Dear Book,

It has been some time since we last spoke. I guess that’s good, it means I have a lot to share.

Do you remember my last entry? I have found a new name, one that is not a lie like my old one. The caregivers did not like it and my friends found it odd. But it’s who I am now, Nonsense. I offered no explanation as to why I chose that name...sorry about that.

It’s simple if you think about it. So often when ponies talk to me, I hear the white noise. It makes no sense, they speak to me in nonsense. Equally, I’m beginning to suspect I sound just as nonsensical when I share my thoughts and ideas. It would explain why I can make my friends laugh so easily when I never remember telling a joke.

Greeneyes has been the only one to embrace my new name. At first, my best friend seemed sad, voicing that it sounded like I was being insulted. I explained my reasons just as I told you. Greeneyes did not understand, but excepted.

Redmane takes the opportunity of my new name to make fun of me. In fact, I’m starting to think Redmane makes fun of me a lot, I just never noticed before. Could Redmane be the bully I once mentioned? I didn’t think so, but it is a possibility. I would ask if I thought I’d get a honest answer. Maybe I’ll ask anyway?

The caregivers, how ever many there are, (I find myself no longer caring) have steadfastly refused to call me Nonsense. But with weeks of refusing to respond to Dreaming Blue, they eventually gave in.

I still do not understand what I should do with my special talent. The idea of speaking my mind and thoughts to anypony save Greeneyes is unpleasant. I keep remembering the teacher, how upset that pony was at me. It might be wrong to share how I think?

Greeneyes likes the things I have to say, telling me it’s different, interesting, funny. I don’t think I’m funny. I know you don’t...maybe I’ll share some more of my ideas with you, see what you think?

I hope you understand if I don’t and just keep telling you things that happen.

-Nonsense

***

You know what’s funny about dreaming, Book? It’s that so often we never remember our dreams when we wake. Sometimes I would have fleeting memories, but they would soon fade. It was never a loss for we always have more dreams, don’t we?

I still don’t dream. And now I feel ashamed for having forgotten all the dreams that came before my cutie mark. I’m not bitter or regret earning my cutie mark. It’s just, I would have liked to enjoyed my dreams more had I known they would end.

At night, I still watch the moon, pretending the alicorn in it is watching me. I can’t remember when I last slept. I don’t even lay down anymore. Sitting upright, hind legs tucked underneath me, that’s my nightly stance until the sun rises. I suspect I drift to sleep sometimes as I will experience lapses in time. But it is a dark, empty sleep.

I hope you can dream for me

-Nonsense

***

Hi Book,

Today was the last day of school. I’m glad, classes have been getting hard, more confusing. While it is thrilling to be free, I am also sad. When school starts again, Greeneyes will be attending the school for unicorns. That means I will see Greeneyes less.

But I don’t think it’ll keep me to down. It is the summer and I intend to spend as much time playing with Greeneyes and Redmane as possible.

Did I tell you Redmane got a cutie mark? It was just the other day in a game of hoofball. I already forgot what it is, but it is sports related! Just like I thought it would be

Now all of us have our cutie marks. Well everyone except...

I just looked back in the older entries you have. I had almost forgotten about Yellowcoat...why would I forget about Yellowcoat? Wasn’t Yellowcoat my friend?

Anyway, like I was saying, I don’t know if Yellowcoat has a cutie mark yet. But the rest of us now do. I guess that really does mean we’re growing up. I wonder what adult ponies do? The ones I see are always busy doing something. I don’t know if I want to be busy like that.

***

It’s been awhile Book.

The summer is almost up. I don’t want it to end even though I think I hate summers.

OH! That’s perfect! Remember I said I had ideas that aren’t funny but Greeneyes finds them funny? I’m gonna share one with you now

I hate summers. They are hot unless you’re in the water and it’s just too easy to start sweating. I had told Greeneyes this.

“So do you like winter better?” My friend asked.

That’s when I explained that no, no I did not like winters ether. It is much too cold and if you tried to go swimming you would freeze. I don’t like not being able to swim.

This brought a look of confusion to Greeneyes’ face. “So you hate winter because you can’t swim and you hate summer because...you can?”

“Exactly!” I had yelled that, thrilled thinking I finally got through to somepony. But that’s when Greeneyes laughed, commenting that I was being silly again.

What do you think Book? That wasn’t funny! I guess I’m glad Greeneyes thought it was. But I wasn’t trying to be funny.

-Nonsens

***

Dear Book,

Something strange happened today. Redmane, Greeneyes and I had all been playing, but then Greeneyes wanted to go on a walk with me. Redmane seemed annoyed, saying something that was just white noise. Whatever it was it had caused Greeneyes to blush.

I don’t remember most of what we talked about, different random stuff mostly. But I do remember Greeneyes bringing up about adults coming to get us. She had used one of the words I don’t understand again, but I’ve learned that when that word is used, whatever it is, it means adult ponies come and take you away.

Apparently, since she was now at the unicorn school (I found out it’s for gifted pony. But in a different way, not gifted like me) there was a bigger chance of adults taking her away from our home. This upset me and I almost started to cry, telling my friend I didn’t want them to be taken.

That’s when Greeneyes hugged me and made me a promise

“Even if (white noise kicked in, but it was basically ‘adults come and take me away’) I promise to still come visit you as much as I can. We can still play and hang out.”

That had made me smile. I felt happy in knowing even if Greeneyes left, I wouldn’t be forgotten and being allowed to still see my friend meant I wouldn’t forget Greeneyes.

It was really perfect until the strange thing happened. Mine and Greeneyes’ lips touched. It wasn’t an accident, of that I’m sure. It was deliberate but I don’t know why. It only lasted a moment and I remember Greeneyes blushing terribly when it was over. Nothing was said as the dinner bell was rung and we had to go back inside.

I know about hugs and nuzzles. My friends and I would do them all the time. Not so much anymore though. This lip thing, it felt similar but different. Like a closer connection was being made between myself and Greeneyes...I don’t think I like it.

Something inside me feels uneasy. Whatever connection was trying to be made, I don’t want it. I’m going to have to explain that to Greeneyes tomorrow.

-Nonsense

***

Today was uneventful.

I just wanted to let you know things went fine with Greeneyes. I explained how the connection we have is the way it’s supposed to be. Any bad connections needed to be avoided so we could remain close.

Greeneyes seemed happy and understood.

-Nonsense

***

Hello Book,

I’ve come to a revelation. I HATE school. I never minded it much before, but now ECK!!! The white noise is so horrible now. Nearly every time a teacher opens their mouth it’s all I hear. I try to fill in the blanks best I can and seem to do a good job at it. But then the tests come.

Those damn tests that make no sense and ask me question I don’t understand. It makes me see the white noise! I don’t like seeing the white noise. Hearing it is fine but seeing it is a no! Before it was easy to avoid, I just didn’t look at my eyes in the mirror.

But with all the tests and lessons it feels like the majority of my day is spent staring at white noise.

Night, I like nights. Nights have no white noise to hear or see. It’s quiet and I can look at the moon. I wish I could remember the alicorn’s name, I recall it being pretty.

No

No the name isn’t pretty, the name was changed to be scary. Why would the moon alicorn have a scary name?

Stupid history, I should just start making up my own so I can at least fill in the blanks on those tests.

Another thought for another time I guess.

So Night and when I talk to Greeneyes. Those are the only times I enjoy myself. Night is peaceful and Greeneyes lets me talk about all the weird ideas in my head. It’s a great way to clear my mind. But sometimes Greeneyes wants to talk about other things like the unicorn school or a lot of white noise talk. I don’t like that.

In fact I’ve noticed more white noise talk coming from Greeneyes. Whenever my friend stands too close to me or holds my hoof. I can’t figure out what’s trying to be said. Though I highly doubt it matters.

I’m going to go look at the moon now. Maybe even make up a song for the moon alicorn.

-Nonsens

***

Hahaha! I am in so much trouble! And I don’t even care! In fact it’s...it’s funny! Remember when I got in trouble before and how scared and sad I was? Well not anymore!

I feel...good! You know why Book!? Because I openly used my special talent!

Hold on, let me get my test paper and I’ll share with you.

Okay, I’m gonna share with you one of my questions and answers. I’m sorry if the question is nonsense (Heh, see what I did there?) There’s a lot of white noise on it so I’ll fill in the blanks best I can

Question. In what war did our (ruler?) lay down the treaty between the (flying lion birds) and (something mic something or other) to thereby establish that (bla bla bla my eyes hurt from the noise!)

My Answer: War comes about for a desire to have peace, because if you don’t go to war then the other team will attack first. Those are the rules. And if the sun says otherwise it means the sun is a liar! Also who cares about lion birds? Dip them in hot sauce and feed them to the something mic something or others. Also if our ruler, whatever the sun’s name is, is supposed to be about harmony and peace, why aren’t more wars going on!? I guess royal sun butt is too busy having a royal cake baked on the royal flank.

I don’t even remember writing half of that but it’s all true! Normally I’d only say things like that to Greeneyes but today, wow! I just let it out!

Caregivers (I’m starting to suspect there’s really only one, not four) said I got no dessert (I hate desert) and had to go to bed early (HA! I don’t sleep!)

Guess they didn’t find my ideas funny like Greeneyes….good! They aren’t supposed to be funny and that’s why I’m laughing.

-Nonsens

***

Wow, sorry Book. I hope I didn’t freak you out last time I wrote.

I just got really excited about my answers. I wrote a lot more than that one I showed you! But I’m calmer now, the thrill has worn off I guess. Can you believe the caregiver(s?) still won’t let me have dessert? I hate not getting dessert.

Also I feel really bad now. See I was thinking that I spend so much time with moon that sun might get jealous! So tomorrow I’m skipping school and going to spend the whole day looking at sun. You think there’s an alicorn in sun just like moon?

***

I’m sorry. I know I disappeared again. Please don’t be made Book. Let me explain

I was in the hospital. Remember when I was going to look at the sun all day...for some reason? That ended pretty badly. I don’t remember clearly what happened. Something hit me or...I hit something.

One of my legs was broken, don’t remember which one. Other stuff was wrong with me, but it was all white noise. I was given drugs to make me sleep. I think I dreamed.

It was nice to dream again. You were there as well as Greeneyes. Others ponies were there too, but I don’t know who they are. One had a yellow coat and another had a red mane. Something familiar about them but...friends of yours Book?

It doesn’t matter.

Dreaming was nice, it was more calming than sitting and staring all night. But now that I’m back home I won’t be dreaming again.

The caregiver says I have to take some pills. I’m not going to though. One kind takes the pain out of my leg, why would I want that? The other kind is for me head. But I didn’t hurt my head so why take them?

Greeneyes has been the most worried about me...I don’t know why. I explained why everything is fine. Greeneyes doesn’t find my ideas as funny anymore. Now they just make a worry look come on Greeneyes’ face..

Silly Greeneyes, doesn’t my friend understand it’s only Nonsense?

***

Dear Friend Book,

I’ve been keeping ideas to myself again. Others seem more happy that way. I’m not though, I like how happy and funny everything is when I share my ideas. But I also don’t want to take pills and not sharing ideas means no pills.

My leg is all better, I think, let me check.

No, I still have a cast on. That’s weird, I could of sworn it was off. Oh no wait, I took it off but then they put it back on. Right

I asked Greeneyes about the other two ponies from my last dream. Apparently I used to know them! Why didn’t you tell me Book!? I tried looking back but you’re starting to have white noise in some spots….don’t do that. You know how much I hate seeing white noise

Anyway their names were...something. I’ll ask Greeneyes again tomorrow. Apparently one was taken away into the clouds! Isn’t that a terrifying idea! Sure hope the yellow pony was a pegasus or else they fell to a splatting death.

The red one was taken in by a school. Or lives at a school now. Eck, white noise white noise! Point is, something to do with sports and school! Two things I hate.

No wait, I like sports in the fall but hate school year round...my mind is drifting again. Also stop tricking my into sharing my ideas with you. I used to not do that with you, only Greeneyes heard my ideas.

But Greeneyes doesn’t like my ideas anymore

…..you’re making me sad! I’m leaving!

-Nonsens

***

Dear Book,

Greeneyes and I talked today. There was a lot of white noise. I don’t remember what I...

Greeneyes cried, was I mean?

My cutie mark, Greeneyes said it..

Can’t remember.

…

…

…

I’m scared.

~~-Dreaming Bl~~ NONSENSE!!!

Author's Note

Well that got written fast o.O. Don't expect this to be a normal trend for updates.

Anyway, had lots of fun with this chapter. With Nonsense getting older and stranger, I found the writing to be a bit easier. Hopefully you enjoyed reading. I read over this chapter more than once, hopefully spelling and grammar issues are tolerable.

As before, please comment on what you did or did not like.