You're All I Want

This made me so pissed at her... I knew my hope was losing its influence on me, and it was going quick.

When I went to tell Alexandria the bad news, she was still offline. I sent her a LOT more messages, and I ended it with, "Don't worry, I'll save this marriage." I went to school depressed... I kept my hood on the entire day, never laughed, never smiled, nothing was enough to even make me grin even the slightest.

The worst part was when I was listening to, "To The Stage" by Asking Alexandria. The words described exactly how I felt. It's the chorus... In the song Danny Worsnop says I know that I should walk away, but I can't bring myself to quit this game. She's just a beautiful girl with the weight of the world on her shoulders, I'm just a kick in the teeth from a world that's plated gold. When I heard that, I almost had a mental breakdown. I almost had breakdowns the entire day.

When I got home, nopony was there, and I took the opportunity to talk to Alexandria. To my horror, she blocked me on Steam...

I then used my iPod to talk to her. I said, this is Windy, and that I've been needing to talk to her. She just said hi. Nothing else, just hi. I told her about how the parents discovered the truth, and the next thing she said broke my heart into two...

I'm sorry, I just don't want love right now were her exact words.

I asked her if we could just be friends, and she didn't make the wisest move, because what she next said made me erupt...

No, I can't, because this was just a prank.

I responded with the most hateful message. I said things that to this day, I regret. Here's what I said in a nutshell. "I can't believe I wasted so much fucking time with you, you might as well die." She said that she was sorry. I said I was sorry too, but that's all I said. She said that she hoped I could forgive her. And I did. She then said that she's sorry, and that I'll find somepony else. I just said goodbye, and that was what she sent back to me.

That was our very last conversation... ever...

I stood in silence for a good 5 minutes, until I threw my iPod and screamed and yelled, "FUCK YOU." I hated my parents for taking her away from me... I could have done something different....

Something....

I cried myself to sleep that night....

Until 3:00 in the morning I collapsed from exhaustion, and even when I fell asleep I dreamed I was still crying...

It's been over a month since this, and I still haven't forgiven them... Well, I'll tell you what, I'll never forget her... She was good to me even when I lied to her, blew her off, ignored her, and was an asshole to her...

If you're reading this, Alexandria... I'm sorry....... I never meant a word......

Well, I guess I have to end it here...

The end...

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