You know when I first got my wings I never knew the reason I got them would separate me from my friends. They where the reason they where here in the first place. But, they weren't granted the privilege I was the were left out of the horrid thing called immortality. If it wasn't for them I'd be dead to. I'D BE DEAD TO. With them. I'm going crazy. Cadence must have felt this for Shining. He meant a lot to me too, but took a bigger toll on her. I seam crazy. I am. I am this crazy once great princess of friendship who has lost her friends. I... I... Can't remember how long I was a a princess. All I can think about is them, all that matters is them! Deaths deep claws ripped us apart. I continue to grow insane. I have repeat this many times. This... Madness I see how luna became Nightmare Moon now. The immortality if an alicorn will drive you insane. I... Want to leave this world that keeps me away from the ones that matter most to me. I can't even imagine what Celistia has been through. Also I wonder what Luna,Cadance,even Discord has been through.
"Hello" said Cadance
"Twilight are you ok, you look like you've been in a pile of garbage sleepless and crying"
I didn't know how to reply. I was laying against the window cell crying.
"Twilight"
"I know how you feel, I can help you. Oh and it has been 142 years since you became a princess" she said after looking at my notes and trying to lighting the mood.
"You're not helping. But at lest you tried." I said slightly smileing.
She and I are like sisters. We're two of the only for alicorns in Equestria. I laid by here side quietly moping. I miss my friends. I need my friends. They need me. I laid on the window I had my desk next to. Crying.
" Cadance why do we have to be alone in a world that we have to watch die?" I said
"We aren't alone. We have each other. We may feel alone but, we aren't. Your friends are in the after life, along with my beloved Shining. We may never see them again or once this world dies we might get to. And be with are friend in the after life. Happily along there sides." Cadence said with a smile
I just cried and cried. I miss my friends. They meant the world to me. I wish I didn't have so long to wait to see them again. Rainbow dash, Fluttershy, Pinkie pie,Rarity,and Applejack. I miss you. I need you to be her by my side. Soon I'll see you. Just an eternity away.who am I kidding? Even if cadence wasn't talking about something that never exsists I have to wait an eternity.
I promise I'll see you again. It's just that I don't know if I can keep sane this long. I'm not sure by the time I die with the world that I'll be the same Twilight you knew and loved. I apologize if the rest of eternity changes me. But I'll try to stay as twilight as possible. I promise. As I continue to cry in Cadance lap. I hope you have a wonderful time in the after life. It's hard to think that there's a hope but it's worth a shot. I miss you. I hope you haven't changed over a eternity either.
"Hey cadence can you tell me how long you were crying when you found out that shining died?"
"I was sad and lonely for a while. I even some time cry now"
"How do you get over it?"
" You never really do, but I try to not think of it. Instead I think of the friends I have now like you,Tia,Luna,and even Discord."
"Twilight Sparkle!"
I shot my head up like a bullet. Why here? Why now? Doesn't he see there is some thing going on?
" This mustn't do!" He yelled
"Discord! What in Equestrias name are you doing!?" I yelled
"Ah! Your a mess! What happened ?!" He blerted
" I was havering a moment."
" I heard, I mean what happened to your mane! It is brushed!"
"Cadence made me."
Most conversations with discord where like this. I was often crying. He often interrupted. Cadence often brushed my hair. He like my Maine messy. Things happen.
" Twilight, I must talk with you." He said
" No." I replied
" Yes."
" Will you leave me alone after this?"
"Yes"
"Fine" I said witout enthusiasm
I walked into the room discord lead me into. The room is cold as ice. It feels like it bits me. The walls were black,the bed was black,the dresser was black. There was only thing that wasn't black. The golden filling between the space between the floor. Was this Discord's room? No, it couldn't be. Not chaotic enough. Discord was the god of chaos,master of crazy bringer of disharmony there is no way in Equstria THIS was Discord's room!
"Twilight" he said
"Yes?" I said with curiosity
"Do your remember the day you defeated me?" He said quietly and calm,unlike usual
"Yes. You turned us into the opposite of our selves. It was wild and crazy in and out of my mind. You turned flutter..."
Tears build up in my eyes. That name brings me so many good memories but it also reminds me of the death that came along with it. The coughing, the moaning, the vomiting blood, Fluttershy is the only one who died because if an illness. She died so young. I drove us all mad to see her so weak, so cold so sick.
Tears rolled down my eyes why did I think of Fluttershy? Why not Applejack or Rainbow Dash? She was the one with the most painful death.
Discord started crying. He had a close bond with Fluttershy. He was almost crying I haven't seen him do that in years. Fluttershy is the one he was closest with. His first friend.
"Anyway, that day I thought I'd be in stone for another 1000 years. But then Fluttershy's kindness showed me how I can make friend and not go nuts with doing things my way. The way most ponies don't like."
I was shocked at that moment. Discord was starting to cry again. She ment that much to him. More than any of the rest of us. Discord wasn't a monster, he was a pony just like me.
"You miss her just as much as me, don't you?"
" yes, but your not crying over it."
" I've been immortal for along time. I'm used to it."
" Fluttershy was your first friend though."
" I've seen many ponies die. Though it may made it easier,but it was still hard"
"Discord,your common nature was rewritten that day Fluttershy.... Became your friend. You became so different so fast. Why can't I do that is it because in just why is it like that for me and not you?" I had trouble saying that sentence
"I don't know how. It just happened."
" hey discord?"
"Yes?"
" Your my friend right?"
" Yes Twlight Sparkle, yes."
"Friendship is really magic isn't."
"Yes Discord, yes it is"