To Remember

There was darkness, but he could hear beeping in a steady beat he didn't know what was making the sound, or why everything was so dark. He was on his back and there something soft and warm under him. He wondered what he could do he tried to recall on his memories but there was nothing to remember just empty gaps that were held together by long blurs that made no sense.

He wanted to say something, but say what, what could he say, what is there to say, he just made grunts and groans.

He gave up and would try and move, but could he move, was there anything to move, he just shook and squirmed.

He stopped and retreated back into his mind but there was nothing… just emptiness.

He was laying in silence for an unknown period of time until he heard a set of hoofsteps from around him which took his attention. It became louder and louder as the clip-clops became closer until he heard the opening of a door as the hoofsteps came near him.

He moved his head towered were he thought the sound was coming from.

“Are you awake, can you hear me?” A soft female voice rang out.

What could he do? He pondered on the words and came up with something.

“I am...Awake...I...can hear...you” He stuttered his voice sounded muffled and dry.

“Oh my, we all thought you would never wake up” The voice was shocked.

Shocked…voice…words, he could speak, and he knew words.

“I…can’t…see” He muttered.

“Oh yes, right, you were in an accident and you were taken to the ponyville hospital, do you remember?” The voice asked.

“No… can’t remember… everything is so…so dark”

“There was a de-railing at the local train station and you were brought here with major brain damage, so amnesia was expected… do you remember your name?”

“No…I can’t see…everything is blank… it hurts” He spoke slowly thinking of the right words.

“My name is Nurse Redheart, can you remember anything like friends family, were you are from, or anything about the past?” Redheart asked.

“I can’t remember anything…it’s all confusing…why does it hurt?” He asked the nurse.

“Well like I said you took a hard hit to the head, so you will be having aches and pains.

“I want to see… can you let me see”

“I wish I could, but you need to keep the bandages on for at least another week or two” She apologized.

“Take off the…bandages…I want to see…please” He wheezed.

“I-I can’t… ok I’ll take them off, but be ready the light will hurt for a second” He could feel Redheart pull of the wrapping.

He could feel his heart beat as the darkness started to become brighter and brighter.

“Last strap…” She pulled away the strap and the light singed his eyes.

He closed his eyes and waited until his eyes stopped hurting before he opened them again, he was on a plain hospital bed and to his right was a light blue curtain pulled back blocking the window on the other end. Redheart was a white unicorn with pink mane tied in a bun with a Red Cross hat on top of her head. On his left there were machines that had long thin wires that were attached to his body with small circular bandages holding them in place.

“Can I see my face” His voice was clear and still sounded very dry.

She walked up to a counter next to him and pulled a small mirror up to his face with her magic.

He was a earth pony with a dark blue coat and short shaggy navy blue mane with long white streaks, his face was covered in burns and scratches, his left eye was blood shot while is right was covered with a small cotton pad.

“What happened to me?” He spoke easier and a little faster.

“I told you, there was a de-railing and you were hurt badly in the crash one of the worst to be exact” She stated.

He tried to lift a hoof to his face but it never came.

He looked down to his body that was covered with a large blanket.

“Why can’t I move?” He asked his heart rate increased.

“I’m sorry, but…” She pulled the blanket from his chest and his heart skipped a beat.

His lower chest was raped in bandages and his left leg was gone from above the knee down his right was in a cast. His hind legs were covered in old wraps.

“…we tried to save as much as we could, but we had to amputate the left leg do to sever damage your hind legs are fractured in five different places, and your right for-leg was broken also” She went on, but he paid her little attention.

How bad was this accident?

“Seeing is how we have no info about you, what do wish to be your name until you can remember your real one.” She set down the mirror.

He was fixed on his left for-leg until he shook himself from it and looked to Redheart.

“I don’t know” He had a lump in his throat.

“How about…sky?” In her eyes he reminded her of the sky.

“Sky…I guess it will do” He kept his eyes fixed on his absent for-leg.

“Can you remember anything, at least something?” She asked.

He retreated back into his mind and tried to think of something, anything from before he woke up in the hospital.

Sky closed his eyes and receded into his mind and concentrated on anything he could think off, but to his annoyance he came up blank and when he came up on something it was just gibberish nothing to make out.

Sky knew the memories were there but he couldn't touch them, they were on the tip of his tong but he came up empty.

“I can’t…I just can’t see them” He started to cry.

He was missing a limb, he was broken physically and mentally, and his own mind taunted him.

“What’s wrong with me” He cried softly as he sat back up.

Redheart walked next to him and placed a hoof over him and rocked his head softly.

“It’s ok, you just had a big shock and I understand you are upset, so I will leave you to rest if you need me only call for me” She said in a softy motherly tone.

“I just want to know who I am” He whispered still crying.

“It’s ok just rest for now and I will check up on you tomorrow” She softly pushed him into the bed and pulled the blanket over him and left.

He was crying softly into the pillow and was muttering to himself…

“Why can’t I remember?” It felt like hours to sky until he finally drifted of to sleep with tears on his cheek.