Emotions We Endured

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Spike’s Life

Emotions we Endured

Evening rolled around and before he knew it, sunset fell and Luna raised her moon and the night skies ruled. Today’s events were… peculiar.

Spike now knew a lot about his father… much to his credit and a little bit more about Celestia… to his uncredited. He now could no longer look at her roughly the same anymore. He knew Celestia had secrets but the secrets between his father and her? Along with his biological mother? It was still a wonder how his mind didn’t snap and he convulse over thinking that his parent’s banged or mated or whatever it was called… with Celestia… Monarch and Holy Pony of all, often viewed on as the purest virgin to many churches in her owner.

Oh would it be lovely to destroy their hopes and ideals of their dear old Goddess and her not being a virgin. That did bring up the thought of how Prince Blueblood was born?

Before his friends got back, they managed to eat a quick meal of whatever was left over of the meat. It was quick but it wasn’t clean though. Spike saw his father devour as well but when it comes to meat, it is customary to eat with your mouth open. If it was other dishes, that is when you eat with your mouth closed.

Shining Armor and Cadence had to return to the Crystal Empire. They would return back so they could say ‘Goodbye’ to Spike before he left to the Dragon Lands.

With that, Princess Celestia offered guest rooms around the palace. Talonus stayed outside in the gardens.

“You sure you don’t wish to sleep inside the great halls?” asked Celestia.

The giant drake shook his head before yawning.

“No, Thank you Celestia. I would feel cramped and daft if I were to sleep in there.”

“You could shrink down to size.”

“Yeah but it would be incredibly taxing to regrow back and I actually don’t mind sleeping our here. I love to view you sister’s stars.”

“Glad to know that even the mindless beasts care for my nights.” From the shadows of her night, Princess Luna arrived and she had a big grin on her face. “Though I figured a big reptile like you would understand beauty if it was a shinny gem or a dragoness.”

Spike had known that Luna was gone when his father had been born and up to this point, never came to the castle. So he really wasn’t sure if things were going to be hostile with Luna and his father, despite the teasing she was giving.

“Ah, dear ‘Illuminous Umbra’,” he said in his ancient tongue. There was no malice or hate, just the same playful tease that she was giving him. “You forget that certain ‘drakes’ love to hunt or play under your darkness. We have often even given our prayers and gratitude for it.” He then gave a grin. “Princess Moon Pie.”

Oh gods… that was an inside reference and he knew it too! Did he end up mating with Princess Luna?!

Luna’s grin didn’t waiver. “I figured that since I entered your dreams as of late, that you know only to call me that in them.” Her eye focused on Spike, giving him a wink before approaching Talonus.

Celestia brought her wing around Spike.

“Let’s leave these two to themselves.” She whispered. Spike didn’t budge as he watched Luna walked almost… sexily? To his father and he already was moving his hind quarters.

Celestia managed to cover his view which distracted him long enough to pull him towards her. As he moved and headed back inside, her managed to hear a final comment from them both.

“I hope you taste better than in my dreams.”

Damn, either his dad was really horny or he knew which mares would fuck a dragon. Wait… he thought fuck… why would he think fuck? Why fuck?

The doors behind him closed and he watched as Celestia walked in front of him with her huge plot swaying left to right. Her huge… sexy butt… Oh fuck…

“Are you surprised at your father’s… quickness with my sister?”

Spike really didn’t know how to answer that. He really didn’t want to mention that he knew that she and his father and his mother all fucked each other. There goes that word again! Oh was he going to burn in Tartarus for that!

His stuttering and unable to even start the sentence had Celestia turn her head and see the stuttering drake. His eyes were cast down but he would occasionally glance back.

Don’t say that you know your mother fucked your parents!

Don’t say that you know your mother fucked your parents!

Don’t say that you know your mother fucked your parents!

Don’t say that your know sexy mother fucked your parents!

Details were already forming in his mind.

Stop thinking fuck! You’re mother didn’t raise you like shit! Don’t curse!
“Your father told you about me, him and your mother, didn’t he?”

“Fucking!” His eyes went wide. “Lauren Faust!” He cringed. “Gods Dammit!” He then quickly covered his mouth. Oh Shit.

Oh Faust was going to really burn his tail in Tartarus! He can already feel the heat between his legs and it was the feeling that came with shame and embarrassment beyond anything. Right now, he saw that Celestia was staring at him, as if he gone crazy. Any moment now, she would either be screaming at him or kicking him out the front door to sleep outside.

Her mouth turning into a smile was the least he expected.

“Oh what my mother would do to you if she was here.” I fucking know that! Shit there he goes again! Dammit! “I would expected different reaction from you, since I raised you and you would see me as a mother figure.”

“I still do!” he quickly said. Though he quickly closed his mouth. He dared not to say anything else.

Her smile didn’t waiver.

“Your father has already told you that and I am glad that you still see me as that. But just like any other foal who finds out their parents had sex at one point to conceive them, which in your case wasn’t the case, that is still must be viewed as something natural and that you shouldn’t look at your parents in a different light.”

He nodded, but then again, it was really hard (literally!!>-<) to see that now, since A, as he grew older, he did find some attractiveness in her that he couldn’t see in any other mare and B, that she was more or less a mother that had many males… even females, throw themselves before her, asking to be her lover.

He even had to admit that Luna was sexy looking and he rarely saw her. Rarity was more or less a crush, a mare who is never going to look at him other than a friend. Same with the others.

“So I ask, will you see me the same? As your mother or do you know see me as something else?” Her face then went expressionless.

Did he really have to answer that?

“Of course I still see you as my mother…”

“But?”

Oh why did you have to say that word?!

“But… I guess after everything my father told me about dragons mating and that… there are some that have…” he dared to say the word. “…Incestuous relations, I am not sure what to think anymore. I have been attracted to… mares before and when I grew up… you were… no exception. I just knew I couldn’t do it because your raised me like a mother would and I was your son. It is wrong.”

“And now?”

“And now… I feel like a new world has open up to me, even though it has always been opened. Maybe I just see a new light and I am scarred of what I might see. I am scarred that I can’t… stop seeing that part of you and it might drive us apart.” He shuddered almost if holding in his cry. “I am… so confused.” Or Horny he thought.

Celestia remained quiet. Her face was expressionless now and he kept his head down and his gaze away from her. His heart was beating a mile a minute and his emotions were in flux. If he were pony, he would be sweating bullets now and his only nervous reactions available on a dragon were his claws.

Celestia took a step forward and with her hoof, she raised his head. His eyes matched hers.

“Would you want this?” she asked as she brought his lips to his. His eyes widened and his body went stiff. Her lips tasted like vanilla and felt so gently on his, despite not having any lips. She then pulled away. “Or this?” She brought her lips this time on his forehead between his eyes. It wasn’t a sexual kiss but it was a motherly kiss… one that he knew to well.

When she pulled away, her face remained stoic. Spike didn’t say anything. His expression left him confused and he honestly couldn’t do anything. His mother kissed him and to him… that felt good but it didn’t feel right in his heart. It was something that he felt almost tear in him, like if he looked at her like that, he would lose his mother. He didn’t want that, not in anyway.

Yes, it didn’t matter that dragons had relations with siblings but that didn’t mean it should change the fact between himself and his pony family. Celestia would always be his mother. Yeah, she had a body that would turn anyone’s head and even his own, but she didn’t use her body to tease or persuade others. She was naturally gifted with it and he should be happy that despite this turmoil, she still looked at him as her son. Now and forever.

He brought his arms around her and brought her into a hug. A few tears streamed down his face. Her arm and wings wrapped around him. He knew that in his heart, she was his mother and now matter what, that would never change.

“You are my mother.” He said softly.

“And you are my son.” She replied warmly. She then pushed away from him. “And it’s alright that you see me like this. We are two different species and if you are attracted to me, that is fine.”

“But…”

She silenced him with a hoof.

“But nothing. I raised you, I nurtured you and I saw your grow from a hatchling to the dragon you are now. Twilight raised you along with me when she was a bit older and wiser, and she is your sister. That will never, ever change.

You can view me all you like, you may even tease or play with me, you can even mate with me if you like.” He gulped loudly and felt tense as his mother stared into his eyes. “But, you will always be my son and I will always be your mother. Right?” He nodded softly. “Good.” She gave a smile before bringing his head down and giving a kiss to his forehead. “Go to sleep now. I will see you in the morning.”

She then moved away from him and started heading towards the stairs.

“Good night… mother.”

“Good night, my son.” He then disappeared at the corner of the stairs.

Spike was then left alone in the giant hall. He stood there for a few more minutes before he too began to head towards his room. His feelings were now dwindling down and he now felt a bit more at peace.

He headed back to one of the guest rooms he had been set up with. However, along the way, he encountered Sunset Shimmer leaving one doors that lead to a guest room. Her eyes met his and his met hers.

“Hi.” They both answered in unison. They then gave sheepish smiles. Spike was the first to break the tension.

“So… I guess we never really been introduced?” She shook her head but gave a smile.

“No, I guess not. I wasn’t expecting today to go so…”

“Unexpected?”

She gave a nod.

“I am Sunset Shimmer but you already knew that.”

“And I guess I am Spike.”

She expected him to go on, to mention his last name but he didn’t.

“Oh, father hasn’t told you your last name?”

Spike gave a quizzical look.

“I have a last name?” He paused. “Well I do have a last name since I am part of Twilight’s family. It being Spike Sparkle but I didn’t know I had a last name or my father did.”

Sunset gave a slight nod and a smile.

“Last names are earned when it comes to dragons. You know of father’s, it being ‘Skylord’.”

“I thought that it was a title he earned when he defeated rouge dragons.”

“Hence he earned his last name.”

“Wow.” He then thought on. Why didn’t he mention it when they were talking the afternoon?”

“He probably wanted to wait for you to come home to see what gained him the name.” she answered, almost if reading his mind. He then gave an unsure nod.

“I figured I would have earned mine or something after saving the Crystal Empire twice or something.”

Sunset gave a small shrug.

“Gaining a pony name and a dragon name are two different things, at the same time they sort of work the same way.”

“How?”

She was about to answer when a patrolling night guard passed by.

“Is there something you two need?”

Sunset and Spike shook their heads.

“No thank you.” Sunset Spoke. “We were just heading to my room now.”

Spike looked at her. “We were?”

She gave a small nod and motioned with her head. Spike followed and the guard left them be.

Walking down the familiar corridors of the castle, Spike often forgot how any new comer might get lost in these halls without an official guide. Sunset seemed to find her way back to her room easy enough, maybe after 20 years she actually remembered her way back.

She opened a door and motioned him to follow. Spike knew roughly every door and every room of this castle since he could remember. He had visited virtually all of them. All except this one and Luna’s room. Celestia always kept those two doors closed to all staff. She only went in there and she was always the one that came out.

It was no surprise that Sunset gained access back to her room. When Spike stepped inside, he expected a normal looking room… and that is what he got. It pretty much resembled Twilight’s and his room when they were living at the castle. A large bookshelf lined one side of the wall with virtually any book an egghead could want. A huge bed was in the east end with fiery red colors(duh) and had comfort pillows. There was a desk at the corner with a lamp near it where one could spend late nights trying to study. Lastly was a door that leads to the restroom.

All in all, it was a pretty decent place. The walls did line up with sunset colors and it felt more or less like Princess Celestia’s room.

Sunset closed the door behind him and she walked passed to her bed.

“So,” she began. “You wanted to know of how pony names and dragon names differ yet are somewhat the same?”

Spike gave one last look around the room before he finally focused on Sunset.

“Yeah. Though do you have a last name other than your own?”

She gave a nod.

“Father gave it to me when I first completed my ‘Flare’ Spell. I created a huge fire wave with enough heat to match or even past the temperature of lava. It was enough to actually give some heat to dragons.” She gave a satisfying smile. “My last name is Sunset Flare or if I add it to my name, Sunset Flare Shimmer.”

“And you only go by Sunset Shimmer with ponies?”

She gave a brief nod.

“A dragon’s last name only has meaning if the dragon has earned it within the dragon’s council or among other dragons. But a last name isn’t necessary a last name. It could be a sort of title after. Like yours; you could have gone by Spike The Crystal Empire Defender or Spike Crystal Soul, for you have saved the Crystal Empire risking your life.”

He gave a cocky grin.

“Yeah, that does sound better though.”

Sunset giggled.

“It does and I guess that is something that maybe you would have to prove to other dragons. You may have been a hatchling when you done it but you could still earn that title.”

“I don’t think the Crystal Empire would want to get into another dangerous situation again, especially since we just finish saving them a few years ago.”

Sunset kept her smile.

“There are many ways to earn a title, Spike. Not all of them involve heroic deeds. Some dragons have earned them by incredible acts of bravery, intelligence, wits, combat, magic and more. Some have gone their whole lives searching for lasts names to be earned.” She noticed his sudden crest fallen, if barely visible, on his face. “But you have more than proven that, not just to the ponies but to Celestia and father.”

Spike gave a small smile.

“Thank you.”

It then returned to silence between the two. It didn’t occur to Spike until now but Sunset did live so long with his father that it became her ‘father’ too. Just like Celestia was a mother to him and Twilight a sister, was she his sister.

“Would that make us siblings?” he asked, a bit loudly .

“Hmm?”

He paused. “You keep saying ‘father’ and I know that he was your father for almost 20 years. He adopted you, he raised you and he took care of you. So does that make us siblings or just… pony and dragon?”

Sunset didn’t answer. She too thought of it and it was an odd concept thought it wasn’t entirely new to her for she also had Stylla, Spike’s blood related sister, as her sister. They practically were sisters in every sense of the way as well.

“Well, what do you think?”

Spike noticed a sudden change in her voice. Almost as if, saying something had changed her demeanor.

“What do you mean?”

She removed herself from her bed and almost casually, if not, smoothly walked her way to him and sat directly in front of him. Her sky blue eyes met his and his green eyes met hers. Instantly, he knew that look.

“Do you want us to be siblings or dragon and pony? Either way, I am fine with it.”

Lust… Simple and to the point. However those eyes did hide a different agenda. Not a moment ago, she was as innocent as Fluttershy with bunnies and butterflies all around her. Now… now she carried herself with pride and persuasion. Her tail moved a bit side to side, almost to show her eagerness. She made herself look taller by sitting up straight, thought it didn’t help much since he was a full head and a half taller than her. He didn’t answer, he couldn’t answer. His heart was beating a mile a minute and he could have sworn he heard hers as well.

“Well?” she asked, almost eagerly waiting for his answer.

He didn’t know if he could talk. Here was a mare, not just an ordinary mare but a mare raised by dragons. She didn’t have a problem knowing that Spike was a dragon or that he was an adoptive sibling of sorts to him. She was honestly begging for it, despite not saying the actual words.

One of the problems he had with Rarity in the past was that she thought of him as a little brother of sorts or a helper. She never saw him as anything else. When he did grow in size, her view changed with his size but stayed pretty much the same. He was a dragon and she was a pony and they could never be.

It tore his heart when she told him that and he swore off of mares, despite he still had his eyes wonder here and there for them. He had even a few explicit magazines under his mattress where Twilight couldn’t get them. And yeah, he even had masturbated to a few mares after seeing a few pass by. It was difficult not to fine something attractive if you lived your whole life around it.

Yeah, he knew that, as he grew older that it would be difficult for him to gain or even remain in a relationship between him and a mare. Especially if said mare is well known or has a reputation, but that didn’t stop him from trying. A few mares did find him attractive but more or less as a stud or something completely out of ordinary.

But now, here a situation lied before him, a beautiful mare, his adoptive sister no-less, who had no problems with him being a dragon and she a pony. Her eyes still carried the lust, but she also carried a sense of… caution. Maybe, she wasn’t sure if she would upset him or not and remained somewhat vigilante. She may or may not set him off the wrong way and it could end badly for them both.

Spike had a talk with his father and incestuous relationships, but never anything about a dragon and a mare. No matter, you should always be wary of the females actions and figure out if she had experience or not. It was almost wise to make sure to take it easy with one another.

He gathered his thoughts before replying softly and carefully.

“I see only a pony and dragon, both who are of different families but with similar pasts. We were raised by different parents of not of our own but of each others, we struggled to adapt to the environment around us and we both are about to return to lives we may have never thought of going back to.

If you are only doing this because you feel a need to, I ask that you rethink this and let me leave. I don’t want something to happen between us and regret it later, when and if we do meet again, there is no conflict. I don’t see you as a sister, but you have been raised by my… our father well.

I think that if you really want to do this, you know that I… have never been in a relationship before. Nor do I know how long this will last if I am to return home and you are to return to pony society.”

“You want us to see if this is a one time deal?” she asked. Her voice was flat and lacked any emotion whatsoever.

He looked her in the eyes and nodded.

“Father told me that in dragon society, sibling relationships are fine but up until today, I still felt conflicted with that and knowing what it could mean. You are as part of my family, my pony family as you are with your family. If I were to see you as a sister or not, that is up to you. I just want it to be a choice in which we both can agree on.”

Sunset gazed into his eyes, almost viewing his soul. She searched for the honest truth and found that he gave everything to it. He wasn’t some lusty drake that only wanted her for tail. The few dragons that would actually want to mate with a mare where the ones that were so full of lust and heat that they would fuck anything with hole.

Yet, here was a drake, who could have easily said yes and fucked her brains out. Maybe she would have liked it, maybe, but he actually declined unless they both knew what they were doing and that there would be no regrets.

When her eyes caught sight of a drake her father had only talked about in his letters, she imagined a gentle drake with a heart of gold and burned twice as any volcano. She imagined a drake integrated by pony society, would grow up respecting ponies of every kind and learning to enjoy the same things as they did. A dragon where he wasn’t afraid to show himself to the world that he was a dragon and that he was not hostile or evil. He lived with ponies for roughly 20 years and he turned out as every bit as she imagined.

All that she could think of was how dumb she might have felt if he didn’t respond to her advancements right or misinterpreted them. Yeah, he was a hunk of a dragon and something that few drakes that she grew around with carried. But he did it with or without knowing that it may attract mares. He had no relationships and it was because of that, she may have a leap of hope.

“I am a virgin as well.” Well... so much for hope.

Her mouth opened before she could even think of saying anything.

Spike gave her a look before smiling.

“I… I’d figure that… maybe you were… you know, chased by some drake or something.”

Sunset’s face grew red but she did give a smile.

“I had thought and tried many times but in the end, I felt that I would chase after you, when father told me of you and your accomplishments. Not a lot of drakes do half the stuff you did in your life.”

Spike leaned down, sitting on his hind legs to move closer to her face.

“Well, I guess we both have our accomplishments but I guess one of them isn’t a relationship.”

Sunset shook her head but her smile remained.

“No but maybe we can try it together.” She paused before adding. “Slowly and softly.”

He paused.

“Like a dinner or a date?”

She giggled and shook her head.

“No silly. I believe dinner was earlier and the date was… the moment between us when we first spoke to now.”

“Now?”

She nodded.

“Now, is where we both enjoy each other and see what happens next.”

With that, she reached up and pulled him into a kiss.

Author's Note

No clop in this one, sorry but when ever I write explicit stories, I have to be turned on and the half to the end of this story didn't keep me going, so I will save it for the next chapter.
I have to imagine the words and the scenes in my head in order to get it done right and clop-able. I am one of the few people who actually masturbate to a lot of stories here and its no different to mine when I finish the story. But if the mood is off before I finish the plot point to clop point, I save it for another chapter.
Again no edit and will have clop chapter done sooner so you can all enjoy!
That is why the next chapter will feature Talonus and Luna(in the first half) Sunset and Spike(second half) and Celestia by herself(Last half)