Conversion Bureau: Journal of a Convert

Entry 3 – Wednesday 5/16

I spent today getting rid of some things. Mainly it was the nonessential stuff like clothes I didn’t wear often and music. I never knew that I had so much stuff even in a small dorm room until I actually started going through with it. Thank goodness Julie was there to help me! She told me she that she just learned to do telekinesis, and although she couldn’t move the big or heavy things yet, she helped put the little stuff into boxes to give away. It was nice she was helping me and at the same time I was helping her practice her magic.

It’s a strange feeling how with each item being boxed away it’s a reminder that little by little I’m losing my humanity. People are defined by many things: how they look, how they think, their likes and dislikes, and what things they have. All of this will soon be changed as I change into something new. I wonder when I become a pony, will I still hold some attachment to human things, or will they seem foreign to me?

Take, for example, clothes. I know that ponies typically don’t wear them except special occasions according to Julie. Humans of course do. So after Conversion, when I see a sock or something, will I know it’s a sock or will it become something foreign to me? Julie still knows what human things are as a pony, so maybe most things in my mind won’t change.