Happy smiles?

Pinkie put the blade on her wrist and was ready to do it

“1….” Pinkie said crying as she put a little pressure on the blade

“2….” Pinkie put more pressure on the blade causing a dent in her wrist

“Thr-” Pinkie was about to do it when she heard a knock at the door and somebody calling her name

“PINKIE” The person behind the door yelled “its me cheese can i come in” Pinkie froze “Cheesie” pinkie stopped what she was doing hid the blade put a sweater on whipped her tears and ran to the front door. “pinkie hello are you ok” cheese said starting to get worried. Pinkie opened the front door and hugged cheese “oh cheesie i'm so happy your here”

“Im happy to see you to pinkie are you ok your friends told me you had a fit and you kicked rainbow out of your house” cheese said returning the hug. “Yes im ok now” pinkie said happily “Ok good” cheese sighed in relief .“do you want to come in and watch a movie or something?” pinkie asked breaking the hug “and i can order pizza”. “That sounds nice” cheese said with a smile
Pinkie ordered pizza while cheese picked the movie.

When the pizza came they sat on the couch and Pinkie cuddled up next to cheese. Cheese had pick some Rom-com for them to watch but Pinkie wasn't watching she was thinking of other things “did I really almost to that'' pinkie thought “cheese would have found me like that i-i can't believe I almost did that”.

“So what he wouldn't have cared anyway” Pinkie heard the voice say “Yes he would” pinkie thought “he came here to check on me to make sure i was ok” pinkie thought “Keep telling yourself that he probably only came to act like he was a good boyfriend. “SHUT UP” Pinkie thought angrily

“Pinkie what's wrong” Cheese said as he wiped a tear off pinkies check that pinkie didn't even know was there “C-cheese c-can i ask you something” pinkie said trying not to cry “Sure whats wrong” Cheese said worryingly. “I-if if I were t-to die” Pinkie began to cry while taking “would- would you c-care” Pinkie looking at Cheese while crying. Pinkies hair begin to go flat Cheese looked at Pinkie with shock “what pinkie of course I would” Cheeses said hugging pinkie with a sad smile ‘why would you think otherwise’’ “i -i-i-i don't know” Pinkie began sobbing “I don't know Cheesie I just started to think and i-i- didn't know if if you would i-i I don't know of anybody would care if if I was gone”

Cheese broke the hug and lifted pinkies chin up and wiped a tear of her check. “Pinkie of course I, would care your family would care, your friends would care, because you make us all happy and if you were gone I was be devastated and so would your family and friends” Cheese said with a sad warm smile. “Why would you think otherwise?” “I-i don't know i just started to think about it and i...i just didn't know ” pinkie whimpered

“Its ok” cheese said comforting his girlfriend “I Promise you me, your friends, and your family would all miss you”
“Pinkie promise?” Pinkie asked, looking cheese right in the eye.
“Cross my heart, hope to fly, stick a cupcake in my eye” Cheese said, doing the hand motion of the Pinkie promise.

Pinkie smiled it made her feel a lot better “thank you cheese” Pinkie said hugging chees
Cheese gave a little kiss to Pinkie. “Your welcome pinkie” Pinkie cuddled up to cheese and drifted off to sleep.

*Buzz* *Buzz* Pinkie woke up to the sound of her phone going off and looked at her phone. Realizing it was her alarm for school. She turned off her alarmed and saw cheese wasn't there but there was a note she picked up the note and read it

I had to go home and didn't want to wake you i hope you are better now see you at school
XOXO Cheese

Pinkie smiled then looked at the time it was 5:00am Applejack who lived next to her would be picking her up at 5:30 to go to school.
SO pinkie took a Quick shower, got dress, ate breakfast, and brushed her teeth.

Then she heard her phone start to ring. She picked it up and saw it was applejack she was about to answer. Then she remembered something from yesterday she remembered what happened at sugar cube corner and knew Applejack was going to try to talk to her about it. So she declined the call and texted Applejack

Pinkie:Hey Applejack I'm going to walk to school instead of driving with you today.

Applejack: Are you sure your ok Pinkie i have been worried after what happened at Sugar cube corner yesterday.

Pinkie: YA i'm alright i'll see you at school

AppleJack: Ok then….i'll see you at school

Pinke sighed “ok” she thought “i think my parents and sisters went back to the rock quarry” “Well obviously they would do anything to get away from you” she heard the voice say. “Can you just shut up” Pinkie said out loud as she walked out the door. “You know” the voice began “since nobody is at your house it would be so easy nobody could stop you”. “No I can't do that cheese said himself that he, my friends, and my family would miss me he pinkie promised and he can't break a pinkie promise” Pinkie augured “It won't matter if you're dead though you can't do anything if he breaks it because you will be dead” The voice yelled back “So why don't you just go jump off the school roof or slit your wrists nobody will care. And also has Cheese every told you he loves you”
"Well no bu-" "But nothing be probably acting like he cares he probably doesn't love you who could ever love somebody like you"

Pinkie did her best to ignore the voice in her head yes it was true that Cheese never said that he loved her but she never said it either and its so earlier to say that right.. Maybe she could go ask her friends for help. ya that's good it would be better than-.

“Hey Pinkie” somebody interrupted her train of thought she turned around to see who it was and she saw her cousin Applejack
“I decided to walk to school to so can i join you” Applejack asked walking up to her
‘Um’
“No don't” the voice protested “shes gonna ask you what's wrong then your gonna have to tell her and she will just pity you”
Ignoring the voice pinkie happily started to walk with A.J. “Umm Applejack” Pinkie began this is it she gonna finally get help she thought
“Ya pinkie?” Before Pinkie could speak the voice interrupted her “Don't she already probably has so much other stuff to worry about she doesn't need to worry about you to”. “Umm’’ Pinkie began not knowing what to say “I just wanted to let you know I'm sorry for the way I acted at sugar cube corner but I promise you the i'm ok”

“Pinkie Promise?” Applejack said looking pinkie dead in the eye. “Umm” Pinkie didn't know what to do she could lie AND break a Pinkie promise
Pinkie looked ahead and saw the school come into view. “I’ll promise later” Pinkie said quickly “Come on let's go meet are friends” Pinkie said running to the front of the school. Pinkie ran until she saw her friend Rarity come into view.

“Hey Rarity!” Pinkie said bouncing up and down “Pinkie darling i was wondering would you like to come over to my house after school for a sleepover” Rarity asked “Sure” Pinkie smiled “that would so fun do you wanna see if anybody else wants to come”. “I already asked them and they said there busy” “Oki doki loki” Pinkie said “Oh there's Rainbow and Applejack” Pinkie pointed in the direction they were in.

Applejack saw Pinkie running up to the school. She was about the chase after her when somebody stopped her
“Hey A.J” she heard somebody say she turned around to see who it was and saw rainbow running up to her “Oh hey R.D” Applejack responded

“Ok listen” Rainbow began “I know how to get pinkie to tell us what's wrong “And how do yall plan to do that” Applejack said folding her arms “You know how stubborn she can be when she doesn't want to tell us something”. “Yes i know but i promise this will work” Rainbow insured “ok then what is this brilliant plan of yours” Applejack said still not convinced

“Ok so” Rainbow began “First we are gonna to act like we are ok with what happened at sugar cube corner” Applejack raised her eyebrow.
“Second i asked Rarity to invite Pinkie to a sleepover at her house and tell her we were all are busy so it will just be her a Pinkie and rarity is going to try to get pinkie to take off the jacket” “And how is she gonna do that?” Applejack questioned, “I don't know she's Rarity she’ll think of something” rainbow said. Applejack rolled her eyes “I guess you're right continue”

“Ok next you have a key to Pinkies house and I know that Pinkie's Parents and sister went back to the quarry so-” “Wo wo wo” Applejack cut off “Are u sayin your gonna break into her house” “No” rainbow Exclaimed “we are just going into her house without anybody knowing and without her permission”. “That is the definition of breaking in” Applejack said “Well whatever Pinkie will thank us later” Rainbow rolled her eyes “Wait, us? i thought just you were going who else is going” Applejack questioned raising a brow. “Me, Sunset, Twilight, Cheese, Fluttershy, and you” Rainbow said lifting up 6 fingers “Wait, why me?” Applejack said, confused. “It makes sense i mean your her cousin so it won't be as weird if a family member when into her house” Rainbow Explained "Plus you have the key". “Ugh i guess so” Applejack said “i’ll do it but i still don't like it”
“Awesome this is going to be great” Rainbow excitedly said.

“What's going to be great” they heard a voice say They turned around and saw pinkie standing behind them “Oh hey pinkie” Rainbow said “ i was telling A.J about how i get to go watch the wonderbolts soccer game after school”
“Oooo that does sound like fun” Pinkie said has they all walked into the school.

After a bit the school bell raing and everybody went to class. School went well for Pinkie. There were a few times where one of her friends or boyfriend would grab her arm right where her cut was and it did hurt but she did her best to hide it.

After school was done she went home accompanied by Applejack. Applejack dropped her off at her house. Pinkie went inside. It was very quiet and she didn't like it. The silence scared her so she decided to turn on her music as she went to her room to pack for her sleepover.

After a bit she got a call. She looked at her phone. It was a random number. she thought it might be a prank call and she loved prank calls so she answered.

“Hello this is pinkie pie’ Pinkie said in a very happy tone

“Hi pinkie” the other voice said. As soon as Pinkie heard it she realized it was Gilda and how did she get her number.

“What do you want” Pinkie said in a very angry tone

“Just thought I would let you know I know your secret I know why you wear that jacket”
Pinkie's heart skipped a beat. How did she know? pinkies hair feel “I-i dont know what your talking about” Pinkie said trying hard not to cry

“I know you cut yourself” Gilda said in a very devious tone “i mean its obvious how you flinch a little bit when somebody touches your arm haha I'm surprised your little friends didn't see it its probably because they don't care about you so why don't you do me and all your friends and people at the school a favor a slit your wrist now so nobody has to deal with you and everybody will be happy.” Gilda sounded a bit angry when she said “Goodnight” she finished with a very devious tone.

Pinkie hang up the phone a began to cry no no no that's not true she thought “Yes it is” the voice said “think about it Pinkiameana. Rarity said she asked everybody else about having a sleepover you were probably a last resort”. “You don't know that but I will I can ask her when I get there’’ Pinkie said wiping the tears off her check and getting up she grabbed her bag

“Are you forgetting something” the voice asked “What?” Pinkie asked “The thing in your pocket” the vice said Pinkie Grabbed the blade from her pocket. She really wanted to cut herself. It was an addiction now it made her feel good so she rolled up her sleeve and cut 2 lines on her arm, rolled her sleeve back now and made her way to Raritys.

When she got to Rarity's she knocked on the door to her house after a few seconds Rarity opened the door “Hello Darling” Rarity said hugging Pinkie “How are u this evening” “Im good Rarity” Pinkie said trying to smil “My parents are out for the night they won't be back till the morning and sweetiebell is having a sleepover with one of her friends so it will just be us tonight” Rarity said as they made there way up to her room “IF you want to you can put your jacket on the chair” Rarity said pointing to the chair that was next to her desk “It is very hot in here after all and we don't want you to get sick”

Pinkie thought for a second it was very hot but she would have to live with it and keep her jacket on. “No thanks I'm going to keep it on” Pinkie said putting her bag on the ground “If you insist dear do you wanna watch a movie I can order pizza” rarity asked. “Sure oh oh do you have any ice cream!!” Pinkie said excitedly no matter how sad she was she was always happy to get some ice cream “Of course i do” Rarity said “Lets go we can watch the movie in the living room" They went down to the living room. While Pinkie was in the living room picking a movie for them to watch Rarity when into the kitchen pulled out her phone and texted Rainbow Dash

Rarity: she's at my house you now

RD:ok good keep me updated we are going to her house now

Rarity: Ok let me know what you find!

With that Rarity ordered the pizza and got out the ice cream.