Ponies of the New Dawn: Story 2

Chapter 2: Please forgive me

“Fuck what have I done," I said to no one in particular.

I pulled the plug out of the tub to let it drain and got up off the floor where I have been sitting for a few hours.

I messed up big time. I thought to myself.

But what I did get was the voice of my father telling me, “You did this because you thought it was right. You did this course what happened with your X. You two were too young and you didn’t want it to happen again. She wasn’t wanting you for the sex, she was wanting you for you. Shure she specifically asked for sex, but that was not all she was asking for she was asking you to love her as she loves you, she was asking for your attention. I was the one who gave you this chance now it's my job to make sure you keep it…”

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Flashback

“Father please don’t leave. Please don’t leave me," I cried into his shoulder many years ago. I’ll never leave you he said as he faded away. “Father! Father…” My stepmom puts her hand on my shoulder.” Quincy It’s ok honey, It’s his time.” said my stepmom, and the flashback faded

Flashback 2

“You fucking cunt! Is sex all you care about? You have a fucking daughter to worry about and all you can worry about is sex. I would have let you go out with some girls if you asked me. but fuck them like a porn star! Then text me the video how could you do this to me!” Said the words of my X-wife. “Mom what’s going on.” “Glory We Are Leaving!”

That was the day I changed my name and forgot who I was. I was a monster just waiting to be let free. A monster that destroys every relationship I am in and turns it into something only for Its advantage. What have I become

Putting away the towel that I was gonna use for S’mores to dry her off with, I left the bathroom, feeling completely like shit and just wanting to get something to drink. I didn’t want to attempt to try and talk to S’mores at the moment since she is still upset about what I had said to her so it was gonna be a little while before I could try and make amends to her.

In the kitchen, I grabbed a glass from the cabinet above the stove and took a bottle of hard apple cider out of the fridge. Pouring myself a glass, I sat down at the kitchen table with a glass of cider in hand and a bottle of the stuff in the other. I quickly drank the apple beverage with a single gulp. For the next fifteen minutes, I finished off the rest of the apple cider feeling like I have fucked up the only relationship that I had left (except a friendship with Alex and Tyson) and just wanting to go to bed and let the hangover in the morning punish me for what I did tonight.

Getting into bed, I didn’t bother stripping down to my underwear for the night but instead chose to just sleep in my T-shirt and jeans. With the warm air of my bedroom covering my body as I lay down in bed, I quickly went to sleep with a few tears falling onto my pillow below.

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Waking up with a killer headache, I noticed that it was still dark out. Looking over at my alarm clock that was laying on my bedside table, it read that it was after four in the morning. I was still a little tired but that feeling became overwhelming with the hangover that I was now going to be dealing with for the day. I also really had to take a piss so I got out of bed and went straight for the bathroom.

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With a pot of coffee being made, I decided to make myself a breakfast sandwich in the microwave for now until I felt like making myself something bigger for breakfast. I watched as S’mores gets out of her makeshift bed on the couch, not paying attention to me at all. I noticed that she was soaked in sweat and had bags under her puffy bloodshot eyes that were full of emotion. I didn’t bother to say good morning because I imagined that it wasn’t all that good for her. I felt bad for lying to her even though it wasn’t completely a lie and the fact that she didn’t know I was lying to her too began with. I grabbed the sandwich out of the microwave and sat at the table. But what I wasn’t expecting was S’mores to sit with me.

“Um is there something wrong,?” I ask.

“Yeah It's your face,” she shot back

“S’mores, I love you, but I am not wanting to take our relationship that far yet.”

I thought I’d never been saying this to a girl but I guess I was wrong…

“And why not?”

“Well, It’s a long story that I don’t think you're ready for…”

“Quinn I know your story Alex told me last night,”

“Well that is only part of it… the other part only me and Seth Know…”

“Then why don’t you tell me?” She asked innocently.

I grabbed a cup of coffee and answered, “because It’s something I regret and only tell people I think I won’t lose…”

“If you’d just have me you won’t lose me you, idiot.” She said with venom in her words but also something I couldn't place as she finally eased up…

“But I don’t want to hurt you,”

“How could you hurt me I already had my first time with one of my old friends and it's not like I was asking you to fuck me anyway." She said adding a lot of harshness to the word fuck.

“What do you mean you already had your first time,” I ask kinda confused.

“Quinn before I moved here I was a street rat, Sure Lyra and Bonbon took care of me but They were barely ever home.

Sure my rich friends had provided me with a home and a nanny but that wasn’t enough to keep me off the streets. I may look like a helpless filly, but I’m not. I have seen more pain than you can know Quinn. You know that campout I was telling you about. It was my first time there and It wasn’t anything special like I was hoping, and you're nothing special either! So stop treating me like I am your little filly!"

“I’m sorry sweetie…”

“Don’t be it's my life, and I don’t think I want you part of it…” She said as she ran to the bathroom and slammed the door… I guess that is the only place in this three-room house to get privacy.

It wasn’t much of an apology I still haven’t told her I lied about some of my past too.

I got up from my chair and walked to the living room to sit in the recliner to watch some mlp. I haven't watched the tv show since S’mores showed up so I really wanted to catch up.