Hold On

- Hours later -

~ Em~

I slowly open my eyes, exhausted somehow still. Soon, memories from earlier flash through my mind only lasting seconds like in a movie.

"Em, you're awake!" Someone said happily.

I get snapped out of my trance to see Rainbow kneeling by my side with a goofy smile on her dumb but pretty face. I almost wanna smile, but I don't.

I yelp in surprise and sit up completely, moving to the far side of the couch. Rainbow has a sorry look in her eyes.

"E-Em, it's okay it's only me, Rainbow. You kinda had a bit of a freak out a few hours ago..." She softly spoke inching closer to me.

"I-I..-" I wanted to speak, but I froze of fear from seeing memories from earlier flow through my mind. Was I trying to get away from Rainbow?.. But no wait, it was my mom? Then I remember my vision going fuzzy an then.. Lights out.

"Em?" Rainbow snapped her fingers.

"T-tell me what happened... A-after I, ye know.." I may have already known what happened before, I just want to know what she did after I passed out.

"W-well once you fainted I caught you and just laid you on the couch and waited until you would wake up..." She said easily.

I just looked down at the floor feeling guilty that I put her through that. It was my pain, not hers, but I was stupid and useless enough to bring her into my curse.

"Em" she snapped her fingers again. I need to stop spacing out.

"W-what" I said, making eye contact to the muscular girl.

"If you don't mind me asking, what exactly happened?" She asked while cautiously sitting on the couch where I once laid.

"W-what do you mean..?" I asked stupidly.

"Why were you so scared? Why'd you panic like I was some monster or something?" She never broke contact.

She's so nosy. But yet, maybe she's just curious.

"I can't t-tell you" I replied, still avoiding her gaze.

"Why not?" She asked.

"Because I just can't" I said sternly.

"Do you not trust me?" She asked.

"Can we not talk about this right now, please?" I let out a big sigh and drooped.

Rainbow nodded in agreement.

"Um... C-can I just ask you... One question?" She spoke, a bit differently. As if she would know the answer to the question already.

I only looked at her.

"W-why um... Do you have those... Big b-bruises on your stomach..?" She spoke carefully and sorrowfully.

My eyes widened and instantly my arm went delicately over my stomach to cover it as if I were to hide what was hidden under my shirt.

"H-how do you know about those?" I spoke with fear but yet a hint of anger in my tone.

The tension grew.

"W-well when u passed out I put you on the couch and I guess when I laid you down your shirt rolled up a bit... Or at least enough that I could see a part of one of the bruises" she replied still in a sorrowful tone.

I want to yell so much at her, I want to let out all my anger and blame her for everything that's been going on, but it's not her fault. I only want to blame someone else because I know I'm the one to truly blame. If I wasn't such a fuck up then none of this would be happening.

I sigh and pull my knees to my chest and burry my head in my hands.

"I-I'm s-sorry Rainbow" I softly cried.

She moved closer to me in worry.

"Em, what on earth are you sorry for?" She asked wrapping an arm around me, trying to comfort me.

I broke into tears and hugged her, clutching her shirt, getting my pathetic tears all over her chest.

She said nothing, just rubbed soothing circles on my back letting me cry.

Maybe she's not such a bad girl after all.

~ Rainbow~

God, how could someone be so miserable? How could someone be so broken? Nobody deserves this, especially Em.

Em had laid in my arms weeping, my shirt soaked but I could care less. But now, she peacefully sleeps. Poor thing cried herself to sleep. I wish I could help her, but she's not telling me what's wrong. I already know she has panic attacks and a form of depression by how she talks and sees things but there's gotta be something else.

It's late now. I check my phone.

[9:08pm]

"At least it's a Friday" I thought. I'm sure her parents won't mind if she sleeps here for the night.

I put my phone down and carefully and quietly lift Em up and carry her bridal style to my bedroom.

I lay her down in my bed and pull the covers over her. She's so cute when she sleeps. I smile. I have the sudden urge to kiss her forehead but just to be safe, I don't.

I grab a pillow and blanket and head back downstairs to the couch.

I need to find out her story tomorrow.