Tale of a Blood-mage

Alright I add a bit of music to this, I give credit to the makers of the songs (you'll see which ones). Also if I start getting ahead in my writing I'll start uploading more than one a day. Also tell me if you prefer longer chapters taking longer to write, or shorter ones that I can absolutely put up everyday.

Song and Dance

I had just gotten out of the hospital, the staff, to say the least, wanted me gone as soon as possible. Once I was able to move without bleeding they practically pushed me out the door. Maybe I shouldn't have stabbed that guy? Well either way, in the time I was there, I became much closer to the 6 mares I had nearly killed. You know saying it like that makes me sound like a complete psychopath. Ah well if I am one I'll just kill myself. As bad as that sounds as far as I can tell from my memories, I have nothing to live for. Perhaps it is a bit early say that but, I will not allow the voice to take control of me again, I have grown too close to all of them for that to happen. I will say that as far as I know, they are all I care about in this world, or any other. If only I could find a way to unlock my memories without losing control. I was able to practice something in the hospital that's real cool. It seems I remember songs real well. Because once I heard music playing down the hall, all my memories of music came to me. Not that it really mattered. Least I got some cool jams to listen too in my mind.

Oh yeah, Twiight came around with an herbal bath the day after I awoke, turns out I had been out for a few days after my spell of death and destruction. Well as surprised as I was that the bath relieved me of my weakness and growling voice, you had thought I'd have shit gold with my mouth(although I'm sure I have done similar things wid mah wicked jokes brah). All shity jokes aside, it was real damn awesome. To be able to communicate without writing is a blessing. My hand had been starting to bleed through the bandaging. It hurt like hell, it also seems I was right, no amount of magic could heal that hole. Ah well, least it is easy to stop the bleeding, while also giving full access to my magic.

I'd been experimenting in a way, I was careful about what I did, but it seems I could do other things besides causing incapacitation and pain. I can shoot little bolts of lightning, I know damn cool right? But it get better and better. I CAN conjure things, not without using blood though. It nearly killed me the first time. All I had gotten was a cool looking ring. It seemed familiar some how. It was silver with a small sapphire and two smaller rubies beside it. I put it on the middle finger of my left hand, it fit like a glove, well ring.

Rarity had said she couldn't wait for me to come to her shop, so she came to me, took my measurements,(turns out this requires no clothes on , go figure), then got the clothes for me the day before the hospital said "Fuck this guy" or else it would have been awkward walking around with the pony's seeing myself in my glory, for I doubt the hospital gives away free gowns. The clothes were stylish, but VERY colorful. I had purple pants, inlaid with a golden yellow down the sides. A green shirt inlaid with silver,(really wtf) and what I call, The Pimp jacket. It was fuzzy soft, and warm, it was a purple color inlaid with gold and GASP silver. All I needed was a pimp cane and I'd be in buizzznezzz. Although even before I got these cool threads I was to cocky, so imagine how I am now?

Twilight had offered for me to live with her, you would not believe how surprised I was for this. I mean a mare I had killed not even a week ago, was offering or me to live in HER HOUSE. Damn, pony's here are way too caring for their own good.

I know I had told them I would tell them why I attacked them as soon as I got my voice back but... I wasn't ready. What if they decided I wasn't worth the risk of making a friend out of? I had after all been capable of killing the 6 elements of Harmony. Yup I had learned more about them as soon as my voice was back, turns out I took out the 6 most powerful beings in Equestia, beside Princess Celestia and Princess Luna, with hardly getting hurt at all. Ok maybe I'm exaggerating but is it really my fault for being so damn awesome? Yeah I fell bad but that doesn't mean I can't brag right? Right. Well time to stop thinking about the past and move to the future.

Alright remember how fucked up I am? Well I'm still fucked up. Not AS much as I was but still, big claw weird eyes, pale face, blood mark, hole in hand, you get the point. Least I didn't see my ribs or veins from my leg. That is an enormous plus. I doubt these pony's could handle that. I couldn't help but laugh at the look on their faces of a monstrous weirdo, looking like a pimp, walking down my street like he owned the damn place. I nearly doubled over laughing as I heard "THE HORROR THE HORROR".

Alright I had made it to the tree. Oh did I mention the place Twilight lived was in a tree? A LIBRARY tree? Nope I didn't oh well. Oh yeah before I forget, she has a baby dragon assistant. As soon as I see him I will make him my bro for life. That is like so awesome it is ridiculous, I can just imagine me goin' "Brofist?" "Brofist" BAM instant Bros for life.

As I looked in through the cracked door, I saw nothing but darkness. "umm you in there Twilight? I don' really like the dark to tell you the truth" I called in nervously, call me  wimp but being stuck in darkness for who knows how long, while going insane can really give you a bit of fear for it. I walked in slowly, careful about where I stepped, As soon as I shut the door behind me I hear a big "SURPRISE"

"OH FUCK ME"

Awkward silence...

"Umm... Sorry, I don't like surprises, scares me a bit." luckily only my six friends where there to see me make a fool of myself.

"Oh that's fine, glad you came, you know it wouldn't be a "Welcome to equestria and nearly killing us" party with out you, you know since your the one who-" I put my left index finger to her lips in the well known sign of "shut up", I didn't really want her to remind all of us of what happened, she also can get a bit annoying.

"Well," I say trying to break the ice "got any alcohol"

"Yeah wouldn't be a party with out booze, I mean yeah it would but it wouldn't be fun, and a party that's no fun isn't a party" Pinkie was able to say before I could reach her. Ah well, win some you lose some.

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Ok after I was sure everyone had a drink, not enough to make them drunk, barely buzzed, I needed them mainly thinking about what I was about to do. Oh yeah their alcohol concentration was far lower than what I was used to. I couldn't even taste the alcohol, I wasn't even tipsy! But being un-drunk was worth it to see their already adorable faces bunched up into grins.

"Ok remember when I said I was going to tell you all about why I attacked you?" they nodded.

"I'm about to sing a song from where I'm from called Monster by Skillet, once you hear this song you will understand. Everything in the song describes how I feel, and what is happening, if you want me to leave after the song I will understand"  They seemed confused, yet again(I seem to do that a lot) but they agreed.

First I told them of my power of being able to conjure, then of my memories of music. I suppose if I try conjuring music it will work out. I'll just have to sing, which I'm OK with as it would seem more like it is coming from me. I had just set everything up, I got a drink in case I got thirsty, a mike, and somehow Pinkie was able to get Amps( don't ask how I have no idea, again don't question it).

"Ok 1, 2 ,3, go"

The secret side of me, I never let you see

I keep it caged but I can't control it

So stay away from me, the beast is ugly

I feel the rage and I just can't hold it

It's scratching on the walls, in the closet, in the halls

It comes awake and I can't control it

Hiding under the bed, in my body, in my head

Why won't somebody come and save me from this, make it end?

I feel it deep within, it's just beneath the skin

I must confess that I feel like a monster

I hate what I've become, the nightmare's just begun

I must confess that I feel like a monster

I, I feel like a monster

I, I feel like a monster

My secret side I keep hid under lock and key

I keep it caged but I can't control it

'Cause if I let him out he'll tear me up, break me down

Why won't somebody come and save me from this, make it end?

I feel it deep within, it's just beneath the skin

I must confess that I feel like a monster

I hate what I've become, the nightmare's just begun

I must confess that I feel like a monster

I feel it deep within, it's just beneath the skin

I must confess that I feel like a monster

I, I feel like a monster

I, I feel like a monster

It's hiding in the dark, its teeth are razor sharp

There's no escape for me, it wants my soul, it wants my heart

No one can hear me scream, maybe it's just a dream

Maybe it's inside of me, stop this monster

I feel it deep within, it's just beneath the skin

I must confess that I feel like a monster

I hate what I've become, the nightmare's just begun

I must confess that I feel like a monster

I feel it deep within, it's just beneath the skin

I must confess that I feel like a monster

I'm gonna lose control, it's something radical

I must confess that I feel like a monster

I, I feel like a monster

I, I feel like a monster

I, I feel like a monster

I, I feel like a monster

As I looked at them, they seemed to be shocked, awed, scared, and sad. Without saying a word I walked past them all leaving the them the time to think. But the main reason was I could feel him taking control. I couldn't hold off the blood lust forever.