I sat in the Castle waiting for Pinkie to get back with the others. I was thinking about my life in Equestria so far, man 3 years just flies by without me even noticing it. Did I even celebrate my birthdays? Wait, no stop thinking about that, Pinkie might sense it. I was looking out the window just, anticipating the others while I drank a cup of tea. While personally I don't like it without a fuckton of sugar and cream in it, it was passable. Twilight was busy reading a book while sitting on a throne surrounding a table. I don't know why the fuck it's even here, what is it for? Not even the girls know what it's mean to do.

Twilight cleared her throat and I looked at her. "What's up Twifight?"

Twilight's muzzle scrunched up and she huffed. "That's not my name and you know it."

"Okay Twiright, what's on your mind?" I asked her.

"Everypony wants to know why, so I'm not going to ask that. What I will ask is, how?" Twilight said.

"That's really the thing, I don't know. I know why, the why is because I feel enough time has passed since I came here to talk about myself a bit. Will I tell you everything? No, I won't but, that's the great part about being a human. You don't have to share how you feel if you don't want to." I rambled. "How I came to this decision? That's something I'm going to need help figuring out."

"I'm proud of you." Twilight said. "It takes a lot of courage to-"

"That's where I'm going to stop you. Twilight, if you talk about courage I've got it by the fucktons." I interrupted her. "I'm not going to be sharing all my feelings like this is a therapy session, because, quite frankly, I'm a fucking nutcase that's barely functioning."

"Language," Twilight growled, giving me a slight glare.

"Whatever." I drank my tea, still looking out the window. "I don't have all the answers to explain why I do what I do, or even how I do it."

"So...my question could quite possibly never be answered." Twilight pointed out.

"It could or couldn't. It takes time, you never get your answers instantly. Well, not without the internet anyways." I smiled.

"I love the internet." Twilight said. Twilight has repeatedly mentioned that she could take me to a version of earth with everything I was used to. My problem is this, she's an Equestrian that becomes a human. Would I become an Equestrian when I go to the other side of the portal or would I stay a human? Then there's the concept of age, would I be the same age as I am now or a teenager? There's so many things that could go wrong that I don't want to take the risk.

"Have you tried explaining to the girls what exactly the internet is?" I asked Twilight.

"I think it would make their heads explode if I tried." Twilight answered.

I looked back out the window to catch the other girls coming in, I sighed and finished my tea. "Is there anything other than tea that you can offer someone when they're in your house Twilight?"

"Um, well I never thought about that," Twilight said. "Why are you saying this so suddenly?"

"Time to make it seem like we were having a healthy conversation when the girls come in, in 3...2...1..."

The door opened and the rest of the Mane 6 to arrive, Rarity just looked at me and said. "You know, we could hear you outside the door."

I just laughed, "Yeah I did know that."

"Then why did you that then?" Rainbow asked.

"I don't know anymore." I said. "It's like I told Twilight, I'm barely functioning as is. It's time I received some help, and I'm not going to pay some quack hundreds of bits just to explain what words mean what to me. I already know the meaning to words, I need to know the meaning behind my actions. I need to become stable, I've started to write in that journal you gave me Twi."

"That's surprising, when I first gave it to you, you said it was stupid and a waste of your time." Twilight crossed her arms.

"Would you believe me if I said that I don't remember that conversation?" I told her.

"Mickey, what's going on?" Pinkie asked.

"I've...started to lose my grip on reality, I've been hearing things that aren't there. Seeing things out of place, I've been going crazy. I don't think Zecora has to put up with shit like that." I said.

"Language." They all chastised me.

"FUCK OFF!" I unexpectedly roared, I then punished myself by slamming my head on the Cutie Map. "Please, stop telling me about my language. If there's one outlet I NEED, it's my foul mouth. Besides, we're all adults we can handle a little foul language here and there."

"Alright, you have a point darling." Rarity said. "But are you actually sure that you're going insane?"

"I've started to talk to people who aren't there. I keep writing, expecting someone to read it when I know it's just a collection of words on a page that no one will pay attention to." I said.

"So, you're really struggling with staying grounded in reality?" Fluttershy asked.

"Yeah, and don't even THINK about putting me in a mental ward. I'm more than convinced that this is a natural reaction."

"Going crazy is natural?" Rainbow Dash asked. "How?"

"I was in a world where technology was abundant and the planet was dying, killing people was as easy as pulling a trigger. If I needed anything, I got into a machine that makes miniature explosions happen inside of it to transport me places. I then paid large corporations a huge amounts of money for things that I would consume within a few days, only to repeat the process in a week. That was what I was used for, the government was fucked up and corrupt as all hell and yet we still voted after every four years for someone that would either be stupider than balls or try to improve the country and get criticized for it. Nothing was perfect and we accepted things for what it was, people lived and people died, some people died earlier than others thought they were supposed to and insane people, others toted around guns and kill others for stupid reasons. My world was imperfect yet, it was the one I was born in it's the way I accepted life. Imagine how it would feel if I was suddenly picked up from the world I was used to and tossed into a world where things that were dismissed as myth and legend, are now real. Magic is real when I only imagined it to be slight of hand, and it's most powerful form is of all things, friendship. So yeah, I think me having a mental breakdown after 3 years in being in magic pony land is pretty fucking NATURAL!" I slammed my fist on the table. "Despite all of this, I have spurred multiple advances from women that I would feel only take advantage of me for my dick. I also have lived in a forest where everything would either eat me, step on me, or do both." I sat back down, my rant spent and feeling a LOT better.

"I...uh...wow." Twilight could only breathe out. "I guess that having a breakdown would only feel a little natural."

Fluttershy said nothing as she just came up to me and wrapped me in a hug. I couldn't really do much other than return the hug, because sometimes that's all a person really needs. Just when I thought the hug was over, Pinkie hugged Fluttershy, trapping me between their extremely large boobs and made me feel like I was in paradise. I just smiled and closed my eyes as that happened. They knew what they were doing, and pretty soon the others joined in as well, even Rainbow Dash hugged me and it felt nice. It felt like I had finally taken a step in the right direction for a change.

The group hug soon broke up I dropped back down. "That felt, good."

"We're glad it felt good for you, Mickey." Fluttershy said.

I chuckled. "Phrasing, Flutters. Mind your words."

Fluttershy blushed when I said that. The other girls looked at me and Twilight scratched the back of her head. "So you mentioned something else that you may want to start doing?" Twilight blushed as she struggled to get the words out.

"Yes, I want to start dating. I think you girls would be a great fit for me. However, I do have some ground rules."

"Go ahead." Applejack said.

"Rule number one, DO NOT pressure me into anything I don't want to do and I'll return the courtesy. Rule number two, this is going to be slow. Don't expect me to bend you over and take you right here right now. Rule number three, this one is especially important. No means NO! I cannot ever recount how many times a person has been forced into something that they never wanted to do. So to recount, no pressure, no speed, and just no. Understand?"

"Yes." Agreed AJ.

"Okie dokie lokie!" Pinkie said in her usually bubbly voice.

"Alright." Rainbow agreed.

"Of course." Fluttershy nodded.

"Whatever best suits you will be best for us." Twilight said. "We promise that we will respect any request you have, as the Alpha mare I swear to you that this herd will do our absolute best for our stallion."

"Just call me a person, a man is just fine." I said.

"We will do the absolute best for our man." Twilight reiterated.

"Alright then, so where should we go for our first date? Since we're officially dating now. After heat week of course." I said.

"Just give us some time to decide and we'll come up with something incredible." Twilight said.

"I'll hold you to it. But there is something else I wanted to discuss."

"What is it?"

"I want to move to Ponyville." I said.

Author's Note

Cliff Hanger, hanging from a cliff! That's why he's called Cliff Hanger!