Injection

Authors note: This chapter is more or less a chapter of revelations, and apologies. Also that romance that I mentioned in the first chapter will be added to the story, but it will be added as a side joke to be used throughout the story

I sat there, still pondering what the hell was going on. I had just seen every last bad memory (and trust me that is a lot of memories) flash through my mind, it was a mixture of anger and regret going through my mind currently.

The pain of the 21 years I’ve lived, was the one thing keeping me sane, the regret was balancing my sanity with my anger. Stopping me from going on a complete rampage. It was pure torture, I wanted to pull out one of my 2 pistols and end it all, but something wouldn’t let me, some thing in my head said “Chaos and suicide aren’t the answer.”.  All it did was tempt me to kill myself more.

I pulled my gun out and aimed it at my temple, trying to gain control and squeeze the trigger. I wanted to end it all.

“Um sir, what are you doing?”, I heard, I holstered the gun to see the pink pony. Before letting out a sigh, a mixture of relief that she interrupted my suicide, and despair that it just had to be the annoying one.

“Okie Dokie then, Flutters here wants to say something to you.” Pinkie Pie said after shrugging. I facepalmed and covered my ears at the inevitable scolding I was about to get.

I was ready to face facts, these ponies were going to f*ck my sh*t up by the end of the day, if I couldn’t find a peaceful spot to kill myself, I was probably going to blow my brains out in public.

“Sorry.” I heard Fluttershy shyly say, I had a more surprised look than when Sanchez betrayed me, and just stared at her.

“Wait, you’re apologizing, after all I did to you YOU’RE APOLOGIZING!” I yelled, turns out I was  the one doing the scolding, I could’ve sworn I was twitching.

Fluttershy recoiled in fright and then started to slowly back up before stopping and standing her ground.

“Yes, I’m apologizing, you’re ruthless and a big fat meanie, but nopony deserves what I did.” Fluttershy said before walking up to me.  I rolled my eyes at the pathetic “meanie” insult, before speaking up.

“Fine, you don’t seem too bad yourself.” I said, reaching out my hand to shake, I felt like a moron, but she reached out her hoof and shook it.

“Now one question, why were you fighting that Ursa Major anyway, usually if you just leave them alone or just run away, they won’t attack.” Fluttershy informed me, so I informed her of Rainbow Dash’s deal with me.  She just giggled at hearing about this.

“She probably didn’t think you would kill it, she was probably going to wait for you to be at its mercy to swoop in and save you, to impress Applejack, between you,me,Twilight,Pinkie,and Rarity, we think she has a crush on Applejack.”

I had to admit, that was a knee slapper. The idea of an Evil Knieval Pegasus, being a lesbian with a Redneck horse, priceless.

“Also I have another question.”, Twilight walked in, apparently having listened in on the conversation. “Since Fluttershy told you what we believe is Rainbow Dash’s secret, you have to tell us one of yours.”

I nodded, I saw it as completely fair, I asked what they wanted to know, as if I didn’t already know.

“What did you mean when you said that about friendship!?”, Twilight looked at me. Pinkie and Fluttershy also stared at me.

I told them the whole story, from the beginning of the mission to the end. I then told them about how close  I was with my team. I told them about the lack of friendships I had as a child. Twilight seemed to take notes, Fluttershy was almost in tears over a sad story like that, and  Pinkie Pie was bored to sleep.

I pointed over to Pinkie before pointing to the clock.  10:30 PM, if I planned to live in the EverFree forest, I was going to need all the energy I could get. I crashed on the couch as Pinkie and Twilight went to their respective homes

I opened my mouth before a huge yawn escaped it. I had a quick look at the clock, 6:00am,

I wrote a goodbye and thank you note for the ponies and laid it on the couch, then I headed to the Everfree forest.

As  I got to the Everfree forest I was about to cross the line, about to begin the real journey, when I heard my name (well nickname) being called out

It was the ponies, of course, they wanted to know more, I ran into the forest, looks like tonight was going to be a game of Hide and Seek