Incubus

Rainbow watched her reflection as she wiped the fog away. She wanted something different out of that mirror. Maybe someone less selfish. Someone more delicate or even stronger girlfriend material. What else would she want to be except more than she could ever hope to be. It ended with her staring at the absence of somepony pink and fluffy in their den of inequity. Was it really too much to consider them, she pondered, brushing her teeth. The mint always cleared her sinus and eliminated the horrid gunk taste. She hacked from morning pains, mucus thick and black with rubber tastes all over her sink. Rainbow rinsed and soon after, she switched to lighting a cancer stick. She didn't quite know how to feel. The rumors about her ex writing fanfiction worried her. Well. That and her being engaged in a relationship with Fluttershy, who was also an old flame. What they could do to her reputation among the other six, she shivered, hugging herself on the front porch.

The Earth below was so inviting. How warm and cozy would it be to just... fall asleep in the salient embrace of the underground. She imagined a crisp, musty darkness forever silencing her. To tell her what to say: nothing, and to give her a reason to sleep. It was half past noon when she decided to glide down into Ponyville, nervous about approaching somepony. Fluttershy would know what to do. That mare always pulled through for her, no matter who the love or mate. Although time ran past them, she had to look back now that everyone else won the race. Twilight was busy with Celestia knew what. Applejack had her jaundice or whatnot. Fluttershy was with She-Knew-Who. Rarity was down with some sort of posting near the Ponyville and Everfree border by the South End. And Pinkie was out actually enjoying life as herself. Rainboe glanced up and winced, cringing at how she almost struck a door again due to distraction.

The cottage. Rainbow Dash made her way toward it and remembered memories of when or where to sit and what not to say when guests were over. To no avail, she looked elsewhere. The silent hurt of being there crept along her fluid expression, leaving it to fall down her cheeks in rapid succession. Tears in her chest and muscles worn down by aggressive training struck all at once. Rainbow collapsed in memories of a place she'd forgotten. In the madness of running from her heart, she ran from heaven and home, too. Till today she didn't have to remember how it felt to miss anyone.

But she did. And continued to do so. Her collapsed figure lay silent beneath the shrubbery of the Everfree. It was there she stared at Fluttershy and Lilith, who didn't keep any distance between them. And so it went like her will to run, shaking Rainbow to the core. It was dark by the time she woke, eyes aching and heart swollen with acid. The pegasus took flight and hesitated, glancing back at her life without dependency and glancing back at happiness.

Happiness was best shared.