Groans and moans filled her ears. She couldn’t rightly make out if they were hers or the other pony’s “F-fuck…” she muttered in between moans. Lust filled her mind as a massive cock filled her much needed pussy.
They’ve been going at it for quite a while now, she had already reached an orgasm once, and a second was soon to come, while her partner hadn’t cum once yet. “Size, experience, endurance… this stallion has all the perks!”
The rainbow maned mare felt something rapidly building up inside her once again, immediately recognizing what was going to happen next. But this time, she also could feel the huge rod inside her twitch as the stallion’s moans got faster and more erratic.
“F-fuck, Hotshot or whatever the fuck your name is, pull out dammit, I told you not inside!”
With all the swiftness she could muster due to her current state of mind, and trying to hold her incoming orgasm to keep the strength, Rainbow Dash turned around and pushed her partner’s chest with her front hooves, forcing him to pull out. Using her hind legs to rub the big dick in front of her, and her fronts to rub her clit rapidly, she managed to get the two of them to cum at the same time, staining the sheets under her with her juices as a hot steamy rope of cum landed on her chest.
Panting and moaning, both ponies smiled and kissed.
“Gotta get cleaned up, where’s the bathroom?”
“T-that door over there…”
“Thanks… what was your name again?”
“Big Shot…”
“Yeah, right.” Dash said as she stood up and walked to the bathroom.
She decided a short shower was the best option to take off the stench of sweat, cum and juices she had over her. This was the third pony this week, and definitely the best ‘til now. “So sad I don’t repeat ponies, ‘cause this one is a keeper… Nopony makes me cum twice except for…” Once again, thinking about it, and she felt a sting in her heart. She shouldn’t be feeling this. Not right now. Not right after having sex with someone. It always happened, but as usual, she just groaned and stopped thinking about it, pushing the thought, and the pain, to the back of her mind.
As the stallion opened the door for her to leave, she walked a few steps into the dark empty city of Ponyville, before turning around and saying. “It was an awesome time, Hot Schlong, or whatever. You’re something special, I gotta say. Sadly, we won’t be seeing each other again.” She chuckles and winks “Not that we ever met or something, right?”
“Won’t say a word, Rainbow Dash…”
“Good, ‘cause I can’t let anypony found out that-”
“That y’all been cheatin’ on yer wife fer weeks?” A voice she knew oh so very well said, right behind her.
“Shit…” She turned around, expecting all the bad things to happen at once. She expected a muzzle-breaking punch, shouting, an angry face spitting the foulest insults she could imagine… but it wasn’t what she found.
All she could see, as she turned around to the origin of the voice, was her marefriend, Applejack, crying her eyes out as she looked at her with those green emerald eyes. But this time, they weren’t shining with joy and happiness, glowing with love and pride. No… now, they looked stale, opaque, only showing the deepest sadness and disappointment she had ever seen in her entire life.
A door slammed behind her as the stallion cowered inside his house, trying to avoid any trouble.
“Look Applejack it’s-”
“Not what it looks like!? S-seriously!? That’s the best excuse y’all can muster fer this!?”
“The fuck do you want me to say? It’s obvious what we were doing. Sex! We were having sex! Best sex I had in years, as a matter of fact!”
“Y’all bitch… cheatin’ on me n’ y’all even have the spine to brag it n’ rub it in mah face!?”
Rainbow Dash angrily shouted “Yeah, I do! I want you to know that that stallion had a huge rod that made me cum twice! Twice you hear!? That hasn’t happened since… since…”
“Since our first time on the barn…” Applejack said, dryly.
Rainbow Dash head lowered as she said “Yeah… For the past few weeks I feel like I’ve rediscovered sex Applejack. These stallions have been making me feel in the clouds.”
“Hope it was worth it… Ah don’t think Ah should even say that this means divorce, should Ah?”
“No, I think that’s quite clear.”
“Y’all ain’t gonna fight it, or anythin’?”
“Why would I? I’ve been thinking about it for quite a while now, but now you’ve made it easier to me, actually.”
The words felt like daggers to Applejack, as she raised her face to look at her wife… or who used to be her wife, in the eye. “Ah can’t believe it Dash… how could y’all? Why?”
“Why? Oh my Luna, you even have to think why?” She started laughing at the crying mare. “Applejack… I couldn’t stand living with you anymore! You were so BORING and repetitive! I just couldn’t stand it anymore. It was always the same thing. Wake up before me, worked all day, and went to sleep after me. We hardly ever got to enjoy alone time anymore! And when you weren’t tired enough to refuse my invitations for a good night, it was always so painfully slow and boring… I didn’t enjoy anything anymore. I… I’m gonna be honest with you, knowing you like it so much… I came to think why I even fell for you in the first place.”
“S-stop…” She couldn’t take it anymore. All Dash had been doing for the past few minutes, was break her heart into smaller pieces. “A-Ah can’t take it anymore… Ah gotta go.”
“Yeah, go back to your muddy earth house! FUCK YOU, APPLEJACK! I hope I don’t ever have to see your face again! I can get all the pleasure I want any night in the club, I don’t even need you at all anymore!”
The words seemed too harsh even to her, as she watched her ex-wife run fast as a bullet back to the place both had shared for a few years now. “I… don’t need you anymore, Applejack…” She shook her head as a few tears threatened to stain her face.
She decided to just fly up to her cloud home and get inside. “Good thing I never sold this… not that I had any possible buyer. All pegasus here live in normal houses anyways.” As she walked up to the bedroom, and left herself fall on the bed images of Applejack crying, along with others of the early days, when both smiled and laughed all day long, flooded her brain. One last image of Applejack crossed her mind before she went to sleep.
It was a certain picture she could never forget. It was one of the happiest moments of her life. When a white-wearing Applejack smiled at her and said “I do” at their wedding.
She couldn’t remember any other day where she had been so happy. “And now it’s over…” A long sigh escaped her mouth as she whispered to herself “Maybe if I go back right now I could…” “No. No, fuck that! What I said was true! I just couldn’t handle it anymore. I couldn’t go through a single day of that shit again! This…. This was a good decision, and I don’t regret it none! Maybe… tomorrow I should get some groceries so I can survive up here and after that… I could hit the bar early, see if I can hook up some good stallion…”
Three month had come and gone by, and she barely noticed it. She had spent all three months doing the exact same thing. Waking up, showering, working on the weather team and then go to the bar to get drunk off her senses and get lucky.
It was what she always dreamt as the perfect life. It was what she wanted to do when she was with Applejack, it was the reason she left her. It was the best thing ever.
“Then why am I so unhappy?” was something that echoed in her mind every minute of her pathetic life.
Not even sex felt good anymore. She tried a few stallions, groups of stallions at once, went for Big Shot again, even tried being with married couples who wanted some fun, but she felt nothing. Since a few days after she signed the papers with Applejack, she couldn’t get any kind of pleasure. Since that last time she saw Applejack, who didn’t even look at her in the eye, Rainbow Dash couldn’t smile again.
“But why!?” She shouted as she threw the glass she had on her hoof, smashing it against the wall. “Why…” She looked up to the mirror. What she saw disgusted her. She still had dried cum on her mane of Luna-knows-who, since she didn’t even care to shower anymore. Big black bags were under her eyes, because she hadn’t had a good night sleep in months. A few bruises and cuts were over her body from the time she tried to see if pain could bring the pleasure back, failing terribly at it.
But besides all that… something was missing. She couldn’t even recognize herself anymore. She hated the mirror nowadays. It brought terrible memories to her.
Every time she looked at one, she couldn’t help but expect a smiling Applejack to appear from behind her, acting sneaky, pretending not to notice the mirror gave out her presence.
Those were the good days. Now that she realized it. She had got it all wrong since the first day. Applejack woke up before her, yes, but to bring her breakfast to her bed every single day since the day Rainbow Dash decided to move in with her, even before they were married.
Yes Applejack worked all day, to keep the whole family with a full belly and more than enough luxury. They had been able to re-furnish the whole house, grant Applebloom with a good education, and keep Granny Smith under the best care Ponyville had to offer.
Yes, Applejack went to sleep after her, because she always stood up a few minutes after she had sleep, just in case she needed something, or was awaken by a nightmare. She stood up for her safety and happiness.
Yes… they didn’t have as much sex as they had before, and yes, it was slow. But not because Applejack wasn’t good, but because she paced herself so the sex was loving and tender, and not just to get off.
Yes, their days were most of the times the same. But now she realized they weren’t boring, they were constant. Gave her a big sense of certainty and safety, knowing where to find her mare at any time, and that she could always count on her.
But apart from losing the best of her life and a wonderful mare, she had lost all of her friends. No pony could forgive her for what she did, and she knew they had reasons to do so.
In fact… she didn’t just lose all her friends, she had even lost herself. What she could see in the mirror wasn’t Rainbow Dash anymore.
She realized then that all she did, it was because of Applejack. She was cocky and bragged a lot, just to impress her, and because Applejack could bring her down to earth. She trained every day to be cool for her, and because Applejack could always take care of her. She always tried to go on the front and do it all fast, to protect her, and because she knew Applejack got her back. She lived on the fast lane, and did all the crazy things she did, because she knew she could always come back to the tranquillity and protection that Applejack provided.
Right now, staring at the mirror, she realized Applejack was the other half of her. And she couldn’t stand it anymore. She had to get her back. She needed to get that other half again. So she could look at the reflection, and feel full again. She reached rock bottom, it was time to get up back again, and get Applejack to help her reach the sky once again.
She entered the bathroom for a long shower and some grooming, to be her best for what was coming next.
She got to Sweet Apple Acres right before sunset. “It’s sunset, on the middle of summer, which means Applejack’s on the east side, watering the trees.” There it was, the safety of knowing exactly where Applejack was already making her happier as she flew above the rows of apple trees, searching for her ex-wife.
Soon enough, she spotted the orange mare walking below her. With a quick turn, she nosedived towards her, landing right in front of her.
Applejack stopped dead on her tracks as she felt a loud thud and looked up, to spot a cyan mare partially covered by the dust lifted from her landing “Y-y’all… what are y’all doin’ here…”
“I’m here to make things right, Applejack.”
“N-no…”
“Yes. I… I know it’s been a while, but I was stupid to think I could live without you, Applejack. I can’t do it anymore. I’ve lost my will to go on, Applejack. I don’t want to live anymore, if I can’t be with you!”
“Shut up…” the mare growled as she lowered her head, the hat covering her face.
“Please Applejack; you have to listen to me. I realized what I did was terrible. And I can’t begin to understand why in the hay did I even said those things to you that night… I can see now that it wasn’t true! You weren’t boring, repetitive and bad…. You were caring, tender and made my life great. I don’t even enjoy sex anymore, Applejack! I… I probably enjoyed it back then just ‘cause it was forbidden… but now I know I haven’t had anyone as great as you!”
“Please, stop it, Rainbow Dash. Ah can’t take it no more.”
“Then please! Accept my apology! Let me come back to you. Let me in your heart again, and fill my life with wonders as you did before…”
“No, Rainbow Dash”
“What?”
Applejack raised her head and stared at the mare dead in the eye. Rainbow Dash could see twin streams of tears falling down her face before the orange pony dried them with a hoof and speak.
“Y’all thought that y’all could come back n’ sweet talk me, say a few ‘Ah’m sorry’s n’ that Ah’d jes forgive you?”
“Umm…”
“Y’all thought that jes’ comin’ here n’ tell me this would… take away all of those terrible lonely nights where Ah cried mahself to sleep? It’d erase the memory of all those times Ah thought of killin’ mahself after y’all said all those terrible things to me?” She shouted, anger and pain could be sensed on her voice
“I-I…”
“Y’all thought that it’d make up fer the fact that Ah didn’t came out of mah room fer weeks after that night? Y-y’all knew that the first time Ah came out of mah room, n’ looked at anypony, was the day Ah signed the papers? Ah didn’t even see mah family…”
“I had no idea, Applejack…”
“But… worst thing is that y’all didn’t even try to fight fer me. Y’all did nuthin’. Fer months. Y’all know how worthless that made me feel!?”
The cyan mare took a step forward. “B-but I’m fighting for you now! Because you’re not worthless! You’re the complete opposite, Applejack. You’re the best pony to ever walk under Celestia’s sun, and Luna’s moon…”
“Ah know that now, but not thanks to y’all.” She said, barely above a whisper, but enough for Rainbow Dash to hear.
“W-what do you mean?”
Applejack dried the tears once again and looked at her ex-wife before saying. “Ah’m sorry, Dashie… but y’all are too late.”
“Y-you don’t mean…”
“Ah already have somepony to fill the hole in mah heart, the one you left…”
“No…”
Applejack nodded slowly before smiling and saying. “And she’d been makin’ mah life sweeter than Ah ever expected it to be…”
“N-no, no. You can’t be married again!”
“Ah ain’t. Ah’m jes happy as her marefriend fer now…”
It was Rainbow Dash turn to cry. “T-tell me… who’s the fucker who stole my wife!?”
A hard, fast blow hit Rainbow’s face hard enough to make her turn her head.
“DON’T Y’ALL DARE!” Applejack shouted. “Ah won’t let y’all try to blame’er fer makin’ me feel good after all y’all did!”
“TELL ME WHO IS IT, DAMMIT!”
“Y’all don’t wanna hear it, Rainbow…”
Dash growled and repeated “I said, tell me who is it!”
“It’s Pinkie Pie, okay!? There! Y’all heard it. She’s been fillin’ mah heart with joy n’ laughter…”
“No…”Rainbow mind couldn’t keep up with what she was hearing. Not only she had failed in getting Applejack back, but she came only to hear she already had somepony else… and it was one of her oldest friends. “So… as soon as I left you, you seduced her!?”
“No… after weeks of not seein’ a soul… after havin’ to walk to that paper-signin’ feelin’ Ah was leaving half of mah soul in that paper… she decided to come by, n’ bring me sum pies to lift mah spirits.”
“So that whore was just waiting to…”
“No. She wasn’t waitin’ fer nuthin’. She was tryin’ to help me out of mah blues. That day, Ah cried n’ told her all Ah felt inside. All mah fears n’ pains. N’ she helped me out. She told me all kind of nice things to cheer me up, along with sum’ silly nonsense to make me laugh. N’ Ah laughed, Dash… laughed like Ah hadn’t laughed in a long while. Ah could smile again, Dash. Ah could feel alive once more. That night, Ah asked fer her to stay with me, ‘cause Ah didn’t want to feel alone again. N’ she did. She did every single day.”
“So I guess after a few days you two started fu-”
“No. In fact, we only did it once, n’ it was a few days ago. She wanted to wait until Ah was feelin’ completely okay with it again. Also… we didn’t get together back then… fer weeks, she did that, until Ah felt good enough to go out n’ work again. Ah went out with the girls sum’ days, had some fun, had sleepovers… all kind of things. Fer weeks, everythin’ was normal again. Like it was years ago… but… one day she came to me n’ after a long n’ confusin’ sort of confession… she asked me out. N’ by then, Ah felt good enough to say yes. Ah wasn’t sure how Ah felt ‘bout her yet, but Ah decided to try, n’ Ah’m darn happy Ah did.”
“So… she’s better than me?” Dash inquired, trying to keep the tears from falling, but failing.
With a slow head shaking, Applejack replied “Ah don’t think she’s better than y’all… but she Pinkie Promised to never break mah heart… n’ strange as it sounds… Ah trust Pinkie, not breakin’ her promise, more than y’all tryin’ to live up to yer element…”
“But… Applejack, it can’t end this way! T-this just isn’t fair!”
“Fair to who? ‘Cause if Ah went back with y’all, it would certainly not be fair to me, nor to Pinkie… Ah don’t know what y’all thought… but sumtimes, a simple sorry ain’t enough. N’ sum errors can’t be mended.”
“Don’t say that…”
“It’s the way it is, Rainbow… now please… go.”
Rainbow Dash took another step forward, prying. “Please Applejack… don’t do this.”
“Go away, Rainbow Dash… Go away n’ never come back!” She shouted once again, before turning around and say, not even looking back at the other mare. “N’… n’ if there’s any lil’ bit of love fer me inside of y’all… then y’all will go n’ never, Ah say NEVER try to reach me again… Ah want y’all to stay away from me n’ mah family… includin’ Pinkie n’ the girls… Ah don’t want to do this but… if Ah catch y’all tryin’ to do sumthin’ to any of them… Ah swear to Celestia, Ah won’t be easy on y’all…”
“Applejack, don’t be like that.”
“Sorry, Rainbow… but that’s the way it goes. This is goodbye… N’ the end.” The orange mare said, trotting back to her home.
Rainbow Dash could only stand there in shame and despair, as she watched the love of her life walk back home, to the hooves of somepony who’d love her and appreciate her more than she ever could.
My Last Letter - Written by Rated Ponystar
Dear Applejack,
I guess if you’re reading this then you know that… well I’m dead. I can only pray you don’t hate me enough to not come to my own funeral, but I’ll understand if you do. After everything I’ve done to you, maybe I don’t really deserve your forgiveness, or that of the girls.
I screwed up my life worse than I can ever imagine it to be. I had everything and I wasted it all. And for what? Just a few times to get fucked in the bed? I always dreamed that on my tombstone it would say, “Rainbow Dash The Wonderbolt and Hero of Equestria”… but instead all it should say is “Rainbow Dash the Fucking Whore.”
A fucking whore.
That’s all I’ll be remembered for and I know it. Not for being the Element of Loyalty, because I betrayed you, the girls, and everypony by being selfish and stupid. Not a Wonderbolt, because I got expelled for sleeping with fellow cadets. And not for being the most faithful and devoted wife that I should have been.
Applejack, I know I’ve said it before, even after our reunion five years ago, but I do love you. I still do. I just was too blind and selfish not to see how much you were to me. I missed the days we use to watch the sunset on the hills. The kisses we had in bed. The look of your emerald eyes when you said how much you loved me straight to my face. I had the best thing in the world, you, and I blew it because I felt like you were slowing me down.
But you weren’t slowing me down. You were dragging me into a world where I was safe, loved, and cared for. And when I hurt you, I broke that world into tiny pieces, shattering your heart. I deserved that punch Rarity gave me. I deserved Fluttershy telling me that I was “disgusting”. I deserved being a pariah in Ponyville ‘till I gave in and flew away.
It took me too long to realize what a fuck up I made of myself. Looking into the mirror and hating the cum covered bitch that I was. Nopony was there to help me. Not my parents, not you, not the girls, even Scootaloo no longer wanted to be my sister.
I was alone. Alone and afraid.
Going back to you on that day, I tried, desperately, to win you back because I thought that if I could get your forgiveness, maybe even your love again, then everything would go back to normal. But I was too late. Far too late. Pinkie had won you over, and she was a better wife to you than I ever was. I hated her, I hated you, but most of all I hated myself.
When you said if I had any love for you, I should go away and never come back. I wanted to keep fighting, but just seeing you, crying and turning your back against me realized it was futile. I had lost you for good and I’ve never been over it. It was the last straw for me. I just left Ponyville without a word, hopping from one town to the next doing part time weather jobs and fucking whoever I could.
It was a life that I never would have pictured for myself years ago when I was writing what I wanted to be when I grew up. I almost thought of ending my life a few times, but I couldn’t even do that that right. I always thought about you, the girls, home, and what life must have been like for you all. Every day I wished I could have taken it all back, I’d sacrifice anything, even my own two wings for another shot.
But then I remembered your words over and over again: “If you love me, don’t come back.”
So I did that.
I kept as far away as possible. If that was the only way to show how much I loved you still, then I was willing to suffer that. But apparently, life wanted me to suffer more.
I don’t know if you know how I died, maybe whoever reported it told you or something. It seems like irony that I contracted HIV from one of my many lovers, but I guess that’s poetic justice for you. When they told me I had only a few years left to live, I was devastated. I was going to die. No ifs, ands, or buts. I was going to die.
At first, I thought about just taking my life again. But then I realized that it wasn’t the way I wanted to go. This wasn’t the way I wanted to go. I wanted to go out as Rainbow Dash the achiever, not the screw up. I told myself if this was going to be my final years, I wanted them to be the best years I could ever have.
I wanted to perform for crowds again, to hear the shouts and cheers of the audience as they watched my awesome moves. I wanted to feel the rush and adrenaline of flight once more. I knew I couldn’t do it as Rainbow Dash, my reputation was ruined. So I had to be somepony else.
I made a new costume, one based on the colors of all the Elements we once had as well as that Mare-Do-Well costume Rarity made. I became the Shining Skyrider. Yes, the Shining Skyrider. I can only imagine the look on your face right now if you didn’t already know it was me the whole time. With my new persona, I got my life back up again. I became what I should have become, the loyal hero that everypony respected and cheered for. I performed at simple birthday’s at first, then at carnivals, towns, cities, freakin’ Los Pegasus, and even that one time with the Wonderbolts.
That was… that was second greatest day of my life. The first was marrying you.
I’m amazed I managed to keep my identity such a secret in that amount of time, although with my death now it’s sure to come out. I wonder what ponies will think of me when the disgraced Element of Loyalty turned out to be the “Greatest Upcoming Performer in Equestria”.
Time went on, but while my fame grew, my health didn’t. It was getting harder and harder to fake my illness as my disease got worse. Then I decided to do one last performance before I hung up the costume for good, and let myself spend the remaining days of my life living in peace before I kicked the bucket.
You know that performance very well. It was for your daughter.
I recognized the address on a card she gave me when I was planning where to do my final act. I only learned after I got to Ponyville that she was yours and Pinkie’s from some magical spell or what not that Twilight gave you. I thought I was gonna be angry at you and Pinkie; because this was another thing that I had lost because of my betrayal to you. But then I saw your daughter, Apple Peach, and I saw the same smile and joyful face that you always showed me when we were in love.
I saw you and Pinkie and Spike and the girls how happy you were. Like everything horrible that I had done to you was wiped away thanks to all the love and friendship that I failed to give you. And just like that all the anger I had was gone. I felt relieved that you were happy again. That everything worked out for you. Did I still regret hurting you? Never loving you? Of course, I always will. But I was happy to see that you were happy and I realized then that that’s what real love was all about.
I made sure to give your daughter the best birthday performance I could give. I was more than tempted to give you all the Sonic Rainboom, but I didn’t want to open old wounds on your daughter’s birthday. I didn’t know what you all thought of me still, and I was afraid to know, so as soon as I was done, I was ready to leave.
But then… we had that talk. You came over to me and said that I was the second best flier you had ever seen. I asked who was the first. You said me.
Me.
The one who tore your heart out.
I asked, while doing my best to stay calm, where “Rainbow Dash” was now. You just looked at the sunset with a heartfelt look in your eye and whispered, “Somewhere safe I hope.”
I couldn’t believe it. You still cared about me. A part of me wanted to just rip of my mask and kiss you right there. Hearing you say that made me feel more alive than I had in a long time.
There isn’t much else to this story now. I’m in a hospice now, as I write this letter along with my will. It’s my hope that you’ll read this and forgive me for everything I did to you, Applejack. And to the girls, if you’re there, I’m sorry I hurt you too. You’re the best friends I ever had and I’m sorry I broke our friendship with my selfish actions. Scootaloo, if you’re there as well, congratulations on making it to the Wonderbolts, kid. I knew you could do it.
Pinkie Pie, make Applejack happy and love her every day for the rest of your life. Do what I failed to do. Promise me you will.
And Apple Peach, I don’t know if things were different then I could have been your mother (or father, I don’t know how this works really), but for the brief time I knew you on that single day I knew you were something special. Take care kid, love your mother.
Again, Applejack, I’m sorry for everything. I can only hope that, where I am going, we’ll meet again so I can apologize in person.
With love,
Rainbow Dash
Applejack lowered the letter that she had read out loud to everypony away from her crying eyes and looked around the church they had all gather in. All her friends, including her beloved wife were all holding each other, tears streaming down their faces in unison. In the distance, behind all the mass ponies from Ponyville to Cloudsdale whose heads were down in silence, a young mare with a purple mane in a Wonderbolts uniform was leaving the church in a hurry, her sister and their other friend following her.
Even the Princesses, front and center, looked ready to cry.
She turned to her daughter, the joy of her life, who held her Shining Skyrider doll in her tiny hooves as she buried her face in it, trying to be strong. Applejack looked at the letter once more, and then turned to the half open coffin behind her, surrounded by every flowered color of the rainbow. Inside, she saw the body of her once best friend and ex-wife. She wore the old Gala dress Rarity had made for them years ago, a time when things were better and simpler. A dress she adored seeing on Rainbow Dash back when her heart was still pinned on the daredevil. The pegasus lay on a casket full of lilies, making her look divine as an angel in eternal sleep. She saw the peaceful smile on her lips, but wished she could see the magenta eyes and always held such life in them.
She had been through so much because of this mare. Both good and bad. But now, standing before her empty husk of a body, Applejack could only cry as she leaned forward and kissed Rainbow on the forehead.
“Ah forgive y‘all, Rainbow Dash.”
