Shared Feelings

A colorful, tightly packed crowd of ponies stood before us. Their many loud voices echoed through my head, causing a sense of fear and anxiety to grow from deep inside me, and slowly force its way out. I could feel my body tremble slightly, and tried my best to hold it back.

“Well, it looks like everypony had the same idea we did,” Twilight said with a sigh, but one which was lighthearted, and not angered. “I guess we should have planned on coming even earlier. It is a DJ PON-3 concert, after all. Everypony is going to want to be up front, you know?”

I nodded my head softly, her soothing, but straightforward voice helping to calm me down. “Oh, yes, almost everypony is a fan of her music… and her looks.”

Twilight smirked. “Yeah, she’s definitely one good looking DJ.”

I had never heard Twilight call another mare attractive before, even a stallion for that matter; not even Flash Sentry, and I knew how much she enjoyed his looks. She was most likely just at ease. She was going to have a fun night at the concert with no worries. I was sure that put her in a great, and very open mood.

“I wonder where the other girls are,” I said, my eyes traveling across the colorful sea of ponies. In such a large crowd, it’d be hard to even spot a mane as bright as Rainbow’s.

Twilight shrugged. “I really have no idea. They said they’d be here, but never really specified where. If you’d like, we could always push our way up front. Even if we don’t find them, at least we’ll have a nice place up close to the stage.”

I could feel a rush of anxiety suddenly explode through my body, locking it up. I was barely able to shake my head as I spoke. “Oh, no… I mean, I’m not so sure about that. What if we lose each other, or… or-”

Twilight responded with a teasing wink. “Say no more, Fluttershy. How about we just head to the bar? It’ll be a little quieter, and we’ll have easy access to the booze. I was planning on having a few drinks anyways. How about you?”

I wasn’t much of a drinker. The thought of getting drunk, and not remembering a single thing scared me. Along with that, no control over my body. I shuddered at the thought. On the plus side though, alcohol did help to calm me down, and maybe even made me a bit braver. “I guess I could have one.”

Twilight smiled, and we headed over to the small tent, plastic table, and simple bar stools that had been set up. “Glad to hear it. I’m sure we’ll have lots of fun, even from back here. We’ll actually be able to talk; and that’s what we wanted, right? I nice little night out for the two of us.”

I nodded my head, a flutter of excitement overcoming my nerves. “Yes, of course.”

“Maybe it’s a good thing we didn’t find the others, hm? Now it’ll just be us,” she said sweetly as she took a seat near the end of the bar. I took a seat beside her. Luckily, it wasn’t too busy back there yet; so there were only a few other ponies there with us. “So… what’s new with you? Anything?”

I shrugged slightly. “Oh, still just the usual. It’s nice to get out for once, I guess.”

“You guess?” she asked with a chuckle. “Come on, Fluttershy, It’ll be fun. You are with me, after all.”

I could feel my cheeks heat up slightly at the thought. I was with her, just her, and it was great. “You’re right, it’s really nice to be spending some more time with you.”

The sudden voice of the bartender startled me, making me jump slightly in my seat. “What can a get you two hot fillies?” he asked with a wink, a smug look on his face. My body froze in its place, and I blushed deeply. I wanted to leave, get away from him, but I couldn’t. I was stuck. “You’re the prettiest mares I’ve seen so far tonight… but there hasn’t been much action back here yet. Tell you what, first round’s on me.”

Twilight, my soon to be savior from such an awkward situation, rolled her eyes, and huffed at his attempts to woo her. “No, I think, I’ll pay.” I watched as she gave him a very fake wink, and threw some bits out on the counter. She then stretched her back, purposely unfurling her wings so he’d realize that he was talking to a princess.

A sudden look of shock poured over his face, and his mouth fell open. “Oh… Princess Twilight, is it?” he asked with a quick bow. “I do apologize. What would you and your friend like? I’ll get it right away.”

“That’s better,” she said with a smirk. “Just get us two of your most popular drink… oh, and a word of advice; you’re never going to pick up fillies like us with whatever it was that you just did. You may want to rethink it. Try something, oh, a little more mannerly, perhaps?”

“Yes, Princess,” he said with another bow. Even though Twilight was a bit angered by the stallion’s actions, she still gave him a generous sum of bits for a tip. I couldn’t help but smile.

The bartender speedily returned with two yellowish iced drinks. He smiled, but said nothing, quickly returning to his other customers. “Now, what the hay is this?” Twilight asked, more to herself than me as she examined the drink, lifting it with her magic. She took a quick sip, and smacked her lips after swallowing. “Hmm, vodka and some kind of energy drink… that can’t be healthy.” She gave me a shrug, then laughed. “Oh well.”

I smiled softly, and took a sip of my own. The combination of relaxing alcohol, and the rush of energy immediately made my head spin as I swallowed. I cringed, and shook my head, mumbling an, “Oh…my…”

“Strong stuff, huh?” she asked with a chuckle before taking a small gulp.

“Very,” I giggled, then tried my best to down another sip. We both turned away from the bar to the crowd and stage in the distance. Celestia’s day was beginning to end, leaving a purple hue in the already orange sky. Soon, Luna’s beautiful night would be upon us, and the party would begin.

The strangest of feelings was beginning to overcome me as I swallowed down more of my drink. I was feeling more and more relaxed, but at the same time, more and more anxious. It wasn’t my normal anxiety though. It was more, the want to move rather than sit, to do something. I kicked my hooves back and forth as they dangled from the stool, attempting to get rid of some of the excess energy.

The air around us began to grow cooler, but my body felt warmer than ever. I turned my eyes away from my hooves, and back up to the crowd, noticing a familiar face flying towards us, Rainbow Dash.

“Hey, Rainbow,” Twilight said with a smile as she came to a speedy stop before us, a slightly disgruntled look on her face.

“Uh… hey, Twilight, Fluttershy… we’ve been lookin’ all over for you two! We were supposed to meet up, remember?” she said in a matter-of-factly tone.

Twilight shrugged. “I’m sorry, but we just didn’t want to push our way through all of those ponies.”

“Both of you can fly, remember?” she grumbled. “Easy peasy, you know? Just sort of fly over everypony.”

Twilight placed a hoof on her chin as she pondered the thought. “Well… I guess we always could do that. What do you think, Fluttershy?” She turned her beautiful eyes to my own, as if expecting an answer.

I could feel my lips turning downward into a frown as my heart began to pound. I really didn’t want to go out into such a large crowd of ponies. It just made me so uncomfortable, even after having something to drink. I didn’t want to disappoint Twilight by saying no either though; but my expression said it all, and she knew my answer right away.

“I think I’ll just stick back here with Fluttershy,” she said, causing Rainbow to become even more angered.

“…I-I’ll be fine here by myself, Twilight. Go ahead and have fun,” I mumbled softly, still trying my best not to disappoint her.

“Yeah, what Fluttershy said. If she doesn’t wanna have fun, that’s cool; but don’t let her drag you down with her!”

I could feel a growing pain from within. I had really begun to hope that the night would be a special one just for the two of us; but I was sure Twilight didn’t want some awkward pony like me “dragging her down” as RD said. If she left, I’d probably just head back home… there was no reason for me to be there otherwise.

I let out a small gasp of surprise as I suddenly felt her soft hoof wrap around my shoulders. “Fluttershy, I said I wanted to spend more time with you, remember? I’m not just going to abandon you back here. We’re on a ‘date’ after all.”

Her words made me grin like an overly awkward idiot as my entire face turned red. “Bleh! This is no time for some cheesy, romantic date! It’s time to party!” Rainbow grumbled, scrapping her hoof angrily at the ground. “I thought you weren’t even into mares, Twi?” she asked teasingly, glaring at her.

Twilight rolled her eyes in response. “Ugh, Rainbow!”

“Yeah, I don’t care! Enjoy your weird little date, ya party poopers!” Even if Dash said she didn’t care, I could easily tell by her yelling, and reddening face that she did.

“I think we’ll have plenty of fun back here, Dash,” Twilight said with a confident smirk. “Maybe even more fun than your little party up front.”

Rainbow responded with a loud huff. “Yeah… whatever,” she mumbled as she took off, leaving Twilight and I alone once more.

"Oh, that Rainbow Dash, she’s one stubborn pony,” Twilight said with a chuckle.

“Yes, very.” I nodded my head in agreement. “You can be pretty stubborn too,” I teased.

“Heh, I do get things my way when I want to,” she said with a wink, gently patting me on my back. I could feel myself blushing once more, realizing her hoof was still wrapped around me. I began to wonder if it really had turned into a date, rather than a ‘date.’ Was she really into mares… and me for that matter? I could feel my heart pounding lovingly at the idea, and my stomach filling with butterflies. I wished I could just ask to make everything easier, but I was much too nervous to. Instead, I gently rested my head against her shoulder. She didn’t seem to mind.

“So when is this thing going to start, anyways?” she asked, gazing into the upper sky which was now a much deeper purple. Twinkling stars were beginning to reveal themselves, and the large moon glowed in the distance.

As if wanting to answer her immediately, the sound of a microphone turning on echoed through the speakers, and then came Vinyl Scratch’s voice. “Sup, everypony? Are you ready to party? I know I am! Think I should start blasting out some serious beats?”

A synchronized roar burst from the crowd before us as they jumped up and down excitedly. Then came the sound of thousands of glowsticks all snapping at once as ponies wrapped them around their necks and hooves. I watched as one group of ponies began to quickly inflate large beach balls with air to be bounced back and forth through the crowd.

Vinyl’s voice returned. I could barely see what she was doing up on the stage. From where we were, she was almost just a white blur, glowing from the black lights on stage. “Aww, yeah! I’d say that’s a yes! Tell you what, Ponyville, I’m gonna shake this town like it’s never been shaken before! You better hold on tight, and hope your homes’ve got shatter resistant windows, ‘cause here comes the bass!”

After another collective cheer, the deep, shaking boom of bass filled the air as Vinyl’s music played. I could feel it in my ears, my head, my body, and perhaps even my soul. It was very strange, but felt nice in a way too. The crowd moved up and down with the beat. Colorful, flashing lights, along with the neon of glowsticks lit up the ever darkening night. I was in awe just watching.

“Whoa! There it is!” Twilight yelled over the music with a grin, the sensation of the beat, I assumed, feeling just as strange inside her as it did in me. “Can I get another drink?” she asked, turning to the bartender; his head bobbing to the music. She then turned back to me, and gave a wink. “How about you, Fluttershy? Need another round?”

I shook my head. “Oh, no… I think I’ll just take a water!” I tried my best to raise my voice over the music. Luckily, she was close enough that it was easy for her ears to pick it up.

“And one water!” she yelled to him. He gave a nod, hoofing over both of our drinks.

I watched as Twilight sipped at her drink, its level lowering much more quickly than it had with the first. She wasn’t much for drinking either, unless it was an occasion like this. I could tell she was already getting a little buzzed. Her eyes moved more slowly, and her movements were becoming much less precise than usual. The more alcohol she consumed, the closer she got to me. I felt guilty for enjoying it so much, especially considering the fact that it was just the alcohol acting, and not her… but having Twilight practically snuggled up to me was amazing. The night was suddenly even better than it had been before.

“I guess I can see why so many ponies enjoy this music!” Twilight yelled. Even though she was buzzed, she was still as thoughtful about everything as ever. “It has a feel to it, a very special feel, you know? It’s hard to put a hoof on, but the flow of the music almost seems to transport you to a completely different world! A world were there’s no worries, where only having fun, dancing, and drinking exist! It’s great! Right, Fluttershy?”

“Well… it’s certainly interesting!” I wasn’t really sure what to think about it. It was nice and all… but almost too much. Twilight was like my buffer zone though, keeping me calm and collected.

“Oh, I’ll certainly make things interesting, all right. You’ll see!” She gave me a wink, and pulled me even closer to her, nearly causing my stool to slip out from under me. With her hoof wrapped tightly around me, stroking against my side while my head rested against her, I was, at first, shocked. Then I began to relax, my cheeks growing heated as I nuzzled against her warm fur. What exactly did she mean by, “make things interesting,” I wondered. Was she going to do more than just hold me close? My heart began to pound once more.

“Why so nervous, Fluttershy?” she asked with a teasing wink, placing her hoof against my chest. My heart pounded faster, and faster; and I could feel my face growing redder and redder. She chuckled softly into my ear, then said, “You’re so adorable when you’re nervous.”

I let out a small yelp. Was she just teasing me… or was I finally getting what I wanted? She suddenly pulled away, helping to set me back up in my seat. “Get me another drink, please!” she yelled to the bartender. I began to wonder how long it would be until she was truly drunk. I was sure it wouldn’t be long at all.

“So… Fluttershy, I was thinking, maybe, just maybe we could go dance for a little? I know you don’t like crowds, but I’m sure it’ll be fun. Just try to zone out everypony else or something!”

My heart began to pound, this time with fear rather than love. “Oh… I’m not really sure about that.” Dancing… in a huge crowd with everypony watching me… it was like a nightmare.

“Oh, please, Fluttershy? Won’t you do it for me?” she pleaded before taking a gulp of her new drink. “This stuff is making me itch to get up and do something!”

“Can’t you just go dance by yourself?” I asked. I knew the moment I said it that it was a selfish reply, but I really didn’t want to go out into the crowd with her.

She frowned, and gave me a stare with wide, puppy-dog eyes. She was so cute. I was sure I had never seen her plead so much before. “I thought you’d jump at the opportunity to dance with me though.”

My face grew red. Did she know? Had she just been pretending to not notice my affection for her all this time? Was I really that bad at hiding it? “I guess it wouldn’t be…but there’s so many ponies out there…but, um, okay.”

“Okay, as in, you’ll dance with me?” she asked eagerly, a grin forming on her face. I nodded my head. “Good choice!” she yelled, giving me a wink as she hopped away from the bar, then pulled me up onto my hooves. Her drink, surrounded by an aura of magic, was in close tow beside her as she pushed her way through the thick, sweaty, and extremely energetic crowd of ponies. Along with that, so was I; her hoof wrapped tightly around my own, pulling me along as I stumbled over my hooves.

So many different faces, some of ponies I knew, others, complete strangers. I didn’t understand exactly why Twilight wanted to drag us so deep into the sweaty, bouncing sea, but she was. I was growing more and more panicked by the second. There were so many ponies, too many. They didn’t seem to mind us though, or even notice us for that matter. They were lost in the music, and the party itself. I guess that made it somewhat more comforting, to be ignored.

Finally, Twilight came to a stop in an open space wide enough for the two of us, along with a little wiggle room. A large grin appeared on her face as she began to stomp her hooves to the beat. Quickly, her moves grew faster, stronger, and wilder, until she was lost, just like everypony around us.

The beat of the music was catchy, and easy to move to, but I had a much harder time getting into the groove of things. I awkwardly shuffled my hooves from side to side, gently shaking my head. Unlike the others, I couldn’t lose myself in the low rumble of the bass. Every single time I got close, a sudden thought or worry filled my mind. I became suspicious of others watching, even though it was easy to see they weren’t. I began to realize that my awkward movements probably looked even more idiotic than Twilight’s rather haphazard style of dancing.

Perhaps she was getting a little too lost. Her body hung low to the ground as her hooves thrust away from her body randomly, and then returned to her side. Her wings flapped excitedly, most likely unknowingly as well. Her face was scrunched together tightly as if concentrating too hard. Nopony seemed to care though.

I guess that was another reason why so many ponies enjoyed concerts like those. You could be yourself, dance however you liked, and nopony even gave it a second thought. They were too busy enjoying themselves, and wanted to let you experience it as well. It was amazing, really.

As I thought about this, I grew more comfortable; and slowly, my shuffling turned into real movement. An uncontrollable smile formed on my lips as I let the music flow through me. I was no longer in control, instead the music was.

I could just vaguely hear Twilight’s familiar voice as she spoke. I had to read her lips to discover exactly what she was saying to me. “That’s the spirit, Fluttershy! You go girl!”

I gave her a grin, my dancing growing even faster, and harder as she followed suit. She paused for just a short moment to take another large gulp of her drink, and then got right back into it. In the flashing strobes and the glow of neon, I could tell her eyes were growing more and more glazed over with inebriation. When Twilight wanted to party, she really partied. I didn’t want her to get too drunk though… even if it did give me a good chance of getting closer to her. It just wasn’t right to use her like that.

Suddenly, I noticed Twlight’s relaxed eyes grow a bit wide as she stared upward. I looked up as well to see exactly what was going on, and noticed a large inflated ball plummeting downwards. I let out an unnoticeable yelp, and squinted my eyes shut tightly. I flinched as the ball’s surface pushed into my face, and then blinked as it bounced away, traveling somewhere else into the crowd.

I gasped once more as a hoof tapped against my shoulder from behind. I turned to see a grinning mare, one who was certainly not a local. She lifted her muzzle to my ear, and spoke, her warm breath pushing outwards. “Here, take these! Looks like you need some!” She pulled away, her grin as wide as ever, and hoofed over some glowstick necklaces. I nodded my head and smiled in thanks before she disappeared into the crowd. I pushed one over my head, and let it settle around my neck, then gave the other to Twilight. She gave me a rather slow wink in return, a seductive smile on her face. I looked away shyly, a deep blush on my cheeks. I tried to tell myself that it was just the alcohol talking, but I couldn’t help imagining it wasn’t. What if she did like me after all?

A pang of shock rushed through my body as her hoof wrapped around my chin, and pulled upwards. She gazed at me with unsteady eyes, and then pressed her lips against my cheek. They were warm, and wet, her saliva dampening my fur. My face grew red, and my body froze. It’s just because she’s been drinking, Fluttershy. Just because of the alcohol…that’s all. I thought to myself for assurance.

Twilight then gave me another wink before whipping around so that her backside faced me. Staring back at me, she raised her flank as close to my face as she could, and shook it to the beat. I could feel my lips contorting awkwardly as my body began to shake with nerves. Along with that, I could feel cold beads of sweat forming on my forehead.

It felt so wrong to not turn away, or simply ignore her… but at the same time, I couldn’t help but stare. I had never really had the chance to take a look at her backside before. I was much too nervous to take any glances. Now though, she was presenting it to me, and I could look all I wanted to.

It was so beautiful and perfect, just like the rest of her. It was smooth, and rounded. Just the sight of its curvature was enough to turn me on. It was plump and firm, but loose enough that it jiggled ever so slightly with each of her movements. I awkwardly shuffled my legs, and bit down hard upon my lip as I could feel myself growing a little wet… I wanted more.

She kept her tail rigid enough that it covered what was beneath as it swayed from side to side, not letting me have even the slightest glimpse. I had a feeling she was doing it on purpose, just to tease me, and make me want her more. She gave me one more wink before turning back around to face me.

Twilight then moved to my side, placing a large wing over top of me. She did this both as a way to keep her balance because she was growing tipsy, and as a way to press her body against my own. She gulped down the rest of her drink, and her magic sputtered on and off as it faltered, letting the drink cup fall the ground beneath. Luckily, it was plastic.

Before I had the chance to pick it up and find the nearest trashcan, I was suddenly pulled away, back through the crowd on the same path from which we’d arrived. My body was still a bit stiff with nerves, giving Twilight a bit of a struggle as she drug me along. I was unsure exactly what was happening. Were we just heading back to the bar for another drink? Her eyes kept gravitating towards me, barely even concentrating on where we were headed.

I looked away shyly, and tried my best to help navigate us through the ponies. The engulfing roar of the music slowly dissipated as we grew more and more distant from it. My ears still rang though, as if the music wanted to stick with me, to keep me dancing. It seemed almost eerily quiet as we finally reached the bar, even though the music was still pumping through my ears.

“D-did you, um, want another drink or something?” I stuttered out nervously as Twilight pulled me even closer against her. It was exactly what I had been wanting for so long, yet, it felt wrong. I wanted the real Twilight to hold me close, to love me, and care for me… not the drunk Twilight.

“Oh, I want something, alright,” she said with a smirk, leading us right out of the concert gates and into the seemingly desolate town beyond.

“And what’s that?” I muttered shyly, looking away. “…Oh, and by the way, I had fun dancing with you out there.”

She chuckled before giving me a quick nuzzle on the neck. “So did I… hot stuff.”

“O-oh…my,” I mumbled, blushing deeply.

She brought her mouth to my ear and whispered softly. “I was thinking maybe we could have a little more fun.” She then pulled away with another wink.

“U-um…what kind of fun?” I had a feeling I knew exactly what she wanted…

“Well, I’ve been reading a book recently… about mares our age. It said that a lot of us tend to… experiment with our sexuality.” Her pauses were long, and drawn out, as if struggling to figure out exactly what she wanted to say. “You’re cute…”

Even though I knew it was coming, my mouth still flopped open with shock after hearing it firsthoof. My body froze and trembled once more. My thoughts grew into a jumbled panic. I began to wish that anypony, Rainbow, Pinkie, Rarity, Applejack, even just a random stranger would come to my rescue, and save me from such an awkward situation.

I wanted Twilight, I wanted her so badly. I had for so, so long. This was different though. She had been drinking, it wasn’t the real Twilight, the pony that I loved so much. She was somepony else… or was she? Sometimes ponies say that alcohol helps them speak their minds. So was that what Twilight, the real Twilight really wanted? Was it wrong of me to use her, and say yes; or was it an opportunity for both of us to show our true feelings for one another? An opportunity which I shouldn’t let slip from my hooves.

“…I know you want me, Fluttershy,” she teased, a seductive tone in her voice.

My heart began to pound at the statement. “Y-you…do?”

“Well, duh… have you ever realized how you look at me; the way you gaze into my eyes… the way you blush or smile at whatever I say? Don’t worry, I want you too… and, no, it’s totally not due to the fact that the book I told you about made me curious or anything. I really, really like you Fluttershy,” she mumbled, shaking her head loosely to and fro.

Was she telling me the honest truth, or lying to my face just because she wanted to “experiment” with me? Or maybe it was a little of both? My body, my emotions wanted me to say yes, but my mind was telling me no.

“I, um, you’re very right, Twilight. I like you a lot…but…but-”

I was no longer able to talk as her soft, damp lips wrapped around my own. My body was suddenly overwhelmed by a flurry of tingling, and the hardest fluttering I had ever felt in my stomach before. I thought she was going to pull away, but she continued to kiss. My eyes slowly fell shut as I was lost in a world of bliss. Her hoof wrapped around my head, pushing our lips even further together.

I had never kissed another mare before, or even a stallion for that matter. It was my first kiss, and it was with the mare of my dreams. I pushed an uncontrollable gasp of joy out of my mouth, and into hers. A small moan reverberated from her mouth in response.

Twilight pulled away with a grin, a light blush tinging her cheeks. “So what do you say, cutie?”

“I-I… yes!” I struggled to push out. Yes, oh why did I say yes?

“That’s my girl. Good choice,” she cooed, once again wrapping her wing around me. “Why don’t we head to my place, hm?”