The Courage of feelings

I was at my house with Synth and we were discussing Hearts and hooves day which was tomorrow.

“So I’m just gonna tell her how I feel and if I actually do it you have to tell Charisma that you like her.” When Synth finished that sentence I felt my face heat up and I was blushing.

“O… OK” I said stumbling on my words hoping that Synth would not do it.

We were at my house, we always met up there. I was in my room which was cozy. It had colorful fuzzy rugs, multicolored pillows and an orange coated wall with a hint of blue. I was pretty much a creative pony who liked a variety of colors.

“Well… since hearts and hooves day is tomorrow we better prepare.” I said giving a sigh in my mind thinking about what I would do tomorrow if things went well. We decided to just discuss our plans about tomorrow and I was a bit nervous too! I was actually pretty glad to go over it again. You know, to make sure.

“So how do you think it is going to play out Flicker? Plus how should I start?” I hated being the one in charge because I felt like no leader. I had a feeling that I would always mess up somehow, though I was good at giving advice. I gave a sigh as I thought out a plan.

“Well… I guess it would probably go something like this. Besides, the past few days I've been thinking about this before I went to bed and I almost got a plan sorted ou-” I was cut of by Synth.

“W…wait a second… you think about this when you’re about to sleep?” Synth said surprised.

“U-um… yeah.” I said ashamed, blushing.

“It’s ok though, I do too!” Synth said, though she probably didn't mean to say it because she tried to take that back.

“I mean… I mean no I don’t!” She said blushing.

“Ok, it doesn't matter!” I shouted, trying to get Synth’s attention. “The plan I decided is, well when you get to school wait till lunch since you have lunch with her. Just go sit with her and talk. Then just tell her everything over the loud noise so it won’t be as hard.

But, if you want to be more romantic do it in between classes or after school and maybe get her a gift or something.”

“Yeah that’s a good idea!” Synth said with excitement.

“I might get her a gift, I’ll think about it.” Though Synth said it was a good idea, to me it felt like a pretty lame idea. I scratched my red and aqua mane trying to think of more advice but I was all out.

I was just thinking to myself so it was pretty awkward.  Luckily, Synth broke the silence.

“Ok well… I better get going, it’s pretty late. Plus, its gonna be an important day tomorrow so I’ll need to get plenty of rest.” Synth said as she started to head out the door packing her things.

“Yeah same here!” I said.

Seconds later you could here hoof steps and the door closing. I looked out the window and saw it was pretty dark, only 8:30 Pm though.

I jumped into my bed and pulled the blanket over and prepared for bed. As I did my daily night routine I kept thinking about tomorrow and mostly Charisma, the thought made me blush. She was like the perfect one, she was basically like me. She was serious at some times, had a good sense of humor and was a hard worker.

Usually when I lay in bed I think about my life and other events, but today I found myself thinking about Charisma more than before. I maybe even thought about dating her, but I barely even talked to her. We knew each other for years but neither of us even bothered to speak up. I always wanted to say something to her but I was either shy or self conscious of her words, so tomorrow I would make sure I would make it happen.

Minutes past as I thought about life and I found myself falling asleep. The world was drifting out of sight and I was hoping I would have a nice people dream about my crush, but I was wrong.

I was dreaming, of course. I was in a place, but it was too dark to see where I was. I heard voices in the background and decided to check it out. Even though I couldn't see the ponies I could already tell who they were. I could tell that one of the voices was Synth because she had that voice that was different from any other ponies.

The other voice was hard to make out though because it was whispering. I tried to tune in to the conversation to see what it was about.

“So are you sure Flicker will not know about this?’ I heard Synth whisper. She was a good speaker but know matter what she couldn't even whisper because it came out as if she was regularly talking.

I tried to make out what the other voice was saying, but it was hard to make out. In my mind I thought it said

“She’ll never find out, so why bother?” But when I tried to listen any more the voices disappeared and I was left in darkness. I tried to walk around in nothing excepting for something to happen but was left with the darkness. I tried to open my mouth to yell or something but I was silent and for some reason couldn't talk.

Then all of a sudden there was a loud bang and I saw images coming together one by one. I was at school; it didn't really look much different though it was just dark and peaceful. At least now I could see where I was going, I thought in my mind.

I walked around trying not to trip over cans and other trash. I wondered why I was taken to my school, because whenever I had nightmares they always had some kind of message that made no sense.

As I crossed the huge field where ponies would play I noticed Synth with some other pony that I couldn't identify because they were wearing a hat that covered their face.

I hid in the bushes so they didn't notice I was there, and then I tried to listen to the conversation once again.

“So…. You just want to do it here?” I heard Synth say unsure of the decision. The other pony just gave a nod and continued whispering.

“What if Fli….” Synth was cut off by a hoof that silenced her mouth as if to say Stop asking questions!

I tried to get closer to the 2 ponies trying to be as stealthy as possible when I heard a pony call my name. I could recognize the voice, it was soft, lovely, had a nice tone and was smooth, it was Charisma. I was both surprised and was full of joy, what was she doing?

“Synth, do it!” Charisma said now talking in a regular tone with joy in her voice.” Well… this might not end well, I thought.

“B…But…..Flicker” Synth tried to protest but Charisma didn't care.

Synth looked my way unsure of how she knew where I was hiding.

“I… I’m sorry Flicker.” Synth said, like she was about to cry.  What could it be? I thought in my head, but then when I saw the next thing my confusion turned into anger as I saw Synth kissing Charisma.

She even knew I liked her! I thought in my head, and she kissed her!

She looked like she was even enjoying it!

I just wanted to go over there, punch her and take Charisma, but I stopped myself. I thought about what Synth said “I… I’m sorry Flicker.” Was Charisma forcing her to do this?  I just watched in anger as I saw my friend kiss my crush. When Synth pulled away from Charisma I could see her looking kind of… what, afraid? Well I guess she would be afraid because she would think I would go over there and tear her apart but I didn't.

I used my wings to fly over there and I could here Synth yell “Please! I didn't mean too do it! I didn't even want to.” But what I did was I sat by her and said “I'm not mad.” I said calmly and Synth's face was puzzled.

Behind me I heard hoof steps and realized it was Charisma, I looked behind me with the most confused face.

“Well…. Flicker.” She said. “You should be mad because……..”

The words started to sound like far away echoes and I couldn't understand anything she was saying. When I realized what was happening I knew that I was waking up and remembered I was dreaming.

I heard a loud buzzing and in an instant my eyes shot up awake. I looked at the clock and it was 6:50 Am, it was time for school. I turned off the alarm clock and knew it was Hearts and hooves day.