The Death of Starlight Glimmer

Pain was all I felt. The mental agony was strong, too strong for me to combat and get rid of. The scars I gave myself eased my pain, but it didn't ease all of my pain. I was angry at myself for failing at friendship. I knew that Twilight would have hated me if she knew.

You're a failure, Starlight. My thoughts ate up at me and I cried myself to sleep for the 30th time. I was hurt mentally and physically. My scars ached as I poorly stitched them. I refused to see a doctor. I didn't want anyone knowing about this. But, the pain only increased as I whimpered and cried. I wanted my pain to end, but I knew that I would have to see Twilight soon. She probably thinks that I'm worthless. I fell asleep, ready to face Twilight and the others the next day. The day was hopefully happy.

The next day was surprising. Twilight was worried about me. "I haven't heard from you in ages. I thought something was wrong. I'm so glad you're alright!" Twilight tearfully cried, hugging me tightly. My scars cried out from the pain, but I didn't care about them. I felt blood trickling down and I reacted in a calm way.

"I'm sorry, but you're hugging me too tight." I replied calmly. Twilight released me immediately. I knew she wouldn't see through my eyes. My soul was damaged. Princess Luna probably knew about my recurring nightmares, but I drug myself to sleep nicely at night. It was only twice however, so she probably thinks that they are over. I didn't care about me anymore, I cared about my scars and how it was great to ease my pain. Tonight will be the night. I thought with nothing running through my body. Twilight and the others talked about their days and I talked about mine with lies with between them. I was Trixie and I immediately felt something. It was regret. I didn't want to leave my friends alone, but it was better if I was gone. I decided to spend the day with Trixie to help ease my guilt. But, spending the day with her still didn't ease my guilt as I thought it would. Trixie didn't speak much, which was very surprising. I guess she knew that I needed the peace and quiet.

Trixie broke the silence soon, however. "I'm sorry about everything." Trixie tells me. At first, I didn't understand, but then I did. She was apologizing about making me very angry to leak magic out of my horn, making me cry, just everything that went wrong in our friendship. However, I was the one who was supposed to be apologizing to her. I thought she was mocking me, but then, I realized that Trixie would never do that to me. Sure, she'll do that to other ponies, but not once had she ever done it to me.

"You don't need to apologize. I need to apologize to you, Trixie. You were the greatest best friend a mare like me could ever ask for. You don't deserve me as your best friend, Trixie." After that, everything went silent. Hell, I couldn't even hear my own thoughts at the moment.

After we separated, my thoughts came back to abuse me. Wow, she probably hates you. Yeah, she should have just spit in your face and call it a day. No one cares about you, Starlight. You were never a good pony. Maybe you go back to ruling your village or maybe let them kill you. My thoughts were on a rampage and I didn't bother stopping them. I just let them come.