Dear journal,

This is the first entry in the autobiography of Aza. That's me. Well, I wasn't born with that name, but that will be covered in this story. My wife, Moondancer, will be keeping me from stretching the truth. This won't be a complete recollection of my life, but a recollection of my pony life. Again, it will be covered in this story. So now that you're somewhat prepared for the story, let's begin with when I woke up in the hospital.

My first thought after waking up was, 'Where am I?'. My second thought was 'Ow', because I had a splitting headache and thinking actually hurt. Looking around, I saw that I was in a hospital room. I tried to get out of the bed and landed right on my face. "Owwww," I groaned. My failed attempt attracted the attention of the nurse next door, who used her magic to help me back into my bed. "Thanks," I said as I rubbed my hurt nose.

"How are you feeling?" she asked with a caring smile.

"Other then the headache, I think I'm fine"

"That's good. If you think you're up to it, I need to ask you some questions"

"Go ahead," I said as I took in her features. She had a white coat with a red plus as her cutie mark. Her mane and tail were bright red, matching her cutie mark, and a nurse's hat on her head.

"Okay, first, what is your name?"

"Oh, It's..." I pause here as I tried to remember my name. "My name is..." At this point, I was starting to panic. "I don't know my own name," I whispered before repeating it again louder. I started to breathe rapidly and my panic must have been clear on my face, cause the next thing I know, the nurse pulls me into a hug. After a while, I finally calmed down and let the nurse continue the questioning. Most of my answers were "I don't know".

"Okay, there is just one last thing to do. Because you can't remember anything, I need to take some blood. I need it to see if you have any living relatives that can take care of you. If no matches are found, you will be taken to Canterlot Orphanage as soon as you're given a clean bill of health," she said as she prepared for the blood extraction. The last thing she said before she left me alone was, "I'm sorry". I didn't respond to her. I just placed my head on the hospital pillow and closed my eyes, praying that when I woke up, this will end up just being a nightmare. Unfortunately, this was real life and I was reminded of that fact when the nurse woke me up. "I'm afraid that there weren't any matches".

"That's fine," I said with a chuckle. This turned into full blown laughter. Even though there was a smile on my face and I was laughing, contradicting tears still fell on the bed. My laughter got caught in my now sore throat when the nurse wrapped me up in a hug. My walls broke at that point and I began freely crying into her shoulder. (If you are questioning my actions, I was young at that time, around eight. So imagine a eight year old being told that he's all alone in this world. Place this on top of having amnesia and you try remaining calm) After a mandatory physical and signing me up for therapy when I showed trouble walking, the nurse placed me in a wheelchair and led me to the orphanage that would be my home after the therapy. The matron was a kind elderly mare and children were nice too. However, I didn't want to go there because it, at least to me, meant that I accepted that I'm alone and that terrifies me. Not accepting the truth, but the idea of being alone.

It've been two years since I woke up and several things happened. First, I adopted the name, Aza. Second, I got adopted by the kind nurse who help me through my emotional dilemma at the hospital. Her name is Bleeding Heart, awesome name in my opinion, and her cousins, Sweet Heart and Tenderheart, both work in a rural town called Ponyville. Third, I was enroll into Canterlot school. There, I met Moondancer and Twilight Sparkle.

"Class, we have a new student joining us today. Will you please introduce yourself to the class?" said the teacher.

"I'm Aza and can we skip the part where the class ask me questions?" I asked the teacher after introducing myself.

"May I asked why?"

"Didn't Bleeding Heart tell you?" (Back then, I call my adopted mother by her real name because I didn't want to accept that my real mother wasn't there. I eventually started calling her Mom, but enough of this. Back to the story)"I have been diagnosed with amnesia. I can't remember anything before waking up in the hospital".

"I hope you can remember your past soon. I can't imagine how you feeling right now," The teacher said with a kind smile on her face. "Now, where should I place you? I know, why don't you sit next to Twilight Sparkle?" She was about to ask Twilight to raise her hoof, so I can find the correct seat, when she saw me moving toward the correct seat without any help. "Do you know each other?"

"I don't recognized him, Miss Honor Roll," Twilight admitted causing all eyes to turn to me.

"The name sounds familiar, but I don't know why" I said as I sat in my seat. The rest of the day went as expected for a normal school day. At the end, we were told to form groups of three. Of course, people immediately found their friends and formed groups with them. This caused me to be paired up with Twilight and Moondancer. As we worked together, I learned that Twilight was a bit of a perfectionist, stressing over every detail, and that Moondancer looked up to Twilight. We did fight some, mainly because I thought they were too serious and they thought I wasn't serious about this. It was tough at the beginning due to my problem with interacting with new people. I tend to close myself off whenever I am around strangers. I became more open with them as we worked together, so that was just a small hurdle.

"Is this good?" asked Moondancer as she used her magic to move a bright yellow ball.

"About three centimeters to the left," Twilight replied as she looked at the paper in front of her.

"Here?"

"No, that was four centimeters," Twilight replied before looking at me. "How is it proceeding, Aza?"

"It's proceeding just as planned, my fearless leader," I said with a mock salute, causing Twilight to roll her eyes. My job was to write the rough draft for the paper that needed to be turned in along side the project. After I got done with that, Twilight will proof read the paper and make any corrections that are needed. Finally, Moondancer and I will proof read it again to make sure she didn't go overboard. "Do you want to see what I have so far, Twi?"

"What did you say?" Twilight asked with a surprised look on her face.

"Twi. I thought that since we're friends, I would give you a nickname," I said with a smile. "Do you not like it?"

"No, it's fine. Just didn't expect it is all"

"What about me?" asked Moondancer. I placed my hoof on my chin as I thought.

"How about Moony?" I suggested after some thought.

"Moony?" Moondancer repeated. "I like it, but what about you?"

"What about me?" I repeated with a tilted head.

"Your name is so short that I can't think of a nickname for you"

"It doesn't matter to me"

"Are you sure?"

"Yes, now come on, this project isn't going to finish itself," I replied with a smile. I still don't remember my past, but something tells me everything will be alright.

Everything is not alright! First, both Twi and Moony got accepted into Celestia's school for gifted unicorns, with Twi being Celestia's personal student. While, yes, I was proud for them, I was also upset because I wouldn't see them as much. Second, Mom got sick and was unlikely to make a full recovery. Finally, I've been having strange dreams. I know now that they were memories of my life before Equestria, but back then, it was strange, to say the least. When I got the news that my mom passed away, I dealt with it like I do the rest of my pain. I laughed. I probably looked crazy, laughing after being told that my mother was dead, but I couldn't stop. I laugh until my lungs hurt and, even then, I laugh some more. Now, I am dealing with the toughest decision of my life. Do I stay and try and deal with the pain here or do I travel to somewhere else to deal with it. Twi was busy with the Princess, so I couldn't talk to her at all. I stood outside Moony's home and finally decided to knock. "Moony, it's me, Aza"

"Aza?" I heard her call out. "Come in" I decide to follow her instructions and opened her door. I found her picking up a couple pieces of paper with her magic. "Sorry for the mess"

"It's no problem," I said. "Do you want some help?"

"Thank you for the offer, but I think I can handle it," she said with a smile. "So, How can I help you?"

"I'm thinking about leaving Canterlot for a while," I said while looking at the ground. "It's difficult living here, surrounded by memories of my mom"

"Why are you telling me this?" Moony's voice sounded weird. When I looked up from the ground, I saw her with tears in her eyes. Without thinking, I pulled her into a hug.

"This is why," I said softly. "I haven't made my decision yet. I care about you and I don't want my selfish actions to hurt you"

"I want you to stay, but I also want to you to be happy," she said as she looked into my eyes. "If you truly need to leave, then go ahead"

"Moony, are you sure?"

"Just promise me one thing"

"Anything"

"Promise me that you'll return someday," she said before kissing me, catching me off guard. I responded with the most intelligent thing i could think of.

"Huh?" I didn't know what to think. I did have a crush on Moony, but, out of fear of rejection, I buried it. After gaining my wits about me, I properly responded. "I promise. If you want, we can spend the rest of the day together"

"I would love to do that," she said with a pause at the end.

'horse feathers, here comes a but' I thought.

"But I have a lot of work to do for school, sorry"

"It's fine. I'll send a letter regularly," I said before deciding to risk it and kiss her. (I know she already kissed me, but my irrational side was afraid it was just her emotions from me leaving, not true love.) To my relief, she started kissing back. "Something to remember me by"

She smile as she said, "That sounds so cheesy"

My smile didn't fade even as I stepped on the train going to a quaint little town called Ponyville. 'Something tells me things are going to get interesting soon'

I think that this is a good stopping point for now. Next, I'll talk about my time in Ponyville when Twi showed up.
Until Next Time

AZA

Author's Note

finish changing a lot in this chapter. It started with Viper Pit, a loyal reader of story, wanting some more background on the relationship between Twilight, Aza, and Moondancer and it just went from there. hope you enjoyed the changes. If you ever wrote a story, you know how hard it is to get the story to be perfect. the first attempt at this story felt too slow for me, while the second one felt too fast. hopefully the third time's the charm as they say. If you don't like the change or have questions, ask me and i'll answer when i have the opportunity. Have a good day/week/month/year/life