Rainbow Dash, Cheese, Fluttershy, Twilight, Applejack, and Sunset were all at Applejack's house waiting for the ok to go to Pinkies house.

"I hope we find something," Fluttershy said in her quiet voice. She was worried for her friend she didn't know what was wrong with pinkie but they need, no they HAD to find out.

"Me to, she won't tell us, she keeps saying she's ok but I know that's a lie" Twilight said.

"Ya after what happened at sugarcube corner just confirmed there is something wrong" Rainbow said.

After a bit of awkward silences Rainbows phone rang.

"Rarity said pinkies at her house now let's go" Rainbow said. they all got up and walked into the small woods that connected Pinkie and Applejack's house.

After a bit of walking they made it to their destination. Applejack unlocked the door with her key and they went in. It was dark and quiet. Sunset turned on some lights and they walked to Pinkie's room. Pinkie's room was very net, the walls were blue, bed sheets were pink and there was a cupcake shaped pillow on her bed that looked a little wet for some reason like she had been crying into it, there was Confetti everywhere, and her room smelled like cupcakes.

"Ok where do we begin?" Cheese asked nobody in particular.

"Anywhere" Rainbow said starting to look around "A.J lift her bed up lets see if something is under there "

Despite not wanting to, Applejack lifted the bed with her super strength."Omg" Cheese said, sounding very surprised.
He went under the bed and picked something up. Applejack put the bed down "What'd find" she asked. "I found a knife" Cheese said as he held the knife in his hand. it looked like there was dried blood on it.

"I really hope that's red velvet frosting and something else" Sunset said.

"Ok" Twilight said letting out a sigh "either pinkie hurt someone or she hurt her-" Twilight was cut off by Cheese.

"She would do that she would hurt herself on purpose and she would never hurt someone else" Cheese looked around. everybody had a look on there face a look that showed they were scared.

"Would she?" He asked

"I don't know" Fluttershy said "but take a picture of it for proof when we confront her."

Sunset grabbed her phone and took a picture. "ok let's keep looking"

After a bit of looking around Applejack found a notebook in one of pinkies drawers she opened the first page and gasped.

"Y'all I found something" Applejack said sounding terrified.

Twilight Rainbow Sunset and cheese came over to where she was and when they all saw the page their eyes widened

What was on the page:
Date: Wednesday April 7th

Cutting: already doing that
Hang: no they can't find me like that
OD: maybe I do have some antidepressants pills.
Jumping: it wouldn't hurt and it would be quicker

When should I do it
Next week: maybe
Today: I already tried but one of my friends called me :( I would have done it again but she wants to hangout in a hour

Everyone was shocked they didn't know what to say Pinkie had planned to kill herself but why. Cheese broke the silence
"Wh-who called her" Cheese asked he wanted to know who saved his girlfriend.

"I think Fluttershy did. She invited pinkie to the mall after I had to cancel" Twilight explained.

"Fluttershy '' Sunset said, turning around to see Fluttershy by Pinkie's closet holding a piece of paper. Fluttershy looked like she was crying her hand was over her mouth and she was shaking "Fluttershy what is that?'' Sunset asked as she grabbed the note from Fluttershy's hand and as soon as she did Fluttershy began to fall to the floor sobbing

"Sunset what does it say" Applejack asked as she hugged Fluttershy "read it out loud"

Sunset read it out loud.

I'm sorry
I can't do this anymore. The stress is too much and my family can't respect me for my choices, I feel like everyone would be happy if I was gone. My own friends think I'm just some stupid party animal who's happy goofy and crazy all the time. I just get in the way and mess up everything. I'm sorry I couldn't make everybody happy im sorry I couldn't be a better friend/girlfriend I hope this makes everyone happy that's all I ever wanted was to make everybody happy even if it meant I wasn't and I haven't been happy for a long time so i'm sorry I hope everyone's lives are better now. -

pinkamena diane pie

When Sunset was done reading it she was in tears. She couldn't believe what she just read. She couldn't believe Pinkie felt that way and she's pretty sure everyone was thinking the same thing.

Applejack started to cry and continued to hug Fluttershy, Cheese and Twilight just stood there. They didn't know what to do. They were still in shock.

Rainbow Dash grabbed her phone and decided to call Rarity to inform her on what they discovered.

Rarity and Pinkie sat on the couch watching a comedy movie Pinkie had picked out. But Rarity noticed Pinkie was quiet which was very odd for her Pink Friend. "Pinkie" Rarity began as she paused the movie "is there something wrong" she asked looking at Pinkie."Wha- no nothing wrong you do u ask" pinkie asked. "Well usually you would be talking or laughing about the movie but you haven't done any of that" Rarity explained

"Well i-i thought it was annoying to you. I didn't want to be annoying and ruin the movie for u." Pinkie said looking down. "Pinkie darling that's not annoying and your not ruining the movie. Why on earth would u think that" Rarity questioned. "I don't know I just thought it was annoying " Pinkie said. "Well you can talk all u want Pinkie" Rarity said putting her hand on Pinkie's arm. Rarity had accidently put her hand on one of the fresh scares that Pinkie had cut that morning. And it hurt like crazy but Pinkie did her best for her pain to go unnoticed.
"Rarity can I ask you something?" Pinkie asked she mostly was gonna ask this in hope Rarity would take her hand off her.
"Of course daring" Rarity responded

"Umm well when you said yesterday that u already asked the other first about having a sleepover what did you mean?"
Pinkie asked
"Well" Rarity began. She had to think for a second "I had originally hoped that we could have a big sleepover the 7 of us." Rarity began making up a lie on the spot. She didn't want to lie to Pinkie but she couldn't know about the plan so lying is what she had to do. "So I had asked everybody but they said they all had plans" Rarity finished hoping Pinkie wouldn't ask anymore questions. "Why was it the last one you asked though?" Pinkie asked "Well after the events at sugarcube corner I figured it would be best to ask today rather than yesterday".
"Oh ok".

All of a sudden Rarity got a call on her phone it was from Rainbowdash so she went to the kitchen and answered
"Excuse me darling i'll be right back" Rarity said as she went to the kitchen.
Once in the kitchen Rarity answered.

"Hello Rainbow what did u-" Rarity was cut off by Rainbow dash.

"Rarity, listen we found something but you need Pinkie to take off her jacket and you need to check her arm ok" Rainbow said very quickly but it sounded like she was crying.

"Wait what why what did you find"
Rarity was very confused

"Well" Rainbow started it sounded like she was trying very hard not to cry
"We *sniff* We found a *sniff* a knife and" Rainbow stopped for a second

"And what darling?"

"We found her suicide note" Rainbow said

Rarity gasped. She was in shock why would Pinkie write that "o..k i'll go check her arm"Rarity said with tears in her eyes.
Without giving RainbowDash a chance to respond she hung up and went back to the living room.
"Pinkie dear" Rarity began trying her best not to cry. "Can you do me a favor" Rarity asked as she sat down next to Pinkie.
"Sure rares what's up?" "Can you take off your coat?" Rarity asked. "Sorry but no can do Rares" Pinkie said acting all happy.
How can she act all happy like that Rarity thought.
"Pinkie please take off the jacket" Rarity asked again and there was more of a demand in her voice."I told you Rarity I can't" Pinkie said
(She can't know she can't know).
"Pinkie!" Rarity yelled. Before Pinkie could respond Rarity tackled her and was taking off her jacket "Rarity stop please" Pinkie yelled trying to keep her jacket on. After a few seconds of fighting Rarity finally got her jacket off and was horrified with what she discovered.

There were so many scars on both arms to many to count. Rarity couldn't believe what she was seeing. They were all up and down her arm.
"Pinkie!," Rarity said, grabbing her arm. Pinkie's hair went down and she started to cry. "I'm sorry Rarity" Pinkie cried out. Before Rarity could react Pinkie had grabbed the icecream and threw it in the air making it explode. Then Pinkie started to run and she ran all the way to the bathroom. Rarity was chasing after her and yelling her name. But Pinkie didn't care. She locked the bathroom door and started to freak out.

"Oh no oh no oh no what am I going to do" pinkie wondered

"There's only one thing to do" the voice said

"NO NO I CAN'T" She protested

"PINKAMENA STOP ARGUING" The voice was angry "everything else I told you was true so why can't you just do it if u listen to me your pain will be over everything will be ok just DO IT YOU ALREADY PLANNED ON DOING IT WHEN YOU GOT HOME SO JUST DO IT NOW OR ELSE THE PAIN WILL NEVER END" the voice yelled

Pinkie started to cry as grabbed the blade and counted to 3.
1....

2....

3...
Just like that she cut her wrist and without thinking she cut the other there was a burning pain but Pinkie didn't care. Her pain would be over and everything would be fine. She watched as the blood poured out of her arm she just sat on the floor and watched.

Her vision got blurry but then saw the door open and saw Rarity standing there. All pinkie could hear was a scream then she blacked out.

Rarity ran after Pinkie yelling her name, begging her to stop but she didn't. Pinkie had run into her bathroom and locked the door.
Rarity started banging on the door begging Pinkie to open it. But there was no luck Rarity ran to the kitchen where they kept the keys and she looked for the bathroom key after about 40 seconds of looking she found it and when she did she heard something fall
"Pinkie is that you" Rarity yelled hoping for a response. When there wasn't Rarity, ran to the bathroom, unlocked it, opened the door and screamed.
What she saw was horrifying. She saw pinkie with her arms all bloody; she was on the ground unconscious.

"Oh no oh no oh no" is all Rarity could say as she quickly got some towels and rapped them around Pinkies bleeding wrist.
"Pinkie wake up please wake up"
Rarity looked around for her phone. "I'll be right back Pinkie I'm going to get my phone" Rarity said she got up grabbed her phone and ran back to pinkie. Rarity called 911,

Dispatcher: "911 what is your emergency''
Rarity: "please help m-my just tried to kill herself i grabbed a towel to stop the bleeding please hurry"
Dispatcher: "ok ok what is your name"
Rarity: "Rarity"
Dispatcher: "ok Rarity what is your address"
Rarity: "carousel boutique"
Dispatcher: "ok Rarity paramedics are on there way"
Rarity: "ok thank you"
Dispatcher: "your welcome"
Rarity hung up and quickly called rainbow while crying

Rainbow: "hey Rarity what happened"

Rarity: "R-Rainbow Dash you and the girls need to get down here"

Rainbow: "What why what happen is Pinkie ok"

Rarity: "NO RAINBOW PINKIE JUST TRIED TO KILL HERSELF GET DOWN HERE I CALLED THE POLICE AND WRAPPED TOWELS AROUND HER ARM NOW PLEASE GET HERE NOW!"

There was silence on the other line for a second.

Rarity: "Rainbow are you there hello Rainbow please you need to get down here"

No response after a bit Rainbow finally spoke.

“were on our way” Rainbow said deadpan it sounded like she was in shock.

Rarity: "Ok please hurry"

The call ended

Rainbow hung up the phone and began to cry. “Ra-rainbow” Cheese said “What happened” “W-We ne-eed to go” Rainbow responded “Now”.

They all went to Fluttershy's car that was parked at Applejacks and started to drive to Rarity’s. It was a very quiet car ride, they were all trying to process what they had found at Pinkie's house. Fluttershy was crying while being comforted by Applejack who had her hat down, Twilight was staring out the window,Sunset had her head down while still holding the note reading it over and over agian, Rainbow was in the front Seat silently crying to herself, and Cheese was Driving.

Nobody knew what Rainbow had heard Rarity say over the call. All they know is as soon as Rarity started to talk Rainbows eyes went wide and she started to cry. Nobody had asked her but they all had their own idea. As they sat in silence Twilight was about to ask what Rarity said when all of a sudden there were 2 police cars and an Ambulance drove past them Towards Rarities.

“R-rainbow” Twilight said as she saw the Vehicles go towards Rarities. “W-why are there Police cars and an ambulance going to Rarities”. That got everybody's attention as they all looked up to see the Vehicles making a turn that Led straight to Rarities. “Dash please tell me Pinkie didn't try to” Twilight didn't finish her sentence. Rainbow slowly turned her head towards her purple friend. Twilight could see Rainbow's red puffy eyes from crying. Twilight watched in horror as Dash slowly nodded her head while more tears went down her check. Every remained even more silent and cheese sped up the car.

When they pulled up to Rarities they saw Police talking to Rarity. And they saw Pinkie being rolled into a ambulance in a stretcher.
Cheese started to cry as he ran over to Pinkie. but a cop stopped him "Sorry sir" The cop said "You cant not go unless you are Family".
"Please officer" Cheese begged "She my Girlfriend I need to see her". The cop thought for a second "Ok fine you my go" the cop said.
with the cops permission Cheese went into the ambulance with Pinkie.

The girls ran up to Rarity just as she finished talking to the Police. "Rarity!" Applejack yelled she ran up to her and hugged her. "Applejack im so sorry" Rarity sobbed while returning the hug. "I tried I tried my best to stop her I tried to go after her but she locked herself in the bathroom and by the time I got in she was already on the floor! Applejack I'm so sorry".
"it an't your fault sugercube" Applejack said breaking the hug. "Its mine". everybody looked at her in shock "A.J what are you talking about" Twilight questioned. Applejack sighed she was really hoping she would never had to tell them but now she has to. "this-this isn't Pinkies first time. tryin to do this".
Everybody was shocked Pinkie had tried to kill herself before!. "Then what is it" Sunset asked hoping this was some kind of twisted joke.
"its her 4th" Applejack said looking at the ground.

Author's Note

ok ok I know the end of chapter 3 is kinda dark. But chapter 4 will be coming soon