Author's Note

When poison and magic come together it can either be good or very very bad.

Caution: this time not a violance warning this time its a emotional warning

Also a note the "outbrake" is refrearing to the "Rage outbrake" of Midnight Shield it comes from my home language "Wut Ausbruch"

Chapter 20: one is missing

It is now three days ago since my outbreake because of this chancellor Neighsay and its now three days and two nights that I were and still am outside of the Canterlot in a smale cave, ashamed of my outbreak in the presence of Luna and Celestia. "I am just stupid, how could I let my wrath and anger take over my mind?" I ask myself as I looked towards the cave entrance, in the hope no creature finds me. "Now no one wants to see me." and tears flow down my face, "Even Cos has left me and is always in the dreamworld." sitting in a corner of the cave "why did I needed to get such an outbreak? I wish that I could just run away, but where to?" I sayed as I suddenly hear movement coming towards the cave and as I hear the moves I ran over into a corner which is the darkest inside this cave, I closed my left dragon eye and watched towards the cave entracne.

The hoove sounds getting closer until they reached the cave entrance as I saw Raibow Dash and Applejack at the entrance, I only keep quiet and hope that they don't see me. I just can't immagin what will happen if they find me. They entered the cave and Rainbow Dash started to say something. "Hey Applejack, do you think this is the right cave?"

"I don't know, but we should look through that one too." Applejack replied "We need to find her."

"Yeah, I know but do you know why we need to search for her in the first place, or what even happend that she disappeared?" Rainbow asks.

"I don't know but if we have any kind of refferance to where she is we shall report to Twilight, princess Celestia and princess Luna." Applejack replies and they walked through the cave and they were in here a few minutes as they looked around. "Did you find anything?" Applejack asks Rainbow.

"No, let's go to the next cave." Rainbow responds and they both walk outside of the cave, I waited a few minutes and decided to look outside the cave if they both realy went to the next cave.

So I slowly walk to the cave entrance and look into every direction, left, right, up and down, and didn't see any creauter around the cave or nearby, so I go back into the cave and my weak state continued. "Oh no, they are even searching me, I need to stay hidden." I say walking back into the cave to the corner where I hid from Rainbow and Applejack. After a few more hours of self-pitty and crying, Thats when I heard something and I looked towards the entrance, and see how the sun is setting. As I heard something for a secound but then nothing I didn't thought of anything by that, so I turned back and try to calm my mind down, that is when I heard something again but this time it came from the cave entrance and as I looked I saw eight Ponies standing there completly blocking off the entrance. "What but how did they knew I was here?" I thought staying as calm as my state could let it happen and try to hide in the same corner as before,

As I didn't move Luna walks a few steps into the cave, "Midnight Shield, If you are here say something, we don't want to punish you we just want to talk with you. So please say something." I didn't respond in anyway.

"We now what is going on and we want to apologize to you for not talking to you before, we should have known that you needed our help." Celestia adds to it.

"What did you think we would do? Banish you? Never would we do that, to any creature." Twilight says, as all three princesses slowly walked further into the cave, until they stood in the center of the cave. "Would you please come out, we are your friends here, we realy want to help you." Twilight continued trying to reach me. "Please come out... We miss you... we all do." Twilight says as a tear drops down from her face.

I slowly started to talk, but stil try to hide my position. "do-" only came out and all of the ponys looked a bit more happier, but Luna gave a sign to keep calm. "do you promise it?" I got out.

And Luna asks, "What exactly, that we will not banish you, that is a promise. That we are friends, another promise, or what do you want else that we promise?"

"Do you realy miss me? even thought I had my ugly side shown to you?" I ask now looking up and looking with both eyes to the group.

"What do you mean, there wasn't an ugly side of you, it was just you there angry, nothing more. And Yes we all miss you. and if you want to you can take that as promissed too." Celestia responds, thats when I slowly stood up and walk out of the corner, walking slowly and quietly around the three princesses and then from the side slowly walking to Luna with my head hanging down in regret of my behaivior.

As I reached Luna I put my head next to her, inside the dark cave, and sayed, "I am sorry, I am so sorry." while breaking out into tears.

And Luna goes in to lift my head up and giving me a hug. "Everything will be fine, now come let's go home." I nod silently and follow Luna, Celestia and Twilight out of the cave to everypony else and Luna made a sign to stay calm and not try to do anything hectic espacily towards Pinkie Pie, who puts the party tools back into her mane and just nods and we all walk to the canterlot castle, I still sobbing and tears flowing down my face and all the way Luna has wrapped a wing around me.

It took a while until we arrived in Canterlot, it was night already and nearly everypony is home and nearly no one was on the streets so we can walk to the castle without being seen by anypony. We arrive at the castle and everyone went to their rooms except Celestia, Twilight and Luna, well I don't leave Luna's side and we walked towards, the hallway where Lunas and my room are. On the way we see a few guards and servents who are just watching us walking by until we reached the hallway where our rooms are. Thats when we stoped and Luna turns around "Can you two get our visitor here, please, I want to stay with Midnight Shield."

"But of course Sister. We will get him here." Celestia says and leaves with Twilight and then Luna turned back towards me.

"Come let's get into your room." Luna says with a soft and calming smile and we enter. Inside my room Luna took of my armor and my swords with her magic, carefully and puts the armor on the armor stand and the katana's on the katana holder. "Go lay down on the bed, relaxe and calm down, I will stay here and nothing will happen to you." And I do as Luna says and lay down on the bed and Luna stands infront of my bed.

"May I ask you to-" I start but stop myself.

"What do you want to ask? just ask." Luna says with a calming smile.

"Would you hold me?" I ask her.

"Sure." Luna responds and takes of her shoes and comes to me laying down next to me and I lean on Luna's shoulder with my head which calms me even more down.

It took a few minutes where I relaxed that it knocks at my rooms door and Luna just says "Come in." The door opens and Celestia, Twilight and another pony enters the room. "So you brought the visiter, Sister." Luna says.

The other Pony looks towards the bed and sees me leaning onto Luna's shoulder. "I see, you had an outbrake." the stalion says thats when I looked towards the stalion and saw a complet black alicorn standing there.

"Midnight Sword?" I ask, "How did you get here?" I ask somehow getting slowly back to my older self.

"I looked for you but it seems like you need some hlep to return to your older self." Sword says, and looks towards Celestia and then to Luna. "May I help her back to regain her senses?"

"So you are a member of her old squad? then I think it is a good decision for now." Celestia responds.

"Good then, it will only take a few secounds," he says "Hey commander, how are you feeling?" he looks towards me.

"I-I feel go-" I was interrupted by him.

"What was that sorry but because of your stuterring I couldn't hear anything." He says.

"I sayed I feel goo-" and again I was interrupted which makes me slowly angry.

"What I can't hear you." He says.

"IN TARTARUS NAME DON'T INTERRUPT ME!" I yeal now gettin up and walking towards him, slowly turning into my dragon form.

"Oh that's new, but I think I am done now. Welcome back to the living and sane ones." he says giving me a hug.

And I am now totaly confussed, "Ähm What in Tartarus name is going on here, wasn't I just in the throne room, and wasn't there this rude stalion?" I ask.

While I get a hug I look around to look into three confussed faces. "Don't you remeber anything?" Celestia asks.

"No why? oh Ohhh OHHHHH No please don't tell me I had an outbreak." I say now with a stressed look on my face "How long was I broken?"

The stalion stops giving me a hug and takes a few steps backwards. "As far as I know only three days, Thats when they found you and brought you back here." I am speachless right now, they found and brought me back in only three days. Normaly it would take at least two weeks, but they did it in only three days.

I look around and Twilight asks. "Would now some pony mind telling me what happend three days ago?"

Luna stood up and walks to the door, "Surely but to safe time, get the other back together and bring them here." Luna says, and Twilight runs out of the room and Luna turns back and walks towards me, "Is everything fine now?" she asks me.

"Yeah everything fine now, would you mind to tell me now what I did in my broken state?" I ask Luna.

"Sure, well to say it in the short version, you hade a outbreak because of the chancellor Neighsay what was completly understandable, after your sister stoped you, you had a mental break down and first walked to the garden and as we wanted to look for you you were gone, Cos then appeared in the night in the dream world and came to me because your mind was so broken that you couldn't communicate with him anymore, and he told us that you were in a cave but couldn't tell in which one. We searched for every cave near canterlot until Rainbow and Applejack found in a cave a wet ground but there was nothing else wet, so they thought you were in that cave and as they left the cave rainbow used a cloud as cover to look if you would come out of the cave to look, she then saw you reported that to us and we then had the Idea to go to that cave to try and get you back here, what we did, then here I took of your armor and katanas, after that you layed down in the bed and asked me to keep you company what I did and after that he was brought here by Twilight and my sister who then helped you to get out of the broken state." Luna explained to me

"I-I see, I am so ashamed, right now." I say, blushing at that, well dark skin, it's hard to see but it burns in my cheeks.

"You don't need to be ashamed, it happens to the best of us, and if you ever need a shoulder to lean on, just ask." Luna says still having a nice and a calming smile on her face.

"I will, thank you." I say, "But there is still something missing."

"And what is missing?" Luna asks.

"Well a very big, black, guardian, with a blue and a red eye, also he has horns and a big tail." I say as then suddenly he said something.

"Yeah I am back too, and I hope you don't get such an outbrake again because if you could get one I take over and make you go to sleep, I don't like being Ignored." Cos says, "but at least you are back to normal now" Cos wraps me into one of his wings in our mind world.

"Cos I think she got it now." Celestia says and Cos gives me back the controll.

"Thank you all so much for not leaving me alone, for helping me and finding me." I say and walk back into the bed,

"ähm Luna may I ask you to... could you leand me your shoulder again, please?." I say still not completly back to my old self just need some more time.

"Sure." Luna says and walk into the bed too, lays next to me and lets my head rest on her shoulder, until twilight and her firends get into my room and Celestia explained to them what happend, while Luna and I are on the bed resting behind the big veil.

"Well now we need only one more to find then we found your squad." Cos says.

"I know and I need to have a bit of time before we search for my Sister." I respond and rest.