Providing the Rope

I knew it! So I was right! Jamie has no mom! And her sister -who I found out, was named Jessica- was indeed actually the older sister by two years difference.

She was near the age nineteen when she died.

Reason why I found out was because my curiosity got the best of me and I asked Jamie at lunch about it.

I hate to make her feel uncomfortable but I know deep down that if I don't ask otherwise, the questions are going to eat away at me.

Turns out also, there's a reason why Jamie's so calm about it, she goes to consoling. She's been going ever since it happened.

Either way, as riveting as this all is, I'm still curious as how her mom died and why Jamie got in such a tough fight with her sister.

I mean, I know it was because of Jessica's boyfriend but even so, I feel like there's more to it then that.

I wonder, did Jamie feel responsible for Jessica?

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You know, I can't help but hate myself for thinking negatively about Jamie just because I didn't have all the pieces I assumed the worst.

Again.

I know growing up means: "learning from your mistakes."

But no matter how you look at it, I still thought in the back of my mind: "What if Jamie was a murderer?"

And for that reason alone, some times I doubt I'll ever grow up.

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Decided to finally watch Season three, but seriously? Thirteen episodes? What a rip off!

Ah well, least there's more ponies and less drama.