Monochrome Diaries

If somepony pass me by and see me smiling, this somepony may find it weird and ask me. "Why do you smile?"

My response to the previous question will be "Why not?" while holding up the same cheering smile.

Something that didn't change the slightest in the walk back home, is that it remains completely cold and lonely. Of course, before I had to look at buildings and it's squared shapes with depressive colors; mostly grey, hear to the sounds of motorcycles and cars riding on the streets and listen to songs that made this whole scenario a bit more cheering. But even now when I'm chosen to be in a world that for ages I've been dreaming being part of, with more colors and shapes to wander my eyes on, kids and adults laughing for no other reason than happiness and the main scent of clean air around me, this unwearying plague still chases me wherever I go.

"It would've been better if I had my cellphone to hear songs," I mutter to myself when I lay my eyes in my house and the nearby tree. The time will go on faster if I sleep but I know I'll stay up anyway. Not sneaking, more like running away from the inside like if there was a monster, Rainbow Dash flies up to the tree and seems to be searching for something in the city behind me. I don't know if I get confused because she was inside my house, probably snooping on my stuff or that in this distance she's trying to spot something in the middle of the city.  I shrug these thoughts away and wave one hand towards her. "Hey, Dash!" I call.

In the blink of an eye she's flying full speed towards me it and doesn't seems that she will slow down, or that she wants to for that matter. I cringe and prepare for the massive impact it should surely cause, but it all became more confusing when it actually never came. When I open my eyes to see what' going on, I see the cute face of a confused Rainbow Dash towards me. Can't help to notice her pink eyes and simple eye lashes, winking to get those beauties watered. "What's that?" she asks. I soon realize that I'm still cringed with arms up in the air and almost as confused as her so I try to regain my composure, having to bear some laughing from the cyan mare.

"Enjoying the moment, I see," I scratch my nape and smile at her. "Is that my volleyball?" I ask and point to the round object displaying vivid blue and yellow colors. Rainbow Dash then stares at what she's holding then seems to have remembered something; her open eyes full of excitement followed by a gasp which managed to escape from her half-parted mouth.

"OH YEA, I FORGOT I WAS SEARCHING FOR YOU SO THAT I COULD ASK IF YOU..." she takes a pause then stares at me blankly. I turn my head to the side and see if there's something or somepony behind me, but nothing more than a forest and an open field filled with grass and some flowers blowing with the wind. It's kind of invigorating feeling the wind blow like this on my face. "If you like volleyball..." she mutters still with the same dumbfounded look on her face. I give up on trying to find out what's gone into her to be looking at me this way and approach her to gather back the ball.

"Yeah, I do," I extend my hand to her, expecting for the ball to fall on it, but it never happens because she's zoning out. "What about it, Dash?" She snap out of it with an audible "Ah," then hand me the ball.

"G-good," her cheeks flush a light tone of red, and despite this she still manages to keep on talking. I put the ball on my side and support it with my arm so then I raise once again to my normal posture, aware that my height could intimidate her. "I want to play a match against ya!"

"Against me?" I raise an eyebrow.

"Yes." She confirms in a more serious tone, which surprises me. "I don't really care if you're higher or stronger than me..." her eyes then lock on me. "I'll win against ya anyways." This fierce stare carries such intensity that it paralyzes me and almost make me crawl back home, then into my room just so I can cry all by myself while saying 'I'm sorry' all the time. I can't possibly describe how awesome and badass she looks right now, but I can tell that if anything more intense than this actually happens while I'm alive, I'll be surprised as hell.

"Sure! But I'm tired now so we will have to wait til' tomorrow," I explain to her and she seems to understand my conditions. "Wanna toss?" I invite her raising the volleyball in my right hand while staring at her. She delays to answer and nods with a cocky grin on her face.

"I'm a first class ace, but I can put up with it." She then leaves the ground to be in mid-air, in position and totally waiting for the ball to come. After a some tosses and a few spikes followed by receives, Rainbow Dash seems to realize something she should have some time ago. "Oh, and by the way, Do you have anypony to be your teammate?"

This make my next toss miss target and send the ball straight to the tree next home. "Oops," I rub my nape ashamed of tossing the ball so far away from the target; and all because for a brief second I got distracted. "My bad. No, I haven't but I'll figure something out until the friendly."

Rainbow Dash's ear twitch in an agitated way, wishing she didn't just hear the exact word she heard. "Friendly?" I nod. Uncomfortably quietly she fly up to the tree then gathers the ball, only so then she throw it up and to spike it with both hooves whilst aiming at me. My reflexes aren't that much but it's enough for me to make a good reception without the ball escaping so then it consequently goes up my home and shatters one of my windows. We both exchange head-to-head fierce gazes, even after the ball has hit the ground. "If you think that we'll weaken during the match only because it's a friendly—"

"You are completely wrong." Her voice trips onto my own and fall apart to a stronger and steadier one. I keep on gazing up searching for a slight sign of unexpected reactions, but I find nothing more than a shocked pegasus flapping her wings to stay steady in mid air while looking deep into my eyes, seeking something she cannot find in a moment like this. An argument. "I also," I grab the ball tight before I speak up to Dash, pulling her off of her trance. "Hate when my opponents think that if it's just a friendly, they can go easy. I'm the only one who got all out in court, really seeking for the victory. Right now I realize I've found a teammate who

I can trust completely and rely on in difficult times. We'll be rivals in and off court, but no matter what happens in the meantime," Inevitably I open up a smile to my own reasoning and close my eyes to feel better this feeling of accomplishment. "I feel like we're gonna be best of friends."

After the feeling was over, I open my eyes to see Rainbow Dash's eyes gazing on me while to our side, the sun finishes to set and the moon begins to raise with all the twinkling stars behind. Gazing upon the phenomenon I recall that I have work starting tomorrow morning beside Diane, so I think it's better for me to get some early rest. After all, not only the job will take some energy out of me but also the match after it, and still I have to find a partner for myself. "Hm... I think I'll be heading home," I say to the pegasus. She's still being quiet after all that, what I find to be a miracle. "See ya tomorrow, Dash."

"O-oh, yeah. I have to work tomorrow too, so... see ya later," she then fly away neck break speed, probably towards her house. I turn around leaving the tree behind me and ready to open up my doo—

*Rustle**Rustle*

The sound came from the treetop, and I turn around as fast as I can so see if there was somepony there. The wind buzzing in my ears is making it difficult to trace any odd sound that may come from there and there're no leaves falling from the middle of it. I keep searching for any sign of life in there for the longest of ten seconds so then I decide to shake it off and finally enter my house. "How odd," I mutter.

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Many things I am pondering inside of my head and the one which has been hammering painfully is about Celestia's reaction about my arrival. I don't know what will happen, and I'm actually almost certain that everything will run smoothly but my brain still forces me to consider all the other bad options like if there were no good outcomes. I sigh and scratch my nape and walk to the kitchen. A good n' old cup of water will help me calm down, I think. I'm sure that it won't help to keep worried over something that can happen tomorrow, after all. I have to focus on what I do now, and let the future happen as it's supposed to be; as it's always been in my life. I gulp down the water in a matter of seconds then wash the glass so I can go to sleep.

When I enter the bedroom I immediately close the door behind me because of my stupid fear that something creepy will keep staring at me while I sleep. I take my time to remove my clothing and throwing it anywhere in the room, and for a moment I even stop to admire the moon and it's fading light that is even more beautiful than back on earth. When only my underwear is left I climb up to my bed and start covering myself up with the white blanket. My whole body shivers to the cold sensation of the fabric touching and grinding my skin but it ends soon when my own body heat makes it even.

What seems wrong about it, is that I didn't mourn about me coming like this to this unknown world. Leaving all my family, friends and others behind. "At least, here, no one will ever judge me."

I hope.