Hell

Disclaimer: The only info about me that won't be true will be the info on how I got to Equestria. I don't own MLP: FIM and all other info about me will be true. What the ponies do or say will depend on how they normally behave.

Cold. It felt so cold. Just another day of school. 8th grade, it would be over in a few more years. In the beginning of that year, my best friend (who was also my childhood friend for 6 years) fell in love with a chick that I've been helping and asking out, and she loved him back. I'd been helping for a few months and been asking her out for nearly a year. She said no every time. For you all to know, I am nearly six feet tall, with black hair (really it's a very dark brown but I go with it), am 14, weigh 200 lbs, have a beard that reaches an inch off my face, with emerald green eyes, and look like the average adult. I am Daniel. My best/childhood friend is Andrew, a blond who's 5' 9" with blue eyes. The girl was Alisse, she was pretty much the same but was somewhere in the low 5' zone, had lots of freckles, and had a small southern accent. ESPECIALLY on cuss words.

Anyways, back to the story.

Nearly a month ago, Alisse came to me about her problems. She was dealing with jealousy and envy. Andrew was being very shy even though he's a playful and devious guy. He was still acting normal with his friends and with another girl. She walked up to me, sat down next to me. She leaned into my shoulder and cried. I did all I could to comfort her, and it ended up reminding me of my worst memories that made me the same way as her right now or worse. This went on for twenty minutes until we had to go; but before she left, I hugged her and told her "Be safe". I know that was cliche' to a certain point but it was all I could think of at the time.

On December 11th, 2 days ago, she came to me again. She didn't cry for a while until she started talking about what was wrong. People were getting jealous of Alisse and Andrew, so they kept making up excuses as to force them to break up. She kept saying that the people were saying Andrew didn't love her. That was a lie. Alisse has asked Andrew but he never told her. He told me. I assured her that he was just too shy to say it. We just sat together, I let Alisse listen to her 'jam' for a while. Never thought it would be like that though. She cuts her wrist, marks of the cuts and the blood showing every time she feels bad and there is no one there for her. I don't want Alisse to get hurt, I wanted to save her from the Hell I was in that she thought was good for her.

Boy was she wrong, if she knew. She almost cried just reading a few of the basic tasks I've gone through. I'd had enough. I went through my general routine, pretend I'm fine, don't talk, when talking, give as short a phrase as possible.

One night, I reviewed the memories, the good and the bad. There were few good. I was given many things, whether I wanted them or not. But more has been taken away from me. When I was 8, my grandma died. That Summer, we visited her grave. My 3 year old brother didn't know what was happening so he was dancing and jumping on people's graves. Everyone except Eric and me were crying. I just looked at her grave thinking "She's dead...never gonna talk to her again, never gonna see her again...I can live with that". I never really liked her, she was rarely playful, smoked a lot, and was always trying to make us act like the perfect family in a perfect world to fit into an oblivious society.

I have never cried since then. Tears have rarely come to my eyes, which to me, is the closest I'll ever get to crying. I looked out my window to the darkness where the moon would be. I really wished I could cry sometimes. I fell asleep thinking how the next day, I'd have another memory, most likely boring. Like nearly all my memories, the boring ones weren't good but weren't bad either. If it wasn't boring, it'd be bad. I haven't had a generally good memory since 5th grade...

I awoke the next morning to find myself in a strange room. It looked like some sort of mix between a hotel room, and a royal bedroom. I sat up, a lucid dream, huh? This is the third time... I reminisced about the times I had a lucid dream. The first time was just people chilling at my place while I chugged Coke (as in the soda you drug lovers). The second time was just some brief flashes about how I'd react differently if given a second chance at something. Just as I began to think why nothing was going on, the door opened and a strange 6 horses walked in. Scratch that. Two horses, two PEGASI, A UNICORN?! AND WHAT THE HELL WAS WITH THE HYBRID?!

The hybrid opened it's mouth, "Oh! You're awake." it spoke giddily. I fainted on the spot.

I woke up...again. I opened my eyes thinking FINALLY, that was one hell of a strange dre- until I noticed that the hybrid from earlier was curled up on the bed next to me, staring with huge magenta eyes straight into my soul. I did the one thing only I would do. I sat up, got off the bed and walked towards a wall. I pulled my head back and then forward, smashing my forehead against the wall. When I stood up straight, the wall had a dent and many cracks in it. Crap, usually when that happens I'm bleeding. After waiting a few moments, I thought again. Strange, how the fuck am I not bleeding? Whenever I was in school and I had a 'da fuq' moment (as I liked to call it), I would smash my head into a locker. It didn't hurt. In my school, the people who have met me, know me in two ways. One, the bearded kid. Two, the guy who can't feel pain. To be honest, I do feel pain. If it's physical, I ignore it. Don't ask how, I just do. If it's mental/emotional, I hide it and think about why I'm here until it's over.

"Umm, hey" the hybrid was talking again. "My name is Twilight Sparkle, and I'm the-"

"Element of Magic, one of the four Princesses of Equestria, and Princess of Friendship. Otherwise know as Ponyville's librarian." I finished for her, my slight amount of broniness showing. You heard me right, broniness. Got a problem? Well, she looked stunned. That's when what we just said clicked in my head.

"Oh MY GOD!" I screamed to the heavens as I fell backwards. Stuck on the floor, I just pointed at her saying, "Y-Y-Y-Y-You're...r-r-r-real?!"

"Yeah...and so are you, I think." Holy shit, I made this very awkward. "Umm, my name is Daniel" I bowed just to annoy her a little knowing she didn't like being bowed to. "Nice to meet you Princess Twilight." I had the biggest fucking grin that would make even Pinkie jealous. For me and my friends, it was a sign that shit was about to get real.

"Twi? Can we come in now?" A tomboy-ish voice sounded from the door. Rainbow Dash was my immediate thought. She was my favorite.Then came Twilight, then Applejack, next Fluttershy, Pinkie Pie, and finally Rarity. I hated fashion so much that I either wore all red, all grey, all white, or all black. Right now, it was all black. "Yeah" Twilight responded.

I saw the mane six walk in. I spoke up, curiosity getting the best of me. "Wait a minute, how the hell did I get here. Was I deserted in this world or just appear in this bed?" I had an arched eyebrow as I spoke. Rarity quickly yelled at me, ignoring my question, "Dear Celestia! What is with those foul colored garments?! You must come with me immediately!" She grabbed me with her magic and started dragging me towards the door until a familiar two Alicorns walked in. I bowed right away, along with the others (except Twilight). Celestia just watched my movements suspiciously while Luna began speaking. "We have looked through thou mind while thou were asleep 'human', there is a darkness within thou. Not a magic kind of darkness, but a depressing one. It's as if thou see no ending, no happiness. Thou hath two choices. Redeem thyself with our help and maybe even the elements, or leave thy world."

The mane six stared at me in shock, and it was only then that I noticed. Me and Celestia were the same height and I towered over the other ponies by at least a foot. Snapping out of my ramblings, I answered. "Leave this world. Please just send me to Tartarus or worse. It doesn't matter anymore. Where I'm from, I only had one task left to do. With me being here, I can't complete that task. I have no point in living right now so might as well use it Princess Luna." They were all shocked that I knew her name...except for Luna. Celestia was holding back the desire to ask thousands of questions but only one word came out of her mouth. "...How?"

I didn't feel the need to tell them anything so I used the best excuse ever on Earth, and it worked better here. "Maaaaagiiiiiic." As I said it, I moved my hands to form an imaginary rainbow. As soon as they all stared at as if asking what kind, I jumped back on the bed, landing on my ass. "So, when do I leave?" I asked Luna. I couldn't wait to finish what I started so many years ago. That was until I heard a remark. "I will send you soon, but answer this first. You have a memory that you kept repressed. I couldn't see it. What was it?"

Then Pinkie opened her mouth. Well shit, can't escape Pinkie. "Do a song too, pleeeeaaasse?" she asked giving my puppy dog eyes. "Fine." She couldn't respond, I already started on my story.

"It was 3 years ago, August 26th. I walked into a classroom. 'More boring people, at least I'll be able to have more friends' I thought. I walked around a little to get under terms with the new room, and right as I was about to walk out the door, someone walked in. A girl about my height, slightly developed into puberty, blonde, blue eyes, smooth skin, and the voice of a fucking angel. I couldn't believe it. I blushed and felt my heart rate quicken. I barely talked to her throughout the year. She didn't like me, but she didn't hate me either so I still had a chance. Her name was Annabelle.

Sometime in March though, her best/childhood friend insulted me, my heritage, and everything I knew even though I was smarter than her and had the report card to prove it. This 'friend' was named Annaliese. she was a pale brunette with freckles and a light voice (like Pinkie's) that was a bit scratchy. With my short temper, I snapped. I cussed for the first time in my life. I cussed out that little snob. Hell, that was the one thing in my life that if I had a second chance with, I'd do it again. Annabelle showed up, and made it clear that she now hated me for that.

To this day, she doesn't know what that little whore said or did" I finished.

"That's without the details." They just stared at me wide eyed with their jaws on the floor. Pinkie was the first to speak up, "Annaliese was a big dumb meanie head!"

Before anyPONY else could make a deal out of it, I stated. "That's the past, I haven't seen any of them since 2 and a half years ago. I don't know if they're even around anymore"

There was another long silence with the mane six looking at me with pity and the princesses with sympathy. This pissed me of pretty quick. "I don't need pity and don't be all sympathetic. Things may not be perfect here on Equis but it surely is better than my world. Right Luna?" She looked at me and nodded. My world was like Tartarus to them. I'm not even kidding. "Now for the song"

"It's called Gave It All Away

(Here's the song: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ojjP-rT0zWk)

I was met with an instant response from all eight of the ponies in the room. Even Fluttershy. "NO" God damn it. My eyes sharpened as I stood up and walked over to the balcony of the room. walked out and looked down. It looked to be a several hundred foot fall. For the first time in many years, I smiled. "Wha' are ya' smilin'?" I heard a familiar farm pony ask. "I'm smiling? Heh, at least it's not my fake smile to hide my emotions" I added with chuckle. I turned towards them and mouthed thank you as I used my basketball skills to do a fade away shot without the shooting. I jumped over the edge of the balcony and fell quickly. Finally, I can be at peace. I kept thinking that until I notice that a rainbow was approaching fast.

Shit, shit, shit, Shit, Shit, SHIT, SHIT, SHIIIT! It was Rainbow Dash. She was about to do a sonic rainboom so I tuned around and flattened my body so I was like a pencil with the tip about to break as it will smash against the desk. Or in this case, the stony ground. I knew it was too late for anything to save me so I turned towards Rainbow and said a few words.

"Dash, thank you"...then I mouthed my last words Love ya, which her eyes widened at showing me that she understood what I said. Right before I hit the ground, I swear I saw a tear on her face.

Another memory flashed before my eyes. I was 4. There was a playground next to my house. There were a couple of swing-sets, a ladder, and a slide. My older brother who was 10 at the time, stopped me from climbing the ladder when I just wanted to slide down the slide. I did the only thing I could think of, I ran up the slide. When I got to the top, my brother shoved me off, making me fall 6 ft onto my arm, dislocating it. To feel the pain of knowing that even the people you love most in the world would hurt you, that is what I felt.

All that was next was darkness.