The butterfly effect

What was Rarity going to do?: Well, before knowing what she is to do NOW we must first need to understand what she did PRIOR and the WHY. A good example of the "why" is perfectly explained by the Relationship of ying and yang or if you will Greed and altruism.

You see, she may be a being of "generosity" but like any living being she has always needed an anchor of greed, a balance if you will. This because, there is NO living being in this universe completely greedy or completely altruistic, otherwise risk self destruction.

Rarity for the most part has always had problems with excesess if her dramatic persona didnt told you that already. So, when this little child now an adult came to her, then dedicated himself to her, existed for her, cared for her, loved her, forgave her, helped her, HER, HER AND HER...you get it?, exactly. Spike allowed Rarity's greed to expand and have and for a while it was fine, it allowed a frail balance that sadly was not gonna last long, after all she could not predict the Nightmare incident.

An incident in wich the balance she had developed, broke. This inicendt gave birth not only to nightmare Rarity but to something deeper, to another personality of rarity or rather the part of her sjhe always suppresed. Saying it otherwise, a new existence was born all together. An existence wich as soon as the rays of the sun touched its eyes knew love or rather... desire, she knew... Spike.

And how could "it"not?, a creature wich love, devotion and obsession feeded her ego, her self steem, her GREED and thus allowed her more supressed being to be free was love at first sight.

Ever since the nightmare incident we learned something of importance. "Nightmare Rarity" did tried to Keep Spike by her side, or... did you actually thought the fact that Spike made Nightmare rarity contemplate to "release rarity" or even got to point of her offering Spike to be his King was merely a coincidence?, No of course not.

Truth be told, Rarity and "Nightmare Rarity" both liked Spike but in a different way. Nightmare for her Part Desired him, like you would a posession one that just casually coincided to be your partner or "lover" a very visceral desire. Just like a being compromised of water drinks it to survive, a being made of greed needs to survice that wich gives it agency. Rarity for her part needed him both as Her anchor and also as a safety net.

Yes, a safety net. She in her mind always saw him as an option as a in a "break glass in case of
emergency" scenario, afterall he loved her right? he was the most loyal and devoted male she had ever known right? so, she could experiment, she could try luck and if things did not go how she wanted...he was there, he always would... until it didnt.

Saying it otherwise, Rarity did indeed liked him back but there where 2 problems ,one being he was her anchor but also was her safety net. So when the net was gone she fell to the void of herself and saw the truth.

"no...." she had lost him, no longer hers anymore.

"yes... you lost him" a very familiar voice whispered in her ear

"But I need him!" She saw herself in the mirror screaming in desperation only to let out a shocked gasp

"I want him!" screamed her reflection in a window.

"I MUST HAVE HIM!" screamed another reflection from another window.

"HE WAS OURS, YOU IDIOT!" Screamed a nightmare version of rarity now in front

Rarity took a step back, in both confusion, sadness, frustration and fear.

"B-bu, b-but, But y-you... she stammared

"But what?! i must not exist?! of course i do, i may not be "nightmare rarity" anymore but im still you! im the part of you, you like to ignore! im your greed!!,.

.you just like to see me in this form, so you dont accept its you!!.

at this point "Rarity" could only spew unintengible words

"Oh. what a pathetic mare you are! . You ran away from him because you were comfortably numb having him as an option like a cheap whorse but you were also scared your "anchor" made you "lose yourself" and go all "nightmare rarity" again! oh poor me!, im the element of generosity so of course a relationship in wich my greed for my partner grows or my partner allows my greed to exist and grow would be wrong right?!, give me a break!" Said "nightmare rarity" as she made fun of "herself".

This made rarity furious "What do you know!!?, you are just a fragment of nightmare forces we apparently could erase!!"

"what?!, im you!! what are you talking about?! what? you mean to tell me you liked Spikey wikey being all lovey dovey for some whorse?!!" And also you think by keeping him at your hooves length you were being generous and preventing you became a greedy monster?? Well.. gues what?! You kept him at bay because of the opposite you were not with him but you didnt want to let him go!!

Rarity flinched at that "A lady never curses!! and i... would never do that to spikey... i wouldnt.." rarity tried to fool herself

"Why do you keep doing this to ourselves?" asked now a sad but serious "Nightmare rarity" as she turned herself into her non "nighatmare form" (for the next parragraphs we will call her Rarity 2 or R2 )

...Rarity did not answer, her feelings where in chaos.

"imagine it." R2 stated while she looked at Rarity with a nasty looking scowl

"what thing?" asked Rarity

"them. You caused this! You made him go away and now he is taken!, but you are ok with it right?! So go ahead imagining them together in lots of situations, it should not hurt you right?" asked R2 narrowing her eyebrows

"hmphh test me then" Rarity Huffed indignantly.

"be my guest" and so R2 forced Rarity to imagine it.

First it was them hugging each other, this caused mild discomfor to her but was not that big of a deal so far.

Now, it was them flirting a little like when she saw them outside the castle, this made rarity's heart hurt like a mild blow was blown directly to her chest, however it was not so bad as when se first saw them.

then... was the kissing, the passionate kind.His tounge and hers dancing with each other, as they grabbed their bodies and a trail of saliva ran down each others mouths. This made her heart felt like it was being suffocated and gave her a scolding rage that made her growl and unconsciously pushed her hoofs to the ground so hard she made an indentation on her own floor but then it was the breaking point for her...

They had sex...right on front of her. The mare was in Rarity's bed like she did not even exist as she postrated herself in a submissive position so spike could easily insert his now rock solid Fallus wich he was now rubbing with her buttocks as she moaned "ahmmmm" until finally some rubs latter he just impaled her hard, making both of them moan and scream in delight as Creamy's eyes rolled to the back of her head "NGHHHH AAAAHH" screamed creamy as Spike just gave a muffled scream as he grunted. This was it, Rarity could not take it anymore and literally vomited in the floor as her body combulsed from rage, disgust and sadness over and over at the scene playing in her head over and over.

However she was impotent to stop it, for even if she wished to scream to own mind to stop, she was to preoccupied with vomiting and combulsing .

that is until from one of her combulsions she broke a wine glass that was in her table and a shard got impaled in her in her skin

"AAHHHHH" she screamed in pain. " ughhh it hurts!, why did it i leave it there?! I knew i should have bought plastic ones!! but then in the middle of her tirade she realized something. She could think now!! she stopped vomiting and the scene stoped playing in her head. that is until as soon as the pain was resceding the image resurfaced and so her combulsions. so, she did the only thing she could think of to stop the trauma, she continued hurting herself with more broken glass, breaking new objects to have different length of shards and control the pain better so it was not agonizing but managable.

So it began, she throwed everything, everywhere, a glass of wine here, a window broken with a ponequin there, and so on.

Eventually her mind calmed and so did her body movements. Finally relaxing.

"So, what is then? you are ok with it? can i go on?" asked R2 inside her mind

"Heavens no!!!, i... I Admit it!!" Rarity started panting after her long exhertion in defeat.

"what do you admit?" asked R2 reflected in a shard of broken glass as tears runned from her face, as well as the real rarity.

"I love him!, I love him and i hate seeing him with anypony else! it makes me sick to my stomach, literally!

"So what then?, what now?" R2 asked in a sad whisper.

"I .. i dont know dear i guess... i realized to late i have been lying to myself and magic is not going to make spike forget this ever happened either" Rarity sighed after that. She then walked to the stairs since she was going to lie in the floor of her room all night to cry but then something happened with an electric shock both personalities started merging into one now that rarity accepted herself and with it more neutral version of herself was born, with it an almost evil scheme was also created,

"Lying and forgetting huh?" An evil smirk grew on Rarity as the first part of her plan was in her head and she was later about to put it practice as soon as spike came through her door.

"Honey...?" Said rarity, her voice craking

(Honey? Spike thought.) Yeah?, What is it?"

"I..i..i....he...he tried to....rape me... and i... i just..." she broke down and started crying.

And so, the first part of her plan was put in motion