Broken

We were at the local pub by the boutique. It was loud and the sounds of laughter and drunken speech filled the room. I asked the bartender for another pint and he happily obliged. I gave him the money and i gulped it all in one go. It tasted horrible, but i didn't care. I just wanted to forget. Forget all that happened last night, the people i hurt, the things i did. But i know i will want to do it again, i still want to cause pain, i still want to want to kill on my hands, blood on my hands! I calmed myself down and decided that was it for the night, i had already drank too much anyway. I stepped outside and lit a cigarette. I started thinking about how it came down to this, how i became so fucked up, how i became an alcoholic and a smoker. I took another puff of my smoke and threw it down to the ground, stamping it on the floor and twisting to make sure it was out. I started to think about what i could do tonight, if i should do it again...

It was a bright day outside as i walked to Sugarcube corner. The birds were chirping in the trees and the pony's of Ponyville were happily enjoying there day. I tried to not let any thoughts about Rainbow Dash enter my mind as i skipped along to my workplace. As i stepped inside of the shop, i didn't see anybody there. Usually the cakes are there preparing things for the opening of the store. I started to feel a bit scared as i started to search the shop for them. After 15 minutes of searching, i gave up and sat down at the counter. I started looking around and saw that on the door, there was a note. Intrigued, i went up to it and it said: Pinkie, its twilight, come to the hospital...Its Rainbow.... At this point, i almost passed out. I felt as if all the air had lunged out of my lungs. I started to run to the hospital, i needed to know what was going on and why the hell i wasn't told earlier!

I burst the door open and didn't even ask the lady at the counter as i sprinted through to Rainbow Dashes room. I started to slow down, the adrenaline starting to wear off, now quickly walking to her room. I finally got there and swung the door open to find...to find....all of my friends, Rarity, Fluttershy, Twilight, Applejack and Rainbow. They were all hunched over looking at Rainbow. "Is she okay?" i asked, obviously very scared and on the verge of tears, "She's fine" I breathed a sigh of relief and felt a lot better realizing all of my fear was for nothing. "The reason i left that note was because i had heard she flat lined and knew you needed to be told. She was dead for around 10 seconds, but she remarkably pulled through. They said shes a real fighter." Twilight was happy as she said this, and i smiled when i heard it. It made me think about the great friends i have and how it felt good to be around them. I wanted Rainbow to be okay again, back to the way it used to be. If Dashie doesn't pull through, i don't know what i'll do. My train of thought was cut off when i heard someone say that Rainbow Dash is waking up, and i joined my friends watching over her. We all smiled when we say Rainbow's eyes slowly open and her hushed voice emerge, "Hey guys...you all came to see me?" It seemed like she didn't know that she almost died, "Rainbow, we are all here for you! Of course were here for you!" We all smiled at her and she smiled back with that light-hearted yet sad smile. I felt for the first time, hope, for Rainbow Dash. I felt like things were gonna be okay and things were gonna turn back to normal soon.

That night i slept well for the first time in a while. I felt good again, i felt like it was gonna be okay. The dreams i had were amazing and when i woke up, i felt amazing. I felt like i used to, happy and full of joy. I stepped out the door and started my walk to work. I started greeting pony's and saying things like "Good morning!" and "Have a good day!" It felt nice, being nice. When i stepped into the Sugarcube corner, i felt great. It felt like things were starting to get back to normal. I was making cupcakes that day at twice the speed, making ponies happy as i hand them there cupcakes. The day went back pretty quickly and before i knew it, i had to go. I stepped outside of the Sugarcube corner and didn't realize how dark it had actually gotten. Usually it wasn't that dark when i stepped outside, but i just shrugged it off and starting my eerie walk back home. There was no ponies about and i started to feel scared, nervous even. I started walking faster and faster until i was practically sprinting my way home. When i reached my house and shut the door quickly and sat down, taking heavy breathed from the massive sprint i just made. Im such a fool! i start laughing at my stupidity as i realize how stupid i was at running away from the darkness. I had forgotten the cakes made me work late for missing yesterday off. They told me the reason they weren't there was because i came it 30 minutes early, i felt stupid. I decided to call it a night and go to sleep.

She screamed it terror. I felt her body go cold as i stabbed her, again and again. The other filly watched as i stabbed her friend. Blood ran down her and poured onto the floor, like taps into the sink. "Please....stop..." She knew she was going to die anyway, so i delivered the final blow to her neck. She squealed then her face turned a solid pale as she started to suffocate from the lack of being able to breath. I stepped back and watched as she died, slowly. It took a solid 5 minutes until she either bled to death, or suffocated.

I didn't lunge forward and i didn't vomit. I just sat there and thought about it. Why? Why am i so fucked up! I punched the wall and blood started to drip from my hooves as i stepped out of bed and made myself some coffee. I thought i was happy again! I was angry, more at myself then anything. It made me feel sick, who i was. I took another gulp of my coffee and threw the rest out. Today was saturday, and i knew what i wanted to do.