A Lonesome Dreamscape

Oh god I'm cornered. She ran me into an alley that ended almost right away; no way out. No escape...

Her horn began glowing extremely vibrant as each step she took made me want to try to scale the building that was blocking me into this place.

"No, Luna! No!" I screamed as I turned around to see her three feet away from me.

"Thou shalt taste the rainbow, BITCH!"

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I don't where I went wrong...

I showed up like Celestia and Twilight asked me to, so I could learn pony stuff; got a party instead, made some friends and even got drunk as fuck.

And this is where I end up...

"This was all easily avoidable, you know this right?"

Exhaling slowly I responded. "Yes, Luna..."

"Do you apologize for your crime, than?" If I say yes, I'm lying. If I say no, this will only get worse.

Hmmm... "For what am I apologizing for?" You're a dipshit, you know that? Yes, brain...

"For. What?" She walked up to me and pressed her snout against my nose. "For kissing Honesty!" Who the fuck is- Oh, right. Element names and shit.

"I. Didn't. Kiss. HER." I growled. "She fucking said the only reason she did that was because I won and she was drunk out of her mind! You had to have heard her, you were there!" This is just bullshit now.

"All WE heard was how loudly you moaned into her mouth." Oh fuck that!

"Oh fuck that, Luna! You know for a fact I wouldn't enjoy it unless it was you on the other end!" This is it. "Luna, I'm done with this shit. You've been toying with me for hours, with absolutely no fucking point behind it." Shes literally been toying with me for two hours. I've been upside down in her magical grasp as she hit me with random spells.

I'm now purple, green, neon pink polka-dotted, have bananas on my feet instead of shoes and almost positive I'm indeed wearing a pair of those fake glasses with a large nose and stupid mustache.

"Let me out of your game or I'm going to get the urge to tell Tia about this, and I swear I WILL tell her." She looked slightly scared but also fairly depressed. "Luna... Just put me down so we can talk." She obliged and her horn lost all its shimmer as I slowly fell down to the ground; she fell back onto her haunches.

I back to standing upright; my body returning to normal, all the colors fading with the glasses and random ass banana shoes. Luna sat there, her head hung low, water streaming down her face.

"Oh, Luna..." I sat down directly in front of her. "You have to know by now, Lulu." She giggled a little through her tears when I said her pet name. "You're the only mare I will ever, alive or dead, love for all my days as deeply as I can. You're my entire world now, nothing matters but you..." She looked up to me; water still steadily pouring down her fuzzy cheeks.

"W-we wish to believe that..."

Remember what I told you before..." I moved as close to her as I could, holding her cheek in one hand, holding the back of her head in the other. "I promised you, Lulu. I will always, ALWAYS love you. I will try as hard as I can to make you happy, to hear your laugh, to see your smile that could warm any heart..."

She choked through her words while trying to speak. "How can we be sure you won't... Won't leave us." Stop, please, it's hurting to hear you say this...

"What else can I do to make you understand..." My eyes began to tear up. This was too much, I can't take this torture. "I left my entire world behind for you; my life, my friends, family, entire universe just to be with you. To my family and friends; anyone I ever knew. I'm dead."

I gripped her into a tight hug, crying harshly as I held her. " I just can't watch you do this. You cry and cry; leaving my heart to crack with every drop." It feels like I'm actually dying... " I thought you were mine; and I yours... Was I wrong, Luna?"

"No... You were not wrong."

Than why?! Why do you still cry over something so easily understood? Why do you think I would ever feel the need to leave you behind? Know in your heart, and in that thick skull of yours, that I love you..."

"Before you, I had another. I dare not speak his name... He promised he loved me for as long as he would live; he knew we were eternal and wouldn't be ravaged by the age of time, but he cared for us nonetheless." My grip loosened slightly. "He was quite the gentlecolt to us; gently speaking words of love to us in the night. But one night we stumbled apon him and a maid for the castle... He insisted that she provoked him into doing such things with her, but when we asked the maid, more forced, then asked. She told us he would have fired her and made her leave the castle; be thrown into the cold of the night if she was to tell anypony what had been going on for the past 6 months."

Six, months? He did this to her for six months, not caring what Luna felt?!

"Then, after being imprisoned on the moon; our moon, for a thousand years... We couldn't help think that every pony we had ever known or cared for had forsaken us. Not even sister would remember what we once stood for..." The tears. They won't fucking stop... "Alone. Nopony to talk to; nopony but HER... Having it whisper words of hate and loathing, telling us we were nothing, that nopony will ever love me. Centuries of torture, with her." Lulu, why haven't you told me? " After a few hundred years with her; we gave in. Nopony will care for us."

"Why didn't you ever- "

"This pain, Seth. Have you felt this as well? Can you without a doubt, truly understand my pain?" Not at this rate... " Alone with her, I learned only I can understand... Only I can feel this, and stay as I should. Do you see now, see why I jump to conclusions? So easy to trust somepony, or someone, to ever be close to me..."

I let her go, out of my grasp.

"Only WE can stay like this... We were meant to be alone and suffer by our lonesome self..."

This isn't something I would have thought would happen; not something I can handle anymore. The water gliding down my face wasn't going to stop any time soon, now. "Alright, Luna." Staring at me with empty eyes without speaking is all she did. "You win..."

I stood up and looked down at her. Leaning down and kissing her forehead I whispered, "I'll never know how that feels..." And walked away, tears falling and hitting the dirt road beneath me.

"We knew you didn't care..." Luna spoke to herself as she sat in the alley; emotionless.

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"FUCK THIS ENTIRE GOD DAMN WORLD!" I screamed, storming through Ponyville to my new destination.

I'm done with this place. Three days is all it took, huh? Not surprised, I guess. I'm leaving; I don't care what the fuck Luna said about me not being able to. I'm fucking going home, getting up from my 'coma' and finding a nice and dark hole to crawl into and die.

"Sorry, Tia, but I'm fucking done with this planet." I said to the empty streets as I made my way back to the party.

"Seeeeeeeeeeeeeth! You made it back!" No, please tell me SHE isn't drunk...

"Yup, came back alright!" I said fainting happiness and rubbing the tears away, best I could.

"Well lets have a drink! Rainbow woke up and started pouring a mug of something into my mouth." Shee started to whisper after the first part. "But don't worry. I tricked her to stop, by drinking it myself!" She said this, smiling brightly up to me, like she was insanely smart.

Should I ask anyways? Yeah, fuck it. What's the worst that could happen? "Twilight, can I ask you to do something for me?" She looked up and gave me that good ol' drunken smile.

"Of course! Go ahead Seth." Lets see if she'll try, even if she's wasted.

"Come with me. Can we head back to your library? This needs to be done in private." She blushed and tried to speak before I butted in. "Not that, you little drunkard." I told her as I pat her head in amusement.

We got to the Golden Oaks Library, and after Twilight spent a few minutes fumbling with her keys, we got in. I sat on the couch, Twi opting to sit on the floor and stare at me.

"..."

"..."

"So are we gunna do it or what?" She asked with her head tilted.

"God damnit, I said no, Twi!"

"Fine.. Next time just don't make it seem like you wanted to..." What? Are you fucking kidding? Stupid ponies with their %60 cider...

"There wont be a next time anyways..." Her ears perked up at this.

"Whats that supposed to mean?"

"Send me home, Twi. I just want to leave..." Awkward silence time I'm guess-

"Mmmk." Huh?

"Really? Just like that?"

"Sure, why not. Already figured out how to send you back in case you wanted to visit or something." How the fuck did she do that?

"How?!"

"Element of magic, Seth. Magic is my mother-bucking job!!" She yelled at me and flailed her hooves around. I. Love. Drunk. Twilight. "Also I've had a fascination with dream magic, and you said Luna was the one who brought you here from a 'void' you ended up in after trying to get here yourself. Second state or what ever it is you call it, is really just an astral projection of your body and if you were to go back to the dreamscape Luna visits all the time, then you could go back to your own world anytime you wanted. " Whaaa... "Only REAL reason YOU couldn't get here yourself is because to be able to jump dimensions, it takes a huge amount of magic that you obviously don't have. Or at least a being with enough magic to pull you here, and make the transport." How... I haven't told her any of that when I was here the other day... "Oh my Celestia, I need another drink!" She said, grabbing a bottle and chugging it back. Not morrre...

"So you can actually do that?"

"The buck did I just say? ELEMENT OF MAGIC! I can do anything!" She yelled, raising both her hooves for drama's sake... Too bad they were her back hooves and she fell onto her stomach.

My hand hit my forehead so hard, I think I just made a sound-wave...

"Twilight, can you get up and do this already..." Rolling onto her side and standing up, she acted like nothing even happened.

"Yes. Now, if you would be so kind as to step over here please." She said as she pointed to an X on the wooden floor.

"Yeah, just hurry about it." I walked over and stood on the taped X, waiting for her to take me home.

"Alright, alright. This takes a lot of magic for anyone but Luna to cast, so hold on." Stop saying her name... "Here we go!" She shouted as her horn lit up with a soft purple; slowly growing brighter and enveloping her body, til her eyes shot open and glowed white before hitting me with a beam of white light.

"Goodbye... Luna..." I said as my final last words in this land, before closing my eyes tight.

When I opened my eyes, expecting to see a random hospital room, I was greatly disappointed. And extremely pissed off.

"You really think I would drink, Seth? I'm the level headed one in the group. Rainbow tried to pour cider down my throat but I just pushed her away with a little magic."

'You bitch! How could you, all I wanted was to go home!' I tried to scream at her and voice my outrage, but I couldn't. She fucking MUTED ME?!

"Please don't try to speak, it's annoying to hear mumbling in my head when I cast that spell."

'Cunt! Cunt! Cunt! Cunt! Cunt!'

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Exactly Two hours, fourteen minutes, thirty six seconds earlier...

"Wasn't my faulllt!" Seth screamed as he ran away, Luna hot on his heels.

"Hehehehe, those two are perfect for each other." I said to Pinkie, drinking my 'filly' punch.

"I KNOW!. Princess Luna's never been happy like this before!" She said while jumping into the punch bowl and disappearing from site, my eye starting to twitch. Fourth wall! Fourth wall! I screamed in my head.

"Uhm, Miss Twilight. Are you alright?" The cracking voice of a filly shook me from my mental pain cause by the pink mare.

"Of course I am, why wouldn't I be?!"

"Yer eye's doing that twitchy thang. Mah sis told me that it happens when y'all go inta what she said was a 'panic attack'." And there it goes again...

"You tell Applejack she can go bu-"

"We only came over here to ask you to do something for us. Involves Seth." Interesting...

"That's right!" Applebloom yelled like she had forgotten the whole reason they showed up.

"Well what do you need? Can't you just get him yourselves when he comes back?" Sweetiebelle blushed a little when I said this.

"We were hoping you could give this to him for us..." She gave me an envelope that was only partially sealed and clearly had a piece of crumpled up paper shoved inside, slightly sticking out. "Tell him I really like him and he's super cool... Please..." She said almost quiet enough not to even hear her. A little admirer? How sweet!

"No problem, Sweetie. I'd be happy to." I said with a kind smile.

"Thank you miss Twilight..." She whispered to me before galloping away, leaving her two crusader friends behind.

"Heh, she's kinda all shy like, bout this." Applebloom said while rubbing the back of her head with a hoof, and pulling Scootaloo along with her as she ran after Sweetie.

Ok, now where did Seth go? I thought I saw him run off that way, but I'm not too sure...

"Oh! Maybe Pinkie knows?" Speaking of the pink devil, she's currently hanging upside down on a chandelier... Connected to a cloud... MIGRANE.

Walking over to the pink maned mass of illogical conundrums, I began shouting over to her to get her attention. "Pinkie!" Her head lifted lifted and she spun around, doing a backwards double backflip-summersault, while taking out a piece of her mane and throwing it into her mouth... And eating it. Did she just?

"Heya, Twi! Want some cotton candy?" I KNEW IT WASN'T HAIR.

"Uh, no thanks Pinkie." I told her, pushing her hoof full of pink 'mane' away. "I was actually wondering if you happened to see where Seth and Luna ran off to?"

"Yuppers!" She said, throwing her 'mane' into her mouth and swallowing it. Ick... "Follow me!"

This will either end one of two ways. I find Seth and give him the letter; or I wind up in the middle of the Everfree by myself. Again. Oh well, ONWARD! "Lead the way, Pinkie."

Bouncing down the street, Pinkie yelled back to me. " This is gunna be SOMUCHFUN!" I've doomed myself...

"Pinkie?" I asked the wind as it blew past my hooves. "Are you serious?!" I don't where the heck she went! One second she's in front of me talking about frosting, the next she's bucking gone! Ugh, this hurts to think about...

Suddenly I heard a mare scream, and began galloping as fast as I could in the direction I heard her scream.

"No, Luna! No!" Seth?

"Thou shalt taste the rainbow, BITCH!" Damn, Luna!

I peaked down an alley they were screaming in, and looked at Seth turned green with a funny mustache. Giggling with a hoof to my mouth, to silent it, I turned around and walked a for a moment, before sitting against the wall of a building. "I'll give them some time." I said to myself, not knowing what was actually going to take place.

Ok, its been way too lon-

"You'll never understand!" What?

"I'm done, Luna!" I watched from my spot against the building as Seth stormed out of the alley, tears faling from his face as he screamed into the night. I walked into the alley and saw Luna, laying there; emotionless...

"What happened?" I said while watching as Seth continued down the street, yelling to the sky, and making his way back to the party. Teleporting back, Rainbow got up from her drunken state, and started saying something about 'needing to drink this sweet ass shit' and trying to dump a mug of cider down my mouth. "No thanks, Rainbow. For important matters to attend to." I told her while pushing her away with a little spell. I saw Seth walking up to us, his head hanging low. Hmmmm...

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Back to the present...

"I was wondering what happened with you and Luna, and I figured getting you alone to talk about it, would be the easiest way."

'God damn it Twilight, let me go!'

"Why? So you can go to Celestia and tell her to make a way to send you back? So you can wander around town yelling and getting drunk?"

'YES. For the love of god, YES!'

"No." My fucking temper just hit an all-time high. She levitated something over to her and ripped it open.

'The fuck is that?'

"This? This is a letter Sweetie Belle gave me to give to you when I found you."

'Just send me home... Please...'

"You don't even want to know what it says? This little filly poured her heart into this letter and you're not going to want to listen? Too bad. I'm reading it to you."

'Just stop talking, and read it, than.'

"Dear, Seth. You're the bestest ever! I never met a pony like you before but that doesn't matter even the teeniest bit cause I knew right away that you were extra sweet to me! When I came to say sorry for daddy being mean to the princess I was awfully scared... But you picked me up and said I was cute! I've never been called cute before. Or adorable! So that was super awesome of you to do that for me! I reallllllllllllly like you a lot. If I could, I would make you my special somepony in an instant! But I can see the way you act around princess Luna, she smiles a whole bunch now that you're here. I bet you love her with all your heart, huh? I can see she feels the same way about you! You're the bestest pony I'm ever going to meet and I want us to be the closest of friends! -Sweetie Belle- P.S. I love you..."

I just let her words sink in. She loves me? I met her twice... For like 2 minutes in total... Bestest pony, eh? Heh heh.

"Settled down enough to talk about this now?" She asked as I was slowly brought down to the couch and let out of her magic.

I cupped my hands on my head. "I've met her twice." I said in a dull voice. "Twice, and she feels this strongly about me? For a time of 2 minutes or at most 10 she was able to see how much I care about Luna... A child, could see this..."

"You're the first one to ever be this kind to her, Seth. Both of them actually. Luna's barely had a life beyond rising the moon in the past. Her entire life was taken for a thousand years, then you come along and treat her like she's the most valuable thing in the universe."

"She is, Twi..."

"Then how did this happen?"

"... She said she didn't want to be hurt again. Apparently she had another coltfriend before me, ages ago. He fucked her over by messing around with a maid in the castle the entire time they were together. And as you imagine, she wouldn't have taken it well, just as anyone would..." I took a deep breath. " She won't listen to anything I say. She doesn't believe me, Twilight. I don't think she even cares if I'm alive or dead at this point..."

She stared at me, as I felt tears starting to well in my eyes. "What if I could show you that was a lie?"

"Oh really? I've tried everything I can... Nothing will change her mind now."

"You tried everything YOU could do. I can more than you think, Seth." She said as her magic lit up again, and I was brought into the air, about ten feet above the floor.

"The hell are you doing?" I asked in an almost scared, yet still pissed off tone.

"Showing you, you're wrong about her."

"Wha-"

"Now sit still and just listen and watch." She said as I tried to speak again, but couldn't. She muted me. A-fucking-gain?! I tried flailing my arms around but noticed my hand was starting to fade from site; along with the rest of me.

She winked at me and walked out the door, leaving me to float in the library and wait for her to come back.

'Fuck life...'

I saw her smiling confidently to me, as she trotted back in, leaving the door open an-

"Why are we here, Sparkle..." Luna? She sounds so hollow.

"I felt you should see something." Luna still looked fairly unamused by Twilight. "Seth came here earlier, you know." My name made her ears twitch but she still remained emotionless. "He showed up, pleading to me in tears, to send him home. Send him back to where he came from and let him forget about this entire world and everpony he met."

"Interesting, Sparkle. If this is all you wanted to tell us, we will be-"

"I did it for him, Luna."

"Impossible." She spat, as she turned around from the door she was walking towards. "You don't even have the abilities, IF possible, Magic." She's spitting every word at her now.

"Exactly, Luna. 'Magic', as you call me. I'm the Element of Magic; limitless power, simply needing the correct amount of concentration and control to cast the spell necessary to send him where he wanted to go." She started to trot around Luna, while she spoke; almost mocking her. "Interdimensional travel is indeed a hard spell to cast, but easy enough to learn when you have the type of power I do."

Why does Luna look so pissed off?

"Did you truly succeed, Sparkle?" Nothing but anger...

"Would you like to see him, Luna?"

"Yes..." She said quietly.

Twilight's horn began to glow and a random portal looking thing, started forming in the middle of the library' images slowly starting to form in the watery looking substance.

'That's my dorm... That's me. Twilight, how the fuck did you get these images?' She just looked up to me and smiled.

Images of myself getting up from bed, getting dressed, going to my morning psychology class. Luna stared at me in the memories of my lost world, anger softening and turning distraught. Flashes of myself going through the motions of the day, warping slightly and distorting until a memory of a few years ago came into view.

Luna's expression softened completely whens he gazed apon the murial I made. The time when I first met Jake... The full moon I painted. She tried reaching out and touching the image, only making the portal flash quickly past it and show me, sitting at my work desk, crying as I added the final touches to the sketch I did of Luna before I left...

"He did not forget us..." She said slowly; eyes beginning to glisten as she fell to her stomach.

"How could he, Luna? He's yours..."

"Luna couldn't hold it in anymore. Screams of anguish and sorrow filled the library as she sobbed, screaming and yelling incoherently while clutching her chest, as if she were dying.

"Whyyyy!" Luna screeched through her tears and baling openly. "Why did you say that?!?!" Anger and sorrow accompanying her voice.

'Oh sweet lord. How is this helping, Twilight?!'

"I said it to help you..."

"HOW?!" She bellowed at her. "How is this helping us Sparkle?!" She stood on her hooves and faced Twilight. "What pain has a child such as you ever felt?! We loved him, unconditionally..." She said as her legs wobbled and she tried to stay standing but couldn't. "Never will we have this feeling again. Never will we laugh; never will we feel cared for again; never will a being make us smile or laugh! Sister is in no comparison to him! And he's gone! TAKEN FROM US IN A SINGLE MOment of weakness..." She started deflating and becoming quieter til she said nothing at all.

"But I thought you liked being, Luna? I thought you didn't care for him anymore?" Luna just laid there, sobbing into her hooves as she curled into a ball on the floor. "Wasn't you, who said it was better to be alone. That way no pony can hurt you?"

"We said that centuries ago! How did you know all these things?!" She screamed, as if the world was coming down on her. Hell, from what I can tell from up here; it is.

"You left a little too much in the sky, that night, Luna. You should be careful what you leave for everypony to hear and view if. Be careful what memories you leave for all of us..."

"..." Luna stopped her crying, stopped her screams. She uncurled, limbs sprawling out, aimlessly.

"Luna?" Her body didn't move as she spoke.

"Thank you Magic..."

"F-for what?" She asked, almost terrified by Luna's now completely hollow voice.

"For opening the wound, again.." She looked over to Twilight, showing her, her eyes. "We feared we might be happy for once; truly happy... But it turns out it was just a little scare. Thank you for letting the pain spill out, leaving us to wallow in it..."

'Twilight, I swear to god if you don't do something I will slit your fucking throat and watch the blood pour out.' She glared at me violently.

"Luna... What if he was back? What then?"

She lifted her head and body into a sitting position. "If he was back, Magic? If Seth somehow came back... I couldn't show my face to him... Not after what I said..."

"Would you apologize? Would you beg for his forgiveness? Just let everything that happened fade into a distant memory to be forgotten?"

"Yes... All and more, Sparkle." She said dejectedly.

Twilight stared up to me and winked with a small smile.

'Bitch just because you help with this shit, doesn't mean I'm not forgetting you made her cry this much...' She backed away, closer and closer to the door, as I floated down to the floor; the invisibility fading away as she left; the door closing shut making Luna jump slightly.

"Everypony leaves me eventually..." She said as she turned around from the door and saw my form come into view.

"I'm never leaving, Luna." I said to her as I tried to take a step forward; not fucking happening.

"SETH?!" Oh. My. God. She tackled me into wall on the other side of the room. I think I actually heard a crack. My back or the wall, I don't know. Doesn't matter right now; all that does matter is the sobbing mare laying on top of me, trying to say multiple things at once; trying to express what she feels...