Wow. So. Here I am. It's crazy. This whole thing is just crazy. I mean, what's so special about me? I'm just a teenager. A teenager who's been through what has to have been the worst of his life. And, well, you know what? I thought I finally did it. I thought I finally ended it all after years of chickening out. Ended all the suffering that had been me since I was in third grade. But… nope. Death's got other plans for me apparently. Like as if he thought I never suffered enough while I was alive. I was wrong… Now I'm stuck here. In Equestria. With no one else I could particularly call a friend. More like acquaintances. Making friends is supposed to be the best thing in a person's life, but how can it be when the lives of everyone around you are slipping away, like an hourglass? But when I was alive, I always kept wondering how many more times I would be allowed to make mistakes, have to tell the same lies, have to watch my loved ones die, watch my dear friends either disappear or leave me one by one, and just… be alone once again. These ponies…. they say they care for me, but how do I know they're telling the truth? The last one who told me that gave me a scar that has lasted a long time…

(I gave in. I did a self-insert. To be honest, I've always thought about doing one, but never really gave myself the time to do it. So… This is my attempt. Also, don't give me that look. Admit it, people you've either thought about doing one yourself at one point or actually did it too. So sit back and enjoy a look into my psyche and how I would react upon being thrown into Equestria. I'll be it not exactly in a pretty way.)
(Also Alternate universe tag is there for just in case)