I am... Derpy Hooves...

   My name is Derpy Hooves,

   And I hope no other pony will share the same muffin as me... For it is poisonous...

   I trotted down the soiled road inside Unicorn Square Garden, listening to the ruffles of the leaves as birds and squirrels startle it constantly. Critters of the woods came out to greet one another, smiles were seen on everypony's faces, even the wind flew in all directions, as if it was dancing among the unheard light. Today was the perfect day to come out, the fillies ran around, playing tag, flying, using magic to prank others, play fighting... Basically they were playing with their parents and friends....

   Friends.

   Does everypony deserve that gift?

   It was a lovely day... For the others at least, I don't understand why I couldn't curve my lips upwards, I would blame gravity for such obstacle... Or can't I face the truth of... Loneliness?

   Ever since when I was a filly, people would criticize me for being disabled, as I could not see where I was going. My father is a doctor known for his quickness when examining his patients, and how to cure them. However, when stumbling upon me, he never figured it out until one day when he and ophthalmologists from all over Equestria worked together... Just to check out what has went wrong with me.

   It turns out that I'm not only cross eyed.

   But it's a disorder that cannot be cured, nor treated.

   My father and my mother could not be not frustrated, as I am a cursed child that should be banished in eternal darkness...

   When it was my first day attending Summer Flight Camp, many foals were already looking at me in the tightest turn as possible, not to mention their parents giving them "helpful" advices to stay away from this Ditzy. Well it's not their fault that I'm always so clumsy and dumb, constantly crashing into things, misunderstanding game concepts or teacher's instructions. And so on, I was the one who had no partner when we dance, no partner to fly with, no one to speak to... Even just as simple as flying I am judged negatively by others, called the worst flyer in Equestria after Fluttershy.

   Rainbow Dash was cool alright, but her superiority and popularity compared to me was dreaming in the stars. I fear that Rainbow Dash would be mocked at for tagging along with some lame pony...

   Like me.

   Therefore I refused to hurt her, then Fluttershy was on the other end of the extreme rope of fame. She was very kind to her friends and classmates, even those who bullied her; she once gave a bandage to cover the wound of Brass Note, an arrogant bully who thinks he was the best flyer. Despite her feats, Fluttershy is, well... Shy... As she does not like to open herself to others, no matter what type of pony it is.

   Sigh, at least she does not care about who I am...

   This curse has stuck with me even as of today... My parents would only gloom when I entered the house. Because they fear something bad is going to happen. They often tried to hide it, by hugging me, kissing me, complimenting me...

   What is there to compliment about me...?

   But now old enough and living with them for years, I can see their deep hatred peeking out from their own universe, it was inevitable. When their friends come over to chat with us, and often will ask them if I'm their daughter when they saw me for the first time, both would hesitate and stare... No... GLARE into my helpless eyes. And finally with full regret. Nodded.

   Remembering all of these is already frustrating enough, if everypony thinks that I'm a trash of dumped dirt and manure failure, then I guess I am a trash of dumped dirt and manure failure. I could never see any, or know any of this, if it wasn't for outside strangers spitting on my garden.

   I slowed down my pace.

   Then stopped.

   And did nothing but crying, crying is the only good thing I can do about myself. Throwing tantrums on the ground, but the ground remained cold and heartless, feeling no pity of me. There was no way anypony would actually come and comfort me, I'm just a sore loser... *Sniff sniff*... Tears flooded my cheeks as I broke down completely, I even wondered whether this was another step for me as a growing mare. "Oh she will grow alright, just into something else!" Laughed Blank Stripes as the memory interrupted me. I wished in the beginning that I was a goner!

   "Derpy..."

   I wish I could just scream to the top of my lungs, praying that I can die like that, but of course, I'm just an idiot, I don't even know how to erase my own soul off this space.

   "Derpy..."

   Nopony loved me, I don't understand why others can easily make so many friends, and get along with one another. Why couldn't I deserve the same reward? What is there wrong with me other than my stupid eyes? Why am I so stupid anyways? Why isn't there anypony to help me out? These questions bombarded me as I'm lying down on the ground weeping for mercy.

   "DERPY HOOVES!"

   I paused my body dead, tears were frightened to come out again. I turned around to see who in the Equestria actually bothers calling out my ugly name.

   From the legs, it was beige coated and all over the body. Then I looked into the mane: It's striped with navy blue and rose pink flavor, same goes with the tail. I could not believe my eyes, it was a long time classmate of mine. Someone whom I never talked to before.

   "Sw... Sweetie Drops?" I was astonished, for the Earth pony was actually smiling at me. For the first time in forever I had never encountered this face to face greeting before.

   "I actually wanted to ask you something, since I never got to see you lately. Sadly..." She continued.

   I got up to my hooves quickly, curious in what this mare had in offer. Maybe Sweetie Drops will be my new friend! Or or, we can hang out together! Wait, that's the same thing, good relationships make good friends right? From this day on, the bond will never break! Oh how lovely can this opportunity be? My muffin would taste sweet like her now, we can work together and combine muffins and candies, that way the whole town in Ponyville will come and buy it! This new excitement is bouncing wildly in my stomach, I'm always ready to help my friend out, no matter who!

   "... Can you deliver this bag of new sweet jolly ranchers to Uncle Jolly Joe?"

   This new, annoying sound, chased away all my dreams. I couldn't stop the rainclouds floating above me, those were beautiful, hard, rainy drops, definitely not Sweet...

   "Wha... What did you say...? Huh?"

   "... I asked if you can deliver this jolly ranchers bag to Uncle Jolly Joe, we all know where he lives, he announced it last month in public, even the Equestria Daily mentioned it in the headings. Unless if you don't read it or "can't" understand it." She repeated her words, only converting it into a more detailed and sophisticated statement, guess it was just so that I can comprehend to her... Because I can't understand anything...

   "Al..." I stopped, and clouds went dark, this time literally compacted together, and down comes the real water and tears. Sweetie Drops lied to me, no, I fooled myself, why did I think making some "friends" were that easy? It isn't. She is just using me as a simple tool to satisfy her own needs... I looked down at the bag of jolly ranchers she dropped for me to pick up. I shut my eyelids, only to find even more discomfort and grief, but that was only to prevent the glands from passing through, I had no choice, I didn't want to let her down now, despite she wasn't actually trying to make friends... With me.

   "... Alright... I'll do it..." I finally said with no sign of happiness.

   "Well, it's raining hard, I gotta go now!" Those were the Sweet mare's last words before running off, leaving me with this wet bag of candy. How sweet can that be?

   I tried to bite into the bag, but the paper was simply torn every time when I tried to pick it up. I felt hopeless, my legs shivered not in fear, but in the woe that stroke my heart rapidly. Sweetie Drops' request constantly replayed the moment of deep pain. I can picture her true emotion, turning me off and walking with her "true" friends. I could not move any longer as the rains pressed hard on me, I collapsed back onto the ground once again, closed my eyes, wept and wept, my wings dropped dead, like there were never bones in there before...

   "I... I'm sorry, Sweetie Drops..."