Lamention of a Bodiless Soul

Most people think that shadows follow, precede or surround beings or objects.

The truth is that they also surround words, ideas, desires, deeds, impulses and memories.

Elie Wiesel

Story start

Being forced to gaze into the eyes of Equestrias' second most Powerful (Discord does not count at the Twilights Starswirl the Bearded is anything to go by.) Entity. I do what I always do when I feeling nervous.

I laughed.

Stop! Me hissed.

Were dead. Commented Myself.

"if I may inquire what is so amusing?" Asked a white unicorn, hair done up in a rather eye catching fashion; Rarity...I think. Why can't I remember that?! Maybe I hit my head to hard.

"Sorry-" I chuckled, trying to silence the noise. Me and Myself try to assist but the more its held back the more it came out in loud obnoxious laughter. "But unfortunately I tend to laugh when nervous, and right now for the first time I'm meeting-"

"Your Mama?!?" Yelled a links earth pony; Pinkie pie. Cant really forget a potential psychopath. She was bouncing up and down. I could just feel the joy she's radiated. It kinda made me sick. No clue as to why. Then again I couldn't help but smile. Then I frowned. I was hungry.

Think if we're good we can have lemon meringue pie?! I let that thought sit there a tick. I love lemon meringue.

That would be delicious!! Me encouraged. I looked at The princess of the night considering what my next words should be. I pretty much fucked up with the snark comment using the M word so something had to be done.

"Here ya go."  Right next to me was a lime green cake, a dollop of swirled whipped creme sat on top, being held by a pink heart attack waiting to happen. I knew eyeing the cake was probably a bad idea, I couldn't help it. I looked back at the princess.

"Could I get it?" I asked. She raised an eyebrow at my form. "Please?" I was begging now and I hate begging.

Lame. Myself mocked.

Shameful. Me chided. Disapprove all they want, we wanted this cake. Luna slowly levitated me down. The others watching my movements. She placed me in the center of them all a tree blocking the only gap. Pinkie put the plate in front of me.

How ya gonna eat? Myself asked. I forgot, land of ponies or not I had no clue how to move things with these...raising them to my face, hooves. I'm shadow meaning I have no definite form so maybe I could- wait... I'm shadow how the fuck do I eat!?!

"And that's how you test to see if somepony is another's foal!" Pinkie hopped up and down excitedly. What!?

"Pinkie?" Spoke Twilight, her face the very epitome of confusion. "How does giving somepony a lemon meringue pie help in the process of figuring out how this shadow pony is biologically the offspring of princess Luna?"

"How'd you even know I wanted lemon meringue pie?" I interrogated I stopped looking at my weakness. It was hurting to much.

"Cause Pinkie knows dessert and party needs." She responded.

"But Pinkie dear what about Twilight's Question?" Rarity stared at me. Was she trying to figure out what could go with my inky black body.

Maybe sapphires and opals? Myself suggested.

Silk trimmings. And Rubies would be better. Me argued.

"Cause silly only a child would ask a parent for permission and even beg for it, and Princess Luna actually put trust in him not to run away." They all considered that a moment.

"That is the worse reasoning ever." I deadpanned.

That made no sense. Me agreed.

What made no sense? The whole 'this is your kid cause' thing, the party/dessert explanation or stuck in the magic world of ponies in a form basically impossible to exist yet you feel hunger? Myself asked.

...

...

"Now wait just a carrot pickin minute." Applejack stepped closer eyeing me critically. "Why are you so plum against being called the Princesses' foal?"

"Cause I'm not." I answered lowly. Now to hurry up and-

"But..um you had said no mother" stuttered Fluttershy.

She was here? Myself mocked.

" I know what I said, I didn't-"

"Hey don't yell at Fluttershy you ink blot, your probably mad that it Princess Luna and not your real mom, Nightmare Moon!!" Rainbow Dash had gotten really close in my face, really close, really fucking uncomfortably close. I punched my friends for getting this close to me when yelling...in 2nd grade. I've stopped....honest.

Not really one to continue I ignored, in favor of setting my pi- what is that brown thing? It had two rustic brown wings that looked torn up, six hairy legs, two black blotches that looked like eyes, and long antennae. Crawling all over my pie. My breathe hitched. My heart, I knew I had one cause it was trying to pop from my chest, beating five hundred miles a minute.

Dammit not the pie!

Kill it with fire!!.

I fall back huffing heavily. My chest felt like millions of needles exploded outward then popped back in with trident head replacements.

"What's wrong with him?" Questioned Rainbow Dash. My back hit the tree. The roach must have been sentient cause when it saw my reaction it it crawled down the pie and made quick movements to my position. Not to be a complete pansy I let myself get angry. Feeding all my frustration into not backing down.

"Die you little shit! Die! Die! Die! Die! Die!" Each 'Die' was punctuated by the slamming of my hoof in its general direction, trying to desperately avoid the roach. Being close enough to make it move another direction but far enough where it couldn't take off and land on me. Funny thing no matter how hard my forearm struck the ground, it made a sound similar to rushing air not the thundering THUMP you get.

"Stop!!!"  against better judgment I halted, Which was actually good cause the last one was directly over my disgusting nemesis.

Too close. Fluttershy got really close in my space cradling the demon of trash in hoof.

Sick.

"How could you consider harming something so innocent?" She questioned a look of sad disappointment plastered on her face.

Innocent?!

That's a joke right?

Innocent is a rather big misconception isn't it?

"It got all over my pie!" I whined. I was really looking forward to eating it...when I figured how to eat it.

"That's no excuse, Pinkie could have given you another piece, now apologize." She brought the roach closer. I went flat against the tree.

"I'm not-"

"Apologize now." she said sternly. Now the roach was inches away. If I apologized would she move it? I was frozen in my own fear frozen like a victim of Medusa, I considered this thing uglier. Just one word-

"hurry up and apologize already!" Rainbow Dash yelled. The Roach, startled jump from Fluttershy's hoof to my face landing on my snout.  My heart stopped, falling to the pits of my stomach as it climb to the top of my head.

Get it off!!!!!!

Thrashing about, trying to scrub my hooves through what felt like a short cropped mane desperately to remove the vile intruder. When I heard a satisfying plop I stopped. I was huffing hard, my breathe unable to fill my lungs. Images of horrible experiences flooding my mind all fresh like the moment they each happened. Gazing around I saw the seven ponies around me with various expressions. Some quirked eye brows, others confused stares, Rainbow Dash was on the verge of laughter. I was feeling so hollow. I felt smaller than I ever could, it was like they all towered over me.. My stomach ached like something was trying to explode out.

(Sniff) its nowt fwnn(huff)y closing my eyes I let the water falls spring. This was horrible, interrogated and embarrassed in front of a Princess no less. Now my tears fell harder. Voices could be heard from my pony gallery, the voice of Luna and the shuffling of hooves were heard fading into the distance. Still I kept my eyes shut. Me and Myself had backed down into the depths of my mind. So I was alone inside and out.

A gust of wind and seconds later I not only found a weight over me, but was drag closer to another presence this one emitting pity.snorting harshly, my eyes creaked open. On me was a midnight blue wing, attached to said wing was a certain alicorn. She seemed bigger. Glancing around I came to understand she wasn't bigger, I was smaller.

With Mane6

"Oh man haha did you see his face haha that was hilarious!" Rainbow laughed uproariously. The others didn't seemed so please.

"That was not funny Rainbow Dash-" spoke Twilight her voice not even betraying the annoyance she fault. When the Princess had asked them to leave, so she could deal with the shadow pony that had a mental breakdown and transformation. "With the way he acted he probably had a really bad Phobia." She explained.

"A phobia?" Questioned Applejack. " it seems seems mighty bad to be 'fraid of tiny critter" she mocked.

"That's the thing Applejack-" Twilight started "Phobias can be irrational and these irrationalities can come from horrifying sometimes traumatic experiences, and from the way he acted his is horribly driven into his mind plaguing him." Twilight had stopped looking back in the direction of the Princess. "From how he was hammering at the Roach he was only trying to make it go away not kill it. Fluttershy probably spooked him by bringing it close to him." Said Pegasus looked surprised.

"Oh if I had known I wouldn't have brought it to him, but him smashing at a delicate creature was to much for me to handle." She explained. Rarity gave a huff.

"What kind of colt has such dreadful anxiety over a small bug?"

"Especially a shadow pony." Added Rainbow.

"With the way he was actin' you think the critters were big as a Manticore." Stated Applejack.

"Were he's from they might get that big!" Embellished Pinkie Pie. " with huge beady eyes, sharp mandibles used to chomp down on poor unsuspecting ponies!" Pinkie had made points of imitating those points making chewing motions at Fluttershy, the shy Pegasus looking like she might drop dead from the thought.

"If that is true then he has every right to be fearful, poor dear." Rarity said.

"My only question is why he turned into a foal?" Twilight wondered loudly

The normal POV

After some time my form returned to a more....appropriate size/age. Princess luna sat across from me already given me some news I kinda was pissed she didn't say earlier.

"So you knew all along I wasn't your child." I stated bluntly. I could have avoid a Roach and a breakdown.

"Of course I knew, no matter what form or personality I take the knowledge of a child of all things would always be present in my mind."

"How?"

"My magic would connect me with the foal/filly."

"So that whole strange argument thing?" She stared at the ground, a pained look over taking her features.

"I have been trap on the moon for a thousand years and only in the past year have been realesed. I have lost those I once knew, the ponies I once held close ravaged by time. When you had called me mother I just..." Trailing off she turned away. Well this is a conversation I should have avoided at all costs. But I really couldn't blame her, the thought of being alone was... Ok the thought of being alone was kind of appealing, what killed it was the thousand years. I studied the lunar Princess, her head had drooped.

"So what do plan to do with me now?" I watched the Princess shift from her funk in a second flat. She was hiding her pain rather well. She seemed to study me for what came to be several moments, then she let out a happy gasp like she discovered the rarest diamond ever,or the most exotic-

We get she's excited get on with it. Myself pestered. Back from the abyss I see.

pway attwintion she's tawlken. The fuck is that!?!

new one popped in during the episode. Oh.Shit another one?

"How would you like to be my nephew/son?" She exhaled quickly.

"Huh?" Was the smart reply.

"How would you like to be a Prince?" If I wasn't so, Surprised by the sudden question my exhaustion from my episode would have taken me down like a broken light bulb, burnt out and dull.

"What brought this about?"

"Well Tia-" Tia? She actually used that name in front of a guy she barely knows. " did the same thing, and while I'm perfectly fine with Mi Amore Cadenza, Prince blue blood is...lacking in some areas, and if it wasn't for the fact her parents are still alive she would have done the same with Twilight Sparkle." She seemed pretty antsy now. My eyebrows furrowed in confusion.

"So what has this to do with me?" I really wanted to know. One moment I'm about to be trapped in a well for all eternity the next I'm being invited into the family? What gives?

Who cares ultimate cosmic power!Myself bellowed, the new persona cringed at the volume. Me having disappeared again.

"Ti-" She caught herself this time.  "Celestia has made bonds to keep herself from getting lonely, I wish to make such bonds of my own accord." Seems legit. I try to make a reason to dissuade such an idea.

"Princess Celestia made those bonds years ago, you only just met me, you know nothing about me?" I accused. Apparently she expected this cause she only sat on her flank and clapped her hooves together.

"We can share stories about ourselves right now i'll go first-"

Canterlot Castle Open POV

Princess Celestia paced around her room. Her eyes were furrowed in concentration, Luna had gone to reintroduce herself to the populace of Ponyville, during Nightmare Night the one time of year when her little ponies would be most afraid of her. When she'd left she was still using the Royal Canterlot voice on guards and villagers, not the best combination under the circumstances. But from what Twilight had written to her, while rocky at the start it did turn out a rather spectacular evening, Luna enjoying her self immensely.

But while she knew her dear sister could handle herself, Celestia expected the Princess of the night back some time ago.

The goddess of the sun stopped in the center of the room. Taking deep calming breathes, she crushed the uncertainty that was quickly forming a migraine. Luna was a strong, independent mare, an Alicorn, and her sister she could handle herself. On the plus side the elements were with her and or close by. She was not alone in no way shape or form. A poof and a wisp of green flame caught her already occupied attention.

"A letter? From Twilight?" Levitating the scroll she unfurled the paper and began to read.

Dear Princess Celestia

Some time past the eleventh hour, Princess Luna and I heard a voice from a well calling for help. Not one to deny help I levitated the pony out of the well only to come face to face with a shadow pony-

A Shadow pony? Celestia thought. At one point over a thousand years ago they were rather numerous. Spirits formed from the fears and doubt's of every colt, mare, and child which during the time of Discord were many. Celestia hadn't done anything with them at first, they only tended to walk around in darkness scaring ponies just with their presence. Celestia changed those opinion of this manifestation of despair when her sisters own had possessed her, creating Nightmare Moon. After sealing Luna away she simple went around banishing them to Tartarus. Each and everyone, sentenced to the depths, then created a system were everypony was happy and content. No possible way any more could form. So how had this one? She continued on.

-it seemed darker than any text had described them more like a moving ink puddle than a translucent shade. Following the discovery I dropped it back in the well, while Princess Luna had set a large boulder to trap it.

That was good which meant that it wouldn't pose a threat while Twilight got the elements.

Upon trapping it Princess Luna entered a defense stance telling me to get the elements. Leaving to do so I got them and came back in about twenty-four minutes. The moment we approached the clearing we saw that Princess Luna had Left her defensive stance and instead looked like she was guarding the well. Asking what took place while I had gone she had told me "nothing". Apparently while I went to get the other bearers the shadow pony hadn't spoken or attempted to move, the rock had stayed in place. Forming a plan Princess Luna would question it while I and the other would get in a position to use the elements of Harmony weather the shade proved hostile, or offer it a chance of purification if proven benevolent

Doubtful. Celestia thought.

That plan failed rather quickly when after the first couple questions the Shadow pony said something that made Princess Luna disintegrate the boulder and dragged the shade out with a telekinetic spell. The shadow pony had called her "Mother".

Celestia popped her head from the letter, shock was written over her face. Could it really be her child? No if it was she would feel a presence similar to Luna's own. It was probably trying to trick them into letting it go which most likely had backfired.

Upon removing him(its voice and build suggested male) he began laughing, while we thought maybe it had been a trick it was discovered he laughed when nervous. Immediately a question had been asked and due to countless interruptions it was unanswered including a slice of lemon meringue pie provided by Pinkie for the shadow cult to ingest.

Celestia actually quirked an perfectly shaped eyebrow. Shadow ponies couldn't eat physical foods, they fed on dark emotions so why had-

before it could try to eat the pie, he was distracted by comments made by present company including an argument with Rainbow Dash. Promptly ignoring her, he tried to eat the cake only to stop and shuffled back at the sight of a Roach.

A a shadow Pony afraid of an insect? How strange.

when it attempted to come closer, it got mad striking at it to try and scare it off hitting certain points, wanting to make it turn away. Fluttershy being the nature lover she is picked it up and demanded the shadow pony apologize. Thrusting the roach into his face, demanding him to say sorry. The shade only babbled miserable. Rainbow Dash frustrated popped in screaming for him to hurry. The roach getting scared jumped from Fluttershy's hoof, to the shades face. The shade proceeded to swat violently at the roach actually rubbing of pieces of himself that hit the ground and disappeared when he finally stopped he'd become the size of a young Foal. Upon looking around with big white, eyes he began weeping horrible. The Princess then asked us to leave, stating she would handle it. So upon reaching home I wrote this letter to inform you have the nights happening please send me a letter of Princess. Please let me know of the proper course of action.

Your Faithful Student,

Twilight Sparkle

Celestia read the last paragraph one more making sure she comprehended that her sister allowed herself to be left alone with the only kind of spirit known to have possessed her. Bathing the window in a golden aura she flung it open, flying out the window intent on finding her sister and vanquishing the shade before it did harm.

Normal POV

She...all that information...in thirty seven minutes.

My bwain hurtzs. I was in complete agreement with foal/uncertainty/fear. Dear lord not another. any ways that was to much to absorb in a short time me. My mind was blown, apparently both Celestia and Luna started off as-

"So tell me about yourself." Luna demanded happily. Um. Where do I start?

how about saying I'm human.

"I'm human?" I responded back to Myself.

"Human?" Questioned Luna. I need to stop talking to Myself. "Are humans not a myth?" She asked. I considered not answering, ok not really it was a better time to tell. I gave a brief overview of my arrival not sparing a detail. Even the part about me smashing the guy's face in the concrete, running from authority.

"So still want me to be a Prince?" I asked. I was most likely pushing it.

Ya think?

Ass.

Jewrk.

"I still think you would make a great Prince." Was an enthusiastic reply.

"Excuse me?"

"You are the type that needs a responsibility, the only way to better yourself is to be handed something that needs your attention." She explained. "You've never had something important to do so you lack motivation, by giving you a title you have a certain qualities that needs to be displayed and you seem to be somepony that is willing to display them." Luna put on a dazzling smile her eyes shining with the utter joy it would bring her.  I groan in distain, my mother tried to pull crap like this. Luna does it better though.

"Fine I ugh...except your offer." She did a quick hoof pump before settling in a more regal stance. Eyes lost the playfulness and became stony, mouth neutral, head held high this was the princess that hours ago paralyzed me up in the air looking for answers. "May I know what name to recognize you by?" Shit. When had my name not come up. The voices were talking in the background, letting me know their displeasure. Ya know, i m not going to keep dealing with this there's to much going on now. I will them down I wouldn't need the comments for a awhile. Now about my name- Jk was what I'm called my nick name annoyingly is Jklmnop. But...

"Shaded Eclispe Geist is an appropriate name for me." I exclaimed. Eyeing me a second she thought it over.

"Not your real name?" She inquired. For a second I thought I heard Mike Shinoda's 'Remember the name' in the back of my head...or the pit of my stomach? About to answer the question, I found myself (me, myself not...never mind) blasted by a golden ray, followed by the call of "Get away from my sister scum!"  I found my body flipping in the air falling to pieces. My body had shattered like black glass trailing like a comet tail. Opening my mouth to scream in stead of my planned ahhhhh scream the wail of '50% pain, 100% reason to remember-' blasted from my mouth as I hoop shot the well, falling back to the depths.

I should live in here.

When I woke up my back was killing me. My body shook in protest as I rose on my hands.

Hands?

Inspecting in low light I counted five slender extremities. Following up I observe a wrist...lower arm, upper arm, shoulder. That nightmare was over. But where's my bag?

"Hi sleepy head! a pink pony popped out of nowhere. Tumbling back the low light gave way to a screen of darkness that quickly retreated to my body. Gazing around I found myself in a golden dome. Attempting to stand I only succeeded in falling on my face, hooves entering my vision. I was back to a pony of...shadow. I wanted to cry again. Justin Timberlake's 'Cry Me a River'. Where's that coming from.

"Oh my gosh!" Pinkie exclaimed. " Twilight had been like (GASP) cause she saw princess Celestia flying and not in a sky chariot, why does she need one any ways she can fly like she did when she was flying toward the forest really fast, Twilight thought something bad might have happened so we ran to the forest and saw the Princess shoot out a beam like PEW and then you shattered and played really strange music. The Princess Luna had caught you, yelling at Princess Celestia "why did you do that?" then she floated you around which reminded me of chocolate sprinkles so I-" I blocked the rest of her out in favor of wistfully staring st my hooves. They'd been hands only moments ago what happened.?

"Um..excuse me?" Stopping my fretting I study the yellow Pegasus making her way over. In fact looking around I'd just realized they were all there minus Luna and Celestia inside a library it appeared. This was....? Why can't I remember anything? I looked back to Fluttershy. "I'm so sorry about early, I didn't know you were so afraid. Can you forgive me?" I really can't blame her.

"You don't have to apologize to him Fluttershy, he's just a sad excuse of a shadow pony afraid of a tiny bug." Mocked Rainbow Dash. I looked between her and Shy.

"You I forgive-" I said nodding in Fluttershy's direction, gazing to Dash. "You I hate." I said with finality.

"What!?!" She yelled surprised. "How can you hate me?"

"Are you mental?" I asked smirking. She tried to punch me out only succeeding in striking the dome. I moved as carefully as possible as not to fall, which came off more as mocking. She got really close to my prison of light.

"Your lucky your in the bubble or I'd turn you to a ink stain." Rainbow Dash threatened. I looked around the room ignoring her. "Hey!" She yelled. Walking to the other side with Rarity, Applejack, and Twilight. I just stopped and stared. They didn't say anything neither did I. I took analytical stares at them all. Twilight was jotting something down with levitating. Quil and paper. Rarity whispered something to Applejack.

"You have a beautiful mane." I complimented. The marshmallow Unicorn got starry eyed.

"Why thank you darling you don't know how long it takes to get a mane as properly groomed and natural is so endowed as mine." I heard Applejack groan at the stat. "Perhaps if you make it pass the princess decision of you, you could stop by my shop and squire a wardrobe to distinguish your black and purple...whatever it is your made of." She had a cheeky smile, my emotion radar said she was genuine about the offer. I nodded.

"So what exactly am I doing here?" Twilight looked up giving a 'its alright smile'. I actually calmed down, so Celestia's little blasting was paranoid based.

"Both Princess Celestia and Princess Luna are currently discussing what your fate is." She explained. My breathe hitched. Discussing translates to me as arguing. I considered my options of how I could escape- no, no I need to trust in Luna plus with the way every one mentions her she's pretty benevolent....where's that music coming from?

"Absolutely Unacceptable!" the books shook, falling of the shelves pelting Rainbow Dash in the head.  I would have laughed if my bubble hadn't shrunk! It was now only big enough to turn a circle in place. And the music was even louder! It sounded familiar. Pinkie was dancing strangely to a beat that the others didn't seem to notice.

"What in tarnation are ya dancin to?" Applejack demanded.

"To music of course silly." Was her happy reply.

"But Pinkie there isn't any music." Insisted Fluttershy. Why do I feel like I'm missing something?

"There is music."

"But where pinkie the rest of us can't hear it?" Asked Twilight. Pinkie moon walked over to the dome, hoof raised like she wanted to punch it.

"Right-" she reared the hoof back. "Here!" Thrusting forward she pierced the Golden dome, entering my chest. She began digging around inside of me.

That's what she said.

You've been violated girly man.

With a pop she dragged a black rectangular object out. A line of some sort was attached bent in several places closets to the object. It didn't exit the dome. My eyes opened wide.

"My tablet!" I gleefully yelled I squashed it between both hooves gently bringing the device up. It was playing Michael Jackson. "Now I can-" my device was blasted from my hooves colliding with a shelf. Looking to the direction of the golden blast I found myself staring at an angry white alicorn with Rainbow mane that sparkled and gold accented accessories.

"We have much to discuss." Commanded Princess Celestia.