A Dim Light

"Yay! Friendsies!" Pinkie shouted as she crushed me within her iron grip.

"Pinkie, you're... Crushing... Me..." I tried to say as the rest of my breath was spent.

"Oh, right. How long are you supposed to be in here anyway?" Pinkie asked curiously.

"In a few days Pinkie, it won't kill you, all you have to do is wait." Twilight said in a slightly irritated tone over what transpired recently.

We sat there in silence for a good hour or so. I started drifting off thinking of how  this happened, how I failed. If I did it a little earlier I would have been able to do it, I would have been able to succeed for once, but of course I failed. I always fail.

The sound of a door opening broke my train of thought, which was probably for the best. It was the doctor, I didn't understand what she said though since I was still kinda drifting off, but next thing I know Pinkie and Twilight were leaving my room. Pinkie looked worried but before I could see how worried she was she was out of the room. The doctor turned out the lights and left, there wasn't anyone else in my room so there were no other distractions to preoccupy me. It would be so easy to do it again, to try again. No one was here to stop me, and hell, I'm just using medical supplies someone else could be using. I looked for something I could use, but the only thing I saw were cords and a glass filled with juice from earlier. That would work fine, Just somehow break the glass without causing a commotion and that would be that.

I tried to think of a way to break it silently, but how do you do that? Break something silently? Easily in fact. I decided to try and tap the glass on the counter thing next to me harder with each hit, and it worked because eventually I managed to get a pretty sizable shard separated. I waited to make sure no one heard, and after waiting I started grazing my wrist. After two or three cuts I decided to plunge the shard deep into my wrist, hoping to finally succeed. After the second deep cut I couldn't continue and decided to try and sleep, but after a second my mind started racing about what i'm doing, how everything could have gotten better. My heart started racing which caused the heart monitor to beep quickly, in turn causing my heart to race even faster and before I knew it the door burst open to more doctors than I had ever seen put me under with something I couldn't quite get a good look at.

Before I knew it I was awake, but this time it didn't look like anyone was in my room other than me. Then without a moments notice the door was opened by a purple aura which could only be made by Twilight. At least it wasn't Pinkie, she would be fuming if she knew what happened. The second I thought that a not so bright pink pony walked through a few moments after Twilight. I was starting to panic as I thought of all that could happen, but before I could get through the fifth one Pinkie broke the silence.

"Why? Why do it again?" Pinkie said in a very irritated tone, her mane not flat but not poofy.

"I- Sorry." I said noticing how tense the air was. I looked at Twilight, she was sitting down and it seemed she didn't care what Pinkie would do. I tried to find the button to get the doctors but the second Pinkie saw she walked over, took it and placed it out of reach. She looked straight into my eyes and I saw the burning hate she had towards me, as if she wanted to punch me into oblivion. I wouldn't doubt it.

"You will answer me this time, I talked to Twilight and she agrees with me. Now answer me." Pinkie said with more venom than a rattlesnake.

"I didn't mean anything by it, I just thought-" I tried to continue speaking but Pinkie cut me off.

"Well you thought wrong, and where are your parents anyway? Shouldn't they be here?" Pinkie seemed to forget her anger for a moment when the question came to mind.

"My parents?" I asked wondering why she had brought it up. I didn't want to think about it though, I needed a way to change the subject.

"You know what, I don't care, do whatever you want. Just leave me out of it." Pinkie said with tears now in her eyes. She stormed out of the room and Twilight shot me a deathly stare then proceeded to leave the room. I was left alone with my thoughts, and again, I didn't know what to do. For the longest time I sat there. I pondered what to do, what I could have done for it was obvious that they didn't care anymore, I had ran them away. I did another thing that would end it, and the consequence was losing the only friends I have now.

I was to be checked out tomorrow, and I dreaded it. Having to be seen out in the open with bandages all along my wrists. The looks of those,  the pity, the disappointment I would be to everyone... I didn't want to see tomorrow, but I didn't have a choice, everything that wasn't necessary was removed from the room. I wasn't allowed to keep food in my room without supervision due to the plastic ware being dangerous. Bullshit. "Dangerous" is an understatement. I won't delve into it though, because it was midnight already and I didn't want to stay awake any longer, but I knew sleep wouldn't happen. It never does.