The Diary of Celestia

The Diary of Celestia

        Dear Diary,I cannot believe they would be this dense! Princess Platinum and Chancellor Puddinghead refused; outright refused to let Thunderhoof place troops in their cities!        I demanded a reason as to why and they explained- explained more like complained- Sorry. Princess Platinum “explained” that if we were to put pegasi soldiers within her cities walls there would be unbridled panic and Thunderhoof would have too much control “via” threat of force. Puddinghead on the other hoof simply wanted no “Pegasi tight heads” walking through her villages and disrupting the peace by worrying everypony as well as having a strategic position within her very walls.        I tried to make them see common sense that one, I would never allow thunderhoof to wage war or even threaten to as long as I am alive. Not to mention two, more peace would be obstructed from those creatures invading than having some soldiers wanting to protect the innocent ponies walk around.        Alas they seem set in their ways. I cannot make them do what do not wish, even with debate. That would only destroy the freedom in which I have sought to create within this kingdom.        I will think this through over a cup of tea I suppose. It has been a good few days since I have gotten to relax.

        Dear Diary.        Something worrying has occurred to me.        When I asked for my tea the usual pony came in to deliver it. Though seeing as Thunderhoof had taken most of my guard to help scour the southern region of Equestria I was curious as to why he got to stay.        “Here you are your majesty.” He said placing the tea and saucer on the table in my room. I thanked him which he replied with a bow and a simple. “My pleasure.”Before he left I told him to wait and to take a seat across from me. He tried to refuse feeling nervous and uncomfortable. This only made me want him to sit with me more. When he finally sat down I asked him why he was not taken with the other guard and how he felt about it.        He began to explain that he felt guilty for not going with them, but also relieved that he was not going to have to face creatures who were so readily violent. I asked him if any of his friends were picked to go to which he said yes, quite a few of them infact.        “Most of the stallions I’ve gotten to know got pulled into it Ma’am.” Those words made me feel awful with myself. I remembered thinking, infact I still think it sometimes, that if I had just given into not building the city none of this would have happened. I then asked him again why he was not taken.        “Well Thunderhoof had ordered her night patrol commander to take who he needed. He took the captain of the guard and I was next in line.” When he said this I was shocked. I asked him why was the second in command giving me my tea every morning?        “I wasn’t second in command. I was a little ways away in fact, and the reason I’m still doing this is because it’s the only thing I have to look forward to right now.” I was silent at this. Had I so little care for my ponies I did not even know the rankings of the very royal guard that protect me everyday?        I did not even know my Captain had left, as well as who got promoted. I could not tell you the names of who are here and who had left. If the very happenings of my own home go unnoticed by me every waking hour, how am I supposed to rule? My captain had been taken without my permission and without him telling me. Does he not respect me that much?        Starting today I will become the pony I wish to be. I am even beginning to know the kind of ruler I shall be known as.        I am no push over, I am not the mascot that Platinum sees me as nor the ironhoof Puddinghead sees me as.

I am -Celestia

        Something awful has happened in a village down south, I pray to the stars they are well.