My year at Ponyville High

I awoke with sweat beading on my forehead. I sighed, thank Celestia it was all such a dream. I started to laugh out loud as I began to roll onto my side. Then the shit hit the fan. I was lying next to the very Pegasus I thought I had just dreamed about. She swung her foreleg around me and attempted to pull me in closer.

How could I have done this? I hardly know this pony and yet I gave her my everything. I gave her the one thing in life that was actually mine to give… It all happened so fast, too fast. I had thought things with Cheerilee had moved too fast but with this mare it had moved lightning fast.

I looked down at Fluttershy, who was blissfully sleeping whilst clinging to me. Once again this was too much. I slowly inched off her hoof from around me while doing so I replaced myself with a pillow. I was triumphant. I slowly and steady started to creep my way to the door, opening it quietly. I stepped through the door and closed it behind me. My forehead was now a fosset. I turned from the door only to run into an impatient bunny tapping his foot on the floor expectantly.

“Heh…” I giggled nervously, I had forgotten about the many faithful animals Fluttershy took care of, “This isn’t what it looks like?” I tried to sound convincing.

The bunny raised his paws to his mouth as if he were about to yell.

“No! No! You will spoil the surprise if you wake her!” I had to think on my hoofs.

He raised an eyebrow, I took that as a sign that he may be believing me.

“I’m going out into town so I can…” I paused, so I can what? THINK! “I know! So I can go buy the ingredients to make her breakfast in bed, after… all she did for me last night… it’s the least I could do.”

The bunny pondered this for some time, before pointing to the clock and nodding.

“Whoa its 5 am?! Don’t worry I think I will be back before she wakes up fella…” I said as I walked quickly to the front door waving a hoof, “See you soon…” I said shutting the door behind me, “Not!”

I quickly ran in the direction I thought my house would be, even though I had no idea. I soon ended up in the out skirts of the town, I knew that was wrong. As I turned around I was yet again interrupted by a Pegasus.

She was hovering with her forelegs crossed and she had a beautiful rainbow mane, “Just what do you think you’re doing sneaking around Ponyville?!” she accused.

“I-I’m not sneaking… I’m lost!” I pleaded.

“Likely story! I saw you sneak out of Fluttershys house!”

My eyes darted from side to side, I didn’t know what to do.

“What were you even doing over my mare friends house?!” she exclaimed. I could see the rage within her building up.

Her Mare friend!? Oh Celestia what have I done?! How could I be so stupid? I don’t know what has gotten into me for me to be acting so… slutty? I started to inhale and exhale… yeah I was panicking.

“Are you okay?” the rainbow mare asked.

“I’m fine… I just… need to… go home…! I am so sorry!” I said between hyperventilating.

“Uh, sorry for what?”

“Nothing, bye!” I yelled as I began to run away in another direction I suspected my home might be.

After five minutes of running and not looking back, I managed to find a familiar path that lead to my house. I sighed and trotted up to my door letting myself in. Leaning against the back of my door whilst smacking my head against the hard wood.

“Stupid! Stupid! STUPID!” I yelled with each hit.

I picked myself up off the floor and headed for the bath so I could relax and think about what has happened to me.

After several moments the bath was ready and bubbles floated around the room curiously, I always go over board with bubbles. I lowered myself gently into the tub and soaked my coat in the pure hot water, I closed my eyes to think.

First things first, what the hay did I do last night?! I just acted so out of character, it didn’t even feel like it was real it was so rushed. Ever since my moving here everything has been a lot more sexual in my life, I mean I kissed my teacher! And I ran out on her only to have sex with another pony!

I once again threw my head back in frustration.

Its got to be my cutie mark. Its done something to me… or maybe the ponies around me… or maybe both, I don’t know. I have had these urges for a while now, and last night even though part of my mind was thinking it wasn’t real, there was another part that wanted it so bad it hurt. It is like a hunger that needs to be satisfied but already I can feel myself wanting more.

I started to slide my hoof slowly down my body, making sure I hit all my sensitive areas on the way down.

I don’t know if I should accept this feeling or keep rejecting it? I mean would it hurt if I just went with it? I highly doubt it, and so what I could be seen as a slut… yeah I couldn’t deal with that side of it all. Maybe if I found just one pony to love and fulfil my urges I would be fine. I think I will give that a try, but who? There’s Cheerilee, but she’s a teacher and I don’t really want her getting in trouble. There’s Fluttershy… crap! I forgot about her marefriend, I need to clear that up soon, the guilt will eat me up inside if I don’t. Last there is the multiple students around school I have seen staring at me… maybe I will give them a try.

My hoof had stopped massaging myself while in mid thought. I decided to get out before I got all pruny. I dried myself up and did up my mane.

I grabbed a few bits and headed into town to buy a few things, one of those things being a bunch of flowers, and an apology card, most ponies in town were nice, though some snobby and trying to act like they are better than the rest, I got along just fine with most. A few stallions even offered to buy me some flowers while I was in the flower shop, as cute as it was I kindly rejected their offer, although I did make a mental note for all of them.

From running around a lot this morning I actually knew where to go around the town now, I noticed a library, it was a gorgeous tree, and I made a mental note to stop in there on the way home so I could see if they had any books on the meaning of cutie marks. All this would have to wait though, I have a yellow Pegasus I owe an apology to and who owes me some explaining.

I stopped just outside of Fluttershys cottage, I sighed remembering myself crying my eyes out just yesterday in this very spot. I walked up to her door with the flowers levitated behind my back, I knocked three times and waited several moments before the door only barely creaked open, although I was greeted by no pony. A rabbit stood at the door arms crossed and foot thumping, this seemed all too familiar.

I cleared my throat, “Is Fluttershy home?” I asked.

The bunny then slammed the door in my face.

I then heard what sounded like arguing and scuffling come from within the cottage and then the door opened up again, to my surprise a very angry Pegasus, only it wasn’t Fluttershy, it was her mare friend.

She snorted at me, “Give me one reason to not buck you in the face right now!? Just one!”

“I-I uhh….” I clenched my eyes shut and braced myself for impact.

“RAINBOW DASH NO!” I heard Fluttershy yell.

I opened my eyes and saw Fluttershy on top of Rainbow Dash pinning her to the ground, I also noticed both of them seemed to be crying.

I sighed, and looked down at the ground, “No Fluttershy, I think I deserve a beating after the way I treated everypony in this situation.”

Fluttershy was staring deep into Rainbow dash’s eyes when she looked at me like I had just broken her heart, “What?! You did nothing Berry, I was the stupid one, I took advantage of you, and I didn’t even tell you I had a marefriend…”

“What! You didn’t even tell her?!” Rainbow dash yelled.

Fluttershy looked down at Rainbow dash, “I’m so, so sorry Rainbow, I don’t know what came over me, you know I love you with all my heart and I would never mean to hurt you, I just wish you could forgive me and love me again, I wish I had never been so stupid, I wish I had of just thought! Stupid Fluttershy!” She leaned down into Rainbows chest and started to ball. Rainbow stopped looking mad and started to cry while holding onto Fluttershy and stoking her mane.

“I will never stop loving you flutters…” she whispered.

I took this as my time to leave, I placed the card by the door and shut it leaving them two whimpering into each other, I decided the flowers may not help in this situation and may just make it worse so I held onto them.

I sighed, that didn’t go the way I wanted and I wish I could have said more, but those two needed time, I may visit tomorrow after school… that is if I even go, good thing I bought two apology cards, poor Cheerilee I feel just terrible.

I kicked at the dirt path as I turned, what do I do now? Maybe that public library is still open? I think I will go give that a look. I set on the path with the library in mind.

Five minutes later I was there and just in the nick of time! It had just begun to rain when I opened the door.

“Hello? Is anypony here? I would knock but it started raining outside so I thought I would just come in.” I called out.

To my surprise a young purple mare popped in front of me out of thin air, “Oh hello there, welcome to the Ponyville library, my name is Twilight Sparkle, you must be new, feel free to browse the books. If you need help I am just a call away.” She smiled eagerly towards me.

“Hey there Twilight, my name is PassionBerry and yeah I am new, heh… but I could use your help actually, do you have any books about the meanings of cutie marks?” I asked.

“The meanings of cutie marks? No sorry I don’t think I do, I mean, usually it’s just common knowledge with cutie marks… is a young sibling having trouble understanding themselves?”

I blushed, “Not exactly… you see I only just got my cutie mark and-“

“Wait! You only just got yours? How old are you Berry? If you don’t mind me calling you that?”

“I don’t mind and I am 17, “ I chuckled nervously,” and I have no idea what my cutie mark means…”

“Well I may be able to help,” she took a long look at my flank, “a heart hey? Hmm…” she pondered for quite some time, “How did you get it?”

I turned red, I knew this question would be asked but even still I was very nervous about answering it, “I got it when I had my first kiss…”

“I see… well it could symbolise love or something else like it… do you love this pony?” Twilight inquired.

“Umm to be honest I don’t really know… I only moved here last week and I don’t know any pony very well… it’s not that I don’t like her it is just that I don’t know her well enough… ever since moving here all the ponies have been a bit full on you see?” Twilight nodded, “I have started having feelings that I have never had before-“

“Friendship?” she said enthusiastically.

“No… I think the word for it is lust?”

“Oh…” Twilight started to pace back and forth, while I sat and watched her think, she gestured that I keep talking.

“And not only that but this is the first time in like…ever that any pony has shown any interest in me sexually…”

She stopped at this, “What? I don’t believe that,” to this I blushed, that seems to be all I do these days, “But on that thought I think I may know what is going on… you have a very rare talent… but I will need more evidence before I can prove my hypothesis. How would you feel about visiting me at least 3 times a week to report in… it should really only take 3-4 weeks. I just need information on how your week experiences go along.”

Twilight grabbed me around the shoulders and stared dead into my eyes, “Berry, I think you are very special and I would like your permission to study you further and report you to Princess Celestia… in a good way.”

I coughed awkwardly, “Yeah okay Heh!” The princess! Twilight must be a very important pony.

“Okay I’m going to start my study today, are you busy?”

“No I came here because I had nothing else to do, what do you need? Im happy to help!” I smiled brightly and twilight nodded enthusiastically.

“That’s great! Now if you don’t mind I would like to know about the kiss you had, and any other romantic incidents since, if there are any other since that is.”

“Well the kiss wasn’t exactly how I planned it but… wait is this going to be confidential, I know you will report some to the princess but not parts like these right?”

“Nothing that will get you in trouble if that is what you mean… or any other pony in that matter.”

“Okay, like I was saying it wasn’t how I had planned my first kiss, I’d always dreamt it would be under a tree watching the sunset… cheesy I know but what can I say,” I shrugged and watched as Twilight took down notes with her magic, “anyway so i shared my first kiss with my teacher-“ Twilight choked at this but I continued with my story, I told her everything from the feeling to me running out. And now I was up to the story of Fluttershy, “So after I ran out on Cheerilee I was pretty upset, I got lost and decided I didn’t care and just started crying in the middle of nowhere, turns out I was in some ponies front yard, turned out to be a real sweet and kind Pegasus called Fluttershy-“

“Fluttershy!? She is one of my best friends you know!” Twilight said happily.

I cringed, “Are you sure you wish for me to continue?”

It was Twilights turn to cringe, “I will be fine.”

I told her the whole story between me and Fluttershy, as short as it was it was still a big part of my life, “And then in the morning I ran out and bumped into her marefriend-“

“Poor Rainbow dash… I’m so disappoint in you Fluttershy…” Twilight muttered to herself.

“It’s okay I think those two are fine now… I hope… anyway long story short I went to apologise Rainbow almost beat the hay barrels out of me and her and Fluttershy started crying so I left… I figured I would be back tomorrow to check in on them.”

Twilight had fallen silent. The room had adopted an awkward aura, I started to shift nervously.

“So have you figured anything from what I have told you?” I asked.

“I don’t know just yet I need time to think, hearing about one of my close friends has been a bit much… it’s just… she acted so out of character, it took her 6 months to finally make a move on Rainbow and even then it was just a slight peck on the cheek.”

I glanced at the clock, it was almost 9pm, “Whoa I should get home I have school tomorrow and I’m never good at waking up on time.”

“Oh wow, it’s much too late for you to be walking alone home, I tell you what stay the night, I usually have my assistant here but he is off with a heard of dragons his own age, he won’t be back for a few weeks, you can stay in his bed if you want.”

“Oh I don’t want to intrude or anything…” and last time I stayed at some ponies house it didn’t end the best…

“Oh don’t worry I don’t mind, and don’t worry I won’t make a move on you… if you don’t want me too,” she winked and giggled and I laughed along with her.

“I trust you Twilight.”

“Follow me.”

She took me up the stairs and to the bed her assistant sleeps in… it looked like a dogs bed, I smiled awkwardly, “No offense Twilight but that thing is kind of well… not pony size? I really don’t mind walking home, I’m sure if any big bad pony tried to get me I would be fine.”

“I’m not taking the chance! You can have my bed and I will sleep in Spikes, would you like dinner before bed or are you tired now?”

I was about to ask for dinner and then remembering Fluttershy I decided against it, “I think I will just sleep, I am pretty tuckered out,” she walked to the door, “Goodnight Twilight.”

“Goodnight Berry.”

Twilight turned the light out and went back down stairs, I felt bad for sleeping in her bed and thought about offering an ultimatum, we share? I quickly wrote it on the note hoping my writing looked appropriate in the dark, it just said if the little bed becomes to uncomfortable she is welcome to jump in with me, I won’t bite, and I placed it on her ‘bed’ for the night. I then set sail for dreamland.

***

Midway through my dreams I was awoken by the light snoring of a purple unicorn, I looked around for her but could not see her, until I looked on the ground, she had rolled out of the tiny bed and was now attempting a good nights rest on the floor, without a blanket and pillow. I sighed, what a stubborn pony. I levitated her up into the bed with me, she was cold as ice so I wrapped my forelegs around her and held her close while tucking us in snug using magic.

Twilight smelled of lavender and mint, an odd yet surprisingly nice combination. I may have been invading her personal bubble by spooning her while she slept but I didn’t care, she was freezing and this was the easiest way, plus there isn’t much room in this bed for two ponies. I snuggled into the crevice of her neck and I heard a moan of relaxation escape the sleeping mare. I was relaxed too, and I was comfortable, but most of all I was happy. I was especially happy when I felt Twilight subconsciously snuggle in closer to me. Once again I was the way to dreamland.