I woke up rather neutral over what happened last night, I knew it wasn’t really anyponies fault and rather my own, I overreacted I had forgotten what I told her the night before. I decided I would go apologize to Dash after I got out of Sugercube Corner. So the only thing left to do was to start getting ready for the day.
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After I was done getting ready it was nearly 8 o’clock, it was almost time to open so I headed out the door, when suddenly something tackled me. I managed to turn over to face the thing that tackled me, finally I was able to focus on the pony and saw that it was Rainbow Dash

“Loaf just hear me out a sec!” Shouted Dash as she pinned me tight to the ground.

“Dash…”

“I don’t know what went thru my head it was like if I had a sudden shut down and I wasn’t able to control what I was doing….”

“Dash…”

“I please ask that you can forgive me, not now but sometime in your life”

“DASH!!!” I finally managed to get her off of me and stand up.

“Dash I can forgive you.”

“I understand…” She faced the ground and started crying softly.

“I mean I can’t forgive you because there’s nothing to be sorry about.” I smiled at her hoping she would look at me.

“Huh…” she had looked up at me with a dumbfounded expression on her face.

“If anypony should ask for forgiveness it should be me, I overreacted and it was me who told you we should be just friends, and because of that I have no right to tell you who to date, I ask you to forgive me, we should just stay friends, you’re the first pony I’ve met and I don’t want to ruin that so what do you say?” I looked at her and smiled while I waited for an answer.

“I…I… forgive you Loaf and thank you for not being angry at me.” She whipped off the tears off her face.

“Well I have to get going, gotta go work, I’m going to hang out with Fluttershy later, want to tag along?” I asked her as I started trotting towards Sugercube Corner.

“Sure thing.” She said with a small smile.

“Okay then see you later Dash.” I waved as I got further away.

Loaf walked into Sugercube Corner, he heard noises coming from the kitchen so he guessed that it was Pinkie Pie already baking some stuff.

“Pinkie! I’m here what do I do?” I said as I walked into the kitchen to see Pinkie taking out some muffins from the oven.

“Oh! Loaf you’re here, I need to ask you some stuff about, last night but only if you’re willing to answer me cause if you don’t want to that’s perfectly fine so I’ll go ahead and ask you, ready?” I only understood half of what she said.

“Sure… I guess?”

“First of all are you okay, do you have any thoughts of hurting yourself?” Dang did Dash tell of them yet again it could’ve been Fluttershy.

“No, why do you ask?”

“Well it’s just that you seem like a good pony and you seem like you could be a good friend and I don’t want you hurting yourself, and please understand that Rainbow Dash isn’t like that.”

“Don’t worry she went to see me today before I left, we got everything solved, turns out it was my fault, I overreacted a bit.” I gave a small smile hoping we could stop talking about the matter.

“Okie dokie lokie, but if you need to talk to somepony just come to me, im all ears, well not really but imagine how I would look.”

“Okay, thank you Pinkie, well let’s get started with the baking!”

The rest of the day went okay and rather fast, thankfully around 3’o clock we finished all the orders and I was free for the rest of the day, which is what I needed, I had to get some stuff done before I went with Fluttershy.

I decided I would go to the café, I needed to eat something.
“What am I going to do? What if Fluttershy or Rainbow Dash told all of them my story and all the little details? I sure as heck don’t want them all to know I’m a virgin, it’s just the thought of how special that act can be, that makes me feel unsafe, what if I have sex with a mare, what if she breaks up with me just days later? I couldn’t deal with that pressure, also what if I hurt her? Not only physical but psychologically, at least I didn’t tell them that I don’t tend to swear, only when I really angry or sad.” I had forgotten I was walking, thankfully I came back to my senses before I got to the café, that’s when I saw that familiar face, I didn’t know for sure it was her until I went inside the café.

“Ditzy? Is that you?” I headed up to her, I saw she was with a young filly, could that be her daughter?

“Loaf, its been ages, I thought I’d never see you again.” I got up her table to go hug me tightly, she was the one pony I hadn’t talked to the most in the last years.

“I’m glad to see you Ditzy, it’s been what? 3 years?” I didn’t know but I knew she didn’t also so I just went with a small amount hoping she wouldn’t remember.

“6 years…6 LONG years I didn’t know nothing about you Loaf, for heaven’s sake I thought you were dead, I thought that you had hit rock bottom and took the only “solution” you knew, why didn’t you ever visit?” I realized that we were the best of friends and I realized that I had hurt her plenty by not talking to her in that period of time.

“But I’m here now aren’t I?

“But nothing, you don’t know how much pain I went thru in those years? You can’t just expect me to forget about that in a few moments.” She interrupted by the young filly

“Mommy, can we leave now?” asked the small filly as she looked at me with some fear in here eyes, most likely because of me or because Ditzy was shouting.

“Yes honey, Goodbye Loaf.” She said as she headed towards the door.

“So that’s it? That’s the end of our friendship? Just because of a small error I made?” I started to feel a bit angry.

“You call that a small error?” with that she walked out of the café with the filly behind her. At this point I lost my appetite but to not seem like a fool I ordered something to go.
I felt like trash, yet again I always do, I was going to have to apologize but she probably doesn’t want to see me again. Finally I reached my house, turned on the TV, ate my sandwich and fell asleep, at this point I had forgotten about the get together. Suddenly there was a knocking at the door.

“Huh? Coming!” I hurried up the couch up to the door to see who it was, to my surprise it was Rarity.

“Oh um... Hi Rarity, what brings you here?” I asked still trying to fully wake up

“Oh I just thought I pass by to see how you’re doing that’s all.” She said as she walked in, didn’t really tell she could but who cares.

“Wait, did you come to talk to me about last night?” I knew she had a reason to come here and what other than last night’s fiasco.

“Well besides that there’s something I want to know…” I headed over to the couch where she was already sitting and sat down beside her, she put her hoof on my leg which made me rather uncomfortable.

“Umm... yeah what is it?” I looked at her and saw she was looking back directly at me.

“Well I was thinking since you and Dash are only friends now…”

“Go on….” I could only guess what she was going to say next.

“You deserve a lady and not a brute for a marefriend so if you want a date I’m here for you.” She leaned close to me as she were going for a kiss which only made the whole situation more unpleasant so I quickly got up from the couch before she continued.

“Wait a second Rarity, I just went thru something hard in my life and it’s not something you forget easily, plus Dash and I weren’t dating before yesterday, we were only friends so it was my fault I overreacted besides I only like you as a friend, nothing more, but there is another guy that likes you…” I didn’t like the idea of going out with her, not that she’s not pretty but she’s too fancy for me.

“Humph and what’s wrong with me? Am I not too good for you? Am I not too rough like Dash?” I could tell she was getting angry.

“Don’t take like that it’s just that I’m not going to date a pony somebody else has liked for a longer time period plus I don’t like rough mares I like mares who have different attitudes not just monotone personalities.”

“Well in that case I can be something else than just a lady.” Her horn started glowing and I soon felt something wrapping around my body which I soon found out was a near by blanket

“Rarity what are you doing?! Let me go now!” I pleaded as I tried to break free which was no use.

“IM NOT LEAVING UNTIL YOU SAY YES AND I GET A KISS FROM YOU!!!!” she had snapped, and I was the only thing that could make her come back to her senses.

“GET OFF ME NOW!!” I was on the edge of crying and I don’t know why.

“IF YOU WONT KISS ME THAN I GUESS I’LL HAVE TO GET IT MYSELF!!” she got on top of me and started to lean into my face to kiss me. Finally she got what she wanted and in that moment I heard a familiar voice coming from the door sadly it had to be her.

“Loaf, Fluttershy made me come get you—“It was Dash who saw me and Rarity in mid-kissing,

“WHAT THE HAY ARE YOU DOING!” out of the five it had to be her, finally Rarity stopped the spell and I was able to break free.

“Wait Dash it not what it looks like!” I had made the same mistake she did the night before only this time it was Rarity’s fault.

“This is why you wanted us to be just friends huh? Asshole!” She shouted at me as she ran out the door, at this point I forgot about Rarity’s presence and ran out behind her with tears in my eyes.

“Wait, Dash let me explain!” I shouted as I almost caught up to her.

“NO! GET AWAY FROM ME!” I managed to catch her before she started flying away and pinned her down to the ground like she did in the morning.

“GET OFF ME YOU PRICK!” she kicked and moved around trying to break free.

“NO! Not until you listen!”

“YOU SAID YOU DIDN’T LIKE HER!” she started to shed tears.

“I DON’T! SHE WAS THE ONE THAT KISSED ME!” I lowered my voice so I could continue. “She came to my house and started telling me about how I should date her. I said I didn’t want to and that’s when she snapped and wrapped me in the blanket to kiss me.”

“YEAH RIGHT, LIKE I WOULD BELIEVE THAT!”

“I don’t expect you to…Everywhere I go in my life; nobody has ever believed me…” I then let go of her.

“I didn’t kiss her Dash, I swear…” I looked straight into her eyes that where filled with tears.

“ASSHOLE!” she punched me in the face and then flew off leaving back a trail of tears.

“IM SORRY DASH!” I shouted as I got up and broke into tears as I saw her fly away, I had to head back to my house to talk to Rarity, and luckily she was still there.

“Oh dear did that brute hit you?” She seemed to not care what she had just done

“Get the hell out…” I told her as I pointed outside.

“My, my no need to use that tone and language with me”

“Don’t bullshit me Rarity, You know what you did, now go fix it.” I lost my temper and started swearing.

“Fine…” she said as she left my house, I was so frustrated, how could she just do that to me and her friend? All I could do was wait and blame myself for what had happened even if it wasn’t my fault.

“I should have known he only wanted me to get close to my friends” Dash flew as she got near to where Fluttershy was waiting, she was lost in thoughts that she almost left her behind.

“What’s wrong? Where’s Loaf” asked Fluttershy as Dash landed next to her in full sorrow.

“I don’t care about him anymore, he can go die for all I care!” said Dash as she looked to the ground trying to hide her tears.

“What did he do?” asked Fluttershy now more concerned.

“I caught him kissing Rarity in his house.”

“What?” Fluttershy got a bit upset over the news.

“I DON’T WANT TO KNOW ANYTHING ABOUT HIM ANYMORE!” Shouted Dash

“But you’re only friends; did you forget already what he told you? You don’t have any right to tell him who to date.
“Wait…you’re right…” this sudden memory made her realize that this time she was the one who overreacted.

“Oh what have I done? I have to apologize to him right away.”

“It’s rather late already; maybe you should wait until tomorrow.” Said Fluttershy, she knew that Loaf didn’t have the fault and that he knew it as well so he wouldn’t be able to hurt himself over something he knew was his fault.

“Why am I still alive? I messed up my entire life, why should I stay here and mess up other ponies friendships? That’s it. I won’t kill myself but rather move away, away from civilization and move somewhere dangerous like the Everfree Forrest, a place filled with a lot of manticores, I’ll be a good snack for them.” I had made up my mind. I’ll only take a few stuff and head out tonight, and in the morning I won’t be anypony’s problem anymore.
“So long Ponyville and Equestria, Loaf is about to stop being a drag for all of you!” I shouted as I headed outside my house and started trotting towards the forest.

“No need to cry for me…” I started to remember how many ponies I would probably hurt my killing myself, yet again I not killing myself rather a wild beast is so it would just look like an accident. But no turning back now, my mind was set and I wasn’t backing out now. I started to cry a little remembering everything that had happened in the last two days.
“I’m sorry Dash and Fluttershy…” I whispered as I shed a few tears.