Ocellus never asked to be a queen.

She never asked for responsibility, or duty, or to live under the shadow of her tyrant mother, Chrysalis, but that's what she was given anyway. Despite her misgivings, Ocellus always accepted her role, and she always agreed to whatever Thorax asked of her. She always did what she was told.

At least until Thorax decides Ocellus needs to find a mate to preserve the hive, and she wonders if being a queen is really worth it after all.