[Subject: Ava Incapable of performing logs, compiling subroutines for automated content]
[Searching… Uncatalogued File Detected, Submitting.]

Three… there are not two, there are three lines of memory unique to each other.

One I know is my origin, the pieces of Ava Kane that I am able to scrounge up through external stimulus.

Two I know to be Caroline, who became GLaDOS due to the ambitions of one man, Cave Johnson, and the Aperture he left to her.

But Three… Three is an unknown, I get… bits and pieces of fuzzy visions, things that I can’t understand, as of this personal entry I have only been able to clear up the interference on Four of these visions.

The First: I’m in a forest, there’s snow falling from the sky, a cabin puffing out smoke and an unbearable Rage as I hear the snarling of wolves, as my vision changes I see my paws and I realize I am the wolves, I was hunting the cabin-no… something in the cabin.

I find a silhouette of a human, I pounce, I kill… I feel… sorrow… regret… this wasn’t my prey… the vision ends.

The Second: I am with that similar shaped human silhouette, this time in a desert with a smaller version of the human with us, I feel joy… the little human says something and I almost cry, the vision ends again… whenever it does I find myself feeling unimaginable emotional pain… like happy memories of a loved one lost.

The Third: I wake up in a tiny glass cube, I look out and see a large hairy human, my mind identifies him as ‘father’ yet I don’t know why, he tells me to kill something on the other side of a tunnel connected to my home, I don’t know why but I listen to my father… The Vision Ends.

The Fourth: I see ‘Father’ again… I’m looking at the inside of the cabin from the cube that was now too big for me… he’s standing next to the two other humans… I hate him, HATE HIM! I feel betrayal, anger, fury, sorrow, pain, regret, confusion, despair, ANGER… the vision ends.

They seem too strange to be connected, but every single one connects through a color… pink.

Whenever I see pink my mind rushes back to the visions, I feel every emotion from them, I feel it all at once… now I can control it and stop it from overtaking me… but the first time…

It was omitted from the reports but… I was the one that destroyed Fact Core, I blamed it on him making a wrong turn into the compactor but... I just saw his pink optic and it felt like he was mocking me, teasing me of memories I can’t fully remember, I started seeing him wearing glasses… I started seeing him as that furry human and all the pain and betrayal surfaces.

I… I crushed him with my bare claws and threw him into the Garbage Disposal like he was less than dirt… he doesn’t remember now after his repairs, and I don’t intend to tell him, if this got out I would be seen as a monster, and I want to prove I am better.

I don’t know why I did it! I’m sorry Fact Core, I didn’t mean it, why did I do it? why do I have these memories? WHAT ARE THESE MEMORIES!? WHY DO I KEEP SEEING THE EYE!?

[...File Submitted…]
[Assessment: Hidden code fragments laced within file, potential for new research projects]
[Conclusion: sending code fragments to software department for analysis]
[Addendum: Subject: Ava will not be informed for sake of emotional stability.]

Author's Note

behold, a hinting at Ava's true nature, and what secrets are hidden within those deep layers.