A Dim Light

Today was the day. The day to see all of those faces that show remorse and pity. The worst would be Pinkie's expression. She hates me and I know it. I just need to get to my house quickly enough to not be noticed, to do what I have done for years. I was going to think on it some more but before I could the door was opened and one of the nurse ponies said it was time to go. So I started walking, trying to avoid as much eye contact as possible, and I nearly did it, but as I passed Sugarcube Corner I felt a sharp pain coming from me tail. I was in the store now and the pain was gone. What I saw before me had chills going up my spine, it was Pinkie. Her mane and tail were flat. The rumors I had heard from just within earshot had made me very fearful. I didn't know what would happen and all I could think of was to get out of here.

I tried to see who else was here, and it seemed that Pinkie was the only one. I tried to get back up, still wanting the same goal. I was about to fully stand up before she put her hoof on my shoulder.She started hugging me, something I didn't expect.

"I'm sorry. I am so sorry, I shouldn't have done that." She said, still hugging me. I couldn't respond, I couldn't even think. Besides, what was I supposed to say? "Please, don't do it again." I was still at a loss for words. "You can stay with me you know, instead of being alone, and I would feel more comfortable knowing you were alive."

"I-I'm not sure." I finally said, a little shocked at what she said. "Besides, I should be going. I am pretty tired." I tried to seem tired, still slightly scared of something bad happening.

"Can I at least join you? Maybe I could help around, fix the place up." I agreed, and she seemed to cheer up a little. As we made our way to my house, I noticed some looks. I tried to ignore them but I couldn't. Soon we were at my house. Apparently the door was unlocked, which had me worried. "Wow, this place looks horrible!" I heard Pinkie state.

"Sorry about that. I didn't really think anyone would be over." I replied, slightly pained by what she said. I proceeded up to my room, everything was still as it was, just with an added stain. I was wondering how exactly I was supposed to clean this up, or if I should just get a new bed entirely. Pinkie followed me up and stopped once she entered the room.

"I think I'm gonna clean up the living room first." Pinkie said before hurrying downstairs. I proceeded to move all of the stained things into a pile on the bed. I looked around to see if anything else was stained and the only other thing I found was the floor. I found a basket of sorts and crammed the pile into it. Once I brought it downstairs I placed it by the door, wondering if I could do anything with it.

"Uh, Pinkie? You know anywhere I could put this? I probably have to get new ones." I gestured to the basket by the door. Pinkie seemed to be distracted by something, but what was unknown to me. After I walked up to her I realized she was spacing out, daydreaming maybe.

"The offer still stands, you could stay with me. You don't have to stay here in this... place anymore." She said almost in a mumble.

"I still don't know, it will seem weird. Besides, you live in a bakery so I don't think there would be enough room." I tried to explain. She didn't listen asking why it was weird. "They may not even allow it and I don't even have a job, let alone enough money to pay them." I said in a vain attempt to not cause a hassle.

"You don't have to worry about that stuff, I am pretty sure they will allow it. We can get you a job, so trust me. Stay with me for now, I promise you won't be a bother." Once she said that, I couldn't respond. The second time today.

"Okay, only for a little bit though." As soon as I said that she tackled me and knocked the wind out of me. I had to pry her off me. "Let me get something first." I proceeded upstairs to get something, the last thing I have from before I was like this. It was a picture of me and him. I kept it all this time, why? I had no clue. We were on our way to Sugarcube Corner in no time, I was anxious to say the least. I held the picture in my mouth, not having anywhere else to keep it. Once we passed the library I asked Pinkie if we could get something from here first.

"You want me to hold that while you go in and get a book?" She said, confused as to why I was just holding it in my mouth. I nodded, handing it to her. I entered the library looking for Daring Doo and the Diamond Pony named Butt Stallion, but once I started looking, I bumped into Twilight. It seemed she knew I was here and wanted me to stop.

"What are you doing here?" I heard Twilight say. "You aren't allowed here, after what you did I would think you'd know that." She said in a menacing voice. "Leave. Now." I opened my mouth to protest but it seemed she didn't care. There went my chances at distraction. I had made my way outside and found that Pinkie was standing there, but no sign of my picture.

"Where is the picture?" I asked Pinkie, slightly panicked that I may have lost the last memento to times before now. She rustled around in her mane and pulled it out before putting it back.

"Did you not get a book? You seemed to really want one before you went in." She said, slightly confused.

"I couldn't find it, lets just keep going." I started walking in the direction of Sugarcube Corner before she stopped me.

"You weren't even in there for thirty seconds! Is this about Twilight? Will she not let you get a book?" She seemed surprisingly awestruck.

"Look, we can try again later, for now lets just keep going." I managed to reason with her and we were almost there. I heard her muttering ahead of me, and I almost ran into her once she abruptly stopped. Turns out we were there. Once she opened the door a waft of sweet smelling air hit me.