Ostracized

I sat in the open field, thinking about what to do next. Sleeping here was actually comfortable, for the most part. The small breeze of the wind was a little annoying, but nothing excruciating painful when compared to the rest of the day. I always have to bring that up in my mind. No. No. Forget it. I have to say the view from this hill isn't that bad, one you get used to it. It's all different from where I was 'raised'. Everything is much more colourful, pastel colours come to mind. It all seems... unrealistic, you could say. But I like it. I wish I could experience this with someone else. Maybe somepony else, but then I would be crazy to even consider that option. No pony will ever like me.

I'm still trying to come up with different solutions on why ponies hate me. The frontrunner in my opinion is that I'm not a pony, and therefore they have a racial bias against anything that isn't a pony. I'm struggling to find anything that is to the contrary, but I've found nothing of note. The closest thing I can find against this is that a griffin used to be friends with her, before she was driven out of town or something. That says something, or at least it should. But seeing how ignorant these ponies are, I'm not that surprised.

The opinion coming second to why ponies want my head is that I don't have any magic in me at all. None. And this is in a country full of magical beings. Unicorns and earth ponies hating me would make sense from this logic, and to pegasi as well. But they probably hate me more because I don't have wings from this logic. That leads to the reason of why don't they hate earth ponies and unicorns. If this is all true, then pegasi are hypocrites, and I hate them even more. Except for Fluttershy and Scootaloo. They are nice. Thankfully there are some ponies who are actually decent beings. But most of them are actually foals. Doesn't that say something about ponies? The current generation are worse than the next? I guess.

There's a bunch of other theories that I could go through, but it seems pointless to me. That, and it seems like I don't have much time left. It looks around that time. I need to go work, at the farm on the outskirts of this prejudicial village, where it is the closest thing to neutral. Standing up, I could see a few other ponies waking up, including some who were now flying in the sky. And any that did notice me, sent their usual daily hateful glares. Returning a cold stare back at them, they muttered something to themselves and walked or flew off. Yeah you better leave. So nothing out of the ordinary right now.

Walking past a few houses and a few more angry glares, I eventually made it to the farm after the usual tedious walk. As such, I was just greeted with nothing much but silence and a few looks from Applejack and her older brother. Applebloom spotted me from inside the red barn, and made a quick wave, before dashing to somewhere in the barn. I smiled at that. I'm surprised that this family is somewhat reasonable, even terrifying that they don't seem to snap at me at all. But the silence is unnerving. Pleasantly unnerving.

And here I am, working in this apple orchard which is quite large in size. This job that the southern-accented mare 'gave me' was tiring to some degree, at least at first. Over time, it seemed much easier as I got fitter. I think I should point out that when I came here, I wasn't exactly in the best of shape. Now I consider myself alright. Better than most of the fuckers that live here. The job was simply to bring the cart filled with baskets of apples, all red apples, to the barn and store them there. Take the cart back out again, to the mare who was 'bucking' the trees by kicking them with her rear legs, then repeat. Pretty simple. Something I picked up on is that earth ponies' magic is super-strength. I'm surprised that she hasn't beaten the shit out of me, aside from our 'first meeting', considering she could probably beat me with her eyes closed. And that is scary, but I ain't giving them any ideas. Also, acting mean towards any of these country ponies here seems like suicide to me, and out of my nature.

Carrying these baskets full of a bunch of apples isn't as heavy as I thought it would be. I wasn't sure of what to expect when I was first doing this job, but I seem to blow past it in a breeze. Time strangely goes by, as it has been around an hour since first starting. Applejack and I remain in a slightly awkward silence while just doing our jobs. We're getting through this faster than what I thought we would. But it may just seem like that to me, and just a chore to her. Well, I've heard her say in the past to some pony that she enjoys this hard-working task. If it suits her.

"Hey, Leo?" She asks out of nowhere. I pause for a second, before looking back at her. She bucked the tree before looking back at me. I didn't say anything. She takes a breath. "Do you..." She starts before breaking off. Weird. "Ah'm, nevermind." I looked at her in confusion for another second before turning back towards the baskets to pick them up. That was odd. Wonder what she was going to say. Eh, must not be important.

I still can't get the fact that she actually spoke something to me, yet didn't say much. I can't get this thought off my head, as lunch time rolled around. I am given about an half an hour break before we continue our work, when usually miss prissy bitch flies around just to piss me off. Strangely, she hasn't shown up yet, which is a good thing. But I don't want to tempt fate. Applejack just wandered off elsewhere, leaving me to myself. I might as well go and get water, from the small river. Or I could just hang out with Fluttershy, if she is even there. I don't know where she is nowadays. Something about her brother, who doesn't live in this town. I hope he is reasonable.

"Hey!" A familiar filly's voice called out to me in surprise. What is she doing here? "Hey Leo!" She came running up to me with something in her hoof. You know, I could never understood how ponies hold things without hands. Magic, I guess.

I was about to greet her, before a sense of fear and paranoia entered my system. "Applebloom, what are you doing here?" I tried to keep my voice down. I don't want her older siblings or pretty much anypony seeing me with her, as she would get in trouble, and I would get an unfair couple of insults directed towards me, mainly false accusations. Though there are only three ponies that can really bother me.

"Why, Ah'm just tryin' to give you some apple juice!" What? I look at the glass she holds impossibly in her hoof, that does look like it contains apple juice. I am a bit thirsty, but I'm still surprised that she is willing to give me this, considering what her family could do to her. They can't be that savage.

"But why?" I whisper through my teeth. "I mean, it's a good gesture, but you're going to get in trouble."

She makes a sigh. "Yeah, I know. But I don't really care." I blinked. You don't care about getting in trouble? She seemed to looked at the expression on my face. "Look, I love ma' sister and all, but you don't deserve to be lonely."

I sigh. "Yeah, I know." I say softly. And maybe bitterly. "But it's the way things are working right now. And as much as I don't like it, it's working."

"What?" She looked shocked, placing the glass on the dirt of the ground.  "You don't want things to change?" She started to shake-up a little.

"Huh? What, no no." I gown down to my knees and calm her down, my rubbing down her back softly. Man, ponies' fur are rather soft, surprisingly contrasted from ponies back in my old world. I guess... magic. "Don't get upset. I know you want to hang out with me," For whatever reason. "But I also want you to be safe. Getting caught here with me isn't being safe, especially being around me isn't safe." I sigh again, as she looks away, muttering something to herself.

I pause for a moment, remembering the past few times she tried to do this. She got caught quite easily, but refused to not hang out around me. For her 'cutie mark' or otherwise. And she would give me this 'cute' face whenever I tell her she can't hang out with me. I'm just too dangerous, apparently. Now... it seems like the message is getting through to her. And she looks rather upset.

"But it's not fair..." She whispers to herself.

"Hey, it's alright." I lie to her, thinking of a way to get her spirits up again, but considering the circumstances that I am currently in, that would be very hard. So I take a sip from the apple juice, picking it up, before realizing how good this tastes. I gotta give it to the apple family, they do make good juice. I end up swallowing it whole in one take, before taking a breath. "That tasted good. Thanks for the drink." I smile to her, who smiles back my hugging my leg. Man, why are these foals so damn cute. And how is it the rest of the ponies can be so brutally mean when their are some who are this nice? I don't understand how the contrasts exist.

I don't how long she spent hugging me, but it felt good, in a way. "Now, go run along with your friends. Hang out with them. I'm fine here." I lie to myself again. I don't want her freaking out more than she already was. Or is. Too many bad things can occur from this. I give her the glass back.

She sighs. "Okay, see ya Leo!" She then waves, before running down the path. I watched her leave, smiling to myself. At least I have some sort of friends in this hellish world. My short-lives happiness dwindles, before depression slowly starts to set into my mind. Sadly, I can't be around my friend for long, and there isn't any foreseeable way of making any new friends, in this town at least. I'm left to myself leaning against this tree. Alone again. Well, at least I was happy for once today.

"Hey!" So much for that. Everything turns to the worse, whenever things are starting to look up, kind of. And her voice is immediately noticeable from everyone else's. Her voice is much more raspy. 'Insult' mode activates, as I ready for whatever the hell she is going to insult me with today. Thought something to note, she didn't insult me off the bat. I refuse to look at her, staring at the ground, contemplating my thoughts. "So I saw that little talk you had there with AJ's sister." Oh shit. I knew someone ha to be watching us. But of all ponies, if had to be fucking her. Of course. Just my luck, ain't it?

There was a pause in silence. "So?" I eventually ask. "You have huge plot eyes, and can see shit. So what?" She growled where I sais 'plot', before I realized what I said. I braced for some sort of punch or slap, but it didn't come.

That growled turned into a smile. Not like any normal smile. That smile. "So," She is being kinda seductive... I know where this is going. "I think I'm going to tell Applejack about this." Or maybe I... What? Oh no...

"What?" Oh shit, this isn't good... "No, no. She came up to me." I try to defend myself, but I know in the end its going to be useless.

"Really, jackass?" I really wish that I didn't teach her that word. No, insults aren't a good time right now. She paused for a second, staring at me intently, before smiling. "What, you don't want me to tell Applejack?" Don't do this to me... "Go on, answer me." She knows that I am in the palm of her hoof, if she even has palms. I'm going to lose what I left of my pride to her... especially her... but I really need a job... money, food... and she is going to ruin it if I don't... there isn't any other job I could get around here... oh ,what do I do. "Leo, you still there? You don't usually take this long." Yes, thanks for point that out you bitch. I'm trying to make a important decision... maybe I just bite it on the lip.

"Why do you care so much?" I ask out of the blue, thinking about it. "Why do you want to ruin my life?" She doesn't answer at first, before... laughing. Of course, why did I bother.

"Heh, do you really think I care about you?"

"No." I answer instantly. She blinks for a second, before looking irritated, as she usually is. "And I don't care about you." And I don't think I ever will.

"Is that so Lardass?" Lardass... really? I'm not fat anymore. And I wasn't that fat... It still hurts. "Well, I don't see why I shouldn't tell Applejack over that little... incident."

"You going to make me lose my job?" I ask uncertainly. She wouldn't be that harsh... would she? No, what am I saying? Of course she is that fucking harsh. She hits me on a daily basis and gets away with it. She hates me like everypony on this earth! Why would she suddenly start to act nice to me? Only in my dreams...

She pauses again, before looking unfazed. "You... if I don't care about you, then why should I care about your job?" Ugh... I really fucking hate you.

"Because I didn't do anything wrong." To me, at least. But I guess being different is a problem in their eyes.

"And if I tell her, you won't get in trouble then. It all work out..." You know your lying under that ignorant smirk, I'm going to get severely punished for this, I can tell. Or, Applebloom. And I don't want her to get hurt over... she is innocent. She doesn't need to be drawn into this.

"Well what if Applebloom gets in trouble then?" She pauses for a little longer, after hearing that, looking away from me. Yeah, that'll get you thinking.

"Then I'll make sure she won't." She says darkly... what? What does she mean by that? Is she...

"What? No. You can't get me fired from my job! I didn't do anything-

"Oh really?" No, don't take that as a challenge. Please don't. "I'll think I can tell her now!" She flew off, before I could stop her.

"Rainbow Dash! No! Don't..." But she was already gone... It's too late... that damn mare has just costed me my only job... not even Fluttershy could fix anything... "I didn't do anything wrong..." I felt like crying, but that would be useless at this stage of my life. It would only make me look weak. If I wasn't already weak... "I didn't do anything wrong... why me...?"

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I'm currently sitting, or hiding rather, inside my dusty, worn-down house, sitting on my surprisingly comfortable bed, knowing that the inevitable is going to occur. I'm too afraid to face the unfair consequences of what Rainbow may have done. I'm just too scared to meet Applejack again. She is ultra powerful, she could beat me easily. She already has, and I don't want that day to repeat. It took months before I lost most of my fear for her, and I guess for Rainbow and everypony, but its starting to resurface now.

I'm too frightened to go out there, now. I don't want to lose my job, and I don't want to be harmed by her. I'm going to get fired, for something I didn't do, again in my life. And there's nothing much that I can do to stop her.

Why is my life so unfair?

I guess there isn't any point dwelling on it now. I have to move on to some other job... in this painful village. But where to start? No pony will take me in to work for them. The only possibility is Fluttershy, and I don't even think she has a job. That makes me wonder how she has any money (bits is this world's currency), but its still possible. If her friends hadn't already turned her on me. I don't know if that is possibly true. Maybe... Is there any other option that I can choose?

"Leo!" I hear her voice, slamming on my front door, or the only door in this house that still stands. How does she know where I live? I never told anypony. The only pony who knows, that followed me that one time was... her. Of course, it makes sense... Maybe if I stay quiet, she won't know that I'm here. "I know your in there!" Please go away... "I'll barge in here if you don't open up!" I guess I don't have much choice. Time to face... the painful, screeching music... that I didn't deserve...

I open the door slowly. "Hi, Apple..." I didn't get to finish that sentence, as she kicks the door down, with me as well. I land on the floor, though it didn't hurt as much as I thought it would. I wish she didn't have magic... I wish I wasn't here. "...jack."

She growled as she approached me, where I didn't move. It's not because I couldn't, its because there wasn't much of a point if I did. "Did you talk to Applebloom!?" She yelled into my face, as I had to look away from her face.

"Y-yes..." I nervously stuttered. She could do anything here, and I would be helpless. "I..."

She wouldn't let me finish. "Why did ya talk to her!? After the rule that I made you from staying away from her at all times?!"

"Because she came to me..." She didn't cut in. "She gave me a glass of juice... and that was it." My voice sounded weaker than it usually is. I don't know why. I was still afraid to look her in the eyes, but I eventually did after a few moments of puffing in what sounded like anger. Her eyes looked like it was full of controlled-rage. I became even more scared.

She stared at me for a few more seconds. "Then why, did you," She says with hate. "Talk with her, instead of getting her to leave."

"I d-did..." I weakly state.

"Don't lie to me!" She yells in my face.

"I'm not lying!" I yell right back, staring straight into her eyes, still afraid. She practically has me pinned down at this point. I think my eyes might of had tears in them, but I couldn't notice any.

"Do you know how much danger you could of put her through, just by being near her?"

"...I don't know." She didn't say anything to that, and instead began to walk away after a second of standing over me, like I couldn't do anything about it... like I was her... no, I couldn't. I sit-up slowly, in fear, shaken up that she just yelled in my face and didn't buck me. Thankfully, she didn't buck me.

"That was your first warning Leo," She states, standing in the doorway, looking away from me. "And... also your last. You know that." I do... no. "And... you're fired." I stand there in disbelief, frozen in so many emotions. I really am fired from my job... because Rainbow couldn't keep her mouth shut. And because Applebloom was just trying to be nice... to me. As Applejack walks away, I see Rainbow hovering through the doorway. She looks at her, before looking at me. She doesn't say anything...

...before smiling devilishly in delight. "Hahahaha! You should see the look on your face right now!" She goes on laughing hysterically, as I stand there in disbelief. I can't process this... she go me fired. She really did. "Oh, lighten up! It's not like she actually got ya fired!" I didn't say anything. I couldn't say anything. I felt like crying, like never before. Grief struck me heavily. I feel... depressed again. Where am I supposed to find any sources of bits... or food...? What can I do now? What am I supposed to do now? "Hey jerk, talk to me!"

"Why did you ruin my life?" I ask gruffly, before slowly walking away from her. She tries to grab my attention, but I just ignore her. She even tries to punch me in the arm, but it doesn't do anything. Eventually, she stops trying, and I walk alone, through the sunshine.

I eventually make it back to the paddock hill I was in the morning, just sitting there... staring at the grass. What am I supposed to do? There isn't anything I could do. First, she attacks me with these little insults, then they got more personal and darker... then she sets out to ruin my life, by ruining any fun I could have at all. Having friends... having a job... having... peace... I don't mean anything to her, aside from a source of pain to dish out at. Tears drop down my cheeks. I promised myself I wouldn't cry... but there isn't any point to that. I want to cry... I just want to be left alone... is that too much to ask?

I cried on my arms, sitting on the hill, as the rest of the day went by like nothing but misery.