On Golden Heartstrings

by TwoTone

Rating: teen
Tags: Slice of Life, Sad, Lyra, My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic, Bon-Bon, Romance
Length: 4761

Lyra Heartstrings is a pony who believes in achieving her dreams. However, when it seems that the universe itself is out to mess up your best made plans, what do you do?

Lyra Heartstrings is a good-natured pony who believes in helping others and doing her best. However, her shyness and eccentric behavior often leaves her without many close friends. Additionally, it seems that the universe is out to stop her from achieving her dreams. Lyra quickly finds herself questioning whether or not her dreams are worth chasing, and what her purpose in life really is.

Artwork by Cybiline

Published 2013-04-15 03:40:01 UTC
Last updated 2013-04-29 00:45:05 UTC

Chapter 1

It was another hot night. A lone unicorn tossed and turned beneath the blanket on her bed, her hind legs sticking out from beneath the blanket. Her aquamarine fur glowed lightly from what little moonlight managed to ebb in past the blinds. She rolled onto her back and took a good hard look at the ceiling. Her eyes had adjusted to the minimal light in the room. In truth, she wished it could be darker. Still, the moonlight did provide a warm, gentle glow. Unfortunately, it also instilled a sort of romanticism in her, which prevented her from passing into the sweet embrace of sleep.

Lyra Heartstrings sighed to herself rather loudly. Her mind seemed to be a cacophony of mixed feelings and thoughts, keeping whatever hopes she had for sleep muted behind it's mind shattering volume. She put two hooves into the air, idly waving them above herself.

She thought about her life; where she'd been, where she was now. The dreams of her youth seemed so far away now. The world had done it's best to make her grow up, to force her to give up her dreams in favor of practicality and logic. She wasn't a filly anymore and was expected to think and act like an adult. She found the thought of responsibility impossibly dull.

“What's the point of living if it's the same old routine day in and day out?” She caught herself wondering aloud.

Her hooves came crashing down onto her mattress. She hated when she got like this. She knew right where her thoughts were headed. A sense of helplessness crossed over her as she tried to clear her head.

Failure. The word smashed through the brick wall of her logic, smashing through to rob her of any chance of escaping this self-abusive tirade. She felt her heart sink as the thoughts came crashing into her mind.

She audibly groaned, grabbing her pillow and stuffing it over her face in an attempt to stifle the self-depreciating thoughts working there way into her mind.

Failure. There it was again.

“I'm...” She choked on her own words. A lump had grown in her throat. Tears stung at her eyes. She was losing her battle with her will, just like always.

Lyra cried out into the pillow. Frustrated, she threw it away. A soft thud responded from the opposite wall.

“I'm just a failure...” She said to herself softly. She'd given up fighting it, as it seemed to always overpower her. In a way, there was a sense of relief to be found in accepting it. It seemed easier than trying to fight it.

She thought of all the things she'd dreamed of doing when she was young. She thought of the life she would live. She thought of how proud her parents would be of her achievements, how they'd brag to their neighbors and friends of their brilliant daughter. She thought of her friends back home, how excited they would be upon her return. A smile broke her face for a moment as she lost herself to her dreams. People would know her name as she walked down the street, stopping to say how much they respected and admired her. She'd finally found a place where she belonged, where she was well liked and had a real sense of home.

Failure.

She cringed as her dreams broke. She desperately grabbed for them, as the slipped away into the dark recesses of the void. She whimpered as reality set in once again. She had always been a dreamer, but her dreams had evaded her more often than not. Even her longest dream, something as simple as finding that one special somepony to settle down with had escaped her. Her older and younger sisters had both been in serious relationships for awhile now. It was just Lyra who was all alone. She always convinced her family and friends that she was just too dedicated to her work to have time for somepony else.

Lyra turned over onto her side and stared at the window. She was lonely. She had an extremely difficult time making friends. She constantly wondered why this was, as she thought herself to be genuinely altruistic.

A laugh broke her lips. “I must be one heckuvan awkward pony,” she said to the remaining pillow.

She remembered the friends she had in college. She had shared a suite with her sister and a small group of their friends. She had one of the four single rooms in the suite, which was perfect for her, as she really enjoyed her alone time. The following year however, she had been forced to move into the double, as the entire suite voted on who would get the singles. She had entertained the idea, as she would now get to room with one of her best friends at the college.

She remembered how one day she was lounging around on her bed, the top bunk of the bed her and her roommate made, when her RA came in to say hi.

Lyra lay upside down on her bed, her flank and legs raised up against the wall as her back and head lay sideways across the bed. Soft music filled the room from a gramophone across the room. She heard the door to the suite open, which piqued her attention as she was alone in the suite, and as such was very bored.

“Hello?” a voice asked from down the hall.

“In here!” Lyra's said, albeit a little more excited than she intended to. Although she did enjoy her solitude at certain times, she enjoyed companionship even more she was bored.

Lyra kicked her hind legs back and forth from the wall as she waited for her guest to find her way to the room.

Karel's striped form stood in the doorway, a smile on her face.

Lyra looked over, and in the coolest voice she could muster, said, “Sup.”

Karel giggled at Lyra's absurd position on the bed, chocking it up to it just being another case of Lyra being Lyra.

“How's it going, Lyra?” Karel asked, taking a seat on the vacant bunk below.

“Meh, you know. Just kinda hanging around,” Lyra responded, mentally slapping herself for such a stupid pun.

“I see...” Karel began. Clearly she didn't find the pun to be that great. “Where's everyone else?”

“Oh you know, off getting an education and stuff.” Lyra flipped onto her belly and began idly poking at Karel's head. She smiled to herself, clearly amused.

“Hey, careful! Don't mess up my mane!” Karel had been working on having 'true' dreadlocks. This meant not washing her hair, which Lyra had found infinitely amusing.

Lyra brought her hooves up under her chin, as Karel stood up and turned to face her.

“My bad... I get carried away sometimes,” Lyra said.

“Lyra,” Karel began with a smirk on her face, “you're a cool filly, but I don't think I could live with you. I don't know how Cherilee does it.”

Lyra felt a twinge of hurt, but brushed it aside. She smirked back, saying, “Well duh, she wants to be a teacher. She's gonna have to deal with much worse than me.” Lyra finished by sticking her tongue out.

Lyra shook her head. She knew she sometimes had a problem with self control. She would often take things too far, and immediately regret it afterward. However, pride and fear prevented her from apologizing or admitting it to anypony, so she would bottle up her self-hatred and put on a smile. Just Lyra being Lyra.

She rolled onto her back again, mentally exhausted from berating herself over her various idiosyncrasies and failures. Finally, her the rapid torrent of thoughts had slowed down to a small trickle. Her heart felt a little less broken as her resolve began to steel itself once more. She felt her eyelids grow heavy and her body relax as the tumultuous war for sleep was finally coming to an end.

Tomorrow was going to be another long day.

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The dark blue blanket rose and sank softly with the breathing of it's entangled occupant. A black pillow lay on the floor across the room. Rays of sunlight pierced through the blinds, illuminating the room. Birds chirped outside the window, merrily singing their songs.

Lyra had somehow managed to not only flip the blanket inside out, but had also worked herself so she was sideways on the bed. A soft bell began to ring, growing steadily louder with each passing second. The ball beneath the blanket stirred gently. Lazy eyes, tired from a restless night's sleep, peered from beneath it at the clock on the window sill. The blanket then seemed to swallow the poor unicorn back up. The bell grew incessantly louder, before suddenly, the blanket mass jumped into the air.

“Eep! I'm gonna be late!” Lyra cried from her blankety prison. She attempted to toss the blanket and leap from the bed in one swift movement, but being barely awake had affected her dexterity. She promptly fell face first onto the floor.

“It's gonna be one of those days...” She moaned, rubbing her muzzle.

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The day never seemed like it would end. Lyra found herself zoning out more often than usual. This caused her boss to chide her a few times, to whom she fervently apologized. She hated her dead end job. She worked in a repair shop, with mainly Earth ponies. At first, she thought being a unicorn in an Earth pony shop was her chance to shine. However, she unfortunately seemed to cause more harm than good. The manager was constantly breathing down Lyra's neck due to this, but her dedication to fixing her mistakes and working hard had allowed her to remain employed. She wanted to leave so badly, but she needed the bits to be able to afford to survive.

Lyra consistently told herself that this was just temporary, at least until she could save up enough money to really get her career going. She began to daydream, seeing herself on a stage with thousands of adoring fans cheering her name. She held her lyre before her in a golden aura. Softly, her magic manipulated her instrument, letting notes ring out into the crowd. She closed her eyes, losing herself to the melody she was playing. Words began to form in her mind as she started to sing...

“LYRA!” a voice broke into her dream, inches away. She instinctively lowered her ears as she knew she'd been caught. She opened an eye to see a very furious, dark brown, Earth pony staring into her face. He wore a dark tan vest, affixed with a name tag that read “Manager - Pop Rivet”. She recoiled slightly as his imposing gaze seemed to stare into her soul.

“Sleeping on the job again?!” His voice continued to yell, “How many times does this make it?!”

“I-I'm s-s-sorry Mr. R-Rivet...” Lyra said quietly under her breath.

“Lyra...” His voice had resumed a normal tone, although the furious look remained on his face.

“I'm so sorry Mr. Rivet. I just haven't been sleeping and-” He held a hoof up in front of her face.

“Look Lyra,” he began. “I got a business to run. Bits ain't as easy to come by as they have been. We're in a recession for Celestia's sake! I can't have my workers bein' dead weight!” Pop started to work himself back up.

“Mr. Rivet, I promise, it won't happen again! I promise...” Lyra could feel the tears coming. She needed this job, badly. Pop turned his head away.

“Lyra. You're a hard worker. You really are. I'm sure a mare like you can find somewhere that's more suited for you,” He wouldn't look at her.

Lyra could feel her heart breaking. A hiccup rose up in her throat.

“Sorry kid. You're fired.”

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Lyra made it back to her apartment in record time. Her face stung from the never ending flow of tears running down it. Her hiccups only seemed to have gotten worse. To her, the world might as well have ended right there. It had taken her months to find any job, and she had spent all her savings just to keep herself afloat before then. Her job had paid her only a little more than what she needed to live, so she barely had anything saved up now. She buried her face into her pillow, crying loudly.

This wasn't what it was supposed to be like. She was supposed to be somepony. She was supposed to not have to worry about money. She was supposed to just being doing what she loved. It wasn't fair.

It had taken nearly an hour for her to calm down enough to take her head out of the soggy pillow. It had become quite soaked in her tears. Lyra didn't care. She wiped some of the snot away from her nose, rubbing it off on the pillow. She then sat up on the bed.

In the corner of the room, she spied her lyre. The one thing that had always guaranteed her happiness. Shakily, she floated it in front of her. She sniffed once, wiped a tear from her eye, and began to play. A sad, melancholy tune came from the instrument. She poured the fragments of her broken heart into the song as she played it. The lyre had become a catalyst for her emotion. She plucked the strings harder as the song grew darker and more violent.

Her sadness and anger mixed to create a dark tune that could grab a hold of the heart of anypony, and a give them a glimpse of the sadness in Lyra's life. Questions began to flare into Lyra's mind.

Why am I alone when my sisters have somepony?

Her aura tightened on the lyre.

How come everypony else gets to be happy, and I have to work for it?

The strings plucked harder.

What does fate have against me?!

A discordant burst of splintering wood and broken strings broke the song. Lyra opened her eyes, stunned, her mouth agape.

“No...” she said softly, looking down at the broken instrument.

“No, No, No, No, NO!” She screamed at her fallen savior. She wrapped her hooves around it, holding it, hoping that it would magically fix itself.

A single tear ran down her cheek.

Chapter 2

Yesterday... All my troubles seemed so far away. Now it looks as though they're here to stay. Oh, I believe in yesterday.

Lyra had no idea how much time had passed. It all seemed like a dream to her. Her entire world had become a surreal nightmare. She'd fallen into the deepest, darkest pit of despair and had no way out.

She groggily opened an eye. She looked up at the ceiling from her bed, taking note of the barely luminescent glow coming from her window. She had affixed a sheet over it to block out the light, but the thin fabric didn't do much to stop the powerful rays of the sun. Her broken lyre lay in pieces on the floor, in the same spot she had been playing it. She levitated a pillow over her face, hoping the darkness would fling her back into the sweet embrace of sleep. At least then she wouldn't have to deal with the reality of her situation. A low grumble from her stomach stopped any hope of her returning to sleep however. With an exasperated sigh, she knocked the pillow from her face and rolled onto her hooves.

“Let's see what I got to eat,” she thought aloud to herself. She smirked briefly, as she questioned her own sanity.

“Normal ponies don't talk to themselves Lyra,” she began.

“But you're not a normal pony, are you? That's why you have no friends!” she chided herself. She took a deep breath. She knew she had friends, but they were all back home. Some of them had even moved away from there just as she had. She just hadn't made any friends in Canterlot. She'd secretly hoped that with a city as big as Canterlot was, she'd be able to find her niche.

Lyra found herself sitting on the floor, thinking back to home. She had plenty of friends then. Well, most of her friends were her sister's friends, but since they were so close in age she hadn't really much of choice. She could feel the tears welling up in her eyes as she realized just how much she missed home.

“If I'd just give up on this stupid dream!” She shouted at her cupboards. Her stomach growled in response. She'd forgotten she was hungry. Sighing for the umpteenth time today, she picked herself up.

Suddenly, a knock rang out from the door. Lyra leapt into the air, startled. She took a second to catch her breath, as a second round of knocks came. She made her way over to the door, put on her practiced smile and opened it.

A brown Pegasus stood before her, wearing the royal mail's uniform.

“Letter for Miss Lyra Heartstrings,” he recited mechanically.

“Yep, that's me!” Lyra said warmly. The Pegasus produced the letter from his bag with an incredible amount of dexterity and ease. Gripping it in his mouth, he held it in front Lyra. She took it with her magic, levitating it before her.

“Thanks!” she said cheerfully. The pegasus grunted in response and took off. Lyra turned to reenter her apartment, excited about the letter. In truth, she figured it was probably a bill or something, but she couldn't help but hope that it was a letter from home.

She flipped the front side of the envelope over to get a look at the the return address. Her heart nearly skipped a beat as she read the sender's name – Golden Harvest – out loud. She took no delay in ripping the envelope open with her magic, throwing the envelope to the floor. She unfolded the letter and began to read it.

To the best lyre player ever, Miss Lyra Heartstrings,

Hey, what's up? I hope you get time to read this, I imagine you're pretty busy playing in the Canterlot Orchestra by now. Must be pretty cool being a big shot. I bet you're making a lot of bits too! Just remember to never forget us small town ponies, ok? Anyway, as I'm sure you noticed, I'm writing from Ponyville. It's this small village, right next to the Everfree Forest. It's beautiful here, Ly. I got a cheap house with plenty of space for a garden. The pony's here are really friendly too! There's this one mare, Pinkie Pie, she's like the princess of partying! She threw me a welcoming party when I first came into town! Hee hee, sorry, I'm getting kind of carried away. Anyway, I think it would be cool if you could find sometime in your schedule to come down and visit. Like I said, I know you're probably really busy, but it'd be cool to see my PFF, y'know? Write me back as soon as you can, and let me know if you can make it out here! There's a train that runs right through Ponyville from Canterlot. Hope to hear from you soon!

PFF

Carrot Top

Lyra's face was beaming. It was amazing how something as small as a letter could brighten up somepony's day. She immediately grabbed a piece of paper and feather to pen her response. She had barely began to write when she paused to think. She crumpled the piece of paper up and tossed it across the room with her magic. She dashed into her room, grabbing her saddlebags and what little she had in savings.

“I think a surprise visit is in order,” Lyra said with an ear splitting grin. Some time away from home with her best friend would do her some good. She threw open her door and stepped out into the sunlight for the first time in years, or so it felt. She triumphantly took a step forward, before a her grin turned sheepish. She levitated the envelope from her floor to her saddlebag, double checking the address. Shut and locked her door, before taking off at a full gallop towards the train station, only stopping once to buy a particularly tasty looking apple to eat.

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Lyra could honestly swear that she had never seen a line so long in her life. The line for the ticket booth seemed to stretch on for nearly an entire block. She shifted on her hooves uncomfortably, as she tried to find ways to alleviate the boredom. She'd been standing around for at least half an hour already, and the line had barely moved more than a few ponies. She nervously reassured herself that there was no way this many ponies were going to Ponyville, and there would still be tickets available when she got up to the booth.

After another hour, Lyra found herself only 3 or 4 ponies away from the booth.

“Two first-class tickets to Ponyville,” a white upperclass earth stallion said to the ticket master. Lyra's ears perked up at this.

The ticket master slid the tickets through the window to the stallion and his companion, an egg-white mare dressed in fancy pearls.

“Dear, my hooves are utterly exhausted from this senseless loitering,” She whined.

“Yes my love, but if we were to miss the summer sun celebration in Ponyville, what would all of our friends think?” he responded.

Lyra's eyes widened. How could I have forgotten about the summer sun celebration?! She nervously shuffled her legs back and forth as she waited her turn to get to the booth.

The summer sun celebration was a pretty big deal in Equestria. She's been to one when she was a little filly and her family had gone on a vacation to Canterlot. It was just her luck that in the year that she had lived their that they would hold the celebration somewhere else. It struck her as a little odd to hold the celebration in a place as small as Ponyville.

The ponies in front of her had all purchased tickets to Ponyville as well. She breathed a huge sigh of relief as she made her way up to the booth. If they'd sold out of tickets, they would've hung up a sign or said something.

“Hello ma'am,” Lyra put on her trademark smile, “May I get one ticket to Ponyville please?” The older mare looked down at Lyra through her glasses.

“That'll be 20 bits,” she said sternly. Lyra's face fell.

“B-But, the board says 5 bits for a ticket to Ponyville,” Lyra said meekly, pointing a hoof at the board.

“Yes missy. For coach class. All we have left are first-class tickets.” Lyra was stunned. She looked into her saddlebag, counting how much she had. 23 bits. She could have stretched that to live on for a week or two. 3 bits would barely get a her by for a day, much less if anything should happen. No, I've come too far to back out now! Plus, riding first-class will probably be awesome! She levitated the fare onto the counter. The mare slid her ticket through the booth.

“Thank you. Have a nice trip,” The mare said less than enthusiastically. Lyra smiled and nodded to the mare, turning towards the platform.

“Ponyville... here I come,” She said to herself.

Chapter 3

Lyra stared out the window of her private booth, her head propped up lazily by her hoof. Between the darkness and the rain, there wasn't much to see. Lyra didn't care. She was lost in her thoughts anyhow.

She'd never ridden first-class before in her life. It had always seemed that the cost wasn't worth the reward.

“This is kinda nice though,” she mumbled to herself. First-class certainly had it's perks. For one thing, while meals were included with any trip as long as this one, she'd learned that the first-class meals were simply better. It was like eating at a five star restaurant, or so she'd imagined. Having a private booth was also a big plus. She didn't have to deal with any crying foals or particularly talkative mares. She could just be herself and relax.

A flash illuminated the sky, briefly breaking her thoughts. Lyra's eyes widened with excitement. She loved thunderstorms! She pressed her muzzle against the glass, eagerly waiting the next blast. Canterlot didn't get a lot of thunderstorms. In fact, she'd barely seen one the entire time she'd been living there. It made sense though, a city like that was bound to have an amazing weather team.

Her thoughts turned to Ponyville. She'd heard of the small village before, but never really paid any attention to it. Still, if Carrot Top loved it, it must have had something special about it.

Like Lyra, Carrot was a dreamer. They would both spend hours talking about their futures. Their dreams, the kind of place they wanted to live, even the little foals they'd someday raise. Love was a always a big topic for them. One would constantly check on the other's relationship status and woes. They would talk about their 'perfect somepony'.

A smile crept across Lyra's face. She began to reminisce about the crazy adventures Carrot and her had. They were quite the rambunctious little fillies. They seemingly were always finding new ways to get into trouble.

Before long, a yawn worked it's way into Lyra's mouth. She let herself fall backwards onto the bed, before working herself beneath the blanket and into a ball. She couldn't wait to get to Ponyville.

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A whistle sounded, jolting Lyra awake. Warm sunlight illuminated the small booth. The train had stopped moving. From down the hall, the echoes of knocking on the doors could be heard.

Climbing out from the covers, Lyra stretched, catching herself in a yawn. With a weary hoof, she rubbed the sleepiness from her eyes, before grabbing her saddlebag. A loud knock rang out from her door.

“Ponyville! This is your stop!” a stallion's voice shouted. She decided to wait until she'd heard him move down a few more doors before leaving.

Stepping off the train, Lyra took a deep breath of fresh air. She made her way through the crowd of ponies unloading and found herself at the edge of the ramp, looking into the town.

“Whoa...” She said with wonder. The town seemed so full of life. There were ponies walking wearing smiles. The colors seemed so vivid and bright. It seemed like such a stark contrast to the hustle and bustle of the city.

Lyra stepped off the platform, looking at the various buildings and storefronts as she made her way up what she had assumed was main street. There were decorations hung up and about, including a banner welcoming Princess Celestia. It seemed that Ponyville was more than prepared for the Summer Sun Celebration. It wasn't long before she found herself standing in front of what must have been the Town Hall.

“Well, this seems like a good place to start,” She thought aloud, reaching into her saddlebag with her magic for the letter. She levitated the letter in front of her face, reading the address to herself.

“19 Everfree way?” she heard a voice say. She mentally face hoofed herself, turning to see who had heard her talking to herself.

Before her was a light cream colored mare, with a curly pink and navy mane. Lyra stole a glance at her cutie mark; three wrapped candies.

“Uh, yeah. Sorry, I was just-” Lyra began.

“Oh it's no problem at all! You must be here for the Summer Sun Celebration!” The cheerful mare responded.

“Oh well, kinda. I'm really here to visit my friend.”

“Oh, you mean Golden? She said she had a famous musician for a friend!” Lyra blushed.

“Well, I'm not really famous or anything, I just like to play, that's all,” Lyra smiled, rubbing a hoof along the back of her head.

“Oh really? Well, I would like to hear you play some time, after all it's not everyday you get to hear a famous musician,” the mare said with a grin. Lyra couldn't help but smile. Ponies around here seemed to be extremely friendly.

“Oh, my name's Bon Bon, by the way,” She stuck out a hoof.

“Lyra,” She bumped Bon Bon's hoof with her own.

“Well, Lyra, lets see about getting you to your friend.”