Broken

I stabbed her. Three times, in the chest, heart and neck. The blood came down in streams, pouring onto the floor like taps into the sink. She screamed out for help, at least she used to. Now all she seems to "say" are gurgled screams. Her eyes were strong and shaking with terror as i tore her apart. Time slowed down and my ears went deaf as the lucidness fell flat. My body lunged upwards as i vomited onto the floor beside me. Every dream is the same, the same pony, the same places where i stabbed and the same sharpness of the blade.

Coffee, the medicine of sleep. Many pictures hang in frames of me and the cakes or my friends all together with me. I don't deserve friends like that, or friends at all. I deserve to be locked away with the other hateful sinners. Maybe i should jus-... My head turned to the side as i escape from my daydreams from the loud rings of the doorbell. I slothed over to the door trying to put on a smile on or a hop but failing to do so. I turned the doorknob and swing the door open to see twilight sparkle, at my door step. She half-smiled at me and asked if she could come in saying it was rather important. I told her, with a now a lot more awake and serious tone of course she could and to sit on the couch. I quickly grabbed a towel and cleaned up the vomit next to my bed and rushed back in to sit down next to twilight. She looked less happy, but trying to put on a smile as she prepared for what she was about to say. She cleared her throat and said very seriously, " Pinkie, its about rainbow..." Twilight put her head down and held back tears, "She...shes not feeling very well at the moment..." Twilight was now on the verge of tears, "Rainbow was put in the hospital today, they found...they found...cancer, cancer in the lungs, its unlikely she will survive..." Twilight started to cry. I felt my heart stop for at least 10 seconds as my brain came into terms with what i had just heard. My whole body became numb and i was just able to say something to Twilight, "can i see her Twilight? Can we go, now?"

Twilight said she didn't want to go, she didn't want to see Rainbow like that, on a hospital bed, in pain. I begged her, its what Rainbow would have wanted. She said she wouldn't stay for long but she will go, for rainbows sake. The trek to the hospital had my mind racing with thoughts, will rainbow be okay? I'm so frightened, i feel like i might pass out. I started to breathe heavily, but quietly so Twilight wouldn't hear and know i was that scared. I looked over at her and saw her eyes, stale but sad looking, with a sign of fear. We were both feeling the same thing, scared and confused about what may happen to rainbow. When we opened the doors to the hospital, i could smell the strong scent of medicine. We stepped up to the counter and asked if we could see rainbow dash. The woman at the counter said she was waiting for us and told us not to stay long because rainbow needs the rest right now. We agreed and started the walk to her cell, as i call it. It felt like a prison in here, alot of people strapped down to table through medical equipment constantly measuring there heart beats.

It felt dead in here, to put it simply. We were almost to her room now, and i could feel the tension in mine and Twilight's body. The nurse opened the door and told rainbow that she had some visitors, and we stepped inside. Only at this point did i realize the seriousness of this situation and the reality of what was going on here. Only now have i realized how real this situation is, how cold and dark it felt being inside of her room for the first time. Not seeing rainbow dash out and about usually flying and being really energetic felt more than just odd. I wanted to leave, and just forget about this, but it was true and i needed to be there for my friend.

Twilight suddenly broke the tension, "Uh...Hi, Rainbow..." Rainbow looked at us with a happy but also obviously sad expression, "Hey, guys...Hows it goin?" Rainbow said in a hushed forced voice, "I'm...doing, good." I said trying not to cry. "Rainbow..." "Yeah, twi?" "Are...are you going to be alright?" Twilight didn't want to say it, but she had to. "Guys, i dont know. I honestly...i dont. I dont wanna die, guys! I can live through this, right? They said i could go soon, they said...they said i could..." I interrupted her with a hug and we both started to cry. I let it all out, telling her its going to be fine and your going to pull through, but i honestly didn't have a clue if she was or not. Twilight joined in and we all stayed for a while, asking questions and it started to feel like Rainbow wasn't in a hospital bed and it was all okay, but this fell short when the nurse said it was time to leave and Rainbow needed some rest now. We stood up and hugged rainbow one more time, before saying goodbye. The walk back was quiet again, with not much being said and me being wrapped up in my thoughts. I felt sorry for Rainbow Dash, and i felt like i would give my life for hers and this point. Me and twilight went our separate ways as i went back to my house. Today was sunday so i didn't have to work.