until Twilight cleared her throat and stepped forward.

"Its true everypony. Scootaloo was born with a rare deformity in her wings. The bones were too heavy and her wings were too small compared to the rest of her body. Normal flight would have been impossible for her. The fact that she was able to move them at all was an attestment to her willpower and strength. But due to their weight she would never have been able to hold herself in the air, let alone attempt flight with them." The unicorn explained. Rainbow shook her head.

"No...if I had caught her...I'm sure she woulda found a way to fly Twilight..." Rainbow said, turning back to the casket where the filly lay. She placed her hooves on the side of it and leaned forward, placing a gentle kiss on her forehead.
"I'm so sorry Scootaloo..." she spoke softly, turning back to the gathered crowd.
"I don't care what any of you think of me. Today isn't about me, its about her. You have the rest of your lives to hate me, but today you remember her and all she did and all she would have done. I'm sorry Twi...I can't stay..." Rainbow fluttered her wings weakly and walked away from everyone, ignoring the glares and remarks as she made her way to a nearby hill, far away from the ceremony. She didn't belong there, she didn't deserve to be there as words of comfort were shared amongst family and loved ones. None of it was for her. She closed her eyes, those final moments playing back in her mind.

"Look Dash! I'm flyin!" Scootaloo cried happily. She gasped in pain as a loud SNAP filled the air. It took Rainbow a moment to realize the young pegasi's wing had crumpled in two mid-flight, the filly plummeting towards the ground. Rainbow dived off her cloud, chasing after Scootaloo as she fell. The filly smiled up at her through her tears. Rainbow recognized the smile. She had seen it before, it was a smile that haunted her dreams and tugged at a life long forgotton.

She pushed her wings harder, desperate to reach the filly. Though the ground was rushing towards them , getting closer with each passing moment. Scootaloo closed her eyes.
"I...I flew...I really flew...thank y..." Her words were cut short as her body slammed into the ground with a loud thud. Rainbow threw herself into the filly, scooping her up and shaking her gently.

"Scootaloo! Scoots answer me! c'mon!" she begged, cradling the filly. She felt something wet and sticky cling to her hoof, shaking as she stared at it, seeing it soaked in blood from a cut in the young pegasi's head.
"HELP! SOMEPONY HELP PLEASE!" she screamed, ponies watching the scene in horror. A team of pegasi rushed Scootaloo to the hospital, but they knew it was too late to save the poor filly.

Rainbow stood, walking out of view of the ponies gathered there. Standing on top of the hill and staring over the edge of the cliff. Down below were hundreds upon hundreds of jagged rocks, hidden only for a moment by a wave crashing over them. The jagged teeth formed a smirk, mocking her and her failure. She spread her wings slowly and took a step forward. She felt a hoof on her shoulder and turned, finding Fluttershy, the shy yellow pegasus shaking her head.
"Rainbow...this isn't the answer." she said softly. Rainbow merely smiled, pretending she had no idea what the pony meant as she shrugged the hoof from her shoulder.
"She's gone cause of me. Its all my fault. I shoulda caught her...she really did fly though...her first...and last flight. Its time for my last flight Shy. Take care of Tank for me."

Twilight sighed as Rainbow marched away and took over for her, letting each pony come up to the podium in turn to say their final words. The last to reach the stand were Applebloom and Sweetie Belle, though when they tried to speak only tears came. Twilight gently held them, letting Rarity and Applejack take them after a moment. She took the podium herself as ponies prepared to lower Scootaloo into her final resting place.
"We will never forget Scootaloo and all she meant to us. Though she is gone from our home, she will always remain in our hearts."

"RAINBOW NO!" the scream filled the air, along with a sickening SHLICK. The crowd fell silent, save for a single ponies tears as she made her way through the crowd. Upon her back was a cyan rainbow maned pegasus. Her eyes tightly shut and a sad smile on her face. Fluttershy let the pegasus fall off her back gently, laying her in front of Twilight.
"I...I couldn't stop her..."