Breaking my heart strings.

"Hello? Mr. Hughes? are you ok?" Bon Bon asked me gently waving a hand in my face. I had practically been staring off into space with the bouquet of flowers still on the hall floor. She bent down and picked them up. "Well...these are lovely." She said taking a deep whiff of their fresh cut rosy scent, blushing and smiling in bliss as they pleased her as she inhaled them. The first thought that was finally able to get out was.

"Did you say you're Lyra's marefriend?" I asked he slowly adjusting my shirt and following her into the apartment. Lyra had a thing for keeping the decor simple; not much different than most Upper central park flats, the cheap as you can get living room furniture that still looked more gaudy than practical, the white humming fridge from like thirty years ago, I loved this apartment.

"Yes, I did. You see Mr.Hughes; Lyra and I knew each other back in Equestria, and when she moved I wrote to her everyday, always telling her about everything from the return of Discord to the ascension of Princess Twilight Sparkle, She wrote so much about you in her letters too. You've been such a good friend to her, and I appreciate everything you've done for her while I've been away from her." She smiled at me softly; and we entered the kitchen, Lyra was there sitting at the table, she had a book cradled in her hands reading intently her yellow eyes darting across the page as she used her own breath to puff a few locks of her mane out of the way as she read, she was so pretty.

"James?" She said turning her head up to me, "I..I wanted to tell you about Bon Bon and myself for some time now," She looked up at me softly twirling a lock of her mane in her fingers innocently before she took my own in hers. "Please, I like you, I still really do, I want to keep in touch, be friends maybe best friends you know?" She looked deep into my eyes, and I stared right back at hers, the windows to the souls. I had come here finally with all the gall and gumption to ask the best friend I've known for so long to spend the rest of our lives together, now she drops this kinda bombshell on me? expecting me to be ok with it?...Well scratch that, I was ok with it.

"If this is what you really want Lyra, then...okay, I really want to still be your friend too." I said softly giving the side of her cheek a little nudge before turning to her photo she kept; unlike mine, She kept her pictures in frames along the walls. "Do remember that time we went to the bronx zoo? we saw that guy who.." She places a finger over my lips to shush me. "Well what about the time..."

"James..." She hugs me softly just as a friend before her purple and blue maned marefriend returns.

"I...She...meant nothing by it....I know she's yours now Bon Bon." I instantly regret what I say, but neither of them look even the least bit angry at me. I can't tell what they are.

"It's...a semi open relationship right now, and it may indefinitely be so." More room for more mares to take turns pummeling your marehood with dildos if you ask me. I only thought inside my head; what is it with that double standard anyway? How many gay women actually watch the so called "Lesbian pornos" that get made so much? Its actually more likely that completely straight men are the ones watching the idealistic crafted "actresses" doing all those things to their co stars, not actually gay women. Why is it a double standard? well men can fantasize about two women doing all those things to each other but when it's a woman fantasizing two men doing things like that it's..not the same. like not even meant to be like that, because gay erotica specifically caters to actually gay men. This world makes no sense so many times, I just...I don't even know what to make of it.

Not an hour ago and all I knew was I had A beautiful pony girl on my side, now all that coursed through my mind was her being ravashed and taken by this other mare I had only just met and had been the one break this news to me, and it wasn't in a way that I was enjoying. Not just because of the fact there was a seventy-eight chance that they'd never want me near them when they did those kinds of things, but because...in a way...It felt like Lyra was stollen from me.

Stollen by the purple and blue maned...And never again would I ever be able to grow close to her, noever could it be that I could love her as I once did. It was just her and...Bon Bon.

"James?" One of them called snapping me out of my daze, "You alright?" Lyra said gently patting my head like a dog.

"I'm fine Ly...can...can I still call you that?" I asked turning my head to Bon Bon as if I directed the question at her.

"Hey...Listen...Mr. james; I know this may be hard for you to....but I just want you to know, I think you're a great guy and things between us are...not all they seem. I love Lyra, yes in that way, but if you can accept that...then well maybe."

"I can accept that, whatever gave you the impression I can't?" I said getting up and walking over to the large French lattice window, visioning it open and the fall to the ground making a statement to them both how I really felt.

"I...just had to be sure." She said joining me as another vision came to mind.

I'm dancing with my Lyra her hooves and my feet in perfect harmony sync across her apartment floor; she wears a floral patterned blouse and tight black pants, I'm still in my shirt and tie, but as my left hand holds hers there's also a pistol cradled in my hand, the sight of it neither makes her flinch or scared as I draw her close in an embracing turn, and I speak.

"You know Lyra; without you..I just...wouldn't wanna go on." I say with the aire of Maude Pie's deadpan monotone mannerism. As I point the gun at my head...and pull the trigger...CLICK and a little white flag with bang written on it in black ink pops out of the muzzle neither of us notice it as we continue our dance.

"Love is love, we all bleed the same you know...human and pony alike. I say in a still very monotone manner."

"James?...are you sure everythings okay?" Lyra says looking at me with the utmost concern for me, as I Want only to hug and nuzzle that lusciously soft coat of hers and tell her "I love you" a thousand times over wouldn't even begin to convey how much those words had meant to me. "Just...give me and Bon Bon some time to catch up? Get our relationship up to speed and see how things have been for her since I've been gone." She places a little kiss on my cheek, but it's very platonic in nature, like a child kissing his teddy goodnight...or goodbye. "We can all still be friends you know, and if you give us some time as just friends..." She says suddenly changing her attitude; it's more, playful but with a hint of..mischievous or even...devious underneath the seams. "Maybe down the line we could all...get together and see where it goes from there?" She says like she's a little filly again, flirtatiously fluttering her long eyelashes as she cuddles her mare friend who softly strokes her mane and kisses her head.

"Woah there Ly, one foal step at a time you know?" She says giggling and softly kissing my Lyra's muzzle. A sight would have made any other man mad with desire, in me it only made my lonesomely broken heart bleed and twinge in pain and agony at the crushing blows that they both seemed insistent on delivering to it.

"Okay...I've gotta get going though anyway...I...left some laundry in the washer at home, will you both excuse me please?" I walk over to them, with half a mind to smack them clear across the faces and call Bon Bon a "filthy whore." But I don't and I instantly feel shame and remorse in everything that, instead I hide behind my masque of indifference as I bid them both a casual "Goodbye." I leave them the door slowly closing behind me; I make my way to the stairs but only get so far down them before I collapse on the landing, bury my hands in my face, and let the hot and pained tears of sadness streak down my face, a stifled cry muffled back in my hands as my lungs feel like they're about to explode, as is my heart, right out of chest like a grenade.

I cry