Who Do I Think I Am

Desire held deep in my heart

For the one who takes my breath away

Coursing through my veins like a serpent

The one I long for in the dusky twilight

I never wanted to leave

Thought I was in for the rest of my life

Lives completely intertwined

Ripped apart at the very core

Loves last high tried to linger

But my heart turned to ice

A fire raged while the stone attacked my mind slowly and painfully

The moon as my sole company

On nights where I am riddled with nightmares from the past

Ghosts that still chill my bones

I hope to warm this heart

One near fatal nosedive is not a reason to stay numb

Once again opening my heart may be the hardest thing

I must let it feel the love and passion it once did

It may never be the same

I still have to try

The flutter of a young child's hear now replaced with a faint distressing putter

Just bundled up in my own self doubt

One more day of endless trials

I may never let my self believe the truth