The Journals Of A Human

So it's been about a week and a half since my last entry, and today marks the end of my second week in Equestria. So far, I’ve been getting used to this world, but I will admit, I’d kill for some steak or something like that. With that being said, if getting a piece of meat meant losing Celestia, then I guess I’m a vegetarian now. I love Celestia, and I will not give her up for anything.
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I woke up this morning to Celestia asleep on top of me. I’ve noticed that it's never me or her that wakes up first, and that it tends to switch day to day. Both sides have their advantages anyway. If I wake up first, I get to enjoy being cuddled by a sleeping Celestia, and the smile on her face as she holds me close to her…god its so cute. On the other hand, if Celestia wakes up first, I get to wake up to her beautiful smile over me. In the two weeks that I’ve come to know her, she’s been amazing. She’s been kind, accepting, almost motherly in a way….i love her, and the best part is, that even though she deserves better than me, she loves me back. I looked to my watch and I saw that it was about 0630, and the date was June first. And according to tia, the Grand Galloping Gala was on the 21 of June. Personally, I wasn’t looking forward to the event. According to Celestia, it's usually a high-society party, and with the exception of the past two years, is pretty boring. But still, I was willing to got through it all for my beautiful princess. As I was thinking, I also remembered that today, Celestia told me that she wanted me to come with her to her school and answer some questions that her students had for me. I was kinda looking forward to that, but I was also worried about what some of the parents might think of me. After the school day, I had a training session with the royal family. Now that was something that I was looking forward too, granted I was probably going to get my ass kicked. I decided that I should probably start to clean up and get ready seeing that today I was going to have to be on my best behavior and try to be presentable, but when I tried to get up, one of Celestia's newer reflexes kicked in. When I tried to get up, Celestia moved her hooves around me, and she rolled onto her back while pulling me on top of her and putting her forehooves and wings around me as she proceeded to nuzzle the side of my face. At the moment, I was basically a massive stuffed animal. Seeing as I had no escape. I just let myself get comfortable.

About fifteen minutes later, Celestia woke up. “Good morning my handsome warrior”

I smiled as I turned my head to look at her “Good morning my beautiful princess, looks like you make a nice pillow too, your so soft and cuddly”

Celestia giggled “Your quite comfy as well. And from the looks of it, you tried to get out of bed”

“How’d you know?” I asked

“Because of how I’m holding you right now…so why did you try to get up?”

“I wanted to wash up early. You said today was the day that I was going to go with you to your school, so I wanted to try to look presentable.” I replied

“Don’t worry, John, I’m sure that my students will like you, you just have to be yourself.”

“Are you sure about that?” I replied

“Yes…but do try not to swear”

“Yes Dear” I sarcastically replied, which made Celestia giggle a bit

“And there’s also your training as well.” She continued

“Yeah, I know, I’m a little anxious about that too.”

“Don’t be, I’m sure that you will do fine.” Celestia replied

“Yeah” I replied “If anything, at least I'll get to see how sexy you look in your armor”

Celestia began to blush “Flatterer.”

“And you wouldn’t have me any other way.” I countered

Celestia placed a kiss on my cheek and I saw that she was wearing the bracelet that I made for her “No, I would not.”

“Your wearing the bracelet I made?”

Celestia placed a kiss on my lips “Yes, it has become a part of my everyday wear, and I have yet to take it off since you gave it to me.”

I was shocked to hear that. I mean I was happy to hear that she liked it so much, but I was surprised to hear that she had yet to take it off. “Wow…I…I don’t know what to say.”

“You don’t have to say anything” Celestia relied. She then placed a quick kiss in my lips again before letting me go “Now go on and wash up for today.”

“thank you” I replied as I slowly rolled off of tia and then made my way to the bathroom. As I turned on the water, I began to think of the house that I saw in my dreams…the house that I wanted to share with Celestia. She right, this world is different, with the exception of the nobles, this world seems to be a nice place. Speaking of those asshats, the nobles seemed to have backed off after that incident with Jet Set and his wife. Now they all just seem to avoid me. It should make the Gala interesting.

After I got showered, I grabbed a pair of tan pants for today, but I saw that my shirts were missing. As I walked back into the room, I saw that Celestia floating up a black t-shirt in her magic. “Looking for this?”

“Yes, as well as the rest of my shirts, do you know where they are?”

Celestia smiled “Yes, but it don’t understand why you need to wear them.”

“So that way I can comfortably wear my vest and not be cold” I replied

“But I like how you look” Celestia replied as she put her wing around me “and don’t tell me that you don’t like the feeling of my wings and my coat on your skin.”

I sighed “You know I do, but I do have to try to look professional Tia.”

She sighed back at my shirt, and then when she looked at me I knew I was not going to win this argument. She was giving me puppy eyes as she fluttered her eyelashes “Pleeeaaase?”

I knew I had lost. I sighed as I thought things out. “Fine, but I want the shirt for now because we’re going to meet your students. After that I’ll go shirtless ok?”

Celestia smiled as she placed my shirt on me and a kiss on my cheek “Thank you for seeing reason my sunshine.”

“The puppy eyes kind of won me over.” I replied

Celestia smiled deviously at me “I’ll keep that in mind… now come on dear, I still need to make us some breakfast, and get to my classroom before the school day begins. It’s not good for the teacher to be late” and with that she walked out the door

“Oh, now that’s just evil.” I replied as I threw my gear on and ran out the door after her.

I caught up to Celestia in the kitchen as she was getting out some supplies: flour, eggs, milk, sugar, and some fruit. My guess was that she was making pancakes.

I walked up behind her and hugged her as I spoke “Where would the coffee be?”

Before she could answer, Luna walked into the room and floated over a cup of my lifeblood to me. I took a sip and smiled “Thanks”

“Your quite welcome. It's nice to have another coffee drinker in the castle, I even hear that you got my sister to try it.”

I smiled as I remembered back to the day where I was hiking up the mountain with Celestia er I mean majesty “Yeah, but it didn’t end to well.” I replied.

“No it did not.” Celestia said as she brought out a plate of pancakes for the three of us.

My pancakes were plain, with the exception of a little bit of butter and syrup. I smiled as I began to eat “These are good tia.”

“Thank you, my sunshine.”

Luna smiled at Celestia's name for me “So I see that my sister has grown very affectionate for you since you have arrived.”

“Yeah” I replied “And I have too…in a way, we kind of owe you for that. If your dream hadn’t forced us to show our hands…I don’t know what would happen”

“I’m sure that you and my sister would have fallen In love.”

“Yeah, but I wouldn’t have been able to have sex with her when I did if it wasn’t for that boost.”

I heard Celestia gasp and I felt I wing smack the back of my head and I heard Luna stifle a laugh

“I deserved that.”

“And now I’m not going to go easy on you in training” Celestia finished with a smile

“aaaannnd I deserve that too.” I replied, and all three of us broke into laughter.

When our laughter died down, we finished our meals, and the staff began to clean the plates as the readied the kitchen for the days cooking. Celestia and I made our way out of the castle, and into purple and white three-story building that had three towers coming out of it. the way the center one was attached to the school, actually made it look like a wizard’s hat. As we walked in, the building itself was almost empty save for a few staff ponies walking around. I looked to my watch and I saw that it was already 0730. “Tia, when is school starting?”

Celestia sat down at a desk and began to go through some papers “In about fifteen minutes. I’ll have you go hide in a side room while the students arrive so they aren’t late to class.”

I walked up to Celestia and stood by her “Ok. But I'm only going in there at the last minute. I don’t want to be away from you for long.”

Tia looked to me and smiled “I love you too john…….just remember, do try not to scare my students.”

“I’ll try” I replied “Oh, and before I forget, could you find a safe place for these?” I took off my guns and swords and placed them on tias desk

“Yes I do.” she replied, and with a flash, my weapons disappeared “I have teleported them to a safe in our closet that only you, me, and my sister can access.”

“Thank you tia, now I don’t have to worry about some kid trying to take them.”

Celestia giggled “Yes, I would never hear the end of it from the EEA and parents if they did. I’m sure that I will be receiving a visit from Chancellor Neighsay sometime today anyway.”

“Why? And can't you just tell him to relax?”

Celestia sighed “I can try, but when it comes to schools, unfortunately, I do have to listen to the EEA, and I don’t know if the chancellor with like you.”

I leaned in close and placed a kiss on Celestia lips “Don’t worry, I’ll make sure that he doesn’t shut you down. Besides, I don’t think I need my weapon anyway.”

“And if you need them, all it will take is a simple spell.” Celestia finished as she placed a kiss on my cheek. “Now run along, students will be arriving soon.” And with that I quickly ducked out of the room and into the room across from it. from the looks of it, it was a teachers lounge.From my location, I heard the sound of hoofsteps and the voices of kids as they entered the hall. I didn’t know how long it would take for Tia to come and get me, so I sat down in one of the chairs and let my mind wander. I began to think of how far my relationship with tia had come. From first meeting her to now. She makes me feel like I deserve to live. Between her and her sister, my depression is almost gone. I feel like I finally have a place where I belong. I love her so much. But I don’t know what to do? and the fact that she wants to spend forever with me…what if I mess up? What if she doesn’t want to marry me?.......I’m such a coward I buried my face in my hands “Oh…what am I going to do tia?”

As I finished speaking I hear some murmurs and Celestia clear her throat behind me “Well maybe you should introduce yourself to the class.”

I lifted my head up and say I was no longer in the lounge, but instead I was back in Celestia’s classroom, and it was filled with fillies and colts, as well as a pony with a white coat and black hair with a red robe on who was just sitting there glaring at me “Oh…you teleported me…..Well then, morning everyone, my names John, and as you can see, I’m a human.”

One of the fillies in the front row cut in “And you’re the princesses coltfriend?”

I looked back to Celestia with a look of shock “How did she know that?”

Celestia rolled her eyes “Tabloids my sunshine.”

“Figures.” I replied before I looked back to the class “Yep, I’m her coltfriend. But I’m also her personal guard.”

A blue colt raised his hoof up and asked “If you’re her guard, then why aren’t you wearing any armor?”

I smiled “Actually, I am” I took off my vest and pulled out the metal plate from its pouch “Mine is just hidden.”

I raised up the plate for the class to see which earned a few ‘oohs’ and ‘ahs’ from the kids, as well as an eyebrow raise from the stallion in back as he began to write something. I put my plate back in my vest and put it back on “So, any other questions?”

Celestia smiled “Actually yes, I had my class prepare a few for you.”

“Ok, well then question away.” I said

I saw smiles on all the kids faces. It felt good to see them smile, I think I know now why tia teaches. Anyway, the question started. The first one came from a grey unicorn filly

“Where do you come from?”

“Good question. I come from a world called Earth. It’s definitely not a peaceful as equestrian, and there’s also no magic there.”

That earned me a few gasps from the students as the young filly who asked the question asked “No magic?”

I shook my head “Nope, but what we lack in magical ability, we make up for in ingenuity. On earth there are many amazing machines that allow us to do things like travel long distances quickly, or fly.” I smiled as I pulled out my phone “And devices like this allow us to communicate instantly back and forth all over the world, or even listen to music.”

Again, I saw the stallion in the back begin to furiously scribble on his paper, and the foals kept asking me questions. What they asked varied from my favorite food, or color, to what I would want to do if I wasn’t tias guard, and as I answered them all, the stallion in the back kept scribbling away. I did what I could to ignore him, I was here for tia and I guess for her students as well. I mean most of the questions were easy and typical of what you’d expect from young kids, but is was the last question from a light blue pegasus colt that made me freeze “Are you going to marry Princess Celestia?”

I quickly looked back to Celestia who had covered her face with her wings. I looked back to the students with a slight blush of my own as I scratched the back of my head “I…uh…wow…that’s…definitely a good question….uh…..well………as I guess everypony knows, I’m in love with Celestia…..and I do think that it is possible that, in the future, I may marry her.”

The entire class smiled and broke out into a collective “oooh” I swear they would probably have started singing the kissing song, but Celestia stepped in

“Thank you, my faithful students for such wonderful questions. and what do we say to our guest?”

The class all spoke at the same time “Thank you.”

Just when I thought that all the questions were finished, the stallion who was hiding in the back stepped forward “How do we know that you have the kingdoms best interests in heart. How do the ponies of Equestria know that having you near our beloved princess, won’t cause any damage? How do we know that you won’t destroy our world if left to your own devices?”

Celestia stepped forward and began to speak “Chancellor you have no right to-”

I put my hand in front of tia as I chuckled “I was wondering when you were gonna speak up.”

Celestia whispered in my ear “John, you don’t have to answer his questions,I can dismiss him if you want.”

I looked to tia “Don’t worry my beautiful princess, I wont do anything dumb.” I looked back to the chancellor “That’s actually a good question. You see I can understand why you asked it. fact of the matter is, you and the rest of the nobility are scared of me, or just don’t like me. and while I honestly don’t care, I am going to try to put out the metaphorical fires here for not only my own benefit, but Celestia's as well. You see, your just gonna have to trust me. Let me ask you this, I’ve been here for almost a two weeks now, and as you no doubt know, I weapons and equipment are far superior to anything this world has seen, AND I spend all day by the princess’s side. So, if I was aiming to hurt your world, wouldn’t I have done something by now? Wouldn’t I have taken out your leadership? and I think that Tia as well as some of the nobility can agree that having me around offers a new way of looking at things, because the simple answer is, I’m not a bureaucrat. And as for the ruling, trust me you’re not the only one hoping that I don’t get stuck with that. BUT, if in the unlikely event that that does happen, aside from some advice from Celestia and Luna, I would hope that those under me with far more experience would offer me a hand-er-hoof in assistance.”

The chancellor took down some more notes “I see.” he then looked to Celestia “Princess, you will have my report by the days end.” and with that he opened up a doctor strange style portal and stepped through it before it closed. As he left, the bell rang, and the students all left the classroom leaving me and Celestia alone.

“Well he was fun.” I sarcastically remarked.

Celestia stepped away from her desk as I sat down on one “Yes, I’m sorry about the Chancellor. But as the head of the Equestrian Education Association, he need to make sure that the students academic futures are protected.”

“its ok, though from what I’ve seen, he may be a tad bit on the racist side...though I’ve only just met the guy...I just hope that I gave him a satisfactory answer. The last thing I need is the noble in charge of schools pissed off at me.”

“The nobility will come around to you eventually my sunshine” Celestia smiled as she put her wing around me “Now come along. It’s time for your combat training. And if I recall, I still have yet to get you back for your comment during breakfast.”

I sighed as I began to walk with her “Ah yes…that” I was going to get a ‘royal’ ass whopping. “Perhaps you could go a little easier on me?”

“And just would I do that?”

“I was thinking a massage?” I replied with a small smile

“Hmmm” Celestia stopped and tapped her chin with her hoof “I believe that that would be reasonable. I haven’t had a massage in ages”. I let out a sigh of relief which caused tia to giggle before she spoke again “Now come along, I don’t want to be late for our reservation in the sparing room.”

“You had to reserve a place for us to fight?” I asked

“Yes, there are a few sparring rooms in the castle. The problem is that they are usually used by the guards, however I was able to get one reserved for us. That way your ego won't be too bruised when I kick your flank.”

“I thought you said that I was a capable warrior.” I replied as we entered the castle

“You are, but your technique needs work…and you need a fighting style aside from the sloppy one that you already use.”

Eventually, we reached the sparring room and inside was a decent number of weapons and gear, but on a pedestal inside the room was two sets of armor, one black, and one gold. Celestia lifted them both up and floated the black set over to me, and I noticed that it was designed for human use “I had the guard deliver our armor to this room for us.”

I grabbed the armor from her magic and looked it over “Where did you find all this?”

Celestia smiled as she walked behind a cover “From the same place I got the journals of Starswirl. Now put it on, I want to make sure that your safe.”

I sighed and began to put on the bulky pieces of metal. When all was said and done, I looked like one of the knights of old “I don’t know how I feel about this tia, I mean it’s definitely not what I’m used to. Are you sure this stuff won't hinder my fighting capabilities?”

“Oh im sure” Celestia replied as she walked out from behind the cover with her armor on, and I'm not gonna lie, in full gold armor, she looked pretty damn hot. Starting with her helm, it was gold, and had a crown attached to it, along with a blade of sorts in front of her horn. The helm came down the sides and front of her face and snout, leaving her eyes, and mouth open, with her ears somewhat protected behind her crown and her hair tied up in a ponytail behind it. The armor moved up her neck where the armor covered the side and back of her neck as well as most of the front, but it was spaced so she could still move her neck and head around. Moving down to her body, the armor itself was set on top of some kind of brown fabric, which I guess made it more comfortable or something, and on the front of it, was a purple gem attached to a small shield to protect her front and chest. Moving back, the armor covered her body very well, including her underside, as well as the tops of her wings, which looked to have blades on them as well. On her feet, she wore what were almost boots. But they were basically her normal shoes, but they went up almost half way up her lag and they had the brown fabric on the back of it. and in her magical grasp, was what looked to be a mix between an axe and a spear. I just stood there dumbstruck as Celestia floated two swords over to me. “Like what you see?”

I smiled as I put on my own helmet and grabbed the swords from her magical grasp “Sexy, and a talented fighter, you really are the perfect girlfriend.”

Celestia made a mock pout “And I wasn’t before.”

“yes you were-I mean-I-you-I….”

Celestia began to giggle at my rambling “Relax my sunshine, I was merely joking”

“Oh…right…oops.” I keep forgetting that Celestia has a bit of a mischievous side to her

Celestia raised up her weapon “So, let’s start off with a quick spar so I can assess your skills and technique.”

“Uhh, shouldn’t we be using wood or something like that to prevent injury?” I asked

“Don’t worry my love, the swords have been dulled so they will not cause injury.” Celestia replied, and a half second after she did, she took a swing at me, which I only dodged by an inch

I looked to Celestia “So it’s going to be like that.”

“You must expect the unexpected dear, your opponent may not fight fairly.” Celestia replied

“That’s okay” I charged right into Celestia and swung at her with my right sword and nicked the underside of her armor “I usually don’t either.”

My strike caught Celestia off guard, but she quickly regained her composure and the base of her weapon slammed into my chest pushing me back as she went on the offensive. I did what I could to keep myself in close, but every time I did, she would use the pommel of her axe to push me back so she could swing at me. I needed to think of something fast or I was going to lose the fight. I backed off and dropped one sword as my hand went for where my pistol was supposed to be, but I remembered that I had no guns. And since I wasn’t going to be able to pick my sword back up, I was now just down to one sword. Celestia was good at this, I needed to do something fast though. With no options left, I ran at her again, but she already anticipated a charge as she lowered her axe to hit me dead center, but as I got near it, I slid under her strike and before I got under her where she could easily lay down and pin me, I jumped up right into her chest plate and try to hit her neck. But my warrior princess was fast, before I could put the blade to her neck, she regained her composure from the body slam. Before I knew it, her magic grabbed hold of me and dragged me up into the air, upside down. In front of her. She quickly smiled at me before dropping me onto the ground and tapping my head with her axe “I win.”

I got up and dusted myself off “So how’d I do?”

Celestia took off her helmet and kissed my cheek “Not too bad, you seemed to recognize that you needed to be close to me in order to keep me from using the bladed end of my weapon.”

“But you are better than me and were able to push me back and even then you probably could have used your horn or wing blades to hit me up close.” I replied “….and was the drop really necessary?”

Celestia smiled slyly ay me “Would have preferred that I buck you? And yes, you are right, but I figured that I would go easy on you”

I sighed “So what was I doing wrong?”

“Well mind you, that swords aren’t my forte, but I can tell you that dual-wielding, while effective on offense, removes almost all of your defensive capabilities”

“So what would you recommend?”

Celestia smiled as she levitated a shield over to me “A sword and a shield go well together, you can attack, and defend, and even use the shield to knock opponents off their feet, but I would suggest keeping your shield at somewhat of an angle so that it increases its effective armor and will allow you better block attacks with less force so your arm does not tire.”

I put the shield on my arm and moved it around a bit “Ill try it.” I said “But what about the Hoof to hoof combat part?”

Celestia sighed “To be honest my dear, I wouldn’t know how to teach you. Ponies are very different from humans. I wouldn’t know where to begin on teaching you for that, but from what I have seen, with some practice you will be quite capable” She took her helmet off and lifted mine off my head with her magic “And I don’t want to hurt you my love.” She placed another kiss on my lips “My handsome warrior.”

I smiled and kissed back “My beautiful princess.”

Celestia let go of me and I felt her tail wrap around my neck “You know, you look quite handsome in that armor.” Celestia replied

“Meh, I prefer my normal gear over this.” it took me a second, but I realized that her voice had turned into a sultry purr, and as I did, I froze up.

Celestia giggled as she picked me up in her magic, took the armor off me, then set me down. “Relax John, I'm only joking.”

“Oh….right….I keep forgetting about your sense of humor.” I replied

“Well can you blame me?” Celestia asked “You don’t exactly make it difficult for me.”

I scratched the back of my head “I guess it’s because I’m still getting used to be in a relationship.”

Celestia nodded “I understand, the last fourteen days have been a stark difference from your life back on your old world.”

“Yeah” I replied “I may have lost Airsoft and most meats, but in exchange for that, I got you and your love. And I wouldn’t trade anything for that.”

Celestia smiled at me and I saw her hoof go to her face to cover up a blush. “John, would you come with me to the Grand Galloping Gala?”

“Are….Are you sure?” I asked

“Yes, there is no pony else I would rather go with than you. For me, the gala is not what it used to be, but with you by my side, I’m sure that it will be a night to remember.”

“But I don’t even know how to dance.” I replied

“I can teach you.”

“You can?”

Celestia smiled “Yes, anything from classical to the tango.”

“You really are the perfect girlfriend.”

Celestia walked up and nuzzled my cheek “And you are the perfect boyfriend.”

I shook my head “I’m not. I’m far from perfect. You des-”

I was cut off as Celestia put her hoof to my lips “Hush. You are perfect to me john. You are now and always will be my sunshine.”

I brought my hand up and gently caressed her jaw before placing a kiss on her lips “And you will always be my beautiful princess.”

Celestia smiled and let out a sigh of relief as my fingers ran through her mane. I smiled back, and as I moved my hands away, she began to pout “Why did you stop?”

“Because you still have to teach me, and besides I did say I was going to give you a massage later.”

“Ah yes, I almost forgot about that” She replied “Wait here a moment” and with a flash of gold, she teleported away. I leaned against the wall and waited. I was still in a bit of disbelief that tia had asked me to the gala. Me, a dumb, violent, useless, monster. The nobles are right about me. I don’t belong in the castle. Not as I am. I stood back up and looked to the swords in the rack in the corner. As I did I heard Daybreaker’s words in my head over and over again. Daybreaker was right too. Celestia deserves better than me. I walked to the swords. They were right, all of them…I needed to go.

My hand reached out for the sword, and just as my fingers touched it, there was a flash of light behind me. I spun around to see that Celestia had teleported back into the room, and that her standard jewelry had been swapped out for a sparkling red dress, with matching eye shadow, and in her mouth, she held a rose. She floated the rose into her hair and looked at me “John, what were you doing?”

I quickly pulled my hand away from the sword and turned to Celestia, “Getting a sword to practice while I waited” I quickly replied

Celestia frowned at me “Don’t lie to me. What were you doing?” her tone had become more stern than usual. She wanted the truth.

“They’re right, all of them” I replied “I don’t belong here, I don’t deserve you. I’m a violent monster with no place in this world.” I just kept looking down at the ground. I couldn’t look Celestia in the eyes. “I was going to take care of myself”

Celestia's horn glowed and all the weapons and armor in the room disappeared “you will no longer have access to weapons until I say otherwise”

I just nodded

Celestia walked away “I….I need some time alone.” And with a flash, she left. I walked back to my old room, and I locked myself in it. I had ruined the best thing that ever happened to me. I had lost the one woman that would ever love me, and it was my fault. With tears in my eyes, I went to the balcony doors, but they were locked. Tia had thought of everything. So I closed the blinds, went to the darkest corner of the room, and I cried.

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Greetings everypony, I am Princess Celestia. I will be taking over in this journal for a bit, as I feel that my perspective also need to be given in this story

I Teleported into my room, and I instantly knew what I needed to do. John wanted to dance, and I had just the dance in mind. The tango. I went into my closet, and picked out a nice red outfit, and quickly donned it as well as some makeup and a rose. I wanted to try to get that cute little dumbfounded look on his face that he gets whenever I do something like this. But when I teleported back into the room, I saw John, my sunshine, reaching for a sword. He quickly spun around, and as he did, I saw that he had a look in his eye. The look of one who was about to die. “John, what were you doing?”

He looked to me quickly and replied “Getting a sword to practice while I waited.”

I knew he was lying. How could he? I felt my anger and sadness growing “Don’t lie to me. What were you doing?”

“They’re right, all of them…I don’t belong here, I don’t deserve you. I’m a violent monster with no place in this world.” He looked down and I saw he was on the verge of tears “I was going to take care of myself”

He…he was going to kill himself. Upon hearing what he was going to do, I was filled with a mix of shock, anger, fear, and sadness. I did the only thing I could do. I teleported everything In the room away. “You will no longer have access to weapons until I say otherwise.”

John didn’t even reply. He just kept his head down and nodded

I shook my head and walked to the door “I….I need some time alone.” And with a quick teleportation spell, I was gone, and in my sisters room “Luna, wake up!”

My sister snapped awake and into a battle stance “What is wrong sister? An attack?...wait…why are you dressed like that?”

I couldn’t hold it in any longer. I grabbed my sister, held her close, and began to cry.

In response, Luna did what she could to calm my sobs. She rubbed my back, and when I had calmed enough to speak, she began to question me “What is wrong dear sister?”

I wiped tears from my eyes “Johnathan tried to kill himself.”

“HE WHAT! Why?”

“He said that It’s because he doesn’t deserve love, that the nobility and Daybreaker were right about him.” I replied

Luna stamped her hoof “That’s preposterous! Where is John! How dare he do that to you!”

I grabbed luna “Don’t…I will handle it….Im so angry at him…but I love him so much…I don’t want him to die.”

“Nor do I sister, Johnathan is a good friend.”

“I love him Luna. He’s more than just a friend to me…He is the man that I want to spend all of eternity with.”

“I know Celly…that is why you must put your feelings of anger aside and go to him. Tell him how you feel about this, and give him the power to crush his tantivis once and for all, just like he did with yours.”

I nodded “I agree. We must find him.” I stood up but my sister put her hoof on my back

“You may want to fix your makeup first.”

I shook my head “No, I need to find him” and with that, I ran out of her room and to the sparing room and kicked in the doors “JOHN!” there was no response, the room was empty. I began to worry, where could he have gone? I began to search the castle grounds, but he wasn’t in the garden, and the guards hadn’t seen him. I then took to the skies in hopes of finding him, but he was not at the top of the castle or on the edge of the cliff. I returned to my room and searched there, but there was no sign of him. By this point, an hour had transpired, and I was beginning to really worry. I couldn’t lose him. I couldn’t lose the man that I loved. I had to find him. I picked up one of his shirts and I held it close to me. “I love you so much John.” And as I held his shirt to me, I had an idea. I could use a scrying spell to find him. As I cast the spell, his shirt began to glow, and I began to see his location and him. He was in his old room. Alone and in the dark. Through the gaze of the spell, I could hear his sobs. I immediately dissipated the spell and teleported into the room. Just like what I saw in the spell, it was dark, and the man that I loved was curled up in the corner, crying in defeat. I don’t know if he heard ,me, but he did not move. I slowly walked up to him and placed my hoof on him “Johnathan?” he turned away from me to face the wall

“Just leave me.” he replied

I said nothing. All I did was lay down next to him and placed my wing around him. “I don’t want you to die Johnathan. I want to spend eternity with you.”

“But…But you deserve better than me. the nobles are right about me...Daybreaker was right about me.”

“No they are not my sunshine.” I replied

I was going to kiss him, but before I could, the balcony doors opened and my sister walked in and placed her wing around him as well “Nor will they ever be.”

He looked over to where my sister's voice had come from “Luna? Why are you here?”

“Because I care for you as well. Because my sister cares for you. You mean a lot to us. You are in a sense, a member of our family.”

“I'm not. Nor do I deserve to be. Just leave me here to starve and die.” he replied

Luna walked up and laid down next to him and put her wing on his side. “Well that’s too bad, because by declaring your love for my sister, and by her declaring her love for you, you have become a member of the royal family.”

I stroked johns back with my hoof “Please John, your more than just a guard. You’re the man that I love. You’re the man that I want to spend eternity with, and I’m the mare that you want to spend eternity with……please John….before I meet you, I was so alone. I had no pony to love…I watched my friends and family find their husbands or wives, all while I stood by and wondered if I would ever get the same chance…you are my chance…You are my one.”

He turned to me and I saw tears on his face. “Why?...I mean look at me. Im dumb, violent, useless…I’m everything wrong with the world. You are a beautiful princess, one who is kind, compassionate, loyal, honest, generous, funny….you deserve so much better than me. You deserve the man of your dreams.”

Luna cut in “John, YOU, are the man of her dreams.”

“And you always will be” I stated. And as I did, I laid my head down on him. “Besides, without you, who would I have for a pillow at night?” He gave a weak chuckle at that. He tried to sand up, but I kept holding onto him. “You cannot escape my love.”

Luna slowly stood up and smiled “Now my dear sister is going to lay here with you and smother you with her love until your depression and suicidal thoughts are gone. Then we will work together tonight in your dreams to fully eradicate it. Depression has angered the wrong family. I shall see you tonight…Brother.” And with that my sister walked out of the room.

John raised his head and spoke “Did she just say brother?”

I smiled “Yes. You are a member of the royal family like she said. You are my lover.” I giggled a bit “And now her little brother.”

He sighed “You two aren’t going to give up on me are you?”

“No” I replied “…..and John…..I’m sorry for what I said in the training room…I don’t want to separate from you…I just want you to be safe and happy. I hate watching this depression control you. I hate seeing you sad like this. I makes me feel like I don’t matter…like I’m going to lose you…like I’m powerless to save the man I love….I hate feeling powerless. I’m an alicorn princess, I have all the power in the world, yet it doesn’t seem enough to protect you.” I held him tighter as tears began to resurface “I can’t lose you.”

He slowly turned around to face me, there was still tears in his eyes as well. He then put his arms around me, and buried his face in my chest “I”m so sorry tia”

As he did so, I rested my head on his shoulders and my own tears began to flow. We held each other like that for some time. Eventually, we both calmed down and john stood up “So what now?”

I looked to the clock on the wall. It was about 6:30 “Well I have another hour at least before I need to lower the sun. Like my sister said, tonight we will be venturing into your psyche to crush your depression once and for all. I know that we won't see an overnight change, but confirming that we will always be there for you will go a long way in your recovery.”

“So what should we do with our time before then?” he asked

“Well if I do recall, yo do still owe me a dance” I replied as I used my magic to make a quick make up kit appear so I could fix what had been ruined by my tears, before making the kit disappear and making a rose appear in its place before putting it in my mouth.

“But I can’t da-” John started to reply, but he was swiftly stopped when my magic enveloped him and he began to dance the flamingo with me. the two of us danced to an unheard beat, and as we did, John began to smile. Our movements quickened and grew livelier, and what he didn’t notice was that as we danced, I no longer held him in my magic, we were dancing together under our own power. We finished with me leaning down and John holding me. I removed the rose from my mouth and placed it in my hair as I spoke

“That was fun, your almost a natural my sunshine.”

“I was Okay I guess, but it was you who was doing all the work.” he replied

“Actually, the last half of the dance was all you.”

“Really?”

“Yes, and I’m sure that if you can flamingo, you can definitely handle the slow dancing at the gala in twenty days.”

“I should probably start planning security for-”

“No, you are relieved of your duties until I can be sure that you won't harm yourself”

“But-”

I put my wing to his lips as I spoke firmly “No buts. Until I can be sure that your depression is gone, I will not have you working or even looking at weapons.”

He sighed knowing that I was right “I understand.”

I looked to the clock and saw that it was seven, and I began to hear the pleas of my stomach for sustenance. “Come, let's go to the kitchen for a quick bite. Im sure that you must been hungry or thirsty.” I put my wing around John and we walked to the kitchen. After a quick bite to eat, we retired back to our chambers, where, once in bed, I placed my legs and wings around Johnathan before pulling the covers over us. “Goodnight my handsome warrior.”

John let out a sigh of relief as he rested his head on my chest “Goodnight my beautiful princess”