A Double Life

I woke up feeling slightly sluggish as a strange thought came into my mind... Why do I feel like this? Up until yesterday, I felt like getting rid of him. Up until just recently, I've been hearing rumors about us somehow being... a couple or something like that. I've just ignored it at first but it seems everypony has looked at me strangely anything me and Grape are together. I guess I shouldn't be surprised. After all, we have been together for some time albeit, sort of against my will. I had barely gotten any sleep from all the work he's given me. I knew I had to get up and rush over before he shows up.

With my bag and all his work in it, I ran out of the house in a hurry. I didn't think much of theses rumors since anypony can start one but it continued to gain more attention and I grew worried that they would get the wrong impression if they didn't know the truth. I continued to run and saw the school ahead. I ran inside and not a pony in sight. I felt really tired since I had little to no sleep so maybe I should close...my...eyes for a... min...

. . .

I woke up and it was still dark out. I rubbed my eyes and suddenly, I heard a voice.

"Awake now?" Grape asked.

I jumped up in surprise. I looked at him and his face was gleaming in the light. This was the first time I really looked at him and saw his face. He smiled and looked at the moon.

"I just got here after setting up the tables." He said with a smile.

He looked back at me with a nice smile and his eyes looking directly at me.

"You shouldn't fall asleep here." He said, smiling.

I felt my heart skip several beats and for the first time, he seemed special to me. I had never felt like this before. I didn't understand it myself but I knew it had something to do with him finding out the real me.

"I've got to set up some more stuff so I'll see you in class." He said, walking away.

He closed the door behind himself and I was by myself once more. I was so confused as to what I was feeling. All of my angry had been replaced with admiration. This was the first time somepony else saw me as a fake and yet he didn't treat me any differently. I smiled and closed my eyes once more...

. . .

After I heard the first bell ring, everypony showed up and began class. Sometime would pass until the next bell would ring but I wondered what he really felt. I didn't understand this sensation I was going though. I don't understand it at all and it made me feel confused and sick to my stomach. The only thing I could understand was that it was a hazy and restless feeling... It's the first time experiencing this and... Is it possible...? C-Could it be "love" everypony talks about?! It couldn't be! Not me!

How dumb... I refuse to believe it. I felt like I was lacking a sense of the real world... But still... What do I do? What can I do? I've already ignored his conversion but he still hangs out with me. I just don't understand... As I heard the bell ring, I slowly got up and continued though the day without talk to anypony or Grape. I went straight home and went upstairs. I heard somepony open my door and it was my sisters.

"What do you want...?" I asked, coldly.

"Your home pretty late." Fizzy said, concerned.

"Come to think of it, you've been coming pretty late for the past few days." Cupid said, also concerned.

"I've just had extra work lately so I stay at school and finish it up before coming home." I replied.

"Ah, I see. Is there more?" Cupid asked.

I nodded but didn't tell them what it was.

"What else is there?" Fizzy asked.

"...It's nothing worth noting." I replied.

"That can't be. No matter how we think it, you've never been coming home this late. That's strange even for you. And on top of that, you use to brag about what you did during the day but you always go to your room and say nothing to us." Cupid said.

"Is somepony bothering you?" Fizzy asked.

"Or rather, do you have a crush on somepony?" Cupid asked.

"Wha-what are you two talking about? I'm just tired it all..." I replied.

"So you do have a crush." She said, leaning closer.

"I said, I'm tired." I told her.

They looked at me like they didn't believe me. I got up and pushed them out of the room. All I wanted to do is figure this out by myself... I mean really, they wouldn't understand it even if I told them. If only I had just meet him under normal  conditions and not like this... I might be able to understand this feeling. Then, I wouldn't have any problems. I admit it, I'm troubled... I don't want anypony to know because I don't want to disappoint them... Why did I have to be little miss perfect...? I closed my eyes and drifted off to sleep...