Who Do I Think I Am

What DO I want?

Love, Acceptance, Joy

Do I deserve them?

I hope that I do

I try to grasp these things

But I am like a fish in

Dank, icy water

Breath stripped from my lungs

Pain in living hated

Never able to reach, even the surface

Or the world of "Happy"

How many more times will I try

Just to find my dreams broken,

Hearts smashed and shattered

Friendships battered like an acorn that has been run over by a truck

How many more times will I be lied to?

How many more times will I take it?

Why do I deserve it?

What have I done?

I'm so sorry...