Philosophy of the Damned

I wasn’t in the city anymore covered in blood, I wasn’t stabbing a traitor in the eye in a back alley, and I wasn’t killing everything I saw in rage. I was in a room with 6 scared ponies and what looked like a fat purple lizard. Jesus, I’m still here, kinda thought I would be awake by now. Wonder if I really am dead.

“Rose a-are you okay?” asked Twilight.

“No I’m not okay, how do you know that name?!” I snapped.

“Hey it was on your jacket, don’t yell at me.” Said twilight right back

Looking down I noticed the tag was showing on my jacket, well it wasn’t quite my jacket it was my dads old army jacket, but it held my name so I took it. But the only difference was I had put duct tape over the tag with my new name.

“Huh, so it is. Well then your at no fault but I wish to ask that you never call me by that name again, as that’s only my last name and prefer people no to know it.”

I didn’t like people knowing my name, getting attached. It’s not fun to keep people from knowing who I really am but if they know my name then they can get closer to me and see what I’d done and what had happened to me. It was my burden and my burden alone. I would carry the feeling of guilt, sorrow, pain, and vengeance with me until the day I die. And when that day comes we will walk willingly to fate as it’s no use struggling, fate will come. The most you can do is prolong it. But I’ve said this before.

“Ahm sorry but who’s this fella?”

“Oh my, umm we never asked his name. I’m so sorry.” Said Fluttershy.

“Mmm, don’t worry about it I don’t like to use my original name.”

“Well whatever for darling?”

“It’s our way to share them with only the closest and most trusted of friends our names, and with it the nightmares that you’ve been through. That being said I don’t know any of you all that well.”

“Well is there anything you do go by?” Asked Twilight.

“What like a nickname?”

“Sure.”

“I’ve got plenty, there’s: Rush, Blade, Boom, Lock, Kick and plenty of others but most just keep it at Rush.”

“Okay but are you okay dude?” asked spike.

“That all depends on your definition of okay. Hey where’s my stuff?”

“It’s all over on the wall, why?”

“I need a drink.” I said taking a drink from a dirty water bottle.

“If you wanted a drink Spike could’ve gotten you some water from upstairs.”

“This ain’t water it’s vodka.”

“Wait ain’t that them fancy alcoholic drinks made in Stalliongrad?”

“That sounds about right except there ain’t nothing fancy about it.”

“Uh, if it’s okay with you I think we should introduce ourselves a little better.” Said Twilight.

“Yeah that’s probably a good idea.” I said, now I was a fan of the show and all but it had been a while.

Lining up in a row they told me their names and jobs.

“I’m Twilight Sparkle, and I’m Princess Celestia’s personal assistant, and Ponyville’s librarian. I was also the one who found you just outside Everfree Forest.”

“Hmm being found dying in a ditch is apparently a good way to meet people, good to know. I guess I owe you one for saving me you ever need help just call me up.”

“Well partner my name’s Applejack and I buck apples.”

“Heh heh.”

“What’s so funny?” she said scrunching up her face.

“So you buck the wood till it’s empty and your sore?”

“Yeah what’s so funny about that?” At this point some of the others were starting to turn red, I’ll save her some embarrassment.

“I must have misheard you my bad.”

“Well okay then.” She said giving me a suspicious look.

“I’m Rainbow Dash, the fastest flyer in all Equestria!”

“Would you be interested in proving that?”

“Is that a challenge?”

“Maybe, care to make it interesting?” I will always be a betting man.

“What’s in it for me.”

“I win you buy me a drink, you win I help you with something of your choice.”

“Your on.”

“Alright, who’s next?”

“That would be me darling. My name is Rarity and I’m a-

“Model?” I said taking a guess by the look of her highly stylized hair.

“Oh well I’m more of a tailor but thank you for the compliment.”

“Hmm, I don’t suppose you could make me some more clothes I can’t use these forever wouldn’t give a good impression covered in dirt and blood.”

“I didn’t want to say anything.”

“It’s okay, alright you’re nex- hey you okay you look pretty sad.”
I was getting a pretty bad feeling from the pink one.

“I’m just sad for what happened to your friend.” Wait what.

“Excuse me?”

“For what happened to Doc’”

“Don’t pity me, it was my fault, and you shouldn’t know about it. I’m gonna need to talk to you later.” How the hell did she know?

“Alright bro you’re next.” I said to the lizard.

“I’m Spike and I’m Twilight’s assistant, and yes I’m a dragon.”

“Alright for now you’re my bro because you’re the only other guy I’ve seen.” If I was gonna be here for an extended amount of time I needed a guy friend to hang out with.

“Now Fluttershy, where’s Fluttershy?”

“Back here.” Said Rainbow dash flying out of the way revealing a scared pink-maned Pegasus,

“Is she going to be okay?”

“Yeah she’s just really shy.”

“Hey It’s okay you don’t have to tell me I know enough about you from your handiwork on my injuries.

“Alright your turn.” Said Twilight.

“Yeah I’m sure y’all wanna know about what that whole incedent was.” Boy, this will be fun.

“Well, first off do y’all have a military here?”

“Yes but the mostly for show like the royal guard.”

“I see, well have you ever had a war.”

“What’s a war?” asked Spike.

They have an army and they don’t even know why?

“”I imagine you all know what death is, in war their our thousands who will fight and kill each other for their beliefs, greed, and a number of other equally useless reasons. I was a soldier who was one of the ones out their who fought.”

“You would k-kill somepony?” asked a terrified Twilight dropping her notebook.
Judging from the looks on the others faces, I could guess I wasn’t winning any points with them.

“That all depends, we were only defending what we thought was worth saving. You aren’t my enemies, therefore I have no reason to harm anyone here. Although if there were any to try and oppress others then yes by the oath that I took, I will do everything in my power to stop them including the death of them and possibly in the same sense myself if it were to end the tyranny.”

“Whoa. Dude that sounds awesome.” Said Spike.

“Yeah well, you remember what happened earlier?” Yeah because they’ll forget meeting soon.

“Yes?” asked a fearful Twilight.

“That is the offspring of being put into war since you were a child, some kids were playing with toys, I was learning the proper way to disassemble a rifle.”

“You mean you never got to have fun.” Asked Pinkie sounding like that was worst thing to happen in my life.

“Eh, we did a few fun things on base a couple of pranks, make jokes and other stuff.”

“Alright back to my questions: How old are you?” asked a slightly annoyed looking Twilight.

“I’m about fourteen and before you ask, yes I’m younger then most who were fighting.”

“Why that sounds like the normal age for enlistment here. We’re actually around that age too.”

“You serious, y’all look like young adults, then again different species so that sounds about right.”

“Wait so you had all that happen when you were just a kid?” asked an extremely saddened Fluttershy who not to previously had been to terrified to talk.

“Yeah but it was my choice I didn’t have to fight.” I said standing by my decision to fight.

“Wait so you’re gonna get bigger?!” Asked a surprised Twilight.

“Uh, ’Bout half a foot, yeah. I should be about six foot three inches by the end of it.”

“Wow he’s going to be taller than the princesses!” Said Pinkie.
Well she bounced back quickly.

“Hey before I answer any more when am I gonna make my public appearance?” I said wondering how no one but these five and Twilight had come to investigate.

“What?”

“C’mon if all of you heard it then the whole town did, screaming coming from someone’s basement won’t be ignored.”

“Hmm I suppose you right, I guess we could ask Mayor Mare for a town meeting to introduce you at. Hopefully you get a better reception then Zecora.”

“Alright I guess, I should change clothes because it probably won’t go well if I show up in blood soaked clothes.”

“If ya don’t mind me askin’ why exactly IS there blood on ya and why do ya look like ya jus’ fought off a bunch a timberwolves?” asked a slightly confused Applejack.

“Oh, it’s all mine from an explosion that went off a bit too close too me which is how I was found like this. Also what time is it?” Revealing as little as possible.

“It’s about 10:30, why?” asked Twilight.

“It’s still early so we can do this today, you hurry up and get everyone together I’ve got some extra clothes in my bag.”

“Wait already?”

“Of course strike while the iron’s hot and before they lose whatever interest they have so hurry up and go.”

“Maybe you should clean up a bit darling.”

“Yeah smelling like blood and explosives won’t bode well.”

“There’s a shower in the bathroom upstairs.” Said Twilight.

“Alright everyone do what you need to do and get ready for you shall be credited for finding a new sentient species, you might as well look nice for it hell see if you can get your leaders here diplomacy will be needed for integration and other such B.S. but Pinkie I need to talk to you everyone else, go .” I said seeking to find out how much she really knew about me.

At that everyone had left and it was just me and Pinkie.

“Alright Pinkie how much do you know?”

“Well I know you aren’t from this planet, you seen and done terrible things, and that your real name is-

“Stop that’s enough, please don’t tell the others what you know. Those are things for a later date and I was hoping to tell everyone this at the same time and answer all these questions then, so this is just between you and me for now got it?” I said

“Okey dokey lokey.” She replied still as upbeat and cheerful as ever.

“Thanks I owe you one. You can go now.” I said somewhat relieved.

“See you in a bit Pinkie.”

“See you Rush.” She said hopping out the door.

The thoughts still going through my head as I walked towards the bathroom were mostly me trying to figure out how exactly one bounces that far with such coordination as to not trip once. I needed to start remembering things about this place fast.