Without memories nor past

I woke up in bed with a gasp. Luna, who, for some reason that I didn't know at the time, had burrowed her muzzle into my chest, lifted her face in surprise. Her eyes were red and she looked like she had cried. When she realised I was awake a sigh of relief left her.

“I thought you would be asleep for a few years.”

“Why, did the connection break ?”

“No, I broke the dream, which was supposed to wake us up before that energy ball touched you.”

“So, you broke the connection, then why am I still here ?”

“Because, I broke the dream, not the connection, if I pop a dream, we simply wake up, it's the natural way of doing it, and it never does any damage. And I lied, I know why ponies fall into coma when the link breaks. It's because our dreams don't have time to separate, so when the dream ends, both of us get an equal part of it, but not the part we originally gave, so we both find ourselves with incomplete minds.”

“Wait, wait, wait, you said you get incomplete minds when you separate dreams, what the hay ?”

“It's because dreams are your mind, 'physically' represented. So by merging dreams I technically merge minds, but our souls prevent our minds from merging completely.”

“Oh, but you also said you were safe was that a lie too to make me feel better about this ?”

“Yes, and no; The supernatural healing abilities of an alicorn also apply to his or her mind. Every time our mind gets injured it simply heals itself.”

“Then how could Nightmare Moon exist ? She was a mental illness, wasn't she ? She should have been 'healed away'...”

“No, because she wasn't a thing like that, that's the simple way to describe her. She was more of an alter ego, but really, it's difficult to understand, even for me.”

“I see you have been crying, how long have I been away ?”

“Fifteen minutes, after five I was worried the connection had been broken, or that the ball of energy had touched you. I'm still confused why you didn't wake up immediately...”

“Couldn't have I been sleeping without dreaming ?”

“No, when a dream terminates, you wake up, and that's it. Although... If you immediately went to another plane of awareness... Do you remember anything ?”

“Nope, I directly went from the dream to here.”

“Well, let's not waste too much time on this; back to sleep. This time I won't enter your dreams though, our last attempt was kind of our last chance to get your memories back...”

“Does that mean I won't get my memories back ? Ever ?” I asked suddenly hit by a wave of disappointment.

“Maybe one day, but not that soon, as it seems. That reminds me, we need to find you a name... Pink-red ma-”

“It's just red, okay ?”

She rolled her eyes. “Okay, red mane, and pink-”

“White !”

“No. It's pink. Your coat is pink, and green eyes... I think 'Cherry Blossom' would sound too feminine, wouldn't it ?”

“Yeah...”

“How about just 'Cherry' ?”

“Meh, seems fine to me...”

“So, Cherry, let's get back to sleeping.” She immediately started my new name, which proved it would be my name for a pretty long time...

Getting out of the bed, I realised something; “Seems weird to have a name again...”

“Hey, where are you going ?”

“Back to my bed ?”

“Stay here, will be easier.” 'Why does she want me to stay ? Is it to do it ?'

“Okay, but why will it be easier ?”

“If they see you coming out of here at this hour, they're gonna suspect something.”

“Oh.” 'Good I had my head turned, otherwise she could've seen me blush.'

When I woke up I first looked for a clock – because I didn't want to get 'caught' by Celestia while sleeping there – and I found one which read 8:47. 'One hour and thirteen minutes until Luna has to raise the moon.' I decided to wait until nine to wake up Luna and then get some breakfast, but as I began to wait I noticed her eyes were actually open. “Good morning there.”

“Good morning Cherry, slept well ?”

“Of course, even though eight and a half hours of sleep don't seem to be enough for me...”

“See it that way: The less you sleep – without exaggerating, of course – the more time you have for more interesting things... Like spending time with me.”

“That's definitely something I’d wake up earlier for. Let's get some breakfast now.”

“Okay. Oh, and if somepony asks why you were here, or if you slept here, say you came ten minutes ago, and if he or she didn't realise it, he should get his eyes and ears checked out.”

Luckily, there was nopony in the hallway, probably due to a shift change. When we arrived at the dining room, there was nopony there either, so we took our seats and waited for our meals, and then we heard a feminine voice coming from the doorway: “Good evening, well, it's morning for you, so, good morning you two. Good to see you've not forgotten to wake up this time.” Teased the Sun goddess.

“Sister, I’ve already told you, the dream got modified to-”

“I know, I know, I was just joking.”

All in the sudden, a strange item caught my attention; “Hey, what's that ?”

“You mean the teapot ?”

“Yeah, I think...”

“Well, it's something used to make tea.”

“Er, and what's tea if I may ask ?”

“It's a drink, it's pretty relaxing most of the time. Do you want some ?”

“Yes, please.” She used her magic to fill a cup with the mysterious liquid, which, for some odd reason, made me notice something. “Oh, and now I know what you meant when you described Celestia's pranks... It's weird, my amnesia seems so... random. I mean it doesn't have patterns like 'delete memories of all the ponies'. For instance, I didn't know what this tea was, but I know what coffee is.”

“Interesting indeed...”

Something was different about the food, too. “I just realised, this is so much better than what we ate the other days...”

I was expecting the night princess to answer me but instead, the daily one did: “Yes, the day cooks are always doing a great job. You can get something warm to eat at any time of the day. From nine night to ten day.”

“Sister, ten day is zero night.”

“Yes, yes it is, but only clocks 'say' it that way, we ponies prefer saying ten.”

As we finished our first real meal in a few days we went for a walk through the gardens.

“What now?”

“What do you mean, what now ?”

“Well, what will you do now ? You need to find a job.”

“Couldn't I technically stay here ?”

“Yes, of course you can, but you'd still have to contribute to the Equestrian economy, you know.”

“Oh, I see... But...” I paused as a weird sadness overtook my heart. “That would mean I couldn't see you, if I worked during the day...”

“Why ? You could still find a nightly job, or even work at a nightly shift of a normal job. You could maybe try your hoof at cooking.”

“But I’d need to look for a job during the day...”

“And that would be at most a few days.”

“You're right, I’m just being silly. Are we going anywhere specific ?”

“Yes, I am leading us to that part of the garden with the moon flowers. I wonder if they could actually grow on the moon...”

We were sitting in between the flowers, talking, cuddling , and enjoying each other's company. I was observing her as she talked, when a silence finally filled the air, I knew exactly what to say to make that moment perfect. “You know you're beautiful, right ?” I waited for her response, which turned out to be a small blush on her cheeks. “I love you.” This oh so simple statement seemed to be so powerful, and even made her smile. But the smile was quickly replaced by an expression of guilt. “You know, I wasn't really honest with you from the beginning. I engaged in this relationship not because I liked you, but because I wanted to see if it would at least weaken a little bit the seal on your memories, and I thought your feelings for me weren't real. You knew nopony else as good as me, and you thought that your simple, friendly affection was love. But when you stepped between me and that ball of energy – which was really dumb, because it could have killed you, but not me – I understood your love for me was real, and then I actually gave you a chance, and realised I really like you... What I’m trying to say is that I... I think I’m in love with you. Please accept my apology for lying to you...” She lowered her gaze to meet the ground.

I used my hoof to lift her head and make her look in my eyes. “I love you and you know it, and the only thing that matters now is our love, so of course I accept it.” Right then I noticed how close we were, and that she was moving closer and closer to me, and that I was also moving forwards. I could feel her warm breath against my muzzle. A few moments later, we were locked in a kiss, our first kiss. At the beginning it was nothing more than a simple, plain kiss, but once our tongues began to dance, we grew more and more passionate, embracing each other with our hooves. Suddenly, her horn lit up and there was a flash around us. I found myself on the bed of the night's princess... And that same princess was next to me wearing a very, very seductive smile...

I awoke in that same bed, locked in a tight embrace with the blue alicorn who consumed all of my love. Her eyes were open and she was smiling at me. “Slept well ?”

“Of course I did. Well, how could I not with such a wonderful mare by my side ?”

“Well I, for one, preferred the time spent with you before napping.” She winked waiting for my reaction. My cheeks were burning, I could feel my face turning the same red as my mane.

“It's five night, our nap was pretty long. Sleeping during the night seems weird, but that was rather exhausting. Especially since I haven't done it in over a thousand years.”

“Well, I don't even remember when my last time was. So it must be a really long time ago... Bad jokes aside. What are we gonna do now ?”

“What we usually do; talk. We're not going to the garden, are we ? I’m tired.”

“Nah, I’d rather stay here; my legs are sore.”

There was a short, pleasant silence.

“You know, Luna, when I’m with you, I get that feeling in my chest. I just feel so happy. And it's like only you could give it to me. I have no idea who I am, nor do I know other ponies; but I know you're the best thing that could ever happen to me and I want to...” 'Do it ! No ! It's only been two days ! But our love is so strong ! No it only seems to me like it 'cause I’ve never experienced any other kind of love. But I know what I feel ! And I know it's real ! I’m gonna propose to her now ! I can't ! I don't even have a ring ! But she knows I can't get her a ring because of my situation.' “Tell you I think our love is something special, and that I couldn't get it from anypony else. I know I’ve already said that, but I want to say it again, I love you, I love you, IloveyouIloveyouIloveyou.”'Well, I’m definitely good at proposals, I can even do one because I’m so sure of myself.'

“I love you too, you know that.” With that, she planted a firm but sweet kiss on my lips, it still felt amazing, even after the 'better' things we had already done. “This relationship is going so fast... It's been like, two days, and we already had emotional sex. I don't regret anything, though.”

“What do you mean, 'emotional sex' ?”

“It wasn't sex for sex, it was loving sex. It wasn't fucking, it was making love.”

“Thank you, miss obvious.” I said right before kissing her deeply.

“Now that our love is real, we'll see what happens in your dreams next time. We need to find something to do until dawn... But I’m sure this won't be that hard...” She was wearing that seductive smile again, but it was quickly replaced by an expression of worry. “Oh shi- I just remembered I have a huge amount of paperwork to do...”

“I can help, will be done faster.”

“No, it's top secret... Sorry.”

“Oh... How long will it take ?” The disappointment was almost palpable in my voice.

“I'm not sure, six or seven hours maybe; it's huge. I had a week to do it, but I kind of forgot about it.”

She left the room and I decided to read a bit. Fort the first time since I could remember, I was actually able to read, it was probably because it was the first novel I’ve had between my hooves since my amnesia. My old room didn't have any novels; only documentary books.

When I woke up I directly quit the room, leaving Luna sleeping peacefully in her bed; during the dream she had told me she went to bed really late and didn't want to be awoken.

The dream itself hadn't been surprising; the shield was still there at hundred percent.

I had slept for a long time during our mid-night nap, even though it was only seven day.

I went to the garden, I wanted to see what it looked like during the day. It was beautiful, but it just couldn't be compared to Luna's creation. After more or less an hour, I noticed I was practically starving. I wanted to wait for Luna to wake up and then breakfast with her, but alas, my stomach had different plans.

Arriving at the dining room I spotted Celestia sitting at the table. “Good morn- Well, it's evening for you, so – Good evening Celestia.”

“Good morning Cherry.” Seeing the confused look on my face, she explained: “Luna told me this morning before she went to bed she had given you this name. She's still asleep, isn't she ? She went to bed at two day.” Nodding, I sat at the table and levitated the teapot over; I loved tea, and I didn't understand how I could forget about something as delicious. I was drinking the delicious liquid until I realised the day princess' confused stare.

“Your magic... why is it blue ?”

“It's not blue, it's pink silly.”

“Right now it was blue.”

“No, it's pink, see ?” I focused on my teacup which was quickly enveloped in a midnight blue miasma and lifted into the air, only to be brutally dropped a few instants later. “Ah ! Why is it blue ?! Am I mutating ?! Am I gonna die ?! Idonwannadieidonwan-” My panicking was cut off by a scream; not a normal, quiet scream, a scream loud enough to shatter the room's windows and make the table shake. “LUUNAAAA!!!”

”How does it come that I can't have a lover when you can even have a crush on your prized student ?!”

“You know exactly I didn't choose her, my hormones did !”

“Yeah, but you know exactly that you need to already have feelings for the pony your body wants to mate with ! And the only reason you didn't follow what your body wanted was because she already had a marefriend ! And she even married her now !”

“Because of who ? Remember, I changed the law so that they could marry !”

“Yes, but that still doesn't explain why I can't have a lover !”

“You've known each other for, like, five days and you already had sex ! Actually, you know what ?! I’m fine with it, just don't come crying to me when it turns out to be nothing more than a sexual relationship !” With that, she ran out of, throwing the door open, squashing me against the wall. “That's what you get for eavesdropping.”

I entered my lover's room only to be greeted with some berating. “Why did you tell her ?”

“I didn't tell her anything. She flipped out when she saw my magic was blue instead of pink.”

“Aww, that's so cute. It also proves my sister is a complete moron.”

“Is there anything I should know but I don't ?”

“Yes, there is. A unicorn's magic can rarely ever change colours. Except if he or she's in love and has gone all the way with his or her lover.”

“What do you mean 'gone all the way' ? Oh, I see.”

“Yes, I thought it would sound more poetic than just 'had sex with his or her lover'.”

“And why did you say it was cute ? I mean it shows my love for you, but you already knew that.”

“No, I mean, being spotted like that as a couple is the most adorable way of getting spotted, well except if Celestia decides to blow up half of the castle's windows by over amplifying her royal Canterlot voice. Most of the unicorns who know about this decide to hide it, so only younger unicorns get caught like this, and it's adorable. I remember when Twilight came to the castle panicking because her magic was pink instead of purple. It was just so freakishly cute.”

“Why would they hide it, aren't they proud of having their partner ? I'm definitely proud of being your coltfriend.”

“They like to avoid questions, and it's something pretty private, and ponies don't like when everypony knows about their sexual life.”

“Oh, and how do you change your colour back ? It's only a hypothetical question, because, like I’ve already said, I’m proud, and besides, blue is manlier than pink.” She rolled her eyes. “Hmm, 'manlier', what a strange word, I wonder where it comes from...”

“You know, when you use your magic, you focus on what you want to do, and voilà, it works, but when all your thoughts are consumed by something or somepony special, your magic gets influenced. It's a subliminal effect, you can't really control it, the only thing you can do is revert back to your old colour, but even then the change isn't permanent, if you use your magic without concentrating on not concentrating on your love, it's gonna be the second colour.”

“Do you think Celestia will finally accept our love ?”

“She's gonna have to.”

“You know, I think I’ll write our story down, maybe somepony out there will like it, and if I’m a good writer, I’ll be maybe able to work like this.”

/*Author's note: Sorry it took so long, I finished this on friday, but I could only publish this today.

Questions ? Confusions ? Tell me in the comments :D*/