To love and to be loved

Love, the word rang through her mind as if it had a hidden meaning behind the visions of her dreams. She was sitting in what looked like the auditorium of a high school, it was dimly lighten and was much larger than she remembered. The room it's self felt almost lifeless, like it hadn't been touched in months. Besides the one she was sitting on, all of the chairs were all either folded up or were scattered across the floor, along with a few folding tables, broken speakers, and some garbage, but beyond that there were no signs that anyone had in or out of this building recently.

Her dream stayed like this for what felt like hours, just her sitting and listening to the word bounce around around her mind, as if it was the one piece that would help her understand why she was dreaming of this place, why she was here, and why she felt so connected to this place.

Her train of thought was quickly changed as she realized that she no longer was hearing the word "love".it was now replaced with, alone, useless, unwanted, and hated, and the voice that was saying these words was no longer her own, it was now much louder and much more angrier. As the voice continued to say the words, she started to become scared of the voice, she felt the anger behind each and every word that the voice said, and she began to feel the pain of the words, she felt sharpness of each word scratch in her mind, she felt the words gripping at her emotions, cutting off all feelings to every emotion, except for regret, fear and sadness.

she could no longer take the pan of the voice, she quickly cupped her ears tightly with her hands, clenched her eyes shut and lowered her head, almost as if she was trying to rest it on her lap.

"Pl-please... just go away..." she said, with tears now beginning stream down her face.

The voice did not listen to her pleads, instead it continued to grow in volume and it became more angrier with every plead she made almost as if it was offended by her pleads for it to stop. In desperation she began to yell her pleads.

"just go away!" she said, now yelling over top the voice, "I know what I did, what we did was wrong, but all we wanted was to was some attention, some adoration, to no longer be-."

"Alone," said the voice, almost as if to finish her sentence, "I know what you wanted, i know how badly you wanted to be wanted in this world my dear, truly I do but...,"

The voice paused for a moment, and just as it did, her throat tighten as if the voice it self had it's hand wrapped around it. She began running her hands over her trying to feel for the hands that now felt like vice grips closing around her neck, but to her surprise, she felt nothing around her neck, not even her pendant.

As the unknown force continued to choke her, she began to fade in and out of the dreams reality, and the words of the voice began to fade in and out as well, but just before she went she went completely unconscious, she heard the voice say one final thing.

"you will never be accepted, and you'll always be alone, because no one can ever love a monster."

And with those final words, her dream ended.